"What by the gods have you done Thorin?" Dwalin bursted the door open and was towering over the new king under the mountain. Bofur was following him, just as angry and disappointed as Dwalin. Thorin turned around and Dwalin stopped walking towards him. "What happened?"

Thorin was sitting on the floor, his hands covered his face. Once the two dwarves entered his room, he turned his head and all Dwalin could see was a broken dwarf. "Mahal,…Thorin?"

Thorin got up slowly, shaking. "I made a big mistake…" His eyes were dark and empty; it was like he wasn't really looking at Dwalin. "I lost her…I was so….wrong…" He was mumbling, more to himself than to any other dwarf in the room.

The arrival of Dwalin and Bofur was noticed soon by the other dwarves of the company. Fili walked up into the room, looking around. "Where is Gwen? I thought she was with you?" His breath got quicker, his heart missed a beat. "What happened to her?" Fili walked up to Dwalin and grabbed his coat, shaking him. "Is she safe? Where is she?" His voice got louder and Kili came to Dwalin's rescue. Not that Dwalin ever needed some help from Kili.

The young dwarf pulled his brother from Dwalin and tried to calm him down. "You should ask your uncle." Dwalin stated resigned.

Both, Fili and Kili, turned their heads to Thorin. "What is he trying to tell us, uncle?" Kili asked and Fili shook his head in shock. He broke away from Kili and walked up to Thorin. "What happened to Gwen?" When Fili said her name, something changed in Thorin's eyes, it was like they cleared up, that he would come back to reality again.

"Gwen…Gwendolyn." Now the guilt hit Thorin pretty hard, he was tearing his hair and paced around in his chamber again. "Oh Mahal, I made such a big mistake. It is my entire fault."

"Uncle, what are you talking about?" Filis asked impatiently. Then Thorin finally blurted it out. That he made a deal with Thranduil. When they were imprisoned by the elves, he traded Gwen, so Thorin and his company could continue their quest. Thorin promised to send Gwen soon after they reclaimed their kingdom. Thranduil had his eye on the small young woman since the day he saw her. And for Thorin it was easy, he didn't even knew her that well like he does now. She was a burden since the beginning. He even thought that Gwen would die before everything had ended. But then as she helped Tauriel to save Kili's life and helped Bilbo to cure Thorin from the dragon sickness, everything had changed.

Thorin saw her with different eyes now. She was more than just a healer, Gandalf had found for the journey. All of the dwarves loved her. Slowly she became a part of their family.

The whole company was shocked after Thorin finally told the truth. Every dwarf was shaking his head in disbelief. After some minutes of silence, Fili was the first who found his voice again.

"Why didn't you even say anything? I mean, you never had to send her there. She would have been save here with us." Fili stated, and looked at all the other dwarves, earning some nods. "Don't you think I haven't considered that? I wanted her to stay here, in Erebor, with us, with me. Never let her out of my sight again." Thorin said breathlessly, angry at all of the dwarves, but most of all at himself. "But Thranduil sent threats, he wanted her and if I didn't bring Gwen to him, then he would invade Erebor and pick her up by him, leaving us dead." Thorin sighed sadly. The dwarves never saw him like that. He was close to tears, the King under the mountain. Their king was showing some feelings.

"After the battle, we have lost too much, too many dwarves. We couldn't even stand against his army for one day. Nor would the men help us." Thorin looked into the faces of each and every one standing in front of him. "I…I thought it would be for the best, that I could forget her..." Fili just huffed and turned away.

"Then we bring her back." Balin said suddenly and walked from the shadow of the group into the front. "I mean, I know we lost a lot of dwarves in the battle. And it wasn't right from Thorin to trade her, it wasn't in his decision. But Thranduil can't keep her if she doesn't want to stay with him. The deal is invalid." All the dwarves nodded again. "Let's pack some stuff and weapons and let us bring her back."

"No!" Thorin shook his head. "I am going. You stay here. It is just a thing between me and that Elvenbastard. You followed me enough that can last for more than one life."

"We are going with you, Uncle." Kili stepped closer and stared Thorin right in the eye. "Fili and I, we both, are going with you. You don't go there alone."

"Kili, no, it is just my fault…" Kili grunted and said "Thorin, we all love her. So, let us help you. You still have a wound from the battle, if they attack you, then you are doomed."

Fili walked to the doors. "Come; help me packing the most important stuff." He left Thorin's chamber and mostly all dwarves followed him. Dwalin walked up to Thorin, placing his hand onto his friends shoulder. "Bring her home, Thorin, bring her home."