I asked my best friend why people think I'm perfect. Not to sound self absorbed but a lot of people think so. She said I put on a good mask. That the act seemed so real that no one questioned it. The truth is I am no where near perfect. At the moment I'm more broken than 71% of the population. I guess I have created a 1/2 version of myself that isn't really me. Some of it is I guess. My hobbies are real. I love volleyball, and arts and stuff. However my feelings or artificial happiness I put out to others is not. For example my home life sucks pretty much all the time because my parents won't stop fighting about the dumbest things. Or that even even though everyone views me as the straightest person you'll ever meet I'm struggling with finding my sexuality. I just want someone to hand me all the answers on a silver platter like here that will be $27.79. I'm so stressed. Most people in my life think everything is perfectly fine, like I'm that happiest person on earth, but would that happiest person on earth think about cutting? Or stay in her room crying on her birthday because no one wanted to spend time with her? I just feel so lost. I need something to point me in the right direction. But no one would know that from the outside would they? What else am I lying to myself about?