This chapter is from Regina's point of view. We will go a little bit deeper into what happened to her and what made her the way she was.
The rest of Regina's shift went as smoothly as usually. Emma accepting her offer was the highlight of the day and she couldn't stop smiling. It was already dark outside when her phone announced the end of her shift. She turned off her computer, put all the files she was working on into a drawer. She took her coat and placed it over her hand, then she took her bag and car keys. Should she check on Henry before leaving? Another doctor might have already took care of him she thought and went towards the elevator. Her black Mercedes was waiting for her in the garage under the hospital and she couldn't wait to get home. She could already feel the hot shower on her skin.
The way to her flat didn't even take her half an hour. It was late so the trafic wasn't as bad as it usually was. Regina parked her car and was ready to step out when someone appeared right next to her. She raised her head in order to find out who it was. When she recognized the person she locked herself in the car and was ready to sleep there if necessary.
„Get out!" the person yelled.
„No, I am staying!" Regina answered ignoring the knocking of her mother's fingers against the window. She was in no mood for facing her mother now. Her day was way too good to be ruined by her. She decided to stay in the car even if it meant missing the hot shower she was so looking forward to.
„This is not the way a daughter should treat her mother," Regina's mother said and pressed her face against the window to see her daughter's face. Regina couldn't believe her ears. It wasn't her who made the mistake of leaving her when she needed a mother the most. She had to defend herself. Regina took her bag and stepped out of the car. She closed the door and locked the car. Then she raised her head to look into her mother's eyes.
„And how did you treat me, when I was seventeen? Hm?" Regina needed Cora to know that her memories were as fresh as the evening air. It didn't matter how many years have passed, Regina still felt pain, she felt the bitterness of the evening when Cora threw her out the door just because she brought a girl home.
„You wouldn't even listen to me, when I tried to explain ..." Cora wouldn't let her daughter finish the sentence.
„I did listen to you and I've done what was best for you. You needed to learn your own worth and figure out that your future wasn't a girl. You were supposed to study and marry a rich man. You had to learn it the hard way. And look at yourself. You are one of the best doctors in US all thanks to me," Cora was so certain that everything that Regina achieved was thanks to her and thanks to the way she treated her when she came out as gay. She believed that this harsh approach would cure her. She believed that when her daughter had to fight for the spot in the light and live on her own she would forget about the girl and everything would be normal again. And according to Regina's lifestyle she thought that she was successful. Regina was an amazing doctor, still single and chasing after career. She had no real friends. She was famous in the world of medicine but she was alone.
„I hope you will come to the party on Friday!" Cora said coming closer to her daughter asking for a hug. Regina stepped away. Her mother wasn't the person she would like to hug now. Emma's face appeared in front of her eyes. If only she could be here. She wouldn't admit it to her but the blond woman's hugs were something. They made her feel great, safe. They gave her the feeling of being home. The home that she so desperately needed because it was taken away from her too soon.
„Yes, I will be there, mother," Regina reassured her mother and was on her way towards her flat because she didn't have any strength to listen to her. Many years ago she promised herself to not cry again in front of her. When she cried in front of her the last time Cora only yelled at her that she was weak and that she will never grow up into a strong woman if she keeps crying like a baby.
She hasn't been able to cry at all ever since. She kept all her emotions inside and never let them out in case there was someone who could think of her as weak. She hoped that her presence at the party will make her mother happy and she will let her alone for some time.
„Regina wait!" Cora screamed and followed her daughter.
„Make sure you will come to the party! Don't forget who put you into such position in the hospital!" Cora almost threatened to Regina.
„Well, you made it almost impossible for me to find a job somewhere else!" Regina defended herself. When Cora found out that Regina successfully graduated from medicine she contacted her for the first time in many years asking her to apply for a job in her hospital. She was and still is a CEO of the Boston hospital. Regina applied for a different position in the hospital in Maine. She was perfect for the job but her mother made it impossible for her to get it. When Regina tried to apply for a job in another hospital in Boston her application was thrown off the table. When a fifth application has been denied she had no other choice than to accept the job in her mother's hospital. Cora wanted Regina to work as close to her as she could .. or as close as she could make her. She needed to have her under control. For Regina the best years of her life were the years of college where she was free. It was hard for her to work and study at the same time but she managed pretty well and she was always one of the best students at the university. If her father lived he would be proud of her. She knew it. He was her best friend, her support. When he died everything changed, Cora changed. When Regina thought about what her life was like she was grateful for Cora's behaviour. Everything that she went through has made her stronger but on the other hand there was a huge void in her heart that she couldn't fill. It was probably the reason why she was the way she was.
TBC
