Damn, four weeks off really causes a lot of problems. A few guys quit because the guy in charge was an ass, I don't blame them he was. But now it's my fucking problem because I have to hire new people. The fucking raining causing us to shut down early didn't help much. Now we are four days behind on a house we have to build. And the guy I left in charge was new so I didn't really know what he would be like. Turns out he's a fucking dick and didn't do any paper work and he's behind on paying people for one of my sites. Most of them have worked for me for years so now that I'm back they know I'll fix this shot but that takes time away from helping Lina. At least it gets me home earlier. After getting all the paper work into my car I drive home.
I've been texting her as much as I can but I've had things to deal with. I don't want her to think that I only helped because I wasn't working. I know I have to put in my fair share of the kids especially when she goes back to work. I'll still be working longer hours than her but she keeps our family afloat so I can't say she doesn't do anything. She does everything. She wakes up with me to make me breakfast, feeds the baby, get Isabelle dressed and in school, takes care of the house, and the dog. Fuck she does so much and doesn't complain. I know she wants to but she doesn't because she feels bad that I spend all day working.
At least I know when I get home that she'll be there and everything will be taken care of. I arrive at the house and take my boots off before getting in, I know she'll be pissed if I get the carpet dirty. I make my way inside and see that everything is quiet. Isabelle is in the kitchen cutting up bananas with a plastic knife and Evan is in his rocker sleeping peacefully. "Hi baby." I say walking up to her.
"Hi daddy. Look I'm making a snack for later. I can share if you want some." She shows me her plate which has some soft fruit in it.
"Sure baby thanks. Do you know where your mommy is?"
"She got some new shirts because Evan got her shirt dirty." She says matter of fact. I nod my head before placing a kiss to her head and heading to our room. I see her coming down the stairs looking at her phone. Damn she looks good. She's wearing some shorts and one of my loose t shirts. She has her appointment sometime next week and it couldn't come and sooner my balls feel like they weigh a million pounds. She's been hiding her body from me but I know she wants to get back in shape. I haven't seen her naked in weeks. Damn this is the longest I've gone without sex since I first had sex. She's looking at her phone so she doesn't even see me when she walks by.
"Isabelle are you almost done?"
"Yes can I give daddy some?" She says picking up her bowl of fruit.
"Sure when he gets here. Do you want to save him a plate?"
"He's right there silly." She turns around surprised to see me. Usually she would be happy but right now I can't tell. She smiles but it's not her usual I'm-happy-to-see-you smile. It's more of what she does when somethings wrong.
"When did you get here?"
"What no i missed you? Or I love you?" What the hell is wrong.
"Oh... You just surprised me that's all." She puts her phone away and comes to greet me. She stands with her hands on my chest looking up at me.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing. Did you want dinner?" She asks stepping on her toes. I reach down to kiss her briefly.
"Sure." I figured if she wants to talk about something it will be after dinner. "Aren't you going to eat with us?" She been in the kitchen for a few minutes while Isabelle and I wait for her to join us.
"Not now. Evan's hungry. I'm gonna feed him. Did you need something?" She hasn't looked at me.
"For my wife to tell me what's bothering her." She looks down at our son in her arms. She sighs.
"Later. I have to feed him. I'll be back in a little bit." She walks up stairs without telling me anything. Isabelle spends dinner talking about school and I'm not really paying attention. I just nod every once in a while. When we're finished I pick up our plates and she goes into her room to finish some homework. I walk into my office and start figuring how to fix all the shit that happened while I was on vacation.
Lina knocks on the door before coming in and sitting in the chair in front of me. "How was work?" She asks quietly.
"Fine. How was your day?" Are we really going to make small talk now?
"Um... Okay. I went for a walk with George when it wasn't raining."
"Yeah I haven't taken him out in a few days." She nods her head. We sit in silence just looking at each other. Just as I'm about to say something she walks toward me and straddles me. Her arms go around my neck and she hides her face in my neck.
"Are you going to work late today?" She mumbles into my neck. I know I do have things to do but I don't want to do it now. I'd rather just stay like this with her.
"No."
"Okay." She pulls back to look at me and sits on my legs. "I'll let you finish and I'll see you when you're done. I love you." She kisses me briefly before getting out.
What the hell? Fuck it I can finish this tomorrow. I put everything away and find her eating in the kitchen. I move her so she's on my lap and she can still eat. "When's your next appointment?" I know when it is but I can't stand this silence.
"On Monday. It's for me and Evan. Are you going?"
"Yea but I can't take the entire day." I say taking a bite of her food.
"That's okay. It's during your lunch so just take a long lunch and you'll be back at work." She says. "So, today, you can't get mad. I need to you to stay calm."
"We'll see." I say drinking her soda. She has to get up to get more food since I practically ate everything. She comes back and sits on my lap again before continuing to eat.
"Thank you for eating my food." She says sarcastically. I know she doesn't really mind. "Any ways, my boss called me and told me I had to go in and talk to her." I know Lina wanted to go back to work after the baby but she really doesn't have to. I haven't talked to her about it yet but I'm thinking about it.
I know Christian and Ana got in a fight because of that. They still argue about it and even though Teddy is four months old Ana still hasn't gone back and Christian is telling her not to. Lina would just tell me to fuck off if I try to make her do something she doesn't want to which is why I haven't said anything, yet. But so far I know she'll be here at home at least another month. I don't give a shit what her boss wants she isn't working till then.
"About what?" She gives me a look.
"Shhh just let me talk. Well when I got there turns out someone had broken in. They were looking for something. Whatever hey were looking for was in my office. Jessica thinks that it was probably information on a client I had. The guy who went in had to have messed with the security feed and they kind of... They killed the guy who was working in the security office. Anyways, she just told me that I should be careful. I just didn't know how to tell you earlier. I don't want you to worry." She takes a bite as if this is just some normal conversation. Is she serious?
"You don't want me to worry? Lina they could be looking for you. How the fuck do I stay calm with this shit happening?" I tighten my grip on he leg. She puts her hand on my cheek.
"Because it's not a big deal. I mean it could be but I don't think so."
"If it's not a big fucking deal, why were you so quiet earlier. You don't get like that for no reason."
"Elliot." She drags out my name. "It's just not and if it is then we'll deal with it then but I think everything is going to be fine. Please don't worry too much. I only told you this because I don't want to keep it from you. And some detectives are going to come by later, probably tomorrow actually, to see if I can find out what he took." She is trying to act casual about what's happening but this is serious.
"Lina! It does matter. Why can't you see that? Someone could have hurt you. Hell they might have been looking for you for all we know and you don't give..." I stopped and lowered my voice. I didn't need Isabelle to freak out. "You don't worry about your safety and you should. Where was Evan when you went? Did you take him?" Fucking perfect, not only does she not give a damn about her safety but she puts him in danger.
"What? Why are you asking?" She stands up to look at me. She's mad at me? She's the one who's being irresponsible here.
"Because I want to know if you took my son to a fucking murder scene." I say standing up.
"It's not like I knew it was a murder scene. I went because someone asked me to. And so what if I did. There were dozens of police officers." She's really fucking asking for it. I walk away to our bedroom knowing she'll follow me. "Elliot where the hell are you going? Are you seriously just going to ignore me?" She says. I close our bedroom door knowing this room is practically sound proof.
"No I'm not ignoring you. I'm thinking about my kids. I worry about them when you take one of them to a murder scene. I don't give one shit if there is secret service men there. You shouldn't have taken him. That could have been dangerous. As soon as you got there and saw all those police officers you should have called me. You should have left and called Jessica to fuck off. Tell her you are on leave and until you start working again you don't have to answer to her." I practically shout.
"Your being so dramatic about this. It's not a big deal. You don't even know what happened." Fuck do I have to spell it out for her. She's been so... Stupid. I honestly can't take this. She just didn't think. She's usually really smart but how could she just do something so stupid?
"It is a big deal I don't want my son going into a dangerous situation. Just because you don't give a fuck about your safety doesn't mean you should be an idiot and take Evan into the same situations. You can't be doing shit like that. I'm not going to just sit here and let you risk his life because you don't give a shit!" She steps back to look at me.
"Is that what you think?" She asks quietly.
"Yes Lina that's what I fucking think. I wouldn't have said it if I didn't mean it." God she's frustrating. I pull on my hair before walking into the bathroom to take a shower. Maybe when I'm out she'll be more logical.
I heard that after birth woman get crazy. That's probably what been going on with her. I know she's been all emotional. Happy one minute and the next she won't stop crying. Last week we were shopping and everything was fine but when she went to a store to buy a shirt her mood changed. She was practically dragging us all home. When we got home she fed the baby then locked herself in our room. She said she wanted to be alone. Another time was when I left my boots in the living room she went ballistic. She was yelling at me for not being able to do something as small as picking up my shoes. After a ten minute lecture I put them away and then I found her crying wiping off the mud from the carpet. Okay that was my fault but I didn't need a fucking lecture. All she had to do was tell me that I needed to pick them up.
Once I was out of the shower I found her tucking in Isabelle. I didn't want to interrupt so I just went to do the gym. Fuck I really have to come here more often. I met up with Scott who usually spots me during weights.
"How's the baby mama?" I shake my head. "Is it the not sex thing? How long till you can screw her again or are you going make sweet desperate love to her?" He saying laughing. I ignore him. I finish my set then spot him.
"She's pissed me off today. Don't talk a both her like that. I'm mad but she's still my wife."
"You know I'm just messing with you. I like her. Anyways what did she do?" He starts his set. I tell him what happened including our conversation when I got home. He doesn't say anything, not that he can he's bout to pass out. Fucker is always trying to outdo me. "So why is she mad?"
"Because she thinks I'm worrying too much. But she's just doesn't worry enough. Not about this anyways. Aren't I right about this?" I ask him.
"No I think you are. Just don't tell her that. Women don't like to admit when their man is right. Just wait it out." He's right if I just let her come to it she'll see that I'm right.
"Yea I'm just, hold on its the brother. What's up Christian?"
"Where are you?"
"At the gym with Scott." He tells me about some shit that's going on with Ana so I invite him over. Twenty minutes later he shows up. "Look at that Scotty the baby bro has blessed us with his presence." I say when he arrives. He looks pissed as hell. Maybe I should have listened to what he was saying.
"Shut up Elliot."
"Alright bro tell me what's up." I tell him joining him in the treadmill even though I already ran.
"She being unreasonable. I think she shouldn't get back to work and she's insisting that she can do it. Is it so wrong to want my wife to stay home with our kid. So many parents would love to be able to stay home and watch their kids grow up but instead she wants to work. I don't know what the fuck she does. It's not like we are struggling." Oh brother, when he didn't have Ana he would spend money on some useless shit just because he could. And he ends up with the only woman, well besides Lina, that doesn't give a shit about material things.
"I'm sure she knows that but Ana just graduated. People don't go to college and think about how great it will be to have a piece of paper. She didn't go to college to sit at home and be Betty Crocker." I hear Scott laugh next to us.
"You are both idiots. You're trying to control your women by telling them what to do. Instead you should be convincing them of why you're right. If you don't want her to work you have to show her why staying home is better. Just because she has a kid doesn't mean all she does is watch him. And he's a baby doesn't he sleep all day anyways?" He's right. And Ana has a damn nanny.
"You should fire your nanny and send Gail on a vacation Ana won't leave the baby then. And you sure as fuck aren't going to stop working. Just sell SIP." I suggest. Problem fixed. Scott's a fucking genius I don't know why Christian and I didn't think of this shit sooner.
"That's actually the smartest thing you have ever said Scott. I knew you graduated for a reason. I don't want to fire her though. I'll just send them both next week on vacation. I'm thinking two weeks. Fuck I'll even give Taylor the time off. Maybe I can get him to take Sophie too. Just to make sure they don't come back suddenly." Bastard that was my idea. "Have you talked to grandpa lately?"
"Yea he called me the other day so I could take his car to the shop why," our 78 year old grandpa lives with our grandma Sydney in a house close to my moms. They have lived there since they got married 56 years ago.
"How'd he sound. Mom said he was okay but you know how she is with them. She tries to downplay it." Christian has always been close to grandpa Theodore, so I know it's been hard on him seeing him age. To be honest when it comes to Christian we all downplay it for his sake. Even Ana caught on a while back and she tries to steer off that subject.
"He looked good. Just tired said he wasn't getting enough sleep. I was gonna get a new bed for him this weekend if you want to come and he wants to buy Isabelle a gift for her birthday. If you want to join us. Mia's coming." I tell him. He nods his head so I know he'll be there. Lately he doesn't miss an opportunity to be with grandpa. I know he's worried about living without him. I am too but Christian doesn't handle people leaving him well. I already had my talk with grandpa about what he wants when he's gone. I think I'm better at that. I'm not so cold hearted bastard but grandpa hasn't been like he was before. I can't really explain it but it's been difficult. He's getting old.
"He's stubborn. Maybe we should get them a nurse."
"Christian he doesn't want that. You know he would hate it and bitch non stop about it." Mom did get him a nurse a few years back but he fired her and ignored mom for days. It had something to do with having strangers in his house.
"I'll talk to him about it."
"Okay." I figured I shouldn't push the subject after. "Hey Christian I have to ask. What's sex like now? I mean is it bad after she had the baby?" I ask him when we are changing in the locker room.
"It's never bad. It was different but after six weeks I was ready to blow."
"Not that it matters because your wife is mad at you." Says Scott. Fuck he's right. I know he is. She better get fucking over it by Monday.
"She'll get over it."
"Better hope so." He says picking. Up his things.
"I'll see you guys later." He walks away and Christian and I are left alone.
"I have to go. I need to apologize to Ana or else I won't get any sex and to be honest it's been too long." He says.
"What a whole two hours?" I say laughing. He joins in and I know that I'm right. Those two fuck so much I don't know how she isn't pregnant yet.
Im not looking forward to going home for once. I don't want to fight with her but she needs to know that I'm not okay with what she did. I guess leaving wasn't the best idea but I wasn't in the mood to talk with her. Once I take a shower and change I'll look for her. She's probably downstairs doing laundry or something because the baby monitor isn't here. When I finish I walk into Evans room and I find her asleep in the rocker with him in her arms. God she's beautiful. She's frustrating and crazy but beautiful. She looks tired. She always looks tired lately. She also isn't as happy and energetic as she was before. That's what happens when she's stuck inside all day.
The lights are dimmed and she has her hand on his back. Shit he really does look like me. Even his eyes are just like mine. He has the same freckle over his eye that Lina points out so often. There is nothing about him that resembles Lina. I should wake her.
I decide to take Evan and set him in his crib. I grab one of the blankets in the closet that is too big for him and place it over her. She'll wake up soon and come to bed. I just can't let her think I'm not mad at her.
The next morning I wake up alone. Lina is in the kitchen making me breakfast for me at four am. She looks exhausted. She can sleep in tomorrow since I will be here. She sits next to me just like she does every morning but she stays quiet. She rests her head on her arm and I watch as she closes her eyes. I take my plate to the sink and get my things in the car. She must have fallen asleep in the kitchen. "Lina. I'm gonna go. Go to bed." She takes a deep breathe and stands up. "Laters." No definitely not caving this time. I can tell she's hurt but she'll get over it.
So I don't know what to write. Or I know what to write but I can't seem to put it onto word. Hopefully I'll figure it out soon. I might do a few filler chapters just to keep updating what do you think? Thanks for reading. And reviewing.
