Kendall's P.O.V.

It's one thing to be angry with someone for ignoring you, and your wants. It's a whole other thing when you let that anger, blind what is most important to you. In my mind, being there for a man you have said you love for as long as I could remember, was more important than any petty bullshit reason you wanted to give. I know I wasn't the only one to think it. Logan seemed fairly pissed off at Carlos, but he continued to tell me getting myself healed, and James healed was the most important thing right now. He had my mom on his side with that. My dad however…well my dad has always been a fan of James. He liked that he was a bad ass C.I.A agent like me. They got along really well. That isn't to say him, and Carlos haven't, it was just a different relationship. The shit Carlos just pulled didn't help.

I didn't realize that Logan had met my parents for the first time, until my mom asked Logan if she could get anything at his house for him and the boys. When Logan told her, he would need to pack a bag for them, at our shared house, it hit me. Because I got the death glare of all death glares from my mom. I knew they knew I was in a new relationship. I must have forgot to mention that we were living together now. My mother said she was happy for me and seemed to adore Gabe, so it was no problem. But when Logan and my mom left to go to the house, with the boys, to get clean clothes and cleaned up themselves, she whispered in my ear, we needed to have a talk. That wasn't going to end well. Logan made it a little better, because he hugged me tight and kissed me softly, as if to say…everything is fine. And then they left. And I was left with my dad, who from the second Logan and the boys left with my mom, has been going off.

"How could he do that to James? Now of all time Kendall? His husband is lying in a bed with three bullet holes in his chest…and decided now would be the great time to rip out his heart?" I closed my eyes, blocking the faint light form the TV out of my eyes and carefully raised my legs, bending them at the knees. I gently put my hands on my thighs, ever so slightly to not irritate my stab wounds on them. I also groaned out quietly as I adjusted myself in my bed, so I was sitting a little more up right. "How you feeling kid?" I opened my eyes fast and saw my dad sitting in the seat my mom had been occupying before she left. "They should have cut your eyes to drain them." I chuckled turning my head slightly, smiling at my dad, who smiled back.

"I'm not a boxer dad." He laughed leaning forward on my bed and nodded clasping his hands together. A question that I wanted answered as soon as Logan and I started dating came across my mind as I looked at my dad and figured…now was my chance. "Do you like him?" My dad raised his head fast and I shrugged. "I know how you felt about Steven. I'm just curious."

"How do you think I felt about Steven?" I laughed loudly turning my head back to look up at the TV as my dad sighed irritated beside me. "I never liked how quick he was to spend your money Kendall. It looked shitty to me, and basically the whole family. He was a greedy, manipulative asshole, who as it turns out had a few screws loose." I glanced back to my dad raising an eyebrow as he leaned in closer to me, setting a hand on my arm. "But I loved…absolutely loved how happy you were with him. Up until the end Kendall. You never complained once. And usually you don't complain to me, but I asked your mother constantly. And she always said the same thing. Our boy is in love." I blushed looking down, slowly putting my legs flat back on my bed. "Logan…this new relationship you have with him seems very different." I turned my head away from him completely knowing my dad didn't hold back. If he didn't like him, he would tell me. And somehow that would get in my head and I'd start to feel the same way. I hated my dad for that one reason. I have always hung on every word he says, and he knows it. "I mean different in a good way Kendall." I snapped my head back to my dad fast making him nod. "We were talking earlier. He must have thought I was going to say something awful about him and his dad and jumped all over me. He was defending himself, and your relationship. He said he loves you and just wants to make you happy. He really said all the right things." I swallowed hard as my dad sat back in his chair looking up at the TV. "I know you and I have a very specific relationship. We talk sports, guns, and the current shit going on in our world. But I want you to feel very comfortable coming to me with any relationship…things." I chuckled forcing him to look back at me. When he did I raised my left hand and wiggled my fingers.

"I've always thought about how bare, and odd my left hand looked without any bling." His mouth fell open slowly and I sat myself up slowly bending over forward letting my back crack. "Don't worry…I'm not going to marry him tomorrow. But from the moment I met Logan…I knew I was going to spend the rest of my life with him. And his son. And now Robbie I guess." My dad laughed as he gently set a hand on my back and rubbed it. "It's the first relationship I've ever been in, where I wasn't afraid of commitment, or the idea of having a family."

"I'm really happy to hear that Kendall. You know…I never told you this before, but one of my best decisions I've ever made was marrying your mom and having a family with her."

"It wasn't joining the military?" I turned my head to him, both of us smirking as he gently gripped the back of my neck. "Gabe…I swear that little boy has opened my eyes to a whole other world dad."

"Kids will do that to you." He let me go and stood himself up, slowly, rubbing his right knee as he went. "Kids can make the strongest, toughest baddest dude crumble. It happened to me when your mother had you and it happened to you, with Gabe. Just how it goes I suppose." I laughed lying myself back down in my bed folding my arms over my stomach looking up to my TV as my dad walked to the table in the corner that had water bottles on it. "Can I get you anything, kid?" I shook my head as he turned back to me and opened up the water. "You look like you could use some sleep. Maybe some pain killers to help you out?"

"No…I haven't taken any pain killers since I got out of the service. I don't touch them anymore."

"Kendall, I think you've come far enough to get a little help every now and then." I eyed him as he sat back down, raising both legs up to rest them on my bed. I remained quiet until he looked over to me, smiling small. "But it's your choice. If you think you can handle this without them…"

"I got shot about a month and a half ago dad. I handled it then, I'll handle it now." He raised his free hand as he took another sip of his water and looked back to the TV. I also looked to the TV and clenched my jaw hard. The only reason he wanted me to take pain killers, is so I could go back to work, out in the field. He saw injuries, or illnesses as an excuse to be lazy. Has been that way ever since I was a kid. He figured, unless you were dead, or paralyzed, there was no reason you shouldn't be up and doing something. Being kidnapped, beat, and stabbed wasn't as serious to him as it was to me, or my doctor apparently.

My dad and I sat in silence as we watched TV, for a solid hour. I dozed off about halfway through the show we were watching, and when I woke up, it was because I could feel someone sitting on the bed beside me. It made me force my eyes open. When I did, all I could do was smile. Gabe was sitting on Logan's lap, as he sat next to me, both in a change of clothes. Gabe was also drinking from a juice box, looking at me with wide eyes. I breathed out hard seeing my dad standing up from his chair, offering it to Robbie who was also in a change of clothes, and looked like he had taken a shower. He also had his sling over his shoulder holding up his arm, and when he sat down beside me, he grinned big. "How you feeling Kendall?" I chuckled quietly putting my head back and closed my eyes again reaching out, to touch Logan beside me. As I gripped his thigh one of his hands went over top of mine and squeezed his fingers around mine.

"How are you feeling dude?" I turned my head back to him and raised an eyebrow making him blush and look down to his lap, as he pulled his phone out of his pocket. "I'm alright. Just tired. And sore." He looked back up nodding and I turned to Logan and Gabe, noticing my mom and dad walking out of the room, closing the door quietly behind them. "How you doing?" Logan sighed and shrugged as his other hand ran through Gabe's hair, making him lay his head on Logan's shoulder as he set his sandaled covered feet beside my body.

"I'm alright. I had an intense conversation with Carlos when the boys were showering." I raised both eyebrows and he nodded sneakily covering Gabe's exposed ear with his hand as he shook his head. "I called him an inconsiderate asshole and told him to get his dumbass back down here, so he can nurse his hurt husband back to health and have a mature fucking conversation with him." He took his hand off Gabe's ear and smiled wide. "So, Carlos will be stopped by shortly. He said he wants to make sure you're alright, and then he will go be with James." I laughed but nodded as Gabe lowered the juice box from his mouth and breathed out hard licking his lips.

"Can I lay by you Kendall?" I nodded fast raising my arm and watched Logan help Gabe moved around beside me, taking the empty juice box form him, and pulling his sandals off his feet. Gabe curled up into a ball under my arm, putting his casted arm on my chest. I gently wrapped my arm around his back and rubbed it, yawning loud.

"I'm sorry if I fall asleep on you guys. I'm pretty beat." Logan shook his head softly reaching out and first rubbed Gabe's back. He then moved his hand to my chest and rubbed it as he scooted closer to us smiling small.

"It's alright. Get some rest. We'll all be here when you wake up." I nodded once as my eyes shut very slowly, happily knowing Logan was the last person I saw.

I slept for a good couple hours this time, loving every second of it. My body and mind were exhausted, but I think I found it easily to fall asleep since Logan and the boys with me. It was reassuring. To know my family was safe made sleep seem like a no brainer. I didn't care about anything else as I slept, except that Steven was dead and so was John. As gruesome as it is, I was happy about it. My happiness, although it was based off death, when I finally reopened my eyes and heard and saw the scene around me, I couldn't help but feel even more happy.

Someone was lying on my bed with me, I knew that even before I opened my eyes. There was a body larger than Gabe, draped over my own. I opened my eyes hearing the giggle of a small boy, Gabriel, and smiled seeing him sitting on Carlos's lap, in a chair, right next to my bed. Neither of them saw me looking at them because they were facing the bed, immediately to my left. My smile fell as I realized…I didn't have a second bed in my room. I moved my eyes from Carlos and Gabe to the bed and had to smile again. James was sitting up pretty high in his bed, a machine still attached to him helping him breath. His lips were moving slowly, but he wasn't making a lot of noise. Whatever he was saying however was making Carlos and Gabe laugh. As great it was seeing that, the body lying on top of me seemed almost more important. I titled my head, just a little and had to suck in a hard breath seeing the sleeping, still man on me. Logan. He had his head lying on my shoulder/chest snoring ever so slightly. Both his arms were tucked into his chest, which was pressed into my ribs. One of his legs was lying over mine, under our blanket, and just as I thought about it I started to feel a slight burn in my right thigh, which is where his leg was lying over. I sighed out hard closing my eyes again and gently and slowly started to rub Logan's back as Gabe giggled once more. "Are you awake?" Logan's voice was very quiet that no one but me heard him. I opened my eyes and titled my head to see Logan now looking up at me, one of his arms reaching out and rubbing over my chest. "How you feeling?" He was again very quiet making me shrug and casually glance over to James's bed." He smirked closing his eyes and yawned pushing into me but taking his leg off mine. I relaxed as soon as his leg left mine because it didn't hurt as much anymore. "You've slept for about 6 hours. In that time James woke up and wanted to be in here with you." I groaned quietly, putting my head back and rubbed his back again as he turned his head and kissed onto my chest. "Your mom and dad didn't want to sleep here tonight. They left about an hour ago. Before they did they sort of dropped a bomb." He carefully pushed up and pressed his lips into mine forcing me to close my eyes and reach out and wrap around him. He pulled away, just enough to talk but stayed so close to me I could smell the mint on his breath as his cascaded down around my face. "They are moving out here Kendall." I put my head back fast but still held around his as he nodded. "Your mom and I bonded. She absolutely is smitten by my child and already asked if it was weird if she called him her grandson. I said no, and we had a cry fest and then she pulled Donald out into the hallway…5 minutes later they said they are coming out here to live closer to their grandkids and son." I chuckled as I sneakily pushed my hands down his back, under the blanket so no one could see, and gripped onto his ass. He sighed out moving his hand sup to my face and pushed my hair back off it.

"See what you and Gabe do to people?"

"It's not just us. Robbie opened up to both of them. I think your dad almost lost it when he found out what Robbie's dad did to him."

"Sounds like my dad." He laughed moving in and pressed his lips back into mine. "How are you doing?" I managed to say it between each peck eh placed on my lips making him smirk. I squeezed his ass cheeks again as he pushed away and still smiled.

"Well…I quit my job." I immediately frowned making him turn his head slightly to look over at James and the other two were now quiet. "After, of course, I got another job offer." I moved one hand up fast to his face and turned it back to look at me. When we locked eyes, he laughed and shrugged. "I had a conversation with the director of medicine here to find out about James's recovery. In passing, I mentioned I was an ER doctor at the hospital downtown. He pulled up the file you guys have on me, because that is apparently a thing you do when an agent gets in a relationship." I nodded chuckling and he shrugged again. "He saw my resume…he called fellow doctors at my work and got some recommendations. And then he offered me a job outright. I took it." I raised an eyebrow as he laid his head on my chest and yawned out. "It is technically on call since I would only be here when agents go out on a mission. I get paid about twice as much as I was making at the hospital, and they have a daycare here in case we are both at work at the same time." He snuggled against me letting me look over to my two friends, and Gabe. All of them were staring at us. Gabe was grinning his big toothless grin at me as he sat on his Uncle's lap, who was also smiling wide at me. When I looked at James he laughed out loud and laid back gently rubbing at his chest.

"I have a special job for you when you get back to work man." I frowned hugging around Logan as he turned his head to face his son and our friends. "As head of training…you get to train Logan when he starts. He is a C.I.A. employee, technically, so needs to be trained like one. He can't start working until he passes the training." My stomach flipped just thinking about Logan in any type of danger because he was now working in this building, but the stress passed when I watched Carlos, who I very clearly remembered being so pissed at James, he was willing to leave him…reach out and grab James's hand. James smiled down at him and rubbed his thumb over Carlos's knuckles as he sat back gently holding around Gabe who was now preoccupied with Carlos's phone. I watched them all around me, and let Logan lay over top of me kissing onto my neck, and Robbie who I hadn't noticed, walked into the room, shutting the door softly behind him, trying not to be loud. When he saw me awake he grinned big and walked to the chair beside Carlos's, holding a clear bag full of what looked like vending machine foods. When he sat down I realized something that I never realized before. My job was dangerous yes. And I hated that I have now put Logan and Gabe and Carlos and Robbie in danger, again. But right now, we were all alive. Mostly healthy. I had an amazing life and a very lucky one at that. Instead of fighting James on being Logan's trainer…and Logan even taking the job before talking to me about it, I was going to start acting like I had a great lucky life. It's why I pushed my hand sup to the middle of Logan's back and made him look at me, frowning. I smiled small and pushed my lips into his closing my eyes. "You can't ignore me Knight. I don't' trust anyone else to train my best friend so you have to do it. I'm the boss remember." Logan pushed away quick and turned to James opening his mouth. However, I moved my hand up fast and covered it, also turning to James. We locked eyes, both of us smiling.

"Whatever you say boss man." James laughed loudly lying back deeper into his bed still holding onto Carlos's hand. I took my hand off Logan's mouth just to get his angry glare turned to me. I shrugged pulling on him, trying to literally put him as close to me as I could. "I love you." His angry face left fast and he frowned cupping my neck gently shaking his head.

"I love you too." He moved in to kiss me and I gladly let him. We couldn't have been kissing for more than a few seconds before Gabe's loud, but small voice broke us apart.

"Stop it you guys! Kissing is gross!" Logan pushed away fast and reached out quickly tickling his child, who shoved back into Carlos and demanded he help him against his dad. I smiled genuinely as Robbie joined in to tickle Gabe who was laughing hysterically throwing his head back pleading for it to stop. I turned, just enough to look at James who was looking over at me. He smiled small before nodding his head once, just one time to me. I nodded back once too, knowing exactly what he was saying.

I think I'm going to end this story here. I don't know…I feel like it's gone its distance. That doesn't mean, however that if you guys wanted to see another instalment to this story, I wouldn't object. If you guys want to see something with this story, let me know! Also, I have two other Kogan stories out right now, that I haven't finished and I'm going to, I promise, finish those up. I also would like to write some one shots. I feel like they help me write my full stories better. Don't know why, they just do. So, if you have any suggestions, or want to read something specific, just let me know! Thanks guys!