Sorry for the long wait. Life is hectic. But I though I could split this in two so you wouldn't have to wait too long for another chapter. Thanks for reading and reviewing. And no Elliot did not die. Things just moved on.


Mia POV

How is everyone still asleep? It's so late and I asked them as nicely as I could to please be awake by six. I don't think that is me being difficult. I just want today to be perfect. Today will be one of the best days of my life. As I fidgeted with my engagement ring for five minutes I figured well, I'm the bride. I was staying at Lina's for two days and She had said that if I needed anything all I had to do was ask. Well, I'm asking.

I barged into her and elliot's room to find them intertwined in a way that looks far too uncomfortable than possible. I wonder if that is how Luke and I sleep. Or maybe that happens after a while. Not that they have been together so long. I have been with Luke for a few months longer then them yet they seem to have everything figured out in their lives. They have two kids, soon to be three and they look, happy.

"Can I help you?" Elliot says without moving. I shrug still looking at how peaceful Lina looks next to him.

"Why are you watching us sleep?"

"I'm not."

"What are you doing Mia? Why are you in our room?" Our room, they share the room. So do Luke and I but it's different when he says it about them. It's not just his room but it's their lives. Their lives are completely intertwined in every aspect possible that it makes it impossible for them to ever separate. Or I guess they could but I know that they both would be in a hell of a lot of pain if something happened. Not just them but the kids too, how do they do it? How is it possible for them to love each other so easily yet so entirely and have no sense of self preservation? Christian too, he and Ana have committed so easily that makes me question how they can give up control of their hearts with no second thoughts. They married so quickly that they must not have thought about it. Not that I think they would divorce, they are so perfect for each other.

"Mia," he says startling me from my train of thought. "you okay brat?" He still hasn't moved. If he even moves an inch then Lina will have to reposition herself so she will probably wake up.

"Are you comfortable?" I ask him curiously.

"What? Are you okay Mia?" I can see he's worried but not enough to wake up Lina.

"Are you comfortable?" I look at how he's laying down and he rolls his eyes at me.

"I'm okay she sleeps like this sometimes." Her body is almost completely on his.

"But you aren't comfortable. Why don't you tell her or just move her? Will she really wake up?"

"Sometimes she wakes up when I move in my sleep but I won't move if I can help it."

"Luke moves me if he's uncomfortable." I know this because I'm a light sleeper and I wake up when he moves.

"Well, she's small and she's the one that takes care of Evan at night. And you drool he told me."

"I do not drool!" I shriek making Lina shift. She turns to her other side but Elliot is still holding her somehow.

"Feel free to make us breakfast. But if all you want is to stare well carry on but I'm going back to sleep. We had a long night."

"Thank you for ruining my appetite." I say sarcastically.

"You are the one on a diet. I'm just trying to be supportive here." Jerk.

"I need to wake her up though." I say eyeing Lina.

"No. go away Mia she's asleep and exhausted."

"I'm the bride Lelliot." I pout at him in the way that has almost always worked on him.

"She is my wife. That is more important then a bride."

"I'm you sister. I have done so much for you over the years. Remember that time when I helped you get that girls number when I acts like I was deaf and you did some fake sign language. I could have just ignored you but I didn't."

"Lina gives me blow jobs. She trumps getting a number."

"You're disgusting. And unappreciative." I say just before walking out. We really do have to start getting ready. Today is a big day. Why is this house not full of people running around like crazy? That is really frustrating me that there is no sense of urgency. I go back to my room to take a shower and change into my outfit because I am not doing my hair today I have an appointment for 11.

I did make them breakfast though. Not surprisingly, Isabelle was the first to get up but only because Evan woke her up. I took the baby needing some practice. Isabelle showed me where his milk was so I got him quiet quickly which I'm grateful for because I have no idea how I would have done it without her.

"Why don't you have a baby?" Isabelle asks me when I'm sitting across form her.

"why?"

"Because mommy has a baby and daddy. And Mr. Grey and Ana have one and grandma has my daddy. But you don't have one. You cant get one in you're belly?"

"I can but first I have to get married remember?"

"Mommy didn't get married. She did but that was a really long, long time after she had a baby. B first she had evan then she had married. Did you know that?"

"yes, I did. But me and Luke are getting married first then a baby." I try to explain to her.

"Oh okay."

"Morning." Lina says walking into the kitchen. She takes Evan from me and kisses him like she hasn't seen him in weeks. Then she does the same to Isabelle meanwhile elliot just watches her move grinning from the other side of the island.

"Hey. How'd you sleep?"

"Good ready for whatever it is you have planned for us. Let me just make them breakfast and we can get going." I see that she is dressed in jeans and boots and her jacket it on the couch armrest. I watch as she makes elliot breakfast even though he keeps bothering her by making her dance to the music on the radio. "Baby I love you, but you are going to make me and Mia late for her appointment." I get the door letting in the man who is going to set up the tent outside for the dinner portion of the night. Elliot leaves Lina to deal with it.

"Okay first we have to pick up Ana then my mom. Unless mom is already on her way or at christian's maybe I should call. And after we have to go to the hotel where Luke's mom is staying to pick her up and his sister hasn't arrived yet. God why did I do this so soon most people have their rehearsals day before the wedding so now half my bridal party is missing. My wedding is going to be ruined."

"Okay first of all relax, it is not ruined. I will make sure that his sister knows the order of how the ceremony will go. Second of all this is perfect because that means that we can have your bridal shower after." Elliot comes back in takes the carton of juice from the fridge only to be yelled at and poked by Lina until he stops.

"Have you told him about what we were talking about when we went to the cake testing?" I watch her face fall before nodding. "Well, aren't you excited? It's another baby this is great news right?"

"I had a miscarriage." Oh. Shit great. "Anyway, this is ready so I'm trusting you to feed Isabelle and keep them alive for a few hours on your own. I love you," she kisses Elliot briefly before we step out.

"I am so sorry I didn't know I just wanted to see if you had and you tell me that. Why didn't you call me I would have been here for whatever you needed Lina?"

"its fine. Grace was there when I was at the hospital. It sucks but we moved on I guess. For now we are just trying to get through Evan's first year without thinking about expanding our family at all. He's only six months. To be honest he is such a handful I don't know how the hell I think I can have another kid anytime soon. Things are getting good with us so I think we will just stay the way we are right now."

"So I talked to Luke about the kid situation." I tell her. I'm not sure if now is the best time to mention it but I seriously need to say it. I already told Ana but I want to get Lina's input on things.

"Your'e home early." He's never here early, not before me anyway. He's sitting on the couch with papers thrown everywhere.

"Yeah I thought I would come home and have sex with my fiancée but she wasn't home."

"well, I'm here now." I drop my purse on the floor and remove my jacket as I walk toward him. He starts to remove the papers on the couch setting them on the table. I remove my boots and socks just before my legs go on either side of him.

I lean forward to kiss him and he responds by moving his hand to my cheek cradling my head in his hands. I expect things to be easy and I'm hoping that we can have a quick fuck just before I have to make dinner but something happens when he pulls back to look at me. I feel his lips move slower but his right hand moves from the nape of my neck to my back the into my jeans to touch my ass.

"Mia I need to talk to you about something before we keep going."

"We can talk later," I say kissing down his neck.

"We can have a baby." I keep my hands on his shoulder but sit back on his thighs. "I love you Mia and I'm ready to marry you have a baby and a family. But I need to know that you want that too."

"I do, you know I do."

"But?" He asks when I don't keep talking.

"That's all I had to say," he smirks at me. He knows me too well to think that al I have to say are a few words.

"Because you are Mia I know that there is way more that you have to say so can you please just tell me the conditions you need to place for us to have a baby."

"But I don't want them all at once we can have one." His smile is beautiful and I'm not even done talking. How could I even resist telling him no at anything when it's so easy to make him this happy? "Stop smiling I'm not done." He tries to stop but he doesn't he just smiles without showing his teeth.

"Two?" he suggests.

"One and then just wait a while until we have anymore. Because I know that a baby ill be a lot of work and having to be married to you will be hard. Not because you are difficult but because we are going to be married and I know marriage takes work but just One for now and I want to build myself professionally. I was talking with christian and we went over the restaurant plans. He put it in my name." I say out of breathe.

"He what?" Luke sits up holding my thighs so I don't fall back.

"The restaurant, he bought a space downtown and he set me as the primary owner. And I met with the person who he wants to manage it because it's a trusted guy and he can show me the ropes of things I guess. I don't know it's just too much no? Or do I sound ungrateful?"

"No, Mia it is a lot to take in on one day. But hey you should be happy baby."

"We are steering off topic but I just wanted to tell you over dinner. I ordered something so it should be here soon."

"How soon? Do we have time to celebrate?" He says moving his hands up my thighs.

"Let me get dressed and we can finish this when we eat." I kiss his lips and scramble off his lap before he has a chance to think. Since I will probably be undressed within the next hour I put on some shorts and a loose t shirt. I love getting home and just taking off my bra they are honestly such a hassle. I can't wait for our honeymoon when I can go two weeks without one, nothing but Luke and I for two weeks.

"You started without me?" I ask pretending to be hurt.

"sorry." I don't mind really. I get the other fork and eat from his plate. I don't think it bothers him but he hasn't said anything so I'll assume he doesn't.

I tell him about how I'm meeting with the design team the week after we get back from our honeymoon about how the restaurant will operate. It ridiculous that I'm getting this huge job handed to me just because christian thinks that I deserve it. I'm well aware that I have everything I want and it has all been handed to me on a silver platter but that doesn't mean that I deserve it. It makes me nervous seeing Christian do all of this for me because if this fails it will all fall on my shoulders alone.

"I just don't want to fail, not at this, or being your wife or being a mom."

"Is that what your'e scared of? That you will be a bad mom Mia?" he asks shifting so that he is sitting facing me instead of just next to me.

"Of course, Aren't you scared?"

"Sure but we can figure it out Mia. We have to because I want this and You do too. I know I'mm rushing you into it but this is what I want baby. I can't say that I'll be okay if we never have kids because it won't. I love you but that isn't negotiable."

"I know. I would say the same if you didn't want to have kids with me but I'm just scared. But just one kid Luke, for now."

"Should we start now?" he asks lustfully.

"We could." He looks back at me.

"We could," he says hinting at whats on his mind.

"I want to." I say looking right at him so he knows that I am serious about this. And like that the food much like the rest of the world is forgotten as he starts to remove his shirt then mine. He cradles me carrying me to our bedroom while I rest my head on his chest as he walks down the small hallway into our bedroom. He kissed my forehead before he sets me down on the bed so I can watch him remove his pants which is followed by his boxers and that leaves him completely nude in front of me.

I know that from one night I wouldn't get pregnant. Not because I think it would take a long time but because I was still on birth control. After having two surprise nephew I panicked and have been taking It religiously every two and a half months. I had the shot and so far I have not missed an appointment since I was with Luke. But now I can.

"So that's it your are just going to let it happen or are you going to actually try?" She asks looking at me as we sit.

"Is there a difference?" I ask.

"Yeah didn't you hear Andy and how crazy she was getting when she started getting frustrated that she couldn't get pregnant?" That's true, all she thought about was getting pregnant ad she wouldn't even focus on life. I was a bit extreme but considering I'm okay with waiting then it just shows that I wont go crazy like her, not yet anyway.

"what are you thinking about?" Christian asks me as I am waiting outside where the ceremony place will be. We are going to start the rehearsal soon but I haven't gone in yet.

"It's been a stressful day I think." I say quietly.

"Getting cold feet? Because you know I am more than willing to drive the getaway car. Nothing agains Luke but if you aren't ready that's okay."

"One in two marriages end in divorce. Did you know that?" O ask him shifting my ring around my finger.

"Yes, but that is just a statistic." He says his eyebrows scrunching together.

"That means that out of us and elliot only one will actually stay marriage and then they say that it takes a full two yeas for you to actually get to know someone. And you have to have things in common with someone because if you don't then you could end up divorced. Well, Luke, I love him and he's amazing and he loves me but if all of that is true well, we don't like the same music and when we were talking about the house we want to buy I said that I wanted it to have more than four bedrooms and he said we wouldn't need them. And we can never agree on what to watch either he picks or I do and then if I"m the one to choose he gets upset. That's a sign right that we might be one of those couples. And it's so annoying that when he works on things at home he leaves all his crap everywhere. I don't clean. Or not enough I think. IT just feels like I'm going to marry him and we are so good together but what if in a few years we aren't Should I even be marrying him Christian?" I take a breath and wipe my tears.

"Do you want to marry him?" Christian asks me.

"Yes, but I don't want to fail at marriage. How do I do that? How can I marry him and trust that he won't break my heart? I have always had that in my head but I just want him to love me forever. I trust him but Im scared Christian. How do you do it with Ana?"

"Mia." Christian looks at me for a second before looking behind me. I turn to see Luke watching me. Crap please tell me he didn't hear.

"We are ready to start," he says walking forward so he can put his arm around me. "Do you need a minute?" Thank god he didn't hear.

"Yes. We just need to talk." Christian says for me.

"All right, we can start when your ready."