Summary: Nico hated Eli for making Nozomi feel sad— she couldn't get rid of her as Eli was the sunshine, even if she wanted to.

Unrequited!NozoEli, EliHono, NozoNico BrOTP/Sisterly Love (This is more NozoNico Family Love— but mentions of NozoEli and EliHono)

Notes: Based on a fictional disease I found called the Hanahaki Disease (花吐き病) It's a fictional disease where a person starts coughing up petals and flowers that are growing in the lungs because of the victims unrequited love, it will continue growing until either, the feelings are reciprocated, when the feelings dies down or through surgery— which will clean out the flowers but along with the feelings. If untreated, the victims lungs and windpipe will clog and stops the breathing.


You caught me when I fell into your hands

You used to be there when I need you, watching the world

We would dance like nobody is watching

I'm a flower that cannot bloom without sunshine

You are my sunshine, yet also too much rain

You say I'm beautiful, yet I can't breathe


"Nozomi, do you seriously think the surgery will work?" A small petite with ravened haired asked, on a chair beside a bed-ridden girl with violet hair. The raven could hear the purplenette chuckling before a small sigh escapes her lips.

"It's one way. My feelings for Elicchi hurts— she would be the death of me~"

"What are the other ways?" The raven asks with interest as she crossed her arms.

"Hmm, I can always di—" The purplenette's turquoise eyes glinted before the raven cuts in,

"Nope, not happening." Nico clamping Nozomi's mouth who laid quietly before Nico lets go of her hand.

"Any other ways?"

"Well obviously if Elicchi reciprocates my feelings—" Suddenly, The purplenette started throwing a coughing fit, alerting Nico who gave a concerned look before pressing a button to call the nurses. The purplenette spilled out blood and a few petals of blue flowers on the tip of tongue engulfed in red.

Hydrangeas— Nico thought, with regrets of mentioning about possibilities.

Nico tried to gently to calm Nozomi down. Soon nurses entered, injecting some liquid into the purplenettes arm who drifted off to sleep within seconds. Nico could only watch, with her fist clenched. She knew that telling Eli about it would be futile— she knew Nozomi will just be in pain.

She knows the surgery would cleanse the flowers— along with Nozomi's unrequited feelings.

She prays that Nozomi would be better.


The purplenette awoken groggily with a slight headache, and felt wretching pain inside her abdomen. She winced before a voice called out to her, "You okay?" Her head shot to the direction of the voice. Nozomi recognised her face before she muttered out, "Ah Nicocchi...How long have I been out for?"

"3 hours or so...The doctors came and did your surgery."

"You stayed for this long?" Nozomi asked.

"Yup, but I stayed out for lunch. I'll be here for a while."

Nozomi smiled, "Thank you...It means a lot to me." Nico felt a smile creeping to her face, finally seeing a genuine smile out of the girl. "Anyways— do you feel better? Any different?" Nico questioned.

"I feel like I've died..."

Nico hummed a bit then pointed, "Right, you have a scar somewhere around your chest..." Nozomi tugged her shirt softly then saw white bandages wrapped around her chest.

A big scar that would leave the sign of the Hanahaki Disease.

A scar that would also remind her of Eli.

But to Nozomi, she just nodded, "I think the surgery worked, Nicocchi, I don't feel sad of thinking Elicchi anymore..." Nico frowned then smiled. "That's good. We can continue with Muse practices after you recover. Only us two knows you have the disease."

Soon after a few days, Nozomi got discharged and continued on with her life.


"1, 2, 3...1, 2, 3...1, 2— Nozomi! You're falling behind! You didn't slack off during the holidays did you?" A blonde said who clapped her hands repeatedly stopped. She had taken over Umi from time to time to take over the choreography of Muse.

Nozomi pouted, "Elicchi~! Give me a brea—" Before Nozomi knew it, she coughed once and placed a hand over her mouth. She glanced down to her hand and her eyes widened.

It was a petal— another Hydrangea— it was pink instead of blue.

Nozomi quickly shoved the petal into her pocket. Eli and the others gave a puzzled look, "Nozomi? Are you okay? Y-You can take a break if you want." Eli said, concerned for her best friend. Nico gives a look to Nozomi who slowly nods.

"Nozomi-chan? Take a break! We really need you for the final live! You're the Goddess of Muse!" A ginger said, rubbing her hand softly against the purplenette's back. She could feel herself coughing again but kept the flowers within her mouth. She looked away and nodded.

Nozomi sat down besides the door, while others continued practice. She took a tissue and spat all the petals out, leaving a floral taste in her throat. She drank a bottle of water then watched her best friend Eli dancing as she decided to switch with Umi. Nozomi watched her smiling happily with the others— especially with Honoka— leader of Muse.

Nozomi felt pain throbbing her chest and her throat tightening.

Nozomi knew Eli wasn't hers but she felt incredibly jealous when Eli didn't pay no mind to Nozomi who was probably gonna die if the Hanahaki keeps continuing. Nozomi mentally noted, 'Calm down, she doesn't know...she doesn't know...' Nozomi blenched as she saw Honoka clinging to Eli.

'Why didn't the surgery work? Why?' The thought came.

Nozomi stood up and ran for the exit, feeling her lungs strain. She felt her stomach twirling— she made a run to the nearest restroom. She entered and locked the one of the doors stalls. She lifted the toilet bowl and retched everything out. She could smell the foul odour but mixed with pollen— and metallic smell of blood.

Nozomi heard the main restroom door open. Nozomi quickly flushed the bowl and wiped the remaining blood with her sleeve.

Nozomi stepped out of the stall and made a surprised expression.

"E-Elicchi?"

"Nozomi! Are you okay? You suddenly ran out of practice! Everyone's worried you know!" Eli stepped closer and placed her hands on the turquoise eyed girl's shoulders. Nozomi smiled, "I'm okay, I just...I just feel sick..." Eli gave a solemn look. "Eh? Did you catch a cold or something?"

Yeah, my love for you is disease that can never be cured. Nozomi internally made a sarcastic remark.

"You can always tell me anything, Nozomi! You're my best friend!" Nozomi cringed at the last sentence, smiling even wider than before. Suddenly another voice entered the bathroom, Nozomi felt the hands that were on her shoulders gone.

"Eli-chan! Did you find Nozomi?"

Nozomi recognised the voice, it was the familiar ginger haired, Honoka. Nozomi once cringe again when she saw Honoka hugging Eli. Soon afterwards, footsteps came inside, the rest of Muse joins in. Nozomi wanted to escape, she felt her mind getting dizzy— like it was gonna blow up. Her throat itching from sudden movements growing within her.

She stumbled slightly and felt her hand getting dragged by a raven.

"Nicocchi...?"


"Hey? You awake—?" A voice rung in the purplenette's head. She shot up from the bed and looked around while sweat dropped sideways. She could hear own voice— panting restlessly. She was in the infirmary room

"Nicocchi?"

Nozomi looked at Nico, her face was covered with the most angriest expression she has seen in her life.

"What the hell Nozomi?! You said the surgery would work! Why? Why are you coughing again? Please..." Nozomi was astounded by Nico who suddenly had tears dripping down her cheeks.

"Please...I don't want you to die! Damn it! Why?!"

Nozomi startled the petite girl but brushing her hands against her cheek. She wiped the tears slowly, "Nicocchi..."

"You— you're like a big sister to me! I—I was always alone! I had to take care of my siblings because I was the eldest—" Nico's voice croaked, she continued,

"For the first time in my l-life— I felt dearly loved! Like I said— you're like a big sister— I get to experience it—"

"That's why I want you to live—! Damn it! I know you like Eli and all— and I'm nothing like her, I want you to live."

Nozomi sat frozen, after registering everything that had happened, she embraced the raven in her arms.

"Thank you...Thank you...Thank you for everything you've done Nicocchi."


Nozomi decided to get another surgery done since the last one didn't work out. Nico stayed besides her.

Nozomi got another large scar on her chest. The white bandages were wrapped around.


It came coming back— after one, two— four surgeries— Nozomi gave up.

The petals spilled out, drops of blood over papers. She felt the thorns of the stems prickling her throat. She felt withering flowers escaping her mouth and swaying all over the floor. Her love for Eli didn't die down— it was inevitable. Nozomi painfully smiled, Eli went out with Honoka to get parfaits.

Maybe Nozomi regretted making Muse— Maybe she would've have Eli for herself if she hadn't linked everyone.

Blood trickled down Nozomi's lips, soaking her green bowtie. Her uniform covered in multiple colours of flowers— ranging from many types, hydrangeas, roses, sunflowers, daisys, orchids etc. All stained in blood.

'I'm sorry Nicocchi— I can't continue on like this...I'm sorry everyone...'

Her eyelids slowly dropped, her vision getting blurry before turning black. Her eyes slowly opened to find a bright light.


She found herself walking field of flowers. She kneeled down and picked a flower. She smelled the aroma and looked around.

She found a certain blonde with her hair loose, a straw hat on her head and basket besides her filled with flowers. The blonde turned around and smiled at the girl.

"Nozomi."

"Elicchi...?"

Nozomi tried to step closer, a transparent wall blocking— like a glass cage surrounding the field— a glass maze.

"Nozomi."

That was the last thing she heard before a long beep and cries were heard.


The End. The ending makes sense to me— I'm sorry for those who don't get it. This is mostly NozoNico BrOTP with NozoEli messy. Please leave reviews and comments T-T! I may not be the best writer but I strive to be one! The beginning took me a while to come up with— I'm not good at poetry at all so some of them are quotes or lines you heard before. The beginning line for those who don't get it is before Muse was created, that it was just Eli and Nozomi.

Notes: I forgot to mention (not), The Hanahaki Disease— usually people doesn't go through surgery and just lives with the unrequited pain until they die because they want to keep their feelings. (I see Nozomi totally doing that) I'm an ass.