"Rhem it's time to wake up" i glanced up as i stared into the empty white, scalloped ceiling, everything around me becoming diluted. Turning my head to the side i yawned, a loud shiver cramming up my back and drumming into my head like a hammer. I still feel so tired, cold, why am I always so cold? "Rhem you have appointments today and need to wake up, now move… please" her words came out quick and rushed, filling the room with an unsettling silence. Turning my head and body i stared at mori longingly, i just don't feel right. Finally willing myself up i kicked the blankets out from the overhead of my feet. "Are you alright?" her voiced, instantly silencing the silence and suddenly i was able to hear the birds chirping outside.

The soft rustle of the overly green trees, in a way it feels like i can hear the sun. the heat waves permeating the soft sound of rustling trees and rays of gold beaming through the window and dancing across the wooden floors. There's something so melodic about it, as if i could run and have no worry, dance without the fear of being snatched. "Hey," i jumped as i looked up my eyes going wide as i had become lost in thoughts that don't really feel quite like my own. Since when had i ever thought like that? Shaking my head i smiled as i stared up at her soft eyes.

"Ah yes my apologies!" i rushed out as i scrambled out of bed, fingers closing in on the dense white fabric as i leaped off the small bed. "Alright arms up" she spoke as she walked away from the closet layers of heavy pink clothing in her hand.

All i ever really wear is winter clothes, i can't get over the cold, i once even asked Uni if he knows the cause of sudden abundance of coolness. But he merely replied with a simple, 'maybe you have a cold or some ailment of the sorts, why don't you procure Mori about this? These are concerns that only women should speak to other women too.' I wish i understood why he thinks i'm so stupid, clearly i remember the big ass seal he had put on me. How could i not? The large circle that wraps over my heart has lines that connect to another smaller black circle that's completely filled in, i don't even want to know what my back looks like. Angled lines connect to the lines in the circle, almost to resemble a cage while also maring the skin a dark eggplant color.

Switching my gaze up from the lines that i hadn't realized i was staring at, i lifted my arms and internally prepared my myself for another day of waist training. Apparently i haven't been developing fast enough, so Anne suggested we try tighter corsets to see if getting a more 'womanly' figure will help my 'mis-comings'. I'm not all entirely sure what she means by that, but i have a feeling it's not the greatest of things. Choking a breath i grabbed the bed frame as the corset half ass killed me, then letting go I lifted up my arms as she slipped layers of heavy dresses on me, cream, blue, pale green. I see they're going for a spring-ish theme today, they tend not dress me in too many pinks, Anne said it clashes with my hair too much. And we all know if Anne says something, it's surely to be followed to a tee.

Once i had been dressed and laced up i was rushed downstairs to breakfast, something that was also nauseating. Yet again Anne had suggested that if i ate more and put on weight i might also become a little more endowed. So once again i stared at the large plates in front of me, i have a big appetite, but not this big. Food seemed to be divided by the product, one plate only holding eggs, another buttered bread, ham, sausage, sauteed vegetables… the list never seemed to end and i had to eat it all. and if i puked id have to swallow it down or face an angry Anne, which is something I don't want to deal with. Eating the food quickly I simply shoved it down my throat and tried my best to remember to chew. Only choking a few times I leaned back and stared at the other people, Uni and Anne, still eating. They stared with miff experessions, "how you manage to eat so much will never fail to impress me darling." Uni spoke as he shot me a weird look that could almost be described as loving, for some reason it makes me uncomfortable. "I don't know, you're the one making me eat it all…" I slurred as the tall tale sign of overeating popped into my mind. "Are You alright?" I stared at him, trying to harass him with a glare. "Im fine."

Glancing up at the clock i figured i would be leaving soon, so standing up i pushed my chair in and walked to the sitting room by the door. Laying down on the couching i glanced at the older maid named Riaku, her graying hair tied up in a neat bun. She usually followed me when mori didn't. I don't understand why they follow me so much, i get they're servants but still, i just don't see the point- "is there something wrong Miss. Cosa?" my eyes jumped at the faint voice that fluttered in from the side of the room. "Uhm no, i'm good thanks for asking?" i spoke softly as i sat back up. The corset practically holding me stiff straight, i cant move much either because of how tight it is. Taking in as deep of breath i tried to push myself back up, but only failed miserably. Hearing footstep walking towards me i looked up, Uni's soft eyes smiling, "would you like some help?" sending a curt nod, i reached up a 'gentle' hand and grabbed his arm. Lifting me up i awkwardly tumbled as he pulled a lot harder than i anticipated, causing me to crash into his side. Feeling a hand awkwardly stumble a little too far down my back i felt myself glance up. "Oops" he spoke in higher tone than normal and removed his hand. "You know it's time to leave?" glancing at the clock, which seemed to be in every room of the house. "Oh, it seems as so doesn't it? Well then, shall we be off?" i spoke in the normally preppy tone.

Walking out of the house i was lifted into the car and went into shut off mode as i called it. Today, i am going to my last dress fitting, it seems i am to be married within a month or two, i haven't taken the time to remember the date. Why should i? It can't be that important… right? Feeling the car move, i banged my head against the window, loud thud ringing throughout the car. "Are you alright?" Unis voice cut through the naseauting rumble from the motor, "dont talk to me…" i wheezed in HImsIn as I desperately trIed to keep down the small mountaIn of food Im forced to eat. "Ok darlIng whatever you say!" hIs words sarcastic and chipper, and for a moment i actually debated on whether i should make him see things under the illusion magic, but as soon as thought reached my fingers, puke crawled up my throat and i grumbled lowly as i made a weak attempt to swallow it. But, to my favor, the ride was over and i, as usual, fell out of the ground and dived for the ground. As usual though, Uni was there to catch me, causing me to miss my chance at latching onto the sweet ground. "Now how many time must we tell you not to jump onto the ground? When will you listen?" i glared at him and his petty words. "When i'm free" i spoke lowly in Himsin, the darkness in my voice becoming a little too apparent as he took a hesitant step back. But then, he did something that took me by surprise, retching his hand back he swung, his palm making a loud thwick on my cheek. "Listen to me when i talk and stop speaking that plebeian language." my mouth dropped as i watched his courage hold. Heaving an angry puff i shoved my way out his grip and walked into the dress store.

AN*

Sorry for the late update, schools started up again and i also got a job, so upadates maybe a little slimmer.