Where does it place us?

Dan slept amazingly good while being here. He didn't wake up several times during the night, he didn't have his terrible, chasing nightmares. He understand that he felt somehow safe being here no matter how weird it sounded.

Dan was laying in Phil's bed right next to him. They was facing each other, looking deep in each other eyes. They just layed there, staring at each other. Than Phil close his eyes and let out soft moan confusing Dan.

Dan open his eyes understanding that he was still in seperate room and that it was just a dream.

He wanted to close his eyes when he heard Phil moan again, this time louder.

Without thinking Dan was up on his legs and walking to Phil's room without any sound.

Phil's bedroom door was open just like Dan's.

Dan stopped at the door looking down at still sleeping Phil.

Phil was laying in just his boxers that was really tight, he had raging hard on already leaking pre cum.

Dan didn't know what to do or how to react. He was frozen, watching Phil slid his hand down over his boxers and letting out another moan, than sliding his hand back up and into his boxers grabbing his hard on letting out even more pleasant moan.

In that moment Dan run, he closed his bedroom door behind him and stand against them still in shock and frozen.

What did he just saw?

Did he actually walked in Phil having a… a wet dream?

And him being hard… and… and that big…?

Dan was in complete shock, his brain couldn't process what actually did happen.

He saw the image playing in his head over and over pushing him even more out of place.

Dan crawl into bed and pulled covers over him, just staring at the wall.

He didn't know what to think or do right now.

Phil will be done soon and than he will probably walk to the bathroom…

He will ask why Dan's door is closed since they agree on keeping them open…

Shit, shit, shit.

What should I do?

Dan was panicking a bit.

What to do? What to do?

He looked around noticing his new phone standing on the night stand.

That's right, he will play some games or something and if Phil will ask anything he will say that he closed the door not to wake Phil up.

Yes, yes, that's perfect.

Dan grab his phone starting to look through it actually slipping into it.

Phil woke up from his orgasm.

He slowly open his eyes to see that it all have been a dream and he was laying in his bed with now wet boxers, but still feeling pleased.

Phil curse under his breath.

He just had a fucking wet dream about Dan.

For fucks sake, he knew him only two days!

Phil got up and rush to take a shower.

He stand under the hot water trying to convince him that it was bad, but no matter how hard he tried, he still knew that he liked what was happening in the dream.

He cough himself thinking it back and wishing that it could be reality.

Phil shake his head actually starting to wash himself.

Dan should be awake in any moment now.

Phil got out of the shower throwing clean clothes on, all black again.

He walked down the hall to stop in surprise to see Dan's door closed.

Shit, he must heard him yanking off. Fuck.

Phil slowly open the door seeing Dan still in bed playing some weird game in his phone.

Just by the look in his eyes Phil understand that Dan was really into it.

- Good morning. - Phil smiled walking closer to Dan.

Dan jumped a little hearing Phil, he didn't notice him walking in.

Dan closed the game opening the talking program and typing down his greating.

- How did you sleep? - Phil push his hand through his hair.

- Really good, thank you. - Dan typed down looking back up at Phil.

He act like he actually don't know that I saw him. That's good.

Dan mark in his head.

- What would you like for breakfast? - Phil ask letting his eyes trawel a bit more over Dan's body.

He didn't like to see Dan so skiny, he wanted him to be healthy.

- Coffee is okay. - Dan was studing Phil's face, wondering what Phil was thinking right now.

- You need to eat something. Do you want me to make something? Anything? - Phil asked in smal hope that Dan will choose some food but Dan just shake his head "no".

- Okay, - Phil sigh standing up. - I'll meet you in the kitchen. -

Dan watched Phil walk away and only than get out of bed himself putting on jeans.

He admired how Phil could sleep in only his boxers while Dan was so used to be sleeping in his clothes.

Dan walked down to the kitchen sitting down not knowing what to do while Phil was making them morning coffee.

- We have a pizza left, will you eat it with me? - Phil asked with hope in his eyes.

Dan nod seeing instant smile appear on Phil's lips.

Something inside him flutter seeing Phil happy.

For some reason Dan wanted to keep making Phil happy, so he eat all the food Phil was giving him and just seeing the happy look on Phil's face, Dan knew that it was worth the suffer that will come of not getting enough food next days when he will be back home.

They spend the rest of sunday together, most of the time with Phil teaching Dan how to play video games in which Dan was amazingly good at.

After they finish home made dinner Dan knew that it was time to go home, it was already dark outside and he had exam in the morning.

Dan felt all the joy of the day draining out of him, leaving him sad and dark once again, the usual Dan.

- I have to go, it's already late and I have exam in the morning. Thank you for everything. I will make sure to get your clothes back to you. - Dan typed out already turning to leave.

- Wait! I will take you home. It's dark outside, I don't want anything bad to happen with you. - Phil walked to Dan already putting on jacket and taking his car keys.

Dan wanted to argue but deep down he knew that he will love every extra minute spend together with Phil.

Dan nod following Phil to the car.

Dan told Phil his adress sinking back into comfortable seat and looking out the window.

Phil saw how sad Dan looked but he couldn't figure out how to make him feel better.

He wanted to make Dan happy so bad that it was driving him crazy.

He sigh in the same time as Dan when they stopped in front of simple small house.

Dan didn't want to go in, he wanted to stay in this car with Phil.

He felt tears start to burn his eyes so he forced himself to get out of the car even faster running inside, straight to his "room" before any of his family members could notice him.

Phil felt sad seeing Dan like that, Dan looked so hurt just over the fact that he needed to go back to place called "home".

It made Phil mad.

He speed off driving around, trying to calm down.

But the flaming anger just grew with every second.

He pulled over at the gym and walked straight to the boxing area pouring all his anger out there.

At the same time, Dan was lying in the cold ground with hot tears streaming down his cheeks, trying to grip Phil's sweater tighter just to feel a bit of his scent around himself.

The next day started with Dan getting a slap from his mother because he tried to take an apple for breakfast.

Dan stayed without showing any emotions and went to school with rambling stomack.

Just by eating properly two days in row made him feel really hungry right now.

But he was good at ignoring his hunger no matter how big it grew.

Soon his exam take up all his mind and energy.

When he was finished, he felt so weak that he didn't know if he will be possible to walk back home.

He let his body slid down next to tree on the sidewalk, trying not to feel so dizzy.

- Hey, boy, are you okay? You are so pale. And so skinny! Like skeleton. Here, eat something. Poor boy. What are this time youth into. - some old lady shake her head dropping a banana in Dan's lap before walking away.

Dan felt so thankful to that lady.

He slowly eat the banana feeling better right away.

He felt his phone buzzing in his pocket, he took it out to see a new text coming in.

- Hiya. I wanted to check on you. How did your exam go? Have you eat something today? Do you want me to go pick you up? Please answer. Phil. -

Dan felt warmth spread through his body just by reading the long text.

He felt like Phil actually care about him, at least enough to think about him for couple minutes while texting.

- Hi, Phil! Exam went well. I'm eating banana now. It's okay, I need to study, next exam is tomorrow. Thank you for asking. Daniel. - Dan typed down the replay feeling new energy spread through his body.

- Okay, are you home already? - Phil texted back just after couple seconds.

- Not yet, I'm walking to get there now. - Dan slowly got up to start walking home.

- You shouldn't text while you are walking down the street. Text me when you are home. I'll be waiting. - it take just couple seconds again for Phil to answer.

Dan stare at the text feeling much better than before. He put his phone back into his pocket and walked home.

When Dan got home his parents was still at work and his brother was off in uni again.

Dan sit down in his so called room and start to study for tomorrow's exam but not before taking out his phone to text Phil that he was home.

They end up chatting for hours.

Phil told Dan all about his day and what tattoos he made, Dan told him about exam and school.

They was chatting about silly things when Dan heard the front door to open and shut again.

- Parents home, need to go. - Dan texted hidding his phone.

He knew that if his parents will find out that he have phone, he will be in big shits.

Dan shiver at the though turning back to his studies.

Following days of the week Dan spend a lot time simply chatting with Phil, even getting a couple photos from him. One with his tattoo salon, one with new game Phil bough so they could play it together and couple selfies with Phil.

Dan was done with all his exams, now he just needed to wait for the results and graduation, that he probably won't even attend.

Friday in the evening he was sitting in his bed chatting with Phil when he heard his mother to call his name.

He put his phone down rushing out the room to face his angry mother.

Dan didn't understand what did he do this time to make her so angry.

- Daniel! Do you understand why I am this angry right now? - his mother asked looking at him in disgust.

Dan shake his head actually being confused.

- Oh no? Do you know your results on your chemistry exam? No? Than look! - his mother grabbed him by the back of his neck forcing his head down into computer to see that he have got 68% in it.

- Do you see it? Only 68%! You should have gotten at least 90! - his mother's grip was hurting and bruising his neck, she was shaking him and pushing him down closer to the computer making pain go through all Dan's body.

His mother was screaming at him and pushing him away.

When tears start to come down his face and gasp for breath come out his lips she slapped him couple times to make him quiet again.

When she have let out all her anger she pushed Dan to go to his room and not come out of there all weekend.

Dan crushed down with silent tears streaming down his swolen cheeks.

That night Dan cried himself to sleep wishing for death.

During weekend Dan mostly just lay down without moving. Only times he moved was when he had breakdowns and he was slicing his wrists open.

The same thing happened last week when all other exam results come in.

His mother was angry about him not hitting the perfect score as planned.

Dan knew he had bruises all over him because he have hit the ground more times than he could count.

During that week Dan didn't text Phil much, just enough for him not to worry to much.

The worst happened when his last exam results come in, english.

He have got 91% but for his mother it wasn't enough, for his father it wasn't enough, they needed him to hit 99% so he would get into uni of law.

Dan let them both pour their anger over his already crushed body, just standing there, taking every hit without letting his emotions out, or any sound at all.

When they was finished Dan was laying down feeling dizzy, with blood running down his chin.

His parents left him walking away with disgust.

Dan couldn't take it anymore, he couldn't breath.

And his bipolar disorder didn't sleep too, eating him alive just like his parents did.

Dan somehow got up and stumble out on the street.

He wanted some car to hit him and end his life, all his body was in pain anyway.

He wanted it all to stop.

He didn't notice that his legs have taken him to Phil's appartment.

With the last strength left Dan ring the doorbell hoping that he isn't disturbing Phil since it was friday.

Right when Phil open the door Dan gripped Phil's hand in his for support.

- Dan! Oh my god! - he heard Phil gasp in distance.

All he felt was the warmth seeping in his body.

He close his eyes to feel it even more.

Phil was in shock.

Dan was bloody and bruised, pretty much beaten up.

Phil led him inside sitting him down and getting some ice for his face.

Dan have stopped crying and was just staring down at his legs while Phil placed ice bag against his cheek.

They didn't speak, Dan felt too weak for that. And Phil let him, he understand that Dan was too worn out already.

He let Dan lay down in the guest bedroom and fall asleep still holding Phil's hand in his cold, bloody fingers.

Phil stayed up pretty much all night, simply looking over Dan.

First couple hours Dan was sleeping in deep sleep without even moving but than he start to tossing around the bed, gasping for air before his eyes shot open in pure terror.

Phil run into his room kneeling in front of Dan.

- Shh, sh.. it was just a nightmare. You are safe! - Phil held his arms out to show Dan.

Dan looked at Phil for a moment before starting to cry.

- Shh… Shh… I'm here, you are safe. Shh… - Phil murmured and strech his hand out for Dan.

Dan looked at it for a moment before gripping it tight into his trembling hands.

Soon Dan calm down just by starting at Phil.

They held eye contact, both calming down like that.

Dan hold Phil's hand in both his right infront him.

Phil stayed kneeled in front of Dan.

They stayed like that for hours, none of them moved.

When Dan fell asleep again, Phil tried to think of how he could help Dan and what he could do to keep him safe.

Phil felt hurt just by seeing Dan so bruised.

Phil wanted to beat up whoever did this to his Dan.

Phil watched Dan sleep, Dan finally looked a bit more relaxed, still holding Phil's hand. Phil could feel Dan's short breaths on his hand making sure that he was still alive.

Now Phil could see why everyone called Dan a pastel boy, Dan was wearing soft pink sweater and fade out blue denim jeans.

Phil wanted to smile how cute Dan looked, in clothes like that and his hair all curly, and he did for a moment before turning his attention back to all the bruises.

Phil wonder how many other was hid under his clothes but knowing how Dan felt toward touches, he didn't allow himself to look.

Somehow after hour Phil finally let his head to slid down to bed right next to Dan's stomach and he fell in thin sleep.

When Phil wake up, Dan was already awake, watching Phil.

Phil stretch yawning.

Dan find it cute.

- Good morning, do you want any coffee? And something to eat? - Phil asked with tired voice making Dan not to argue back and nod.

- Okay, I will bring it all here. - Phil walked to the kitchen leaving Dan alone.

Soon he was back with simple breakfast and coffee for them both sitting down on the edge of the bed.

Dan shift to one side of the bed, making space for Phil.

- You can sit next to me in the bed, it will be more comfortable. - Dan typed down on his phone looking back up at Phil who smiled.

- Thank you. - Phil slid into his side of bed, making sure not to touch Dan, he didn't want to freak him out.

They eat in comfortable silence, Dan enjoying food a bit too much because it was first he have got in days.

- Will you tell me what happened? - Phil spoke up when they have finish their breakfast and look at Dan pleading him for answers.

Dan sigh before typing down on his phone.

- My parents didn't like my exam results… They said that it won't be enough to get into uni of law. Sorry that I fell on you so sudden last night, I didn't mean to. I was just running wishing for a car to hit me and end it all but than I was standing at your door… I'm sorry. I can go, if you want me to. - Dan was afraid to look at Phil.

- I don't want you to leave. I'm glad you come to me. And your parents? How could they do such a thing? No exam results are so important to beat up their kid. - Phil said in pure disgust.

Dan looked away feeling tears to burn his eyes once again.

- Oh shit, I'm sorry. I don't filter what I say. Shhh, Dan, please don't cry. - Phil was despair.

Dan shake his head to clear it.

- I will think of something to help you. You hear me? Dan, I promise, I will protect you. - Phil said in pure honesty making Dan to look at him.

And for some reason Dan did believe him.