"How was it?" I ask Elliot as he comes home. Tomorrow they are doing closing statements and they should have a verdict after two days of the trial. Elliot goes to work and shows up in the court room for a few hours then comes home. He's basically working part time but that just means that he brings home a lot of paper work. He sets it all down on the hallway table before stepping up to me. He leaves the keys on the counter just before his hands find their way to my hips then make snake to my back. He rests his chin on top of my head taking a deep breath. My hands are on the back pockets of his pants as I wait for him to talk.

"I missed you." I feel as he kisses my head. Before I can react he pulls back and smashes his mouth on mine. I'm assuming it was bad today based on how forceful he's being. It's not that him being this way is bad but I know well enough that when all he wants is sex that he must have had a bad day. When he's having one of those days he comes in ignores the kids or anything I'm doing and starts to initiate sex. I don't mind except that I'm in the middle of dinner and the kids are awake. Isabelle is in her playroom's desk coloring a picture for Carrick. She been working really hard to make him a picture. She's probably made about ten in the last half an hour alone.

"He keeps dropping it." Isabelle says handing me the pacifier for the millionth time. Evan seems to think it's funny to take it then push it out of his mouth so it rolls on the floor, which means I have to wash it. Elliot pulls back then looks at Isabelle. "You're always kissing." She says making a face at us.

"Because we love each other very much." I tell her as I clean the pacifier. She's waiting for me to take it back. "Don't give it to him just until he cries." I say handing it to her.

"Do you love me very much?"

"Yes."

"You don't give me a lot of kisses." She says. Elliot smiles then kisses her and tickles her. She runs away but he keeps chasing her. I hear her squealing from another room telling him to stop tickling her. To think that once she wouldn't let us hold her. They come back a short while later with Isabelle out of breath and Elliot in a much better mood. "He catches me fast." She says getting some water.

"Let's get some dinner." I tell the two children as they keep running around the house. Even George joined them.

"You don't have to go tomorrow." Elliot says to me later that night.

"Why not? You've been begging me to go everyday and now you change your mind? What happened?"

"It's a lot of press. I don't want you to be overwhelmed."

"That's it? No other reason?" I ask him.

"Yea, give me five minutes to think of something else." I give him that but he just falls asleep. As far as I'm concerned I'm still going.

"I'll pick you up at eleven." Elliot says as he's walking out the next morning.

"I'll be here." I say kissing him quickly. I can tell he doesn't want me to go but he doesn't say anything.


After dropping Evan off at Andy's house for a few hours I get to my house at around nine thirty.

"Why aren't you dressed? I thought you were going today? You are still going right? I thought I could ride with you and Elliot. If that's okay. Luke had to be at work this morning so I told him that it was fine and I'll meet him there. Now I'm wishing he didn't go. God everything has been horrible. His lawyers are making it seem like Ana provoked him and he's some victim in this whole thing. I don't even know how he has such good lawyers. Christian won't even tell me. Are you going?" She says out of breath.

"Yes I'm getting dressed soon I just had to pick up some breakfast and drop Evan off. We still have time." She was a little too worried or maybe I just wasn't seeing how things could turn out.

"Time, we have to be there in twenty minutes." She says shouting.

"It's at eleven." I remind her.

"No it's at ten but we have to be there earlier. I mean we are already late." He wouldn't? Would he? He would. Elliot said I didn't have to go I just didn't think he would lie about the time. I dial his number and tell Mia to not say anything.

"Hello?" He says.

"Hey baby. What time are you going to be here again?" I ask casually.

"It got pushed until twelve so I'll see you then. Where's Evan?"

"He's at Andy's. I'll see you soon then."

"Love you." He says before hanging up. I look at Mia shaking my head. I don't even have time to be mad because I'm being rushed upstairs to change.

"I'm sorry he lied to you." Mia says in the car.

"It's not your fault. Where's your security?" She points to the SUV parked in my drive way. I walk over to them and let them know that they can't tell anyone I'm with her. They just have to say Mia is on her way.

Elliot is an ass. I get he's trying to keep me safe but does he have to lie about things like this? Why can't he just stop treating me like a piece of glass. It's frustrating, having to find this out. Then he just lies to me on the phone. We make it to the court-house with five minutes to spare. Carrick is outside waiting for us.

"Lina I didn't know you were coming. Elliot said you changed your mind." He says as we walk.

"I felt bad not being here. Mia wanted me here and I promised her I would come. Plus you're family. If I'm the only one not here what does that say about me?" I smile kindly to him as he opens the door. Elliot's face drops as soon as he sees me. I sit between Mia and Elliot. He just keeps looking at me but I look ahead. This isn't the time to talk about it. He takes my hand, I want to just pull mine back but I can't cause a scene. I can see how nervous everyone is. Jack Hyde however looks quite relaxed twitching but relaxed. If what everyone is saying is true then it's possible that he might be found not guilty by the cause of insanity.

"You look beautiful." Elliot whispers to me. I can hear in his voice that he's sorry but I'm still mad. And rightfully so. "Lina," he turns to look at me.

"Now isn't the time. I'm here because Mia wants me here."

"Your only here for her?" He asks looking hurt. No, he doesn't get to be hurt or feel sad. He doesn't get to pin this on me.

"She is the only one who asked me to come. The only one who... cared enough to tell me." I say. I could say a lot more but I can't without my voice breaking.

"Don't try to say I don't care about you. You know that isn't true." I know he's right but I'm still mad. Is he embarrassed of me, is that why he didn't want me here. Or maybe I did something wrong? I dont have time to ponder over it anymore because it starts. I'm hoping it takes a long time that way I won't have to talk to Elliot, yet.


"Lina, no," Elliot grabs my hand just as I'm about to step outside. "There's too much press we have to wait for Christian's guys." He holds me close to him placing a protective hand on my waist.

Once Mia and Luke join us the doors are opened and Elliot's grip on me tightens. There are cameras flashing everywhere asking question at everyone. "Mrs. Grey do you agree with the verdict?" "Is it true you had a relationship with Hyde?" "Why of you think he did it?" "How long was your affair with jack?" Questions that honestly knowing Ana seem ridiculous but they seem to think it's true. "Don't worry Miss Grey you'll see him in a few months." I know that must have hit a nerve with Mia. No only do they accuse Ana of being intimate with Jack but Mia too. I've seen the magazines I know what they say.

"Don't listen to them." Elliot says taking my hand and walking in front of me. Once we finally get to where the cars are he walks me to where his car is and opens the passenger door.

"Elliot my car is here." I remind him.

"You aren't walking out alone. We can pick it up later now we just have to get to Bellevue. Please don't argue. You're pissed and I get it but please just put up with me for a while longer then you can hate me all you want." He says. He's fucking pissed. It's for a combination of the verdict and the damn cameras. I'm mad too but he's getting crazy.

Once we stop at a red light away from the chaos I grab his hand off the wheel.

"Calm down." I tell him quietly.

"Calm down. He could be out in what four, five years? He tried to fucking kill my sister and Ana and you want me to fucking calm down."

"You're scaring me." I know it isn't right to manipulate him but I also think that with his crazy driving we'll end up in a hospital room. He takes a deep breath then takes a sharp right to an abandoned parking lot.

"I'm sorry okay? I didn't want you to be part of the fucking circus with all the press and I didn't want Jack fucking Hyde to see you. I thought he would get out. I thought that they would say he's not guilty and he would get out. If he did and he knew you what you looked like I thought he'd come after you so I lied about the time. I didn't want to tell you because I didn't want you there. I was going to go home when this was over and apologize for lying then." He doesn't look at me.

"I think that both of us often do things with good intentions but we go about it all wrong." I say simply because that's all I know to say. Even though I'm mad about the lying I do think that him over worrying about me is incredibly sweet.

"I'm sorry I lied."

"It's okay. I forgive you." I kiss his cheek. "because I love you." He smiles just before turning to give me a proper kiss. He let's go then sits back on his seat turning on the car. Just as he's about to drive I place my hand over his and look at him. "You know what sucks about breast-feeding?" I ask him.

"That you're boobs hurt when you don't feed." He's right, mostly because I'm always complaining about it when just as I'm about to feed Evan.

"That too. But also that my hormones are crazy. I mean they were worst a few weeks ago and during the pregnancy but now it's just every once in a while."

"What, you changed your mind about forgiving me?" He chuckles.

"Actually I was thinking that you could take your pants off because I really need you... inside me." He looks at me shocked.

"Now? Here?" He looks around but it's empty.

"Now. Wherever." He starts unbuckling his pants as I remove my panties and pull my skirt up. "Take off your shirt and bra." He looks at me. He loves my breasts. He pushes back his seat and moves the steering wheel so that it's higher. Once he's ready he looks at me waiting.

"Fuck baby you really did need this." He says as he starts feeling how wet I am. I feel as if it's been weeks since we last had sex but honestly it was just yesterday morning. I was willing last night but he fell asleep.

"I always need this. Lately," he sucks on my neck. "I've been so turned on by you." I move my hand between our bodies and stroke his dick along my wet core. "Do you have any idea how hot it is watching you. And today I woke up and needed you so much. All I kept thinking was how I could get you to fuck me even though it so been a hard day." I bite his ear and as soon as he groans I lower myself on him slowly. I lean back and put my hands on his knees. As soon as he starts kissing between and around my breast I have to move. Even after all this time with Elliot it's hard to get used to his size but god does he feel amazing. It's as if I've been waiting for this moment forever and the friction of him moving in and out of me is so satisfying. Like that itch that you can finally scratch. Or finally getting sleep after days of being tired. Except I'm not tired. I just want to move. To keep moving on him and keep feeling his length move in and out of me as if it's our last time. It always feels that way because with two kids sex has become unpredictable. Spontaneous which is either hot as hell or as frustrating as not being able to come. Which isn't a problem with Elliot. Never has been. Every time I think I'm close he slows his movements or stops completely. At first it bothered me but now I get it. It makes me come even harder than before. I thought I knew what an orgasm was but ever since we started having sex after Evan was born it's like Elliot tests my limits as to what I can do, how I can flex my body or how I let him take me or me take him. Regardless it's ridiculous. But nothing is better than that glorious feeling of when he finally makes me cum of when I can't contain my emotions and my movements. Just like now. He has to move my hips up and down as he finishes off inside me.

By the time we are done I'm sure our agreed "fifteen minutes" had come and gone. Much like my energy. He pushes me back slightly so he can press his lips against my lips, then moves to my nose, each eyelid, against my cheeks and to my mouth again. His hands are sprawled on my back feeling my soft bare skin.

I know my phone has been ringing for a while but it was on vibrate so we easily ignored it. "Hey Mia." I say into the phone with out moving from my position on Elliot's dick. He tries to pull out but I move his hands over my breasts and start massaging them. As soon as he catches on to how I want to be touched he stops struggling and just goes with it. He looks completely captivated by the view.

"Are you coming to Bellevue? We are waiting for you two so we can decide on what to make for dinner. Teddy is on his way here." She says in an attempt to lure me into going. I look at Elliot silently asking him what he wants. He shrugs and continues his massage.

"Sure. We are almost at Andy's and we have to get Isabelle from school."

"Alright I'll see you here." We say our good byes and I can focus on his god given hands again.

"We have to go." He says. I nod my head I slowly lift my pelvis and watch as we become separated again. Once he's out of me a few drops of him land on his legs. He reaches into my bag knowing I have moist wipes inside then cleans up between my legs. He is getting another one but I run my index finger on the bead of cum. I slowly put the finger in my mouth tasting his salty ness sucking. I do it again with the rest of the liquid but instead I hold it out in front of him. He looks at me quizzically.

"Trust me it tastes good." I say biting my lips. He takes my wrist and sucks on my finger.

"You want to taste something better?" I nod my head. He guides my wet finger between my breast and down my stomach. He guides me so that we both have a finger inside my self. He pulls my hand and pressed the pad of my finger in his mouth and his finger in mine. As we are about to repeat the process my phone rings.

"Listen Mia, me and Lina didn't have sex for two months after the baby so she's pretty horny lately, in fact I'm balls deep inside her right now. I really like to fuck her. Because hearing her moaning is a hell of a lot better than hearing you so just stop callings so I can fuck her properly and-"

"That's wonderful Elliot. I'll pass that along to Mia. Actually I have you on speaker so the whole family knows not to bother you both now. But I just wanted to tell you that the fire department has been trying to contact you. I'll let you go son so you can just finish." Says Grace just before hanging up.

Oh god could that be anymore embarrassing? I cover my face with my hands and lean into his chest. Balls deep? God everyone is going to think I'm so horrible for being less considerate of what happened today. Elliot kisses my head before chuckling. Soon enough we are both laughing even though the situation really isn't that funny. It's actually not funny at all I don't see why we are laughing.

"That's embarrassing." I tell him frowning.

"I'm sorry baby. Come let's get dressed." He says still smiling. "Feeling better?" He asks me as I take a seat in the passenger's side.

"A little."

After picking up the kids we make our way to Bellevue. Elliot opens my door and kisses me swiftly before going to open the door for Isabelle. Once it's open she doesn't waste a moment running inside. "I'll take him." I grab my smiling baby and walk inside. Christian just looks at me at me smirking. Oh god I really don't want to be here.

At least everyone looks more relaxed now. I spent a good part of that day avoiding eye contact with Grace but could you blame me? And Elliot was completely exaggerating. Elliot acts like nothing happened but that's because he's a guy he thinks it's completely hilarious. "You shouldn't worry so much, we have sex everyone knows it. I don't know why you're so embarrassed. They know how this kid happened." He says making a face at Evan.

"Elliot have you called the fire department yet?" Grace says as she comes in. "It seemed urgent."

"I was going to just as you walked in." She gives him a look walking away. "Do you want to start heading home Isabelle has to shower."

"Yea just call on the way home and I'll drive." I say as I grab the keys from his front pocket. As we are saying our good byes I notice that Ana is still watching her phone like she was an hour ago.

"Hey is everything okay?" I sit next to her and take Teddy. Gosh he's heavy. That's probably because I'm so used to Evan and he's three months younger. He's still adorable though. He has Ana's eyes. He sits up straight and keeps opening his mouth. Ana takes out some baby cookies then hands them to me so I feed him.

"Yes today has been unexpected I guess."

"He's still going to jail, I know he isn't going for as long as he should but it's still 15 years. Just be glad that he'll be gone."

"But that's terrifying. He'll get out when Teddy is fifteen. I don't want him to come after my son when he is released." She says holding on to his legs.

"I'm sure Christian will find a way to protect both of you."

"Yes by locking us in his ivory tower." She responds with a scoff.

"His what?" She smiles at me.

"Sorry it's a joke that Christian and I have."

"He's very protective of you." I comment.

"And I love him for it but I need some time to breathe. That's why I need to keep working. I mean I love my job reading manuscripts. If I could do that all day I would. But now I have to be involved in the financial and logistic aspects of grey publishing. It is not what I imagined for myself. I'm thankful that he loves me enough to give me such a grande gift but I feel like I don't deserve it. I've been given everything on a silver platter since I met my husband and it's been amazing, he's amazing but it's too much. I'm used to working for things."

"So you think you don't deserve it?" I ask. Teddy is focusing hard on the little cookies. He looks so determined.

"Exactly."

"So maybe you should earn it. For yourself. Prove to yourself that you do deserve to be CEO. There is a reason he gave it to you. Not just to keep tabs on you. If all he wanted was to control your work then he would have kept you where you were as an editor." She looked at me puzzled. "Mama always said that if some one gives you something it's ain't so it looks pretty on a shelf. It's so you can make something out of it." I tell her in my best southern accent. "And Ana if you ever feel the need to get out of the house to talk or whatever you could come to our house. I know it's because of me you don't have your best friend as much as you'd like to." I tell her. I do feel slightly responsible. I guess that's why I always feel some competitiveness with her. It's all in my head of course but it's like she's Kate's friend. She my fiancé's ex's best friend. I really have to stop being such a bitch to Ana. This is a start.

"It wasn't your fault. She made her choices. And I made mine." She says smiling at Teddy who can't seem to stay still. "There is this class for moms and their baby's it like an exercise class on Saturdays. Maybe you could join me."

"Yea that's great."

"There you are. Is everything alright?" Christian says walking towards Ana purposefully. He always walks like that. Like he's on some mission.

"Yes actually Lina just invited me on Saturday somewhere. Well it's like a date. Teddy and I with her and Evan." She gives me a look. I secretly love when people tell Christian what to do instead of asking. I'm all about rebeling against the rules.

"Yea it's a baby class. I'll pick you up " I ask standing up not giving room for him opposing to the idea.

"Ana, is this really the best idea. We can have some one come to our home. Or Elliot's if that where you would feel more comfortable." He says looking at me. Ana knows how much I love pushing Christian so she just smiles at me.

"No don't go through the trouble. I'll pick you up. Plus I need to buy something for... Elliot. Especially after today. I'm sure Ana needs something for you Christian. Anyways I see you in a few days. Bye bye Teddy bear." I say kissing him and handing him to Christian. I practically run out of the room. I don't need him to protest anymore.

"Let's go." I take Isabelle's hand and buckle her in her seat and Elliot does Evan. I'm surprised he let me drive. This never happens not in his car.

I hear Elliot talking to someone and he goes silent. I look over quickly and something is wrong. Maybe something happened to one of his construction sites. Maybe a gas leak? I don't know. I keep watching his every now and then until he finally hangs up.

"Can you drive to out old house." He says leaning his head back letting out a breath.

"What is it?"

"There was a fire. Look at the road!" Shit I'm in the middle of two lanes.

"Sorry." I say as I swerve back to my lane. I prefer not to ask questions until we get there, I don't want to cause an accident. Especially not with my family in the car.

We pull up to the house and there are a few officers and some people from the fire department. The gate opens and as we drive closer we see that the side where the kitchen is, was on fire. Where the kitchen was. How the hell is it possible that the house had a fire if no one was here? Someone stops us but Elliot explains this is our house. Their lieutenant walks toward us and Elliot and I get out of the car parking it as close as possible. I lean on the car door as he introduces himself but I'm too focused on the house. Sure I didn't like it but it was Elliot's pride and joy. His baby. I took his hand. God I can't even image what he's thinking. He loves this house.

"A neighbor called about someone breaking in, once the police got here there was a small fire followed by an explosion. So far we think this was arson. You don't get a fire like this so quickly. Looks like most of the damage is done to the kitchen and the bedroom directly upstairs from the kitchen. You have a daughter Mr. Grey?" Elliot's jaw is still on the floor. I can see he's upset by this.

"We do." I answer because Elliot isn't listening.

"That's where the explosion was. You can't stay her tonight or any time soon. I suggest you find a relative or a hotel until the damage is fixed but the police will need to do a formal investigation."

"We don't live here. It my fiancé's house but we moved a few moths ago we just haven't decided what to do with it yet. Can we see the damage?"

"Afraid not. It's too dangerous we don't know how stable the roof is and it could collapse any time. We can't risk it. The fire obviously is out but we were checking for gas leaks. We didn't find anything wrong in the house so we are thinking it was a homemade bomb. We'll have to wait longer and the insurance company will look into it." Someone calls him and he has to leave. Elliot hasn't moved. He's just standing looking at the house. He has a strong grip on my hand but nothing about his stance has changed.

"Elliot!" I turn to see Patrick our neighbor. "Sorry about the house. Have they told you how he got in?" I shake my head. "He delivered a pizza to my house next door. I thought it was my daughters so I let him through the gate and he left. I thought he did but the pizza delivery car was parked on the street. He went in my property and jumped over to yours where there are wooden boards. I looked through the security footage and took a still frame. I thought I'd give it to you guys. I have my guys getting the security tapes to the police but I would want to know who the son of a bitch who tried burn my house down was." He hands me a picture but Elliot grabs it first. At least he's moving again. He shakes his head.

"I don't know him. Lina?" He hands me the picture and sigh. No, no, no, no, no. This can't be really. It can't be him. It's the same guy from the break in at work. It has to be. I'm trying to find differences but the only things I can think of are based on the fact that this picture was taken in the dark. Fuck this isn't good. Not good at all. "Lina?" I close my eyes briefly before looking up at him.

"He's... The guy. The guy from work, the one who broke in." I say handing back the picture. I don't want to look at it. Not anymore. If I look at it then I'll start getting ideas about how he's after me and he wants my kids. How he could hurt them and I can't even protect them. How I don't even know who this guy is.

"Thanks Patrick." Patrick takes the hint and leaves. Evan is whimpering so Elliot takes the picture throwing it in the back and giving Evan his pacifier. "We'll figure it out." He says to me. I nod my head. "We have to tell them. We'll tell them and leave. Just tell them you can go to the station tomorrow." I nod again. I can't even think about anything else other than my babies. Now they're asleep but what about when they wake up. I cant take care of them then.

The police asks a few questions but everything can wait for tomorrow. Right now I want my kids safely in my house where I can image everything is fine and I can take care of them.

Isabelle must have woken up when we were looking at the house because now she's awake. I watch as she puts on her night clothes and lays in bed. I read to her until she's asleep. I just have to make sure she's okay.

I feed Evan then go back to bed where Elliot is waiting for me. As soon as he's wrapped his arms around me I feel safer. A few minutes later there is a knock on the door so Elliot gets up. I'm too scared to open the bedroom door. It's just Isabelle though. She looks so upset I can see that her eyes are watery and as soon as she sees me she begins to sob. She gets in bed with us and I hold her as she cries.

"I don't want you to leave me please. I want to stay here." She says between shaky breaths. I'm confused as to what she's saying but I just listen.

"I don't want to go with Rick. I want to stay with you and daddy and Evan. Please." She begs hysterically.

"Hey calm down baby. You aren't going anywhere." Elliot says as he gently rubs her head. She grabs my shirt tightly.

"You aren't going to make me go with him?" She asks with her blue eyes puffy from the tears. "Then why do you have a picture of him?" Elliot stands up and brings the picture from Patrick.

"That's Rick?" He says showing her the picture. She nods her head.

"Please daddy I'll be a good girl." She says not letting me go. I see Elliot's shoulders drop in defeat. He throws the picture somewhere and gets on the other side of Isabelle. "You aren't going anywhere okay? You belong right her with me and mommy and Evan. You are never going back there."