Remembering You: Remind Me
When your life changes, you really don't think about how much it will change. When days used to be filled with laughs and reminiscing about the good times at university when we couldn't stand each other, to when we were friends and still lightly teased each other, to when we got together. To the times that were confusing after university, before coming to the Vinkus. All was as we wanted it. We were having the time of our lives, just having each other.
Remembering the perfect autumn day when we had the wedding, on the castle ground with all family and friends surrounding us in a private ceremony, just like Fiyero promised, and remembered that I wanted it like that. The leaves floating around us, in swirls like they were dancing. Remembering the time after the ceremony when Fiyero knew I needed time away during the reception afterwards because of the people. He knew there was too many people for my liking, though the reception had to have more people due to royal representatives invited. We went into the observatory at the top of the castle to watch the stars through glass ceiling. I remember that it felt more intimate than the ceremony did. I remember the feeling of being in his arms, and his promises for the future.
I do a lot of remembering for the both of us now.
Ever since it happen, each day Fiyero's memory has gotten worse. It has now come to the point, where he has permanent slight long-term memory damaged, but day to day is getting better. We knew the possibilities. We knew it could affect either. We had good days in the beginning as he was still healing, but then if you ask me, we then always had bad days. They are getting better. He still gets frustrated, saying he swears he knows me, but it's just not there. He gets frustrated when he sees me frustrated.
Ever since, he tells me that I'm a strong person. I scoff with a smirk, telling him, "No, you are. I don't know if I would have the strength to trust someone that people are telling me I know, but I can't recollect."
As always as Fiyero would, he would rebuttle, "That's what you are doing. You are still with me. Someone who can't remember you. But you still stay."
That's usually the short "argument". Some days to ease his frustration, I don't bother. He's still the man that I love, he just doesn't recollect me, Shiz or anything previous to coming to Shiz. We don't know why it is specifically around that time, but he can recollect anything previous to that. I wonder if it is due to where the long-term was damaged.
It's crazy to think that if just that one day happened differently, this would not have happened.
If that one person had not did what they did that day, causing the trauma to Fiyero causing a brain aneurysm causing his long-term memory to have been damaged, our life would be different.
Our life would be normal.
I may tell him one day what happened, if he asks and insists.
There are many things I already remind him about. Such as Shiz, Galinda, Boq, Nessa, as well as events that have happened.
I remember the night it happened.
I remember them saying he had trauma.
I remember things, that sometimes hurt to think about. Remembering what was, and what could have been.
I remember walking into our room at the castle, and him not remembering me.
I remember running to the observatory with the glass ceiling.
I remember the feeling of loneliness.
But, I also remember the good days, the present.
I remember that I have him.
I remember that he has me.
He may not remember the previous me. But, he knows the one he has now, and he loves her just as much as he loved the previous girl. He, of course doesn't know, but I do, and I see the twinkle in his eye when he looks at me, or the smile that is lopsided when my hand brushes his. I know he doesn't remember me, but I believe his subconscious does.
I remember for the both of us.
Even on the bad days, I have him to remind me.
To remind me, about what's important.
AN:
Hello, long time no see. I have been off writing for a bit (okay, a long time) due to many things. Mainly writers block and university. But, I'm going to keep trying to write more. So, due to "popular demand", I will be doing a sort of mini-series/drabbles in this universe, taking you through the journey that these two go through.
This one mainly goes through Elphaba's emotions on the situation, and a bit more of what's going on/what happened.
I can't give it all away yet.
Hopefully, you all will keep coming back. Thank you.
