Chapter 16- Rivendell Pt.2

Philicia felt Thorin release her hand . She stood there staring out into the distance for a few minutes before turning around . Expecting to find Thorin waiting there she was surprised to discover she was alone. "Oh how I do this, please I love him so. How can I live in this world and give up everything I have ever known." She fell to her knees gasping and shaking as great sobs came forth. Philicia through her tears felt a comforting hand on her shoulder and she twisted around to see who it was. Arwen was there and Philicia fell into the elf and cried till she had no more tears left to shed. "I will take you to your room now." Arwen said helping Philicia to her feet. Everything was a blur while they walked along the twisting walkways till they came to the room she shared with Thorin. "Thank you ", was all she said before shutting the door. Philicia sat on the bed and stared at the floor her mind and body numb. Suddenly there was a knock on the door. "Lassie may I have a word with you" She got up and opend the door and Balin came into the room. First thing he noticed was Thorin's great coat lyin over a plush chair in the corner. That reminded him why he was there. When he looked at Philicia he immediatly knew somthing was wrong. "Is everything alright lass? You look a fright your eyes are so swollen dearie. Did you and Thorin have another disagreement?" Balin expelled the breath he was holding. "No , we had a meeting with .." "She never finished her trail of thought she stood there instead shaking trying not to break in front of him."Ya know I saw Thorin earlier and he seemed awefully upset about something. I asked him about it but he remained silent and went off somewhere. I thought may perhaps you could shed some light on the perdiciment." Balin tried to get Philicia to open up ." Ask me again sometime but for now I can't tell you." She sighed turning her sad eyes to the white haired dwarf. "Very well lass but if you change your mind come and find me." Balin left her alone with her thoughts.

On the other side of the training arena was a secluded area and thats where Gandalf found Thorin. He was walking, talking with Elrond when he heard a noise" My lord Elrond, I have another matter I must attend to " "That would be good, for Thorin Oakenshield could use a understanding ear about now." Lord Elrond then walked on. Gandalf came upon the Dwarf King he was sitting on a stone bench his shoulders slumpt ." Ah there you are ,the others have been wondering what has been keeping you." Gandalf said taking a seat next to Thorin. "I wish to be alone." Thorin barked at the wizard. "Thorin you are not the only one hurting ." Thorin turned to Gandalf his eyes full of unshed tears." She is going home. I have lost her before I ever had a chance to even love her. The elf gave her a way to go home and she is going . She is go-" his voice broke. "Thorin I know for sure that girl loves you and whatever The Lady Galaderial told her she also gave her a way to come back to you." Gandalf reassured him . Thorin thanked the wizard and walked off down the little path that ran along the lake. As he pondered all that the elf had said tears broke free and streamed down his striking face.

Philicia had waited for Thorin for a few hours before crying herself to sleep. She felt the mattress give and warm strong arms wrap around her . The fire was still burning illuminating the room in it's soft glow splaying colors of red and bright orange with hints of blue across the stone walls." Thorin " She wispered turning to seek his face. " Philicia my heart." She started to say something but was cut off when Thorins lips tenderly claimed her's. He sought her entrance and she admitted him as their tongues came together. There was something different in his kiss .Where before she had felt he was holding back , this time there was only surrender. Thorin kissed her so deep and with so much emotion Philicia let the tears run from her eye's again. He held her tighter as he plundered her mouth with abandon. Thorin held nothing back kissing a path down to her collarbone leaving little bites along the way. He then returned to her lip's grabbing the thin nightgown she had on and pulled it off in one sweep. PHilicia gasped as her top half was revealed all the way for him to see."Mahal you are so very beautiful ayzunigal, my love." He said as desire and desperation caused him to shake with need. Thorin slowly planted little kisses down her exposed neck till he reached her breast. Taking the nipple in his mouth he teased her with his tounge letting it swirl around her nipple till it hardend. "Oh God ,Thorin " she moaned at the sensation " Do you like that my love?" He asked his breathing coming in little gasps. Thorin then shifted his attention to the other one while his hand continued to caress her breast. Philicia tangled her hands in his thick raven locks while soft gasps and moans were torn from her mouth. Thorin let his hand slowly slide down her stomach and beyond .He felt the thin straps of her undies and with one quick jerk they were gone. " I know we said we would wait and I know you wish to be married first but you might not come back and I want this so bad .I want the chance to love you even just once." Thorins words tore at her heart and she knew that she could not leave him. "Thorin, I love you and I am coming back" She pulled his lips to hers again kissing him so softly he almost broke then and there. "But what if you decide to stay once you are there?" He buried his face in her long fiery locks. Philicia knew he was hurting and she remembered things some of the girls had told her when she was at the orphanage. So very slowly she let her hand began to trace little circles upon his chest. Philicia so bad wanted to touch him she knew she was playing with fire she also knew that when Thorin and her made love for the first time it was going to be explosive. Her hand slowly drifted down till she came to his middle. "Thorin I love you." She said kissing him deeply as her hand found him and closed around his manhood. It was hot as fire and huge . What Thorin lacked in height he made up for in width in all ways. She tested the waters letting her hand slide down to the end of his length and back up again. "Oh "He moaned " Am I hurting you"she asked ." Oh no It feels so good." He bit his lip as a loud groan tore from his lip's. With that she continued till he was shaking deep groans coming from his throat. He kissed Philicia hard on the mouth as his hips started to spasom and a thick wet warmpth squirted onto her hand and ran down her bare leg. " Oh Oh Ohhh",he moaned and suddenly it happend again .Thorin was shaking all over as he rolled them on their sides. "Are you ok,? " She asked searching his eye's. " That was , I have no words" He shook his head before kissing her again. Philicia got up and wet a cloth wiping the sticky liquid from her leg rincing it before handing it to Thorin." Are you dissapointed?" She asked not sure how he was felling " Philicia come to me , and no I am not". She laid back down snuggling into his warmpth. "What we just shared I have never experienced before and I, now I know that when we come together it will be a very beautiful thing. Never doubt my love for you."He said embracing her cheek with is hand. "And you do the same K " "K"Thorin said cradeling Philicia in his arm's.

All was quiet around the table the next morning as the dwarves broke their fast. If anyone noticed the silence between Thorin and Philicia no one dared to mention it."Is all these blasted elves eat is fruit and pastries, where's the meat?" Dwalin grumbled pushing his food around his plate."Aye, they should at least provide some sausages or roasted ham." Nori added as the dwarves began to complain about the food again. "Please excuse me I'm not very hungry" Philicia pushed her chair back and fled before anyone could see her cry."Is somthing not right between you two uncle" Fili looked at Thorin as he also was just pushing his breakfast around the table. "Fili please not this time" Thorin excused himself and went to find Philicia. His thoughts were troubled and his heart was breaking even after what they had shared last night he did not want to accept the reality, she was leaving. After looking for hour or so he finally came across Gandalf talking with Philicia" But Gandalf There are things I could bring back to help so much. Especially with the cross over the mountain pass. Gandalf please, you know I know what is going to happen I havn't even told Thorin yet." Told me what"? The dwarf king asked his presence filling the library. "We are talking about the cross over The Misty Mountains Thorin". She said getting up from her chair."What of it" he barked his arms crossed over his chest. "Thorin, perhaps it would be better if you joined us. Gandalf offered." I did not realize I had been excluded". Thorin was quiet as Philicia pulled up a chair for him next to her's." Thorin there are things that are going to happen when we cross the mountain" She started. "What kind of things I might ask?" He glared at her evidently still very upset."The Stone Giants, Bad storms. rain snow it's going to be aweful and dangerous not to mention wet and cold. I can help with that "She said taking Thorins hands in hers. " How so, when you are leaving" he said with contempt."Thorin I'm coming back for heavens sake"She countered. "Do you doubt me that much" Philicia was hurt by the Dwarf Kings mistrust but now was not the time to deal with that she thought." Thorin I need everyone's sizes. Pants shirts socks shoes "she presssed him." Why? " He snickered. " I am going to have you all so prepared to cross that behemouth of a mountain its going to be redicilious. " How so? "His curiosity won out. "Well I can get very thick thermols, rubber boots mountain climbing gear. Hell whatever you could want or need I can bring back with me" Philicia pleaded with Thorin."I could also get rope spikes climbing harnesses" Wait a minute."Thorin was a bit overwhelmed raising his hand to halt her words."What are these things you speak of"? Things from my world Thorin. Things to keep you all from slipping , freezing, getting hungry not to mention falling off the side of a path a thousand feet up." Philicia went on to explain everything else she could bring back to help with the crossing of The Misty's and after hearing it all Thorin nodded his head in agreement."Well my dear there is lot's to do before your departure this evening. I need to speak with Lord Elrond and Lady Galedrial about where we will meet." The wizard left Thorin and Philicia alone knowing they needed this time together.

"Are you mad at me "Philicia finally said turnin to Thorin. The silence was deafining as she fiddled with her fingers awating his answer. Finally it came "No," his breath expelled at the same time as he spoke. "Well you sure could have fooled me Thorin Oakenshield." She spat back. "I am sorry ,please forgive me." Thorin couldn't disguise the hurt in his voice. "Hey do you honestly think I would not come back , Thorin I love you I thought what we well you know I thought it meant something"She met his eye's and he was smiling " Aye It did. Philicia I am just scared I do not want to lose you I have lost so much I could not bare losing you also. I am not use to opening myself up like this all these fellings are so foreign to me. I don't , I Ah." "Thorin . I'm scared too anything could happen and I might not be able to come back . Before I can stay here I have to make for sure thats what I want" . Philicia cupped Thorins face with her small hands and brought their mouths together. Heat and need enveloped him the instant her lips touched his and he thrust his tounge into her mouth sucking and nibbling at her lips as a man dying of thirst and her lips were water." Tho-Thorin " she got out before he swooped in with another kiss that let her spinning. "I love you so menu tessu, zayungi zu sandarun tur ne kulhu hunuk." "Ok you lost me there"she said meeting his eyes. " You are everything, I will always love you no matter what happens." Thorin"broke as she sobbed burying her face in his chest. Warm strong arms circled around her and they stayed that for a long time comforting eachother knowing what the evening was going to bring.

As the afternoon became evening the the appointed place was deceided . Gandalf, Lord Elrond and Lady Galaderial would meet in Lord Elronds Private chamber an excuse for Philicias absence had been thoroughly thought out. They were going to tell the company that she has gone with Arwen on a personal mission. Now as the time approached Philicia held Thorin close to her." These are the sizes for everyone that you requested."Thorin said handing her the slip of parchment. "She looked it over quickly," Thorin your not on here I need yours too" He handed her a seperate piece of paper with his measurements and shoe size."This will work" She said tucking the papers in her purse watching as Thorin walked off. Philicia had put on her jeans and tee shirt for the transport not wanting to show up in elvish clothing."Suddenly Lady Galaderial floated into the room and all was quiet. "Are you ready my dear"Gandalf asked takng her hand's . Philicias eyes were glistening with tears as she thought of Thorin and what he might be felling about now. "Is he going to be here Gandalf?" She asked her words shakey."I'm afraid not we thought it be less painful on him". Philicia said nothing as the tears spilled over. "Galaderial came and stood in front of her "Remember Lady Philicia there is only one choice. If you stay You give up everything you have ever known and Thorin Oakenshields love'. And if you return to us well that remains hidden from me" So Galaderial took the red stone from her pocket and placed it in Philicias hands ." Now repeat after me" Galaderial said words in ancient elvish and Philicia repeated them. As she did so her body started to shimmmer. Suddenly the door slammed open and Thorin stood there tears streaming down his beautiful face. "Philicia" he called to her . "Thorin, I love you ,I will love you forever." Her voice echoed as if from far away. Before anyone could realize what he was doing The Dwarf King hurled himself at Philicia and they dissapeared together.