Please stay with me.
They spen all weekend simply layng around.
Phil cancel all his work for these days just to be with Dan.
Dan was mostly sleepy, falling asleep a lot. But who can blame him, he was lying between soft, puffy cushions with Phil next to him.
Dan woke up from yet another small nap, stretching out feeling that pain aren't so strong anymore.
Phil was lying next to him with couple cushions between them.
Dan simply watch him for a moment before Phil turned and smiled at him.
Dan felt sad once again, he knew that he need to go back home.
Phil stretch out his hand, putting it on the cushion between them with his palm up. Dan looked down at it but didn't take it, looking away.
Phil felt a smal stin in his chest but tried to ignore it.
He tried to tell himself that Dan simply need time, a lot of time.
- Will you please drive me to my house? - Dan type without looking up.
- What? Are you serious right now? You are not going back there! - Phil sit up in sudden anger.
- Okay, sorry, I will walk. Thank you for everything. - Dan type down and stand up ready to leave.
- Daniel. - Phil stand up to, just hearing him say Dan's full name in voice like that made Dan stop and turn around to face Phil. - Please don't go. I can't let you go. - Phil was more like pleading now.
He understand how fucked up it looked like because they knew each other just for a bit more than 3 weeks, but damn, Phil was falling for him hard and he didn't want to let him go.
- I'm sorry, I can't… - Dan looked so sad, so broken.
- Please Dan, you can stay here and never go back. - Phil took a step closer to Dan, but Dan step back making Phil stop where he was.
- I can't. I'm not even 18, they can turn against you if I leave. I can't. - Dan tried not to break too much infront of Phil.
- Okay… But after your birthday? Will you stay with me? - Phil looked at Dan with hope in his eyes.
- I will think about that, but now I really need to go. - Dan put his phone back in his pocket.
- I will drive. - Phil said getting his car keys opening all doors for Dan.
Ride back home was filled with silence.
When car stopped Dan looked over at Phil, than down to Phil's hands. Just before Dan hop out of the car he let one of his fingers slid over Phil's hand, just with his fingertip, almost not touching it at all.
Phil looked back at Dan than looking down at his hand, hot trace left where Dan have touch him.
It felt even more special than the kiss on the cheek would be.
Phil smiled sadlly driving back home, going to sleep with Dan in his mind.
Dan had massive nightmares that night, wishing for Phil to be here to calm him down.
Next couple days Dan spend doing his best to please his parents, it was working pretty well, no hits was trow at Dan, just couple bad words, but for them Dan was used to.
Phil had a lot of work to do, there was less time to chat with Dan.
They found them chatting till late night most of the time, non of them wanted to leave other.
Thursday start as normal day, work for Phil and no breakfast for Dan.
Dan was getting done with laundry when his parents called him.
Dan walked to the living room seeing them sitting down with some papers in their hands looking up at Dan.
Dan felt confused, what did he do this time?
- Finally you did something right. You got into University of Law. And they are pleased to give you full scholarship too. - his parents announce.
Dan just stand there without knowing what to do, he didn't even want to go to that uni, not even mention to study law.
Dan just nod walking back to his room sneaking out his phone to text Phil.
- I got accept for University of Law, full scholarship. Parents just told me. - He hid his phone again.
Tomorrow will be his high school graduation and friday was his birthday.
He couldn't stop thinking about what Phil have said, have offered him.
Stay with me…
Dan heard him say.
Dan felt safe with Phil, more comfortable that he have been all his life, but he needed to admit that he was scared, scared of what will come. Dan knew that he is hard to live with. And for now Phil have seen him only on his good side, there haven't been any bad episodes yet.
Dan needed to admit that he was so damn scared of what Phil will say and think when he will see him in his worst state of mind.
Because there will be a really dark times, they were part of Dan and he couldn't do anything about it.
It wasn't his choice, he have tried to fight it, but it was with no use, it was better to simply accept it and try to live with it.
That night Dan stayed up thinking about what could be and what he should do.
The next morning come one more surprise, his parents insist on taking him to his graduation.
Dan texted Phil that there is change of plans and he is going to his graduation that Phil actually wanted him to do.
Dan felt really anxious about driving in the same car as his parents.
He got sick of how his parents pretend to be caring and proud ones.
But when his name was called he saw a beautiful surprise waiting for him, smiling proud smile, Phil standing in the crowd watching him.
It made Dan feel somehow warm inside.
Phil was proud of him.
Phil have dropped everything to come see him.
After everything Dan walked straight to Phil competly forgeting his parents.
- Congrats, Danny. - Phil smiled a big proud smile.
Dan let his fingertips rush against Phil's hand thanking him.
Dan's parents soon stopped next to them.
Phil felt overprotective stepping a bit in front of Dan as to keep him safe.
Dan felt like in awe for what Phil was doing for him today.
- Daniel, we didn't know you have a friend. Come, we have to go now. There is still a lot to be done. - His parent tone made Dan do as they say and walk back to their car, glancing one last look back at angry looking Phil.
When they were home, Dan got big slap to his face that made him lose balance.
And right there he understand for what.
Number one rule : Do not make any friends, you don't deserve it.
Dan slowly stand up just to get another slap, he wanted to stay on the ground but he knew, if he won't stand up, it will get even worse.
More slaps come till his mother was tired and walked away to go out with their friends.
Dan lay down on the cold floor without moving, his mind making jokes about him.
He didn't even notice his body standing up and walking to get his old friends, his razor blades he kept under his mattress.
He didn't feel when his right arm slice it over his left wrist.
He didn't feel multiple cuts to follow.
He just stare down, watching his blood run out.
Today they were fade away red.
Dan watched almost fascinate how blood run down his hand, down his arm, making weird patterns all over.
He didn't know how much longer he would have sit there like that, if his phone wouldn't ring.
He looked down and saw Phil's cute selfie pop up pulling him out of his weird episode.
Dan shake his head unlocking his phone seeing several texts and missed calls from Phil.
- I'm okay. - Dan texted not wanting to worry Phil.
He got up and went to wash his hand, washing all the blood away.
He saw that cuts was a bit deeper than before and sigh seeing them bleed again.
He wrapped a cloth around his wounds and pulled his sleeve back down walking back to his room.
- I'm worried. Please spen this evening with me. - There was a new text from Phil.
- Okay - Dan felt too tired to argue.
- I'm comming to get you. - Phil answered withut a seconds.
Dan put down his phone and walked outside knowing that Phil soon will be here.
Dan needed to wait just a couple minutes till Phil's car stopped right in front of him.
Dan felt so damn tired, he slowly got into car slidding down into his seat, closing his eyes.
Phil was worried, Dan looked so pale with red handprint mark on his cheek.
Phil drive them away to his appartment.
Dan was starting to shiver more.
- Dan, Dan! Sit down. - Phil wanted to help him but Dan flinch at the smallest touch to his skin making Phil take a step back.
Dan sit down, than lay down feeling really tired. He close his eyes letting sleep take over his crushed body.
Phil noticed blood dripping down Dan's fingers.
He slowly pushed Dan's sleeve back gasping.
Blood was all over his wrist and when he pulled back bloody cloth there was several cuts.
Phil felt angry and sad at the same time.
He got up and make sure to take care of Dan's wrist.
He thanked that he is tattoo artist, knowing how to deal with needles and cuts, and blood.
Phil was watching Dan sleep for a moment longer, just to make sure that he was alright.
Phil stand up walking to the kitchen to get dinner ready for Dan, he will need a lot of energy.
He made hot chocolate for Dan to drink right when he will wake up.
Dan slowly wake up with big headache, looking around to see caring Phil.
- Hi, buddy. How are you feeling? Here, take and drink this. It will make you feel better. - Phil said giving Dan a cup with something that smell so delicious.
Dan took the cup slowly drinking and enjoying it.
That really was something tasty.
Dan nod a silent thank you giving it back to Phil.
- I made dinner for you to eat. - Phil still sound worried.
Dan looked back down at his arm and saw that it had clean bandages over it.
So Phil have touched him while he was sleeping.
A smal bit of Dan start to freak out, but other, bigger part, was thankful.
They sit down to eat, deep in their own minds.
Dan looked at the clock and sigh.
He needed to go.
Phil sigh too getting up.
- I will drive you. - Phil murmured feeling sad and making Dan even more sadder.
They spend the whole drive in silence.
- Will you tell me if somethig will go wrong again? - Phil looked deep in Dan's eys making his point. - I don't want you to hurt yourself like that. Just seeing you like that… It hurt me really bad. I care about you, Dan, a lot. -
Dan nod before getting out of the car and walking back in.
That night Dan didn't sleep, he was thinking about what to do.
Phil didn't sleep too, he was thinking about Dan.
Next morning Dan was incredibly nervous, he was about to face his parents.
During the night he have write down a letter for them. Letter to explain himself.
It was like a promise Dan made for himself.
Dan have packed all his stuff, it was only one back pack.
He walked out the room before his parents have woken up, he placed the letter down on the kitchen table.
He looked at it one more time before walking out the door.
Dan didn't look back, he just walk away.
He walked into that one apartment building that he already was calling home.
He took couple deep breath before knocking on the door.
Waiting trying to ease his anxiety.
The door open revealing tired, sleepy Phil, still in just his black, tight boxers.
- Dan? - Phil couldn't believe his eyes.
Dan nod taking out his phone.
- Can I please come in? Sorry for waking you. - He typed down trying not to look too much at Phil's almost naked body.
- Of course, do you want tea? or Coffee? - Phil asked yawning and stretching out.
- Coffee please. We need to talk. - Dan type down looking up at Phil who hearing these small words turn all serious, prepare for the worst.
- Go on… - Phil leaned against kitchen bar.
- I left my parent house. I told them to forget that I have ever existed, that I won't bother their lives any more. That one day I will pay back every cent they spend on me. - Dan looked at Phil, taking in his reaction.
Phil was silent for a moment before understanding what that mean.
- You are moving in with me? - Phil asked without masking his hope and happines.
- Yes, of course if you still want me to. - Dan looked up with hope in his eyes.
- Of course I want that! Fuck! I would love that! I would hug you right now but I don't want to freak you out. Oh my, Danny, it's amazing! - Phil was beaming in happines making Dan feel happy too.
They eat breakfast talking about how Dan can decorate his room however he want and that he don't need to worry about money, Phil will cover it all.
Phil helped Dan to put his clothes off, being amazed by all the pastel colors and some weird clothes.
- What do you say about, we go shopping? I want to treat you a bit since today is your birthday. Cake will be in the evening, it haven't been delivered yet. - Phil smiled sitting down on Dan's bed.
Dan turned around to look at Phil to understand if he was joking or not.
But all Phil did was smile big happy smile watching Dan.
Dan nod allowing Phil to take Dan shopping.
Dan could never imagine that shopping could be so much fun.
They spend hours in shopping center joking around each other.
So far they have bought a couple things for Dan's room and some new clothes for him.
Phil buy them both ice cream sitting out in the sun.
- So do you have any wishes what you want to do in the evening and what gift you want for your birthday? - Phil enjoyed sun.
- Not really, I'm okay with simply playing video games. - Dan type down.
- Okay, we can buy some new video game to play, it can be your birthday present. - Phil said smiling.
He looked over at Dan seeing that he was trying to catch all the dripping ice cream with his tongue. It looked so cute that Phil couldn't stop himself from taking a sneaky photo of it.
Dan looked over at Phil with his tongue still out pressed against ice cream.
Phil took one more photo.
Dan's eyes widen in sudden shock.
Phil took one more photo of it too before putting down his phone and laughing.
There start to get small blush on Dan's cheeks making him even cuter.
- You are so cute, Danny. - Phil said in somehow dreamy voice making Dan's insides turn.
Phil's eyes was shining so bright and he was so close.
Dan felt his breath hitch.
Phil start laughing.
- Calm down, I'm not gonna kiss you. Yet. - Phil smiled making Dan calm down a bit.
But wait! YET?! What does that mean?!
Dan glanced back at Phil who happily finished his own ice cream without saying a word.
Dan felt somehow uneasy but he let it drop, enjoying the rest of his birthday.
In the end they choose not just one but couple video games.
When they got back home Dan felt a bit tired, he haven't been so active in a long time.
- Go take a nap, I will make dinner for us. - Phil smiled at him helping to get all the bags to Dan's room.
- Thank you so much, Phil. - Dan type before putting his phone down and crawling into the bed.
It took only couple seconds before Dan was asleep.
Phil stand there watching him for a little moment longer than needed before smiling and walking to cook them special birthday dinner.
When Dan woke up he felt so happy about home made food that wait special for him.
They sit down and eat their dinner chatting about random things, never getting tired.
Than Phil stand up pulling out cute looking cake and put it in front of Dan lighting up candles.
- Make a wish, birthday boy. - Phil whisper looking at Dan with pure love.
In that moment Dan knew that he have made the right choice.
He close his eyes and blow the candles making a simple wish.
For Phil to be happy.
