Mick had been home for a few days now, Kash never leaving her side. They both knew why he refused to go, he was afraid she'd break down on her own. Mick hadnt been herself since the hospital doors opened up for her, the world there had made her return into her shell. Kash would see few moments when life would come back to her eyes but they were few and far between.

Mick was trying to pretend for him, force herself to be ok when it was clear she wasnt. Whatever they had done to her had made this once bubbly, sarcastic women into a skittish, dull-eyed little girl.

Kash had tried to get her back to her old self by going out drinking like old times but it only resulted in Mick becoming extremely drunk (very unlike herself) and trying to hide in the womans bathroom in fear when anyone approached her. Kash could see the signs but didnt want to label it, fearing that if he did then itd be true. But facts were facts, Mick was suffering from PTSD.

Mick refused to talk about what had happened to her, even to Kash, simply saying that either it was nothing or that she didnt want to talk about it. It was eating away at her, Kash could see her reaching her breaking point. Between having nightmares she had no memory of and jumping at every sound Kash could tell that when she did finally break, and she was going to, it would be bad. Very bad.

The worst panic attack yet was when they were simply watching tv and a commercial came on where a little boy with orange hair was playing in the dirt. Mick had reacted as if something had burned her, screaming she flung herself over the back of the couch only to curl into the fetal position and mumble to herself. Kash had panicked of course, unsure of what to do. When he went to touch her she lashed out violently, screaming that she wouldnt talk. Eventuality Mick hyperventilated herself into passing out, Kash had to watch the whole thing from afar.

She honestly scared him during it, the far away look in her eyes and the bared teeth as she spat out every word with enough malice to make his skin crawl. Kash had learned not to touch her during these moments, learning the hard way more than not.

It wasnt all bad, there were moments when Mick was her old self, only in Kash's company thought. Shed make a snide comment at him and theyd banter to and fro like old times. Most were short lived, but Kash enjoyed those times and that was what kept him from breaking down. There was hope, Mick could fight this. So when Mick decided to go for a run around the block Kash eagerly joined her, thinking maybe this was getting better.

Kash smiled as Mick left to go shower after their run, she had smiled and laughed as they made their lap around the neighborhood. As he heard the shower come on his stomach flipped, a scream met his ears from where he stood down stairs. Taking the steps two at a time he burst into the bathroom, his heart pounding in his chest as he thought the worst. But when he spotted her standing, naked, on the toilet he couldn't contain his laughter and relief. She glared at him, trying to cover her naked body with her hands.

"Kill it, Kash!" Kash glanced at where her eyes were looking and saw a huge black water spider in the sink. His eyes grew big as it flexed its legs,

"To hell with that! That thing looks like it could bench press a bus." Mick stared at him in open mouthed disbelief, Kash meanwhile scooted away from the sink his eyes still locked on the creature.

"Oh my God Kash, youre a guy! Quit being a pooh and kill the damn thing before it decides to shit out babies or something!"

"Yeah no, fuck that. How about I shoot it? Then i dont have to get near it. What if it jumps on me?" Kash craned his neck to get a better look at the eight legged beast. Mick snorted in annoyance, then let out a squeal when it started climbing the sink towards the wall.

"Fuckin' kill it!"

"With what!?" Kash scanned the bathroom, spotting a flipflop near the toilet. Reaching forward he motioned to Mick to toss it to him. She crouched down and kicked it over only to stand up again with wide eyes on the spider.

"Kill it!"

"Shut up!" Kash snatched up the lone flop and began his sneaky yet slow creep towards the drain monster.

"Hurry the hell up!"

"Mick! Shut the fuck up! I swear if you dont ill leave you in here with it!" Kash got three feet from the crawling spider when it suddenly froze.

"Oh shit its on to us."

"Oh my God, why is it that damn big!?"

Kash raised up the flip flop ready to deliver the killing blow when it move slightly causing him to fling the rubber shoe at it and jump back with a yelp. Mick let out a squeal, nearly slipping off the toilet in the process. The spider felt the shoe hit but ran straight towards Kash who instantly jumped up on the side of the tub with a scream.

"What the fuck!?"

"You just pissed it off!!"

"Its Arnold Schwarze-spider! What the fuck did you expect!?" Kash stared down at the eight legged demon with pure terror, Mick was frozen in fear.

"Now were trapped in here with the Spider Terminator!"

"Its your fault!"

"My fault?! How the hell is it my fault!? Your the one who threw something at it!"

Mick cringed as it began walking aimlessly around the floor.

"Its got our scent now. Itll tell its friends then we'll have a whole squad of Predator Spiders." Mick gave him a long irritated look, Kash met it with a goofy grin.

"Stop with the movie shit. Seriously how do we kill it?" Kash glanced around until he spotted a full liter shampoo bottle beside his foot.

"This should do the trick." Picking it up Kash turned to the spider who was now sitting quietly in the middle of the floor. He raised his arm then flung down the bottle, an auditable crunch was heard as the liter squished the spider king. Mick let out a sigh of relief, but remained on the toilet just in case this spider was still alive. Kash leaped down to inspect before turning to Mick with a smile. When he did his eyes met hers, then slowly realised she was still naked, a blush creeping up his cheeks. Mick seemed to have forgotten as she climbed down still watching the shampoo bottle.

Kash couldnt help his eyes from studying her luscious curves. Her body was mostly healed, some yellowish bruises were left behind. Her breasts were plump with soft pink nipples, they sat perky on her chest. His eyes lowered to her midsection, lingering on her toned tummy and cute inny belly button. He followed a small landing strip of red pubic hair to her lips and tight gap. His forming erection twitched in his sweat pants. Her well muscled thighs were thick, making him absenmindedly lick his lips. Kash scanned her body again, only this time Mick was paying attention when he was not.

Mick could almost feel his eyes raking over her skin, making heat pool between her legs. She followed his eyes, tensing slightly when his eyes reached a sensitive spot. Slowly she drew her hands across her stomach, his hungry gaze following the trail her fingers made as it flowed up between her breasts to her neck.

Kash met her gaze, her cheeks flushed a little redder, her eyes glazed over with lust. Her full lips parted slightly as she let out hitched breaths of air. He stepped towards her, his eyes locked on hers. Mick stepped back, sitting herself on the counter facing him. Kash reached out to stroke her knee as he stood in front of them. The redhead raised a shaking hand to his chest, her lithe fingers tracing his abs slowly until her fingers met his pants line. Kash let out a rough gasp as she dipped them into his waist line hooking onto the material. She have him a gentle tug towards her, he spread her legs apart to step between them. With strong hands he reached around to grab her bare ass and pick her up to scoot her exposed clit into his now hard member beneath his pants. A soft moan echoed around the bathroom, a growl following after as small hands grabbed his cock and began stroking it. Kash leaned into her touch as her finger rubbed the tip of his cock, smearing pre-cum around the head.

Mick watched him, eyes hazey with pleasure at seeing this strong man melting from her touch. She wanted to make him cum with just her hand alone but the ravenous lust she felt pooling in her gut wouldnt be quinched with just touching him. A mewl of ecstasy slipped from her mouth as a digit began slowly caressing her dripping lips. She bucked her hips, a plea on her tounge for him to ravish her. She spread her legs further for him, his finger dipped between her folds and began a slow dance around her small bundle of nerves. Her hand gripped his cock tighter as the sensations of his touches made the inner walls of her opening twitch. His tounge flicked across her ear lobe until his teeth snapped on it lightly, his free hand gripping her ass tightly. Mick groaned as she felt her climax coming, lulling her head back to allow his lips on her throat. Placing open mouthed kisses from her jaw down to her collar bone, his thumb suddenly smashed down on her pearl. The sudden change made a white hot bliss fall over her as she orgasimed, he continued to move his thumb harder to lengthen it.

Mick lost her breath, he had made her cum so easily. The high of her orgasim still in effect she quickly shoved down his pants waist and pulled out his cock. He withdrew his fingers as both his hands clutched onto her thighs. She gripped him tightly, slowly stroking him with both hands. Her pace was driving him crazy, his hips automatically began pumping his dick into her hands as she continued her onslaught on his member. He looked to her face and nearly came in her hands. She was watching his cock with a needy mouth biting on her bottom lip. Her face flushed and eyes dulled with lust and satisfaction. He had thought of her this way but seeing it was enough to make his balls ache.

Pulling away her hands she turned to look at him with annoyance. He pulled her until her ass was on the edge of the counter, one hand gripping her hip the other on the base of his dick. Rubbing the tip against her clit made them both groan. Kash stared at her, stilling his movements. He wanted to make sure she wanted this, and he wasnt disappointed, she nodded swiftly as she pulled him by the nape of his neck to kiss her. Eagerly his lips smashed into hers, forcing hers apart to dip his tounge inside. Their tounges faught for dominance, her fingernails digging into his shoulder while the others clutching his hair.

Kash angled himself to her opening, rubbing the entrance until she squirmed against his hold on her hip.

"Please." She murmured into his mouth, he had wanted to tease her but that had ended that. He slowly entered her, breaking their kiss to lean his head on her shoulder with bared teeth.

"Fuck. Youre so tight." He growled, she clenched him harder with a smug giggle. With a grunt he pulled out only to slam into her roughly. A mewl of shock and needing reached his ears as he slowly pulled out only to slam into her again. She thought he was teasing her again but really he was so close to cumming from just being inside her.

Mick bucked her hips into his, his balls slapping her ass loudly. Kash's hand jerked back her head by her hair to maul her mouth once more. Mick moaned as his cock rubbed her g spot, then let out a muffled scream when a finger met her clit.

"Kash!" Kash couldnt handle it anymore, he needed to release. Grabbing her hips with both hands he slammed himself into her, picking up the pace. Mick and Kash moaned together, feeling their orgasim about to hit.

The door bell rang, Mick jumped, her head snapping to the half open bathroom door. Kash ignored it, he needed this so bad, needed her. Just when he was about to explode Mick pushed him away to stand up. Kash gave her an annoyed look, leaping down she quickly dressed and walked down the stairs. Kash followed in his boxers while slipping on his mask, his erection still tenting his boxers.

"Hey open up!" Kash frowned, of course theyd be interupted by this clown. Mick glanced at Kash, her eyes were troubled. She backed away until she was beside him.

Kash had made it clear to everyone in the precinct the night Mick was hiding in the bathroom at the bar, stay away for a while. Apparently this idiot didnt understand what that meant. Adjusting his erection into his waist band he answered the door, leaning his body into the door frame with the door only open enough for their guest to see him.

"Oh hey Kash! I came by to see Mick." Kash gave the blonde man a hard look,

"Naruto, she's not up for visitors." The blonde rookie gave him a once over, eyes suspicious.

"I would guess not." His tone made Kash raise an eyebrow. Was this punk trying to pick a fight? Everyone knew Kash and Mick had a close relationship, one that danced on the border of friendship and sexual Or tthats how it looked to other people. And he could understand how it would look him answering the door with wilder hair than usual and in his boxers with a slight bulge visible.

Naruto gave him another once over before trying to look in the house on his tippy toes, Kash glared in annoyance.

"Look i just want to say hello then ill leave."

Mick stood at the front door, her hand on Kash's fingers holding the door. She wasnt visible to Naruto. Kash sighed loudly before flicking a questioning glance at her from the side. Mick ducked her head with a slow shake. No.

Mick wasnt ready to face anyone, her eyes began to sting from the hot tears that threatened to spill over. She felt embarrassed with herself, her actions around her work comrades had been pitiful.

She turned and made her way into the kitchen, sliding down the door when it closed until her knees met her chest. Wrapping her arms around herself she tried to hold in the tears, what was she doing? Getting drunk in public and crying like a child. Hiding away in her home because she was too scared to face the world. Then her having sex with Kash, the only person she had to count on. What if all this blew up in her face? What if she lost Kash? A gasp of disbelief and agony ripped from her chest, she covered her mouth as tears finally ran down her face. Loosing Kash would kill her, she needed him now more than ever. It was the thought of him that had kept her from giving up all those weeks of torture. Mick slammed her eyes shut, sliding her hands into her hair at her temples. Gripping the red locks as she bared her teeth, what the hell was she doing?! The sound of teeth grinding and soft choking sobs reached her ears, the taste of salty tears on her lips.

She had to shove her feelings for Kash away, she was too damaged for him now anyway. He needed someone to take care of him not the other way around. He deserved so much more than her, he needed a strong woman not this pitiful creature sitting in a heap on the cold floor. Mick opened her eyes, her heart hardened, she couldnt allow him to throw his life away on her. She was damaged, useless and broken.

Mick stood, her legs carrying her over to the sink. Clammy hands gripped the counter as she hung her head to stare into the sink. Heart hammering as her eyes raked over the knife, tears formed in her eyes as she picked it up.

With shaking hands she watched the blade glint in the sun.

"Theres nothing left for me." She mumbled as a tear drop landed on the blade. Slowly she readied the knife, it hovered over the blue veins beneath the pale skin on her wrist. She gritted her teeth,

"Do it! Do it damnit!" She willed herself but her hand refused to move.

The kitchen door flung open startling her into dropping the knife in the sink with a gasp of breath she hadnt realised she was holding in.

Kash paused as his eyes took in the scene,

"Mick!" He was beside her in an instant, gripping strongly at her wrists to force her to look at him. Her head was hung, a curtain of red hair blocking her face as she panted out sobs. Tears hit the floor between them,

"What the hell were you thinking!?" He screamed as he shook her roughly, she fell to her knees.

"You fucking idiot!" he dropped down to clutch her into his chest,

"Let me in, Mick! Dont cut me off!" She gripped his torso tightly, her eyes slammed shut.

"I love you so much! Dont ever think of killing yourself!" He nuzzled into her hair as tears brimmed his eyes.

"My life would be meaningless without you." He choked out, pulling her tighter into him. His heart was pounding, when he saw her prepared to end it he nearly lost his mind. He finally got her back. Finally admitted his feelings to her and himself.

"Dont.." she mummbled as she pulled away from him, her eyes on the floor between them.

"Dont what?" Mick closed her eyes, a lump forming in her throat,

"Dont say that." Kash went to touch her but she shoved his hand away, turning her eyes on his face.

"Dont you get it? That man...he took something from me, im not whole anymore." Mick clenched her fists, turning her eyes down to watch her skin turn white on the knuckles.

"Stop it Kash, i have too much bagage. My mind is warped and distorted." A large pair of hands rested on hers, squeezing lightly. Mick jerked hers away, lifting her head to snap at him but froze. His eyes. Those beautiful charcoal orbs. The sadness there made Mick cringe inwardly. In that moment she saw all the pain and suffering he had endured when she vanished. The betrayal on his face as she rejected him. He had finally let her in after all these years, let her see him. The innocent vulnerability there as he watched her. He had finally opened up and allowed himself to love her and she had cut him to the quick.

His eyes crinkled as his eyebrows pulled together, the agony flickering across his face. Mick had to look away, she had never seen him make a face like that. Not even when his father died. Mick franticly searched the grains in the hard wood floor for answers it or she didnt have. What the hell is she doing?

Mick shoved herself away from him, Kash felt his heart rip into shreds. Confusion and utter heartbreak rocked his body making his limbs numb. Kash swallowed down his disparities, trying to harden his heart once more but failing miserably.

"I see." Mick refused to look at him, her eyes widened as she heard his hoarse tone that let her know he was fighting tears. Mick curled into herself, drawing her arms to her chest as she lowered her head to the floor infront of where her knees met the cold hardwood. Clenching her jaw as she bared her teeth, holding her breath to choke down sobs in her throat. Kash turned to lean his back into the cabinets, his palms covering his watering eyes.

Neither moved for a long time, both fighting down tears as to not make the other feel worse.

Mick couldnt allow herself to love anymore, she would only hurt him now. He was too important to her, too good for her. Mick felt broken down, her time being tortured had stolen away parts of herself. Her self-confidence, her strength but most importantly her ability to allow herself the happiness she desperately needed.

Kash had given everything to her now, his mind and his heart. What he wished for more than anything was for this pain in his chest to go away. Kash had always kept his feelings in check and when he was finally able to let go of those inner walls it only ended in pain. Mick had been able to do what no one else had done. Break him. The man sitting in the kitchen floor with his heart on his sleeve was a rouge in this territory called love. She had broken him but not beaten him, his steely resolve wouldnt take a defeat.

Kash dropped his hands to his lap, turning to look at the puddle of woman to his side.

"Mick." She didnt move, Kash frowned and turned to face her. His voice hardened causing her to jump slightly, she raised her eyes to his face. Tear stained and red puffy eyes met hard charcoal orbs.

"Ill wait for you, Mick." She opened her mouth but Kash held up a hand to her as he stood to his feet. She lifted her head, studying him for a moment until she took his extended hand. Standing their eyes met and he smiled softly at her,

"Ill wait for you to get better. No matter how long it takes."