This wasn't happening to you, how could you have died? Why can't you remember any of it? Your mind raced with these thoughts and too many more like them.

You had finally been able to sit up on the bed, though only with the help of Gabriel. Your back rested against the cracked headboard as you stared down at your hands trying to make sense of the little Gabriel had told you.

Once Gabriel had told you that you had died you all but shut down trying to remember what happened for you to lose your life. You remembered your childhood but the body you were in had to be around [y/a]. So what had taken place from the age of 8 until now?

The archangel was still sitting quietly on the bed letting you stew in your head. You went over and over the only things you remembered; your childhood up to the age of 8 then everything is just...blank.

Finally you couldn't take the silence and the run around in your own head any longer. "How did I die and why can't I remember?" Your voice was soft and you refused to look up from your hands.

"Your memory of the last 10 years or so was erased by the angels up in heaven." The tone of Gabriel's voice was bitter like the very thought of having your memories taken was disgusting to him.

The words shocked you but you couldn't really respond because Gabriel wasn't done explaining as more words fell from his lips "They like to do that when one has done something they deem...". Gabriel paused like he was searching for the right word. "...dangerous."

"What the hell could I have done that they had to take all those memories from me?!" You brought your face up from your hands and glared at Gabriel. Your voice was that of a yell directed at the archangel.

Gabriel though took all of your rage in stride. "it wasn't what you did, but who" the archangel chuckled a little though you could easily see a kind of sadness in his champagne colored eyes.

"What are you talking about?" Your words started off loud but half way through your question it was like your voice had given up on that anger. You weren't mad at Gabriel, he brought you back to life though you have no idea why.

"I think it would be best..." Gabriel reached over and took one of your hands in his. At that moment in your faltering rage; You wanted to push him away, you wanted to blame him because he was an archangel, he was one of them. But even as you tried to work up the strength to do just that you somehow knew deep down that none of this was his fault so your anger continued to dissipate from your body; leaving you felling almost empty.

This archangel fought other angels to free you and bring you back to life so at least for the time being you knew you had to at least give him some of your trust.

As your body turned its attention on Gabriel's hand touching yours you quickly realized that this simple comforting gesture he was giving you took away that emptiness that was beginning to consume you, it made you feel truly alive.

It was like all those times in heaven that you hugged and kissed your parents were nothing more then a hollow illusion.

Gabriel gave your hand a soft squeeze bringing you back to what he was saying "...to leave this conversation right there, for now at least."

You wanted to demand answers but Gabriel shook his head and continued speaking to you as softly as he could "After bringing you back to life and what heaven did to your memories if I were to tell you too much at any one time I could fry your brain"

"Will I ever get my memories back?" You had tears pooling in your eyes, you hated feeling this lost and alone. Gabriel shrugged his shoulders "it's possible but for now I will help you as best as I can."

"Thanks" you mumbled as the tears started to fall from your eyes. Gabriel released your hand and stood from the bed.

"I'm hungry how about you?" Gabriel's words came out quickly so even though you refused to bring your eyes up from the bed you had a feeling the archangel was feeling uncomfortable from your tears.

You shrugged your shoulders "you wait here I'll go get something real quick." Gabriel was gone with the sound of a soft whoosh; leaving you sitting there as the tears ran down your face.

The archangel wasn't gone longer then a few minutes. "I hope you don't mind pizza" Gabriel chuckled as he sat a large pizza box next to you on the bed.

Gabriel sat down and opened the box; inside was a large pepperoni pizza. The delicious smell coming from the box made your stomach growl. You didn't want to eat; your emotions were still going haywire but your stomach didn't care about that.

It felt like you hadn't eaten in weeks so you were fighting a losing battle against your emotions. The archangel grabbed a slice "be careful its hot" he mumbled through a large bite of pizza.

Your hand shook as you brought it up from your lap and grabbed a slice from the box. Your fingers could feel the heat coming off of the grease that was dripping from the pizza onto your hand but your hunger didn't care about that either.

Before you knew it you had inhaled three slices of pizza. As you reached for a fourth slice, Gabriel's hands grabbed the box as he let out a soft laugh "where do you put all that?"

You froze at his words; your brain felt like it was pulsing with pain. You reached up with both hands and grabbed your head. Those words sounded familiar, painfully familiar.

You couldn't remember the name of the person who used to say that to you. All you could see in your mind was a pair of green eyes.

The pain continued as you tried to force your mind to remember. After a few minutes you gave up to stop the pain. You let your hands drop back onto your lap. You brought your face up and you could see Gabriel watching you with trepidation in his eyes though he said nothing.

Time past as the two of you sat there in silence. After almost an hour of this silence it appeared Gabriel was the one who couldn't take it anymore. "Why don't you lay down and get some sleep"

"I really don't want to" you grumbled, you were a little worried that if you slept you would wake back up in your heaven though you refused to say that fear out loud.

Gabriel reached over and without warning put two fingers against your forehead. "Just sleep I'll be here when you wake" each word got more muffled and before you knew it your whole body fell into a deep sleep against your will.