How She Feels (Xemnas Version)
A Kingdom Hearts Story
Chapter 2:
A Terrifying Dream
AN: WOOHOO! Chappie 2! Yay! Holy shit it took me so long to come up with this! Considering that I have the ending already written out I have to make everything line up with it and making everything do that when you have only written the first chappie...it's a pain in the ass.
Actually I have chappie 8 written for all of these and then chappie 9 written out for Xemnas only. However chappie 9 for all of them is the one that shouldn't be too hard to write out. I have already planned out what I'm going to do. It's going to be similar to chappie 9 of Xemnas but it will have its differences. A lot of this is going to be similar.
I'm making a lot of the middle chappies different, but most of the ending will be the same. At least for chappie 9 of Saix, Zexion, and Marluxia. I had to do a little creative thinking when it came to Xemnas's. But like I said the middle of the stories for all of them, basically 2-7 will be somewhat the same, but there will be very significant differences. They will follow along the same guidelines, but it will be obvious that there are different stories for each Organization member going on, because each member has a different place in the Organization.
Previously:
"Are you sure...you want this..." she whispered to him.
"Do you really need to ask?" he asked her, pulling her into another kiss.
But this one was more forceful, more demanding of her. But it did not scare her, she welcomed it and she loved it. Pulling back from the kiss, Xemnas looked her in the eye.
"Does that answer your question?" he asked.
Amaterasu nodded her head. She didn't need to ask anything else.
Chapter 2
'Heartless...there were so many Heartless, as far as the eye could see swarming the area that the Organization had been working in that evening to collect hearts. Already most of the Organization's members had been quickly decimated by the Heartless and had to pull back. Both Xemnas and Amaterasu were trying their best to defend the Organization but as time passed, it was apparent to both Xemnas and Amaterasu that this was a battle they were quickly losing. Amaterasu grunted loudly as she had a Heartless claw at her side, pieces of her clothing and flesh being torn off. The gruesome sound of flesh being ripped echoed loudly in her ears.
Amaterasu let out a cry as she brought down her sword Cosmos hard on the offending Heartless, killing that one and three others. She cursed as she fell to her knees. Her breathing was shallow yet rapid and her head began to spin. She realized she had lost too much blood. Looking up too quickly reminded her how dizzy she was.
Even so, she was barely able to see. The blood from a blow to the head was leaking over her eyes and blinding her vision...'
Amaterasu's eyes flew open and she sat up with a start breathing heavily. Her eyes darted around the curtain enclosed bed. The dark blue light from the Kingdom Hearts moon still filtered through and illuminated the inside of the curtained bed, giving the area a dark blue glow. Xemnas was asleep next to her, breathing deep and even, face peaceful in sleep. She hadn't disturbed him when she sat up.
Which was good for her, if he had noticed her sitting up like she had, he would have been concerned for her. Her breathing had slowed a little and she put her hand over her heart, trying to slow it's fast beating.
"What was that dream about?' she asked herself.
"Amaterasu? Are you alright?" Xemnas's deep voice asked from behind her.
Amaterasu turned and found Xemnas's eyes open and starting at her as he still laid back against the pillows.
"Ah, yeah, I'm fine. Perfectly fine, everything's good. Yep, everything's great." she replied, trying to sound like nothing was bothering her.
"Then why is your heart beating so fast. You can't hide it from me. I can hear it perfectly. Something has scared you greatly. Tell me what it is." Xemnas said, sitting up and putting his hand on her shoulder.
"Nah, everything is fine. Nothing is wrong at all. I'm just a little...um, uh...just a little...well..." Amaterasu tried to lie to him.
"Amaterasu, you shouldn't try to lie to me. I can tell when you are. Now tell me what is going on, and don't try to tell me it's nothing. Your heart wouldn't be beating so fast. I've only heard your heart beat as fast as it is when you are frightened of something.
What are you frightened of?"Xemnas demanded of her.
Amaterasu looked down at the bed they were sitting on. He had her there. Caught her very well in a lie. She usually didn't like to lie to anyone, but she really didn't want to tell him what had happened in her dream, but it seemed like he wasn't going to let her off the hook. Well, here went nothing.
"I...I had a dream Xemnas..." she began.
Xemnas nodded and waited for her to continue, not pressing matters until he needed to.
"In it there was a huge battle field. It was a bloody battle field. Filled with Heartless destroying everything they touched. And the Organization, they were there too. They were all hurt...but...that's all I could really tell.
I was fighting for my life. And I was hurt, hurt really bad too. I could feel the pain all through out my body. I was wearing the Organization's coat and a Heartless had attacked me and had torn a huge part of the coat away, along with making huge gashes in the flesh where the coat had been. It hurt so bad.
You were there too. You were fighting, but...but it seemed like we were losing the fight against the Heartless. I don't know where everyone else was, but it seemed like the two of us were alone, like there was no one else around us. Goddess, there was so much blood...so much blood around us..." Amaterasu cried, her body starting to tremble, her mind remembering the dream sending her body into a panic attack.
Suddenly she gave a loud shriek and started to get up off the bed and run out of the curtain, screaming that the Heartless were going to kill her. Xemnas threw his arms around her waist pinning her arms down at the same time, and having to use all of his impressive strength, threw her back to the bed. She struggled against him and he had no choice but to pin her down using his own body by laying on top of her. Her struggling increased and she began thrashing around below him.
"Amaterasu, stop this! There are no Heartless here! You are safe, there is nothing to hurt you, stop struggling!" Xemnas yelling, trying to break through the illusion that Amaterasu's mind had put her in.
However, Amaterasu's mind was locked in the illusion and she refused to stop. She managed to get one arm free and she hit Xemnas in the head, stunning him for a second. In that precious second that she stunned him, Amaterasu pulled out of Xemnas's arms and shoved him away. Throwing the curtain aside, Amaterasu managed two steps out of the bed before she was tackled back to the ground. Xemnas shoved her over onto her back and suddenly Amaterasu's face snapped to the side as the room echoed with the sound of a sharp 'slap'.
Amaterasu stopped her struggling beneath Xemnas, going stock still as she stared up at him, eye wide with shock. Xemnas held her down with both hands on her shoulders waiting for her to keep struggling. When she didn't, he loosened his hold on her and held himself up on his hands and knees over her.
"Are you okay now?" he asked softly, looking down at her.
Amaterasu looked up at him and nodded her head. She reached up and threaded her hand into his hair and Xemnas closed his eyes and leaned into her hand breathing in deeply. He hadn't wanted to slap her, but it was the first thing that had come into his mind to stop her panicking. Amaterasu's other hand came up and slid into Xemnas's hair and pulled him down and into a fierce, breathtaking kiss. Xemnas wasn't expecting it, so as their lips met his eyes went wide then slipped shut as he gave into it dipping down so Amaterasu didn't have to lean up to reach him.
Pulling Amaterasu against him, Xemnas lost himself in the kiss and forgot everything else. The fact that Amaterasu had the dream, that she had panicked, that she had tried to run away, that he had to slap her. Everything just centered itself around the kiss that Amaterasu was sharing with him. Finally they pulled away from each other and rested their foreheads together, allowing their breaths to mingle as they tried to get their breath back. Amaterasu giggled below Xemnas.
"What?" he asked her.
"Nothing!" she replied quickly.
"Don't make me force you to talk..." Xemnas warned.
"And just what will you do to make me talk?" Amaterasu asked with a smile on her face.
"This..." he replied.
Then he descended upon her with tickling fingers and tickled her sides and abdomen, making her screech with laughter and shake uncontrollably while she tried to get away from him. Shoving at his chest did nothing to him, so she finally relented.
"Alright! ALRIGHT, I'LL TALK! JUST STOP TICKLING ME!" Amaterasu shouted while still laughing.
Xemnas pulled himself back onto his hands and knees above her and looked down expectantly waiting for her to tell him what she had been giggling about.
"Well..." he asked her, raising a caramel colored hand in a threatening manner, showing that he was not above tickling her again.
"Well, I was just thinking back to the life I had before I came here. About the family that have I left behind." she said with a sigh.
Xemnas tilted his head as he looked down at her.
"And..." he questioned again.
"Well...my brother would have killed you by now for even thinking to touch me. Let alone kiss me as you have. The the one that he loved would have your head if my brother didn't manage to kill you first. Then if those two didn't manage to get to you first, my brothers best friend would have lectured the hell out of you about some kind of honor and pride of not having married me or something along the lines of that before we had even slept in the same room. Let alone the same bed.
Then if those three didn't get to you, my brother's best friends student would be after you for messing with his best friend and fellow prankster for corrupting me and turning me against him. I don't know how that would work but he somehow would turn it into that. He was always so damn possessive when it came to people talking to me. Then there is the fact of his best friend. He wasn't as bad as the others, but he was still protective of me.
That was probably due to the fact that I helped him with his missions whenever he went out on one and I went with him. Then if none of them got you, you would definitely have to watch out for my three cousins. And that in itself is a entirely impossible feat. Those three are the scariest things that I know to be called human. My youngest cousin, I swear he is mentally unstable.
He can be all kind and gentle one moment, then the next he wants to cut your head off. Of course he was never like that with me, but anyone disrespected me or something like that, and well...they ended up dead. And there was nothing that anyone could do about it. The second oldest one was the hardest to read, and in my opinion, the most dangerous. He was the quiet one.
And you know what they say about the quiet ones. Those are the ones you need to watch out for because they are the ones who are the most deadly. And he put that saying to shame. He was not deadly, he was lethal. The true definition of it.
You didn't want to face him in battle. If you did, you didn't survive, unless it was mock battle. And even then, you didn't survive. It was just a lot less brutal of a death. He would have taken off your head, after he shot you full of holes.
Then the oldest of my cousins, he was a lot kinder when he wanted to be. He actually never wanted to fight. But if you crossed him, well once again, you didn't survive. He was a lot nicer when he killed someone. However, if you hurt someone he cared about, well the "nice kill" as we came to funnily call it, went out the door.
It was absolutely brutal then. My family basically would have killed you a thousand times over by now. I was just laughing about that. Was just laughing about the fact that I would be jumping in front of you and be yelling the shit out of them to leave you the hell alone and if they didn't that I would kill them, or I would quote unquote "Beat the shit out of them". Something along the lines of that.
Just to make sure that they got the hint not to touch you. That's all. I just found it funny, because they would be looking at me like "What the shit?" Amaterasu replied.
Xemnas stared down at her as he processed what she had just said. Amaterasu had never talked about her past or where she had come from before, so all of this was new information to him. He cocked his head to the side and raised a silver eyebrow. It was an interesting bit of information that he could possibly use later. Maybe as a topic of casual conversation or something else, but it was interesting.
"Well despite the fact that your family would come after me for being near you, I would still stay. Now I want to take you somewhere with the rest of the Organization. I had it planned for yesterday, but other things had come up. If you will allow me to change my clothing, I will return to your old room. You need to find something warm to wear for we will be going somewhere cold.
I will wait outside your door for you to change to give you the privacy you require." Xemnas stated moving around his room, gathering clothes from the drawers from a dresser.
Slipping into what Amaterasu figured was the bathroom, she only had to wait a few minutes for him to return. Xemnas was dressed in the normal Organization coat. However it looked like he had put an extra layer on underneath it. He also had a scarf on around his neck and was carrying his black leather gloves in his hands. Walking over to his dresser once again, he fished around in it for a moment and then pulled something black out of it.
Sliding the drawer shut, he walked back over to Amaterasu and extended his free hand for her to take. She did so without question and he opened a Dark Corridor. Amaterasu looked at it with hesitation, then looked up at Xemnas.
"There is no need to fear it. With me by your side, nothing will harm you. The Darkness will never touch you so long as you never stray from my side." he whispered to her.
Amaterasu looked back at the Dark Corridor, then nodded her head. Xemnas led her forward and into it. The darkness enshrouded the both of them and Amaterasu's hand closed around Xemnas's tightened but she didn't pull away. A light bloomed in front of them, and they walked out back into the light. When Amaterasu looked around, she found herself in her room.
Amaterasu nodded at Xemnas then walked over to the dresser that held her clothes and started pulling clothes out. She didn't have very many warm things because she didn't leave the Castle very often and she didn't have much of a chance to bring things along with her when she left her original home. Pulling out a couple shirts, she turned to ask Xemnas if he thought that those would be enough, but he was no longer in the room. Then Amaterasu remembered Xemnas said he would step out of the room so that she could change. She shrugged and pulled off the shirt she had worn yesterday and then pulled on the two shirts she had pulled out.
They were long sleeved and heavy. They had been standard issue for the people that had worked for the military faction she had worked for. They weren't the most comfortable things in the world, but they did keep you warm. She then pulled out a set of warm pants that were also standard issue for the cold from the military faction. She hated the memories that they brought back, but she wasn't going to get rid of them.
They were too useful. Bad memories were easily forgotten, good clothes lasted forever. Well until they wore out at least. She pulled them on then walked over to the bed that she usually slept in. Reaching under it, she pulled out a pair of military grade boots.
They were warm and durable. However, though they were military grade and durable, they were also fashionable. They weren't big and bulky, they were slim and refined. More along the lines of what a woman would wear if she was going out on a date. There was a low heel to them and they were slightly pointed at the toe.
Pulling them on, she secured the buckles that held them together, making sure her pants were neatly tucked into them. Dubbing herself ready, she walked to her door and opened it. Xemnas was leaning on the wall next to her door, his arms crossed and his eyes closed. When he heard the door open, he opened his eyes and turned his head to look at her. Assessing her attire, he nodded his head and pushed himself off the wall.
"Now that you are properly dressed., there is one more thing that you need to put on." he said softly.
Opening the black object he had been carrying in his hand, he shook it out to reveal that he had been carrying another Organization coat with him. Amaterasu's eyes widened and she gasped.
"You...you're giving me a..." she began.
"Yes, you've been here long enough. I believe it is time that you have a coat of your own. Though you may not be an official member of the Organization, you will now wear our coat as if you are one of us." he said, turning Amaterasu around and slipping her arms into the sleeves and sliding the coat up to her shoulders so she was wearing it.
Turning her back around, Xemnas zipped the coat up and took a few steps back and admired his handiwork. It was just as he thought. He had known Amaterasu would look good in the Organization's coat and she did.
"This is really mine..." Amaterasu asked, running her hands over the soft leather.
"Yes it is." Xemnas affirmed again.
Suddenly, Amaterasu surged forward, wrapping her arms around Xemnas's chest, seeing as she couldn't reach any higher, and buried herself against him. Xemnas heard something said but was unsure what it was because it was so muffled.
"What was that?" he asked, as he pushed Amaterasu back far enough to hear her voice.
"I said thank you Xemnas." Amaterasu repeated.
Xemnas was silent, not remembering the last time he had ever been thanked for anything. At least by someone other than Amaterasu. Amaterasu pulled away from him and looked up at him expectantly.
"Didn't you say we were going somewhere?" she asked him with a smile.
Xemnas shook his head and looked away for a second then turned and opened a Dark Corridor. Amaterasu took hold of Xemnas's hand again and together they walked through it. When they reached the other side, they found the other Organization members waiting for them in the Gray Room. They all seemed a little annoyed that Xemnas and Amaterasu had seemed to take so long, but the two of them didn't care.
"I will open the Corridor to the world we will be going to. The world we are going to will remain unknown. Follow me." Xemnas said as he waved his hand and a Dark Corridor opened.
Xemnas and Amaterasu walked through first with the rest of the Organization following. When they exited the other side, they found themselves in a winter wonderland. There was snow all over and covering everything. Amaterasu walked away from Xemnas out into a clearing and spun in a circle admiring the view. Then a wicked smile arose on her face.
Slowly turning around, Amaterasu saw that the rest of the Organization was distracted by he sights of the world around them. She silently leaned down and gathered snow into her hand and formed it into a snow ball. Drawing her arm back, she launched the snowball into the air. With a wet thwack the snowball hit its target. The targets head jerked forward, then snapped around to look at her.
"Gotcha Marluxia!" Amaterasu said tauntingly, a evil smile on her face.
Though Marluxia wasn't happy about being hit with the snowball, he could tell exactly what she wanted. So she wanted a snowball fight...so she would get a snowball fight...
