January, 1977
That Christmas break I had gone to Ireland to visit Jules and his wife. Mother and Father of course didn't know. They thought I stayed at school. But I was in Ireland and while there I met the new Mrs. Julien Kaiser. Her name was Patricia and even though she was a muggle Jules had informed her of the wizarding world.
But that wasn't the most surprising part. Aside from seeing Jules as a completely changed man, I was most surprised when they asked me to be Godmother to their soon-to-be-born child. I immediately agreed.
When I returned to Hogwarts, I told my friends about my excitement. I even went and told the Marauders.
"That's great," Remus told me with a smile.
We sat in the Gryffindor common room by the fire. Remus and Sirius sat in the couch, both with mugs of hot chocolate. I sat cross legged on the floor, barely being able to contain my excitement. James and Peter had been there earlier but had now gone to find Lily, Marlene and Lydia.
"You're brother has really changed then?" Sirius asked, taking a sip from his mug.
I nodded. "And to me he looks happier than he has ever been. It makes me wonder how my childhood would've been like if he had been that way. If he had been that happy."
"There's no point in thinking of the past," Remus said, standing up. "It takes away from the present. Anyway, I should probably find James before he does something stupid in front of Lily. I'll see you later."
"See you later," I repeated as he left the room, leaving me and Sirius alone.
Not wishing to sit in the floor any longer, I sat down on the couch, but on the other side, away from Sirius. These past few weeks have been so hectic that I haven't had any time to really think about the kiss Sirius and I shared. But now thay we were alone, that was all I could think about.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Sirius asked, placing his mug down. "And don't pretend you don't know about what."
I sighed, looking down at my hands. "That depends."
"On what?"
I looked at him and his dazzling grey eyes. "It depends on if you regret it or not. It depends on whether or not it was a sign of commitment or if it was a passing urge or desire. That's what it depends on."
Sirius sighed, looking at the fire. "Remus's secret is our most well guarded secret and that means we don't just tell friends. If we did, there's a good chance Evans and McKinnon might know. No, we only told you because Remus knows how much you mean to me and he doesn't want us having any secrets between us."
"What do I mean to you, Sirius? And please don't fool around."
Sirius grinned before moving closer and so he facing me. "You're annoying, Kaiser, and I think you would've done excellent in Slytherin. But you were kind to me and most importantly to my friends and to Regulus. You're intelligent and witty and absolutely gorgeous. I like you, Cerisa, more than I would've admitted a few years ago."
I blushed and bit my lip. "Careful, Black. I might think you actually care."
Sirius laughed. "We wouldn't want that to happen."
I smiled and after a while I asked, "Now what?"
"We could try and make something out of our feelings?" Sirius suggested awkwardly.
I thought about it. "Can I expect commitment?"
"Full on commitment, like marriage? Probably not," Sirius replied honestly. "But commitment meaning you're my only girl? Then yes. Is that enough for you?"
I grinned and mustered my courage before leaning forward and planting a kiss on his lips. "Fine by me."
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The months afterward were easily the best. To start, whenever there was a full moon, I would be in the infirmary afterwards to be there for the Marauders. Secondly, Sirius took me out to Hogsmeade for my birthday and from there everyone knew that I was his girl. Let's just say a lot of girls were jealous after that.
My brother continued to write letters and we planned another day to meet, this time in Muggle London. I was pleased and so when the school year ended, I went to London to be with Jules and Particia. When I returned home, nothing changed. Mother still screamed at my wild hair and Father practically ignored me. Still, I got letters from all my friends, including Sirius.
For the first time in a long, long time, I could say I was completely and utterly happy.
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So I bet you guys are incredibly suspicious. It's too happy! Well, you got that right. The Marauders last year at Hogwarts won't be so happy.
Anyway, I love you guys and thanks for sticking around!
