A/N: Thank you for giving my story a change.


It was ugly. I was a bubbling mess when I reached Alice's house. I didn't have to say anything. She grabbed my bag and quickly made room for me. I took an emergency leave from school. It was horrible and almost lost my job, I think. I was too disconnected from everything.

It was hard to function without the person you had gone so accustomed to. As the days began and ended I couldn't help, but feel like something was missing. I was used to being alone, but I wasn't used to feeling alone. I always knew James would come back no matter how many trips he took or how long he stayed at work. I couldn't help feeling like I had been used and like I had wasted all these years. I could be married to someone and had some kids to call my own. Instead I had been living someone else's dream.

Now I had to live for myself and somehow that was terrifying. Who was I without James? Who am I?

I was back at work. Almost two months in and I hadn't seen Edward. I saw Rosalie all the time and Emmett once in a while. The first time I saw Emmett I told him that I needed a release form since Edward had never written one for him and the next day Renesme showed up with the paper in hand. I was kind of hoping to see Edward, but it was completely forgotten by how excited Renesme was about handing me a simple piece of paper.

The first half of the school year had come to an end just like that.

"You are not going to spend the holidays alone!"

"Alice you're here."

"Not on Christmas eve or Christmas day." She said joining me on the sofa bed. "I already felt shitty about leaving you on Thanksgiving Day."

"I've had holidays by myself."

"Yeah before you met… You know who."

"You can say his name." I laughed.

"Please come."

"Are you really asking me that?" I asked. "I am not going to the Cullens house for the holidays."

"I know." She sighed and got up. "Is there really nothing I can say?"

"No."

"Then I'll stay." She said and took off her heels.

"No you are not."

"We are going to watch Christmas movies and get drunk on alcohol eggnog."

"That's my thing! I was actually excited to be myself." I said and picked up her heels. "Go."

"Jake."

"You have done more than enough. We barely fit in your studio, but yet you let me stay here. You made room in your closet for me, I know you love me." I said and placed a kiss on her cheek.

"That was a sacrifice." She pouted and laughed.

"Plus, this is the first time you'll be spending the night with Jasper." I said suggestively.

"Not in the same room."

"You know what's going to happen. He's going to be like this used to be my bedroom and oh look here, it's my dick."

"He is not a pervert like you." She said.

I liked the Jasper was slow at all the sexual stuff. Alice tended to have a hard time with that kind of thing.

"You know you want it." I teased her.

"Shut up." She laughed putting her heels back on.

"Alright go already."

She kissed me and hurried out. I sighed and made myself comfortable. I'm used to holidays alone more than Alice knew. James worked a lot or so he said. Not one year did we spend all of the holidays together. I always spend one alone or two like the last couple of years, but now I knew why. I always knew about his bi-sexuality and so having a woman did not surprise me. I just never thought that he would ever cheat.

There was a knock at the door and I opened it expecting to see Alice, but I was mistaken.

"Don't freak." James said holding his hands up.

"How did you know where Alice lived?" I asked.

"I followed you one day from work."

I tried really hard not to panic, but knowing that he was following me definitely left a sour taste in my mouth.

"What do you want?"

"I've been trying to build up the courage for weeks to come knock on the door, but I just never knew what to say." He said nervously.

Weeks? He's known where I lived for weeks?

"Okay."

"Please, tell me what can I do?"

"James you have a baby with another woman."

"I never wanted that." He said running a hand through his hair. "I would have been with a woman a long time ago! But I was with you. I wanted to be with you…"

"Then why did you cheat on me?"

"Because… Because I missed being with a woman." He said quietly. "It started two years ago. I met Victoria at one of my work events, she's a neurosurgeon, and we just connected. I didn't sleep with her the first time I met her, okay. It happened over time and I told her I was with you."

"I don't want to hear it…"

"Please." He begged as he held the door open. "It just happened and I immediately felt guilty. I knew you were going to know… But you didn't. You didn't notice how much I had changed. Why I left so often or why I was always taking private calls…"

"I did notice!" I screamed and pushed him. "But I trusted you! I did think it was all for work. You took my trust and betrayed me."

"I'm so sorry." He said and fell on top of me taking me down with him. "You were there through it all. When I had no money and you took two jobs to support us. When I finally graduated and got my job I knew I had to make up for it. I bought that house for us so that we could live in it forever… I want forever with you…"

"I can't."

"Look at me." He said and forced our eyes to meet. "I fucked up the best thing in my life! Please let me make up for it. I'll do anything. I won't travel anymore and I'll take all my calls on speaker."

He was begging me and I was becoming weak against his eyes. I let him pull me in and I rested my head on his shoulder. How did it get so fucked up?

'Don't forget about the bruises!' Edward's voice rang in my head and I pulled away startled.

"I can't." I said and got to my feet. "You have to leave."

I acted quickly and closed the door. I leaned against it waiting for something to happen, but I heard his footsteps retreat. I sighed and then there was a knock again. Startled I ran from the door and hid behind my sofa bed. There was barking now and I knew it anywhere. I walked to the door and peeked through the window. Aro was by himself barking over the balcony.

I opened the door and he noticed me right away.

"What are you doing here?" I asked him which was ridiculous.

Dogs can't talk.

He was extremely happy at the sight of me and I hugged him to my heart's content. Then I felt it, a piece of paper tucked in his collar.

Baby,

When you picked him out I wasn't there. I've never been to one of his vet appointments. I think I've bought his food once or twice. You're the one that makes sure he is exercised.

Seeing him everyday reminds me of you. Shows me the man that I have lost, the man who took care of both of us. He's sad all the time, but unlike me he can be with you again.

Merry Christmas,

J

p.s. I'm not cheap. I just know that at least you won't throw this present away. Also, you'll need the money to take care of him don't let it go to waste.

I was crying at the letter, but also confused. What money? Then I noticed the box at the side of the door. I opened it and it had all his things. I also saw the fat envelope inside and I was scared to open it. The front had a sentence on it written, Pet friendly apartments are expensive.

I didn't open it. I closed the box back up and carried it inside. Aro followed me and quickly began his inspection of the place.

"Don't make yourself comfortable." I warned him.

And that's how my holidays went. By the time the New Year rolled around I was moved in to my new one bedroom apartment. Jasper and Alice helped me move in. Also, they were engaged now. He proposed in Chicago and he asked me to help him. Alice was very dead serious on not leaving me alone for New Years and that was troublesome. I convinced her that I just wanted to have a fresh start and that meant having a low key New Years. I think I babbled on about getting new energies and chakras, she loves those kinds of things.

Her call to me on New Years began with "You knew, didn't you?" and it's all history.

Now we were back in school mode. The first day back actually.

"Jake." Edward said walking in.

I don't know why I was so surprised to see him. Of course we would see each other it's not like we wouldn't; I was his daughter's teacher still.

"Hey." I said.

"Look what I got!" Renesme said and showed me her new backpack. "Nana got it for me. Shoes too!"

"So pretty." I said.

"How were your holidays?" Edward asked.

"I got my own place, but I'm sure you know already."

"Jasper told me." He said awkwardly. "So, maybe, I was thinking… We could…"

"I don't think that's the right thing right now." I said blushing. "Or appropriate."

I looked over at Renesme who was already making herself comfortable with the toys.

"You're my daughter's pre-school teacher, Jake. I doubt that our dating will scar her or embarrass her."

"It's just… Um, too soon."

"I understand." He said. "I'm not going to give up though."

He left on that note and I just stood there staring after him still blushing. I realized that I had feelings for Edward maybe since the first time I met him. Some could say it was love at first sight or whatever, but I just can't give in right now. I was still too vulnerable and despite how much he obviously wanted me I had to be on my own.

After that, everyday Edward asked me out on a date. I mean every goddamn morning it was one invitation after another. It was seriously getting annoying, but a small part of me also enjoyed it. It was nice to feel wanted.

"Why won't you just agree on at least one coffee date?" Alice asked.

We were currently hanging out at my apartment and talking about her upcoming wedding. Alice was planning a summer wedding and she was definitely putting too much on her plate as we still had two months left of the school year.

"I'm not ready to date."

"The way you talk about him it's more like you've been ready."

"What do you mean?"

"You talk about him at least once a day." She teased me.

"No, I do not."

"Did you know Edward asked me to the movies today? He asked me out for coffee. Edward came in his doctor coat on today. Oh, I had never seen Edward in a t-shirt and jeans before…" Alice mimicked me.

"Okay, Okay." I said blushing deeply.

"You and James have been separated for six months now. I think you can at least go on one date. Why not?"

"Its weird, okay." I said.

"How?"

"I mean I was immediately attracted by him and drawn to him. I stupidly felt guilty for feeling that way about anyone else, but James. I spend years running away from him. Then when he puts a move on me it's because he knows James is cheating on me. Trust me that's not the way to get in my pants."

"I get it, it was bad timing, but what about now? What's stopping you now?"

"I don't know."

"I think you're scared about loving someone again."

"It's too early to be talking about love Alice."

"You loved him the minute you laid eyes on him." She said flatly as if it was fact.

"Stop."

"You know I'm telling the truth. That's why you ran away from him because you knew then what you know now which is that you stopped loving James a long time ago…"

"Alright…"

"You ran away from him because he made you realize the truth. Made you see that you were in a loveless relationship and that made you uncomfortable."

"I think you might be exaggerating a bit…"

"I don't think so. I think you're scared…" She said and spun around. "Of true love." She sang.

"Ahuh, alright." I said rolling my eyes.

"If you think I'm wrong go on a date with him." She said her eyes shooting daggers at me.

"What for?"

"To prove to me that you're not madly in love with him. If I'm wrong you won't even bat an eye for him." She said nonchalantly.

"Fine, I'll say yes next time. Happy?" I said.

"Yes." She said clapping excitedly. "I already see it. You're going to have sex on your first date, too."

"No, we're not."

"You guys have too much built up tension. Years of unrequited love." She sighed. "I can see it now."

"Unsee it right now!" I joked placing my hands over her eyes. "And you call me a pervert."

We laughed our asses off as she tried to take my hands off, but failed miserably. And we literally ended on our asses from all the stumbling around.


"Hey, welcome." Edward said as he opened the door to his house.

"You live here with only your daughter?" I asked amazed at the size of it.

"It's my childhood home. My mother and father bought this house while we lived here during our teens."

"You didn't always live in Chicago?"

"My dad moved us here for about six years for work. He got offered the head director positions at this hospital."

"Wow." I said.

"But as you can see our siblings loved it here to stay."

"That must have been sad for your parents."

"We visit each other often. We're really close despite the distance."

"I see. That's good."

"What about your family?"

"My dad disowned me when he found out I was gay."

"That must have been horrible."

"I waited until I was leaving for college. I wanted to be safe, you know?"

"Yes, it's definitely better to come out in a safe environment. Never put yourself in danger if avoidable."

"Well, he told me that it was my choice. That if I chose this lifestyle then that I had no home to come back to. So, I never went back."

"Are you from the area?"

"I was raised in La Push. As you can see I also love it here hence why I didn't go far."

"And you've never wanted to see him?"

"Once, but I didn't build up the courage. I ended up on the beach, but didn't make it to his house."

"I'm sure he'll regret it."

"I know he will." I said confidently. "That's just the type of man he is. He stopped talking to one of my sisters for years because she got pregnant and eloped."

"You have sisters?"

"Two twin sisters. They're not in my life either. I just know that they both live in Hawaii, I think. They're way older than me and were long gone by the time I came in the picture. I was unexpected for my parents they were already in their forties."

"I'm sorry to hear that."

"Life happens." I said and looked around.

"How about I get started on dinner?" He suggested.

I agreed. I didn't mean to tell him all my family secrets. But I oddly didn't feel so bad about being able to confide in him. It felt good actually.

Fuck, was Alice right?

I pushed her to the back of my mind. The last thing I needed to do was think about Edward and me doing the deed. I followed him into the kitchen where he instructed for me to sit. I wanted to offer a hand, but I would be no help. He passed me a glass of red wine and poured himself a glass too.

"Do you cook a lot?" I asked.

"Almost every night. I think it's very important to my daughter and me. I don't get to spend a lot of time with her, but dinner is the time during the day where I get to talk to her and hang out with her. I want her to be able to talk to me, always. It's very important to me as a single parent."

"Has it been hard to be a single father?"

"I've been very fortunate with the help of my family. I had just finished my last year in med school when I found out Bella was pregnant. We weren't going to keep her. Bella didn't want kids, ever. I was gay and hooked up with her in a drunken haze to just basically try it out. We just couldn't bring ourselves to bring her into the world like this."

"What changed your mind?"

"Bella." He said honestly as he stopped briefly from chopping green onions. "We had both agreed that an abortion was the best option. She was only a couple of days along. We arrived at her appointment and I waited for her in the waiting room. It hadn't been a minute and she walked out and told me she couldn't do it. She said she could feel the life growing inside of her and she was in love with our baby."

"Wow." I said amazed.

"We decided in adoption, but four months in I knew that I wanted her. Bella understood, but she still didn't want the responsibility. Which was fair, just because I wanted to be a father it didn't mean she had to be a mother. We agreed on me taking custody. She stayed with us for about six months to nurse Renesme as she insisted that the baby needed her nutrients. I didn't hear from her after that."

"What would you do if she showed up at your front door?"

"I would welcome her in. Bella gave me the most precious and priceless thing I never knew I wanted. She's welcomed into Renesme's life whenever she's ready."

"That's good." I said happy. "Talking about Renesme, where is she?"

"Rosalie took her for the weekend. She's basically been her mother."

"She would be a great mom. Maybe you'll be an uncle soon."

"If it were up to Rosalie I would have been one a long time ago, but actually her and Emmett have had some fertility issues. They've been trying for as long as Renesme has been alive."

"That must be hard for her."

"Yeah. She wanted to do everything without any medical intervention, but they're looking into it now. So I hope it works out for them."

"Well she's had a lot of practice with Renesme." I said positively.

"Honestly she's the reason why I was able to finish my residency. I hardly saw her and I honestly feel like I missed out a lot on her first years. Rosalie took care of her almost everyday of the week. I wasn't there when she took her first steps, Rosalie send me a video while I was working. That's why I try to spend as much time as I can with her now that my schedule is a lot more flexible."

"That's good." I said. "You're a really good father."

"I try." He said embarrassed by the compliment.

Now it was my time to make him blush. It was adorable and I instantly wanted to wrap my arms around him and give him a peck on his tainted cheek. Instead I swallowed dryly and finished the last of my wine.

"What are you making?" I asked.

"Right now I'm prepping the country potatoes. I have the steaks out by the grill and I'll make the veggies once the potatoes are done. The steaks should be done after that, I'm cooking them on low heat."

I looked on as he placed the baking sheet with the potatoes in the over and then washed his hands. He refilled our wine glasses and had me follow him outside where he checked on the steaks quickly before we sat on his patio.

"It's a really nice day out." Edward said.

"Yeah." I agreed and took in the scenery.

"So, what made you finally accept my offer?" He asked.

"Alice." I said honestly.

"I should have known." He laughed.

"She just made me realize that one date wouldn't hurt."

"One?"

"Two, three, who knows." I teased.

"Alright. There's a lot hanging on this one date. I have to make it count, huh?"

"Hard work pays off, right?" I said and sipped on my wine.

"I might not show it, but I'm actually nervous." He said shyly.

"Don't be."

"I just don't want to do the wrong thing." He said honestly as he sipped his wine. "I kind of jumped the gun that one night. I was too drunk to be honest, I don't know what I was thinking."

"I was drunk too. Don't worry about it."

"But I haven't been able to forget it either."

I immediately thought back to our kiss. Out of instinct I licked my lips remembering the feel of his lips on mine. The way they moved against my own soft and hard with passion. I could feel the electricity of it as if it was happening right now. I was staring at him now with a hunger that I hadn't felt in a while. I could feel my blood rush to my groin and I had to change the subject.

"What do you do for fun?" I asked.

"I don't have a lot that doesn't involve my daughter, but I do enjoy reading when I can. I listen to music, watch movies and I like taking baths to de-stress."

Now all I could think about was Edward in a bathtub his hand under the water making the water ripple around him. I could see his face of ecstasy as he de-stressed for the day.

"What do you do for fun with Renesme?" I asked.

"She loves the park. I like taking her to the library especially when they have events because she gets to interact with other kids. We go to the beach when the weather is nice. My siblings and I do a lot of weekend gatherings and they usually tend to be at my house. Renesme is attached to all of them."

"That's so sweet."

"What do you do for fun?" He asked.

"I really like watching movies and reading as well. I like going out for walks in the morning with Aro and going to the park to let him play. That's about it. I'm not really much of a person that goes out, but I'm always down for a night out on town when the occasion a rises."

"I should take you to this club in Port Angeles that just opened up. My siblings have been raving about it."

"Alice has too. Its called New Moon."

"That's the name. We should go next time." He suggested.

"Sure."

"It's a date." He said and I smiled at him.

"Sure."

He smiled really wide obviously proud of himself. We sipped the last of our wine and conversation flowed easily between us.

Dinner was amazing and by the time the night came to an end it was time for me to go. I'm not going to lie I definitely prolonged it by offering to watch a movie after dinner. He had quite the movie collection and we settled on a vampire movie. He walked me out to my car and I knew the good-bye kiss was coming.

I shifted on my feet before he leaned in and kissed me quickly on my lips. I smiled shyly and walked around my car and got in. I waved at him and I was just out of his driveway when my phone rang. I answered through the Bluetooth in my car.

"God. You are psychic." I said.

"So am I talking to a recently laid Jake?" She teased.

"We actually only had a good-bye kiss. I guess you aren't so psychic." I teased back.

"Only because I told you and you subconsciously were like I will not give in."

"Shut up."

"How was it?"

"It… It was really nice." I said and I heard her squeal extremely loudly.

"You're going to see him again, aren't you?"

"Yeah."

"Oh, my god. When?"

"Next weekend. He asked me to go to that club you and Jasper have been raving about."

"That place is popping right now. They have good music and they don't charge up the ass for tiny as drinks."

"Good to know." I said laughing.


Very quickly I was reminded that it was hard dating a doctor. The weekend rolled around and we weren't able to meet up as Edward got swamped at work. He apologized, but I reassured him that it was okay.

The rest of the month went by the same and I was a little disappointed that we hadn't been able to go on a date, but it made those mornings and afternoon when we did see each other so much more special.

"Hey." I said as I greeted Edward and Reneseme.

She paid me no attention as she quickly went to Jessica.

"I cleared my schedule this weekend. If you're still up for that second date." He said laughing shyly.

"I don't know." I said teasingly. "I guess I can cancel my other dates."

"You better." He teased back wrapping his arm around me and holding me against him.

"Not here." I said and pulled away as quickly as he had pulled me in.

I bit my bottom lip loving the feel of his arm around me. Edward had definitely gotten a lot touchier, but definitely not appropriate for work.

"This Saturday night?" He asked.

"It's a date."

He placed a quick kiss on my lips and blushed deeply as he took his leave then. I smiled shyly and looked over at Renesme who was busy playing.

The rest of the day passed by quickly and so did the rest of the week. One of the days that Edward picked up Renesme he asked me for my address and told me to be ready at 8pm.


"You have no club ware." Alice whined as she rummaged through my closet and drawers.

"I didn't even know there was a specific attire. Don't I just need to dress… casual?"

"You have to wear something that will make Edward want to devour you in minutes."

"I don't though." I laughed. "I want to make it to the club at least."

"Okay, something that he can't wait to take off you."

"I'm pretty sure I don't have anything like that." I said sitting on my bed, tired of standing behind her.

"I'll figure it out." She said and threw a shirt at me.

It was a slim fit, deep v neck- long sleeve shirt in the color light grey. I hadn't seen it in years. I had bought it on a whim, but James had hated and I just forgot about it.

"I don't know if I could pull this off." I said honestly remembering that the v-neck went past my pecks an inch or two.

"Jake, you have an amazing body." She said looking back and pulled a pair of jeans throwing them at me. "You can pull off anything."

They were faded, slim black jeans.

"I think I should make you my personal stylist." I said admiring the look she was putting together.

"These boots are perfect." She said digging around my closet.

They were retro, high top and black combat boots. Those I had thought about wearing.

"Let's see how they'll look on me." I said and went to the bathroom.

I changed quickly enough and stepped out.

"Just like I imagined it." She said clapping at her work as she inspected my body. "Do you have jewelry? I've never seen you wear any."

"I have a couple of necklaces, bracelets and watches." I said as I walked over to my dresser opening a small jewelry box.

She looked through them and shook her head at all my watches and bracelets. She then pulled out a long necklace with a small wolf pendant on it. Alice gave it to me saying that the wolf was my spiritual animal.

"Perfect." She said and placed it over me.

It rested just where the V-neck ended.

"Alice approved?" I asked as I spun around.

"Yes." She said.

"Edward should be here in another hour." I said as I looked at my phone.

"I am so glad I decided to come last minute to dress you."

"I'm glad too." I said honestly.

"My boy is all grown up."

"Oh, shut it." I said.

"Are you guys finally done?" Jasper asked from my living room.

We walked out and Jasper looked me up and down from where he sat with Aro on his lap. That dog really did think he was a lap dog.

"So?" Alice said.

"Someone is definitely going to have a hard time keeping his eyes and hands off you." He laughed.

"I knew it!" She said excitedly as she joined him on the couch.

"I'm so nervous."

"Edward must be too. He likes to act all cool, but he hasn't gone out with someone in years."

I felt a lot better after that. Jasper and Alice stayed for a bit after, but then left. I nervously paced with Aro watching me from the couch obviously not interested. Then there was the knock at the door I had been waiting for. I kissed Aro and greeted Edward.

"Wow." He simply said as he took me in.

"Uh, thanks." I said as I moved past him to close the door behind me.

"Sorry." He said and moved. "I got us an uber that way we can both let loose a bit."

"Smart." I said as we got in the back seat.


The music was loud as we made our way through the crowd with our drinks in hand.

Edward's hand rested on my lower back as he followed behind me. I found spot that wasn't too tight and turned to face him. I swayed my hips and Edward followed my movements. His hand that was on my lower back was now on my hip. He pulled my hips closer to him and the grinding sensation was making me already think about sex. I grabbed his hand from my hip and spun him so that now his back rested against me.

It was my time to place my hand on his hip as we kept swaying. The beat changed to a more aggressive one and Edward turned around attempting to do weird crump moves. I laughed as I mimicked his moves. I hadn't danced in years, but my butt definitely still remembered how to twerk. I turned around and popped my booty against him. I could hardly hear his laugh, but I was glad he was having a good time too.

"I didn't know you were a dancer." He teased me once I turned to face him.

"I like to drop it like it's hot sometimes." I said leaning in closer causing him to laugh.

"Then we must have come to the right place." He said.

"Having a hot partner too helps." I flirted and he blushed.

I sipped on my drink that was mostly gone now and draped my free arm over his shoulder as I grinded into him. Our stomachs and groins continuously touched and I think I was enjoying this too much as I began feeling the tightness in my pants.

"Another one?" Edward asked and pointed at my empty cup.

"Yeah."

He slipped his hand in mine and led me through the crowd. He ordered the same thing again and this time we took a seat at the bar.

"I forgot how much fun dancing was." Edward said as he placed his hand on my knee. "I'm glad you're enjoying it too."

"Definitely." I said and the bartender handed us our drinks.

"I haven't let loose like this in so long." Edward said.

"When was the last time you went out? That didn't involve your family or daughter?" I asked sipping on my drink.

He took a bigger sip of his drink obviously having trouble thinking of one.

"Probably the last time I went out on a date." He said still not sounding sure.

"And when was that?"

"Back when I was doing my residency one of the nurses asked me out to a bar. There was no dancing though."

Good. I didn't like the idea of him grinding on someone else other than me, since when was I possessive?

"Did it lead to anything serious?" I asked.

"No. He wasn't into it after I told him that I had a daughter."

"That's lame." I said and sipped on my drink. "He missed out on a great guy."

Again I saw that familiar flush on his cheeks and this time with alcohol in my system I leaned in and kissed that cheek. I smiled at him and bit my bottom lip purposely teasing him as I finished the last of my drink.

"Slow down." He laughed as I placed my empty cup on the counter.

"Ready to go back in there?" I asked as I stood up extending my hand to him.

"Yup." He said and then finished the last of his drink with a sour look at the end.

I laughed as he placed his hand in mine and I led us back into the dance floor where we grinded, swayed, twirled and twerked all over each other. We took breaks only for more drinks and now the drinks were definitely giving us a nice buzz.

"Bathroom." I said and pointed at the sign.

Edward nodded and followed behind me as I entered the single use bathroom. I relieved myself and washed my hands. Edward was leaning against the wall looking like the model he could have been. He smirked at me probably knowing what I was thinking about as I walked over to him.

His lips were ready as I crashed mine against him. Finally my thirst felt quenched as I moaned into the kiss. Edward dug his fingers on my hips as he held me close. I slipped my hands under his shirt and I could hardly breathe as I felt his skin. I could cum in my pants from just this. I pulled away definitely not drunk enough to do something so voyeuristic.

"That was amazing." He said as he let me lead him back into the crowd.

I blushed, but smiled at the same time. We continued our dancing and a couple of more drinks we were definitely ready to go home. At least I was as I stumbled out the uber.

"Get out." I instructed Edward who was obviously not expecting this. "This is the last stop for us."

"Are you sure?" He asked.

"I'm having too much fun." I said and sucked my bottom lip seductively.

Edward complied and got out. He followed me up my door and laughed as I fumbled with my keys. I opened the door to Aro excited to see me as he jumped on me.

"Edward, come in." I said and held Aro from jumping on him too.

Edward closed the door behind him and I let Aro go. He jumped on him and Edward gladly pet him.

"I forgot how friendly he was." He said.

"Enough." I said and Aro jumped down. "Bed."

"Huh?" Edward said obviously alarmed.

"The dog not you." I laughed hysterically as Aro walked to his crate in the living room.

I followed him and locked the door. I pulled the blanket over it letting him rest for the night. I only crate trained him for bedtime. I didn't like putting him in there for any other reason. He was well behaved enough where most of the day I could trust him to lounge around.

"You have a nice place." Edward said.

"Thanks." I said and pulled him down on the couch.

"What are you doing?" Edward asked amused as I stood in front of him.

"I'm trying to seduce you."

I slid my hands down his shoulders and then trailed one back up teasing his neck. I placed it behind his neck and I leaned down to kiss him. This time there was no fear of people walking in on us. I slowly made my way to sit on his lap and he quickly placed his hand on my ass. I ran my fingers through his hair and slipped my tongue into his mouth our tongues meeting. I was moaning definitely hungry for him.

My lips felt numb by the time I pulled away and he trailed kisses along my neck.

"No hickeys." I mumbled as he sucked softly.

He gave my ass long squeezes that made me buck against him. I tugged at his shirt wanting access to his chest. I slipped my hand under and tried to memorize the shape of his abs and pecks as I explored his body. He ran his hand up my shirt and caressed my back and I pressed every inch of my body against him and I loved the feeling.

"You're driving me crazy." Edward growled as he thrusted and I felt how aroused he was.

"Good." I whispered into his ear as I gave it a lick and he shuddered underneath me.

I was definitely going to remember this pleasure spot. I turned back to his lips, as I definitely needed more of them. I couldn't wait anymore as I quickly went to undo his pants, but then he held my hands still.

"Are you sure?" He asked softly.

"Hmm."

"You're not going to say you were too drunk?"

"I'm not wasted it. Tipsy, sure, but that doesn't change the fact that I want you right now." I growled possessively and swatted his hands away.

I undid his pants and he helped me get them off. I freed him from his underwear and I admired him in my hand. I hadn't touched another man in years. It felt strange, but oddly satisfying. I stroked him gently and he let out a moan.

I kissed the newly discovered pleasure point by his ear and began masturbating him. I could come from this.

"I need to touch you." He said as he trailed his fingers against the outline of my erection against my jeans.

"Fuck." I sighed. "Yeah."

He undid my pants and I pulled them down to expose myself and suddenly I felt shy. When Edward wrapped his hand around me I couldn't help, but compare him to James. That wasn't fair. I grabbed Edward's wrist and then his other one and held his hands behind his head.

He liked being restrain as I attacked his neck once again and continued stroking him.

"I'm going to come." He said out of breath and I continued.

"I want you too." I said seductively.

Even I was surprised at this side of myself. I guess I was too used to letting James be in control that I forgot I liked to be on the other side sometimes.

I dropped his hands and let him touch my body where it ached the most. Why did it feel like we were two hormonal teens?

Edward's hot breath tickled my check and I captured his lips again. I can't get enough of them, of him. He was driving me close and he was right there already, but I held him off only growing his frustration. Suddenly I found myself on my back as he rested between my legs.

"I can play this game too." He threated with a low growl as he licked his bottom lip.

"Wait…" I said.

It was too late as he had me in his mouth. I was not coherent after that as I sunk in deeper into the couch. I curled my fingers in his hair and became weak under him. I pulled him up wanting to taste myself on him. We took off our shirts and lay completely naked.

"Are you comfortable?" Edward asked.

"I don't think I can have sex." I said honestly.

All I could think about was James. No matter how much my body was hungry for Edward I guess my heart still had James in it. I couldn't jump into this without being fully in it.

"Just this then." Edward said and kissed me softly.

It was so much more different. The kisses were longing and sloppier as he rubbed against me. I wish I could take it to the next level, but I wasn't ready. I trailed my hand down his abs to where I wanted to be. I gripped him and let him fuck my hand. He was attacking every inch of my chest and took a lot of time on my nipples that felt sore after he was done. I jerked both of us to completion.

"That was… That was…" I said out of breath not sure what to say.

"Just wow." He said.

I nodded in agreement and kissed him softly as we sat up.

"Shower?" I asked him.

"If you don't mind."

"Really after all this and you think I'd send you home?" I laughed. "My shower is too small for two people. Take one and I'll have some pajamas ready for you."

"I really like you Jake." Edward said and cradled my face as if admiring it.

It scared me.

"Go on take a shower. I'll make us some tea so we can relax for the night." I said standing up.

I directed Edward to my room and once he was in the shower I fell on the couch feeling defeated. I knew I liked Edward, but why I couldn't I say it back? Its not like he said he loved me.

Trying not to ruin the mood I went to my guest bathroom to clean my self up and put some water on the kettle. I pulled out a blanket for us on the couch. I figured we could watch something and then go to bed.

When Edward came out he had on the pajamas bottoms, but not the shirt. I didn't mind though as I walked past him I couldn't help trail my hand down his chest briefly.

"Water is ready. I pulled out the teas for you to choose and choose a movie too. I'll make it quick."

And I did. I was out in a couple of minutes and joined him on the couch with my own cup of tea. I made myself confortable on his side for the rest of the night.


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