Chapter 17: How Do You Love Someone?

Kurt found it hard to look at Sam the next day. It was even harder when Sam came up to him and sat beside him in Glee.

"Hey, we still on for tonight?" Sam asked.

"Oh, uhmm, of course." Kurt said, forcing a smile on his face. Sam looked puzzled at the way Kurt was acting around him at the moment.

'I hope I didn't do anything wrong.' He thought as Mr. Schue began the class.

"Alright, I'm hoping you've already started watching your movies with your partner, so I'm giving you time to discuss it with them. Or you can work on other schoolwork if you need to."

"So, are we just watching my movie tonight, or are we gonna watch you're too?" Sam said, turning to his partner.

"We can watch mine tomorrow or something. Excuse me." Kurt stood up and walked to his teacher, leaving a bewildered Sam sitting behind him.

"Mr. Schue?" Kurt said, getting his attention. "If no one is in the Auditorium right now, may I go practice a song by myself?"

"Is it for the project?" Mr. Schue asked.

"No, Sam and I are watching his movie tonight at my place." Kurt said.

"I don't think so, Kurt." Mr. Schue shook his head.

"Mr. Schue, you were right yesterday when you said I've been angry, and really moody. I just need to get this song I feel reflects my emotions out right now. I think it would help a lot." Kurt said, casting his eyes down.

Mr. Schue silently pondered on what Kurt said for a moment before agreeing.

"But only the Auditorium. Don't go anywhere else!"

"I promise. Just the Auditorium." Kurt nodded, before heading out the door.

Sam stared after his partner, concern on his face.


Kurt walked to the Auditorium and walked onto the stage. He sat down on the lip of the stage, and put his head in his hands.

He thought back to the previous night, and the dream.

Flashback Starts

"You're mine, Kurt. I'm yours. We belong to each other, and no one else." Sam said, gazing down into Kurt's eyes.

"I've always been yours, Sam. You've always been mine. And I'm never going to let you go."

Flashback Ends

"What does that mean?" Kurt asked out loud to no one, lifting his head out of his hands. "Do I want us to belong to each other? Do I want to be his, or have him be mine only?"

Kurt closed his eyes.

Flashback Starts

He raised his hands and cupped Sam's face, gazing into the eyes of the man he adored- had always adored.

"I love you. I'll always love you." Kurt said.

Flashback Ends

His eyes shot open. He placed his hand on his chest, feeling it beating fast. He thought back to the times he and Sam had been alone.

'In the science room, in the locker room, the hallway...I think he had been flirting with me a bit before. I know I did with him, but I don't think he noticed...' Kurt thought.

His heart hadn't beaten quick as hard then as it did now, but it did beat a little faster each time he and Sam had been alone together. And now, thinking of Sam and the dream, his chest and heart started to hurt.

'Dad told me when I was little that there would only be two reasons a person's heart could be beating this fast and hurt this hard: one, it would be a heart attack, and two, you'd be in love with someone and be missing them terribly when you're apart. I'm too young to have a heart attack so...'

"Shit, I'm in love with Sam Evans!" Kurt said really loudly in the empty Auditorium.

Sam grinned from where he was hiding in the back of the Auditorium, watching Kurt. Mr. Schue had asked Sam to go get his partner, because he forgot to make an announcement. Sam had arrived just in time to hear Kurt exclaim he was in love with Sam.

'I can't believe it.' Sam thought. 'I can't believe he loves me, too.'

Sam hid down lower as Kurt stood up on the stage. He watched as the boy turned on his music, and started to sing his emotions out with an Ashley Tisdale song.

Momma never told me how to love

Daddy never told me how to feel

Momma never told me how to touch

Daddy never showed me how to heal!

Momma never set a good example

Daddy never held Momma's hand

Momma found everything hard to handle

Daddy never stood up like a man!

I've walked around, broken

Emotionally frozen

Getting it on

Getting it wrong

How do you love someone

Without getting hurt?

How do you love someone

Without crawling in the dirt?

So far in my life

Clouds have blocked the sun

How do you love, how do you love someone?

How do you love, how do you love someone?

I was always the chosen child

The biggest scandal I became

They told me I'd never survive

But survival's my middle name!

I've walked around, hoping

Just barely coping

Getting it on

Getting it wrong

How do you love someone

Without getting hurt?

How do you love someone

Without crawling in the dirt?

So far in my life

Clouds have blocked the sun

How do you love, how do you love someone?

How do you love, how do you love someone?

It's hard to talk

To say what's deep inside

It's hard to tell the truth

When you've always lied!

How do you love someone

Without getting hurt?

How do you love someone

Without crawling in the dirt?

So far in my life

Clouds have blocked the sun

How do you love, how do you love someone?

How do you love someone

And make it last?

How do you love someone (love someone)

Without tripping on the past?

So far in my life

Clouds have blocked the sun

How do you love, how do you love someone?

How do you love, how do you love someone?

Someone.

Sam watched as Kurt turned off his music and wiped some tears off his face.

Sam hurt for the boy that had stolen his heart.

'He must think that I don't share his feelings, that he'll get hurt by me and anyone else if he tells the truth. I'll have to set him straight tonight when I go to his place. I want to make this work between us, if he'll allow me.'

Sam snuck to the door and opened it, standing up and making it seem like he just came in.

"Hey!" He called to Kurt.

Kurt whirled around and pales.

"What are you doing here?" He asks. "I wanted to be alone in here...you didn't hear anything did you?"

"Naw, just got here." Sam fibbed. "Mr. Schue asked me to get you, said something about needing the whole class there for an announcement he forgot to make."

"Okay, I'll be right there." Kurt turned to get his bag as Sam held in a smile. Kurt hurried up the stairs to Sam and the pair walked back to the Choir room.

"You didn't have to wait." Kurt said, looking straight ahead.

"I know." Sam nodded. "But I felt like walking with you."

Kurt kept silent as they walked into the classroom.

"Thank you, Sam." Mr. Schue said, noticing the two teens.

The boys took their seats as their teacher spoke.

"I forgot to mention earlier that I drew slots for everyone on their performance. Next week, four students will be performing their songs, four more the week after, and the final four the week after that. So, you need to watch your movies together the remainder of this week and this weekend if needed, so that the four students performing next week are ready."

"Who's performing next week?" Asked Finn.

"Monday we have Rachel, Tuesday is Mercedes, Thursday for Santana, and Artie, you'll be performing on Friday."

"Wait, what about Wednesday?" Artie asked.

"I won't be in the next few Wednesday, so I wouldn't be here to see you perform. So, over those three Wednesday's, I've made it so you all have free periods."

The class whooped happily.

Kurt stayed silent, while Sam watched him, thinking of how to tell Kurt how he felt that evening.


Kurt walked to his locker after school. The bell had rung, but he had stayed behind in his last class to avoid Karofsky. After the crowd of kids had dispersed in the halls, Kurt felt safe enough to leave. As he opened his locker, he sighed, already tired, especially from realizing he was in love with his partner.

As his locker door swung open, a piece of paper fell out. Kurt picked it up off the floor and opened it, expecting the worst. To his surprise, it was only a note from Sam.

Hey-

I can't wait to watch my fave Disney movie with you later. You'll never guess which song is my favorite when you see the movie. I got your address of Mercedes earlier, since I forgot to ask you in class. Hope you don't mind.

See you at 4!

-Sam

Kurt smiled and blushed. This was the first time he had gotten a nice note in his locker, and not one of hate. Kurt tucked the note into a book and packed up to go home.

He drove home, and thought of what he had to do to get ready for Sam's arrival.