I wish this would go away. It's driving me into a wall. I'm crushing way harder the I ever thought possible. In fact it's impossible to think about anything but her for 5 minutes. Should I straighten my hair? Well I don't know. She played with it today when it was curly so maybe she likes it curly.. or maybe I should diet because that would make me worthy of her beautiful body. I don't know how to make it go away. It's torture. She got mad at me today or at least I think. Volleyball went on as normal until this one drill. She got mad for only having one point. Now I had returned two of her serves but then she got pissed because they were doubles and lifts. She just got so mad at me or herself or whatever and I feel like it's my fault. I was a bit annoyed with the fact that she was basically yelling at me. However she is like that. I feel as if she is so insecure about herself so everything that she does wrong she gets mad at herself. Or maybe she feels like she let people down. I'm not sure. I just hope she is smiling about something right now.
