CHAPTER THREE

Ok so I have a fun fact. Elsa's character is based from Stiles on Teen Wolf, does anyone here watch teen wolf?

Elsa wasn't always sad. She had good days sometimes usually it's if she's with a friend, though she has literally only one. The only friend she considers herself close with is Flynn, maybe Rupunzel and Hiccup but it's Flynn. Since she began her job they would meet up and go to the park or shop or even just talk, for hours. She was so thankful to have a friend like him. She knew a lot about him and he to her, but not everything. Elsa could never say everything that's happened to her. He'd judge her and throw her away that they did. Everyone else.

'Today you don't wanna get out of bed."

Flynn and Elsa were due to hang out in the shops today. Elsa just couldn't bring herself to get up of the bed she didn't even know why. It was like she's lost the will to even try anymore. She didn't want to make an effort. She didn't want to move. She didn't want to breath. It was strange, waking up and feeling like you'd rather not. To wake up with thoughts in your head, disturbing thoughts, terrifying thoughts, ones that haunted her. Scared her. Made her fearful.

'There are so many thoughts in your head."

She put her hand under her pillow and pulled the familiar pale blue book. Her diary. She flipped it over to a clean page and grabbed a pen, she kept one on her night stand incase she needed to vent her feelings. Some pages included little quotes, other held moments she wanted to remember, happy memories. Like of her and her sister. Her and her parents. Her favourite memory was when she and Anna went camping, aged 13, they had decided to go swimming in a lake but ended up canoeing with a Chinese guy that caught a big fish, the evening after they'd sat around a campfire with the mans family and ate the fish. She smiled remembering the memories. The cover was bumpy and rough. The edges were crumpled from where she moved around in her sleep. The page she was on was smooth and fine, perfect for ink, even drawing.

Elsa felt like she needed to jot down her feeling, especially now.

'Like you'd be better if dead, better of dead.'

Instead of writing the normal 'dear diary' she went to the first page. The first page was crispy and had blood splotches on, probably because it was the first time she was punched in the face and her nose was bleeding like crazy. She closed the book and slid it back to its place under her pillow. Her mind was going crazy and she scratched her head. She looked at her fingernails and noticed the dandruff and oil on them from her hair, she really needed to take a shower.

'But let me tell you.'

So that's what she did. She scrubbed her body viciously, without even looking you could be sure that red patches were forming on her pale white skin. When she finished she grabbed a towel and wrapped it around her body. Whilst walking back to her room, Anna walked out of hers. Elsa froze and wrapped her arms around her body, hiding the angry red marks, Anna smiled slightly to Elsa,

"Morning Elsa." She nodded politely, Elsa sighed, it was like they were strangers that had to share a roof. Elsa nodded back and ran to her room shutting the door behind her and panted.

'There's a whole world waiting for you.'

Elsa looked her her face in the mirror and rubbed eyeliner on her eyelids and mascara on her eyelashes and bb cream on her skin. She sighed and pocked her chin. A double chin was visible, it looked terrible. Her cheeks had started to sink in due to lack of sleep. Bags under her eyes and shadows of blue and dark brown formed more visible then before.

'Its hard to believe but it's true.'

Elsa walked to her chest of draws and pulled out a grey burnout top, a light blue oversized hoodie and some black ripped skinny jeans. Elsa quickly put them all on and rolled the sleeves up. She looked down at the canvas of scars and bruises. It was coming up to summer, she wanted to wear short sleeved tops and bikinis but she couldn't.

A) her scars and cuts

B) Her body

C) her bikini line

It made her uncomfortable to think about it. Elsa shook of the thoughts and grabbed her keys and some change she had in her money box or "happy box" as she called it. It was just a wooden box painted white that was in a draw in her night stand. Inside the box was a safe that had nearly all the money she earned from work. Some money was in her purse and some emergency places around the flat but this was her main supply.

'So just hold onto me, hold onto me.'

When Elsa arrived at the town centre she rolled her sleeves down and unzipped her hoodie, it was the only thing she could do to help her with the heat. The heat that tingled her skin, sent burning sensations up and down her back. She looked to where he normally came from and saw him walk round the corner. She smiled and stood up, making her way to him. Flynn grinned and hugged her tightly. Neither of them knew it but they were both thankful, thankful to be friends. Flynn was friends with a lot of people but he was defiantly a lot more closer to Elsa then to them. Yes, he was dating Rupunzel and they were amazingly close. But he never got that best friend. Now he had one.

'Because if you go my heart would break.'

Elsa was the same, since all her friend left her. She couldn't blame em though, it's hard to be friends with someone who has locked their door to everyone and everything. But at least she had good intention to. If she told anyone what happened they'd either ignore her for the rest of their lives or say she over reacted. Elsa doubted anyone would pity her. But she knew she reacted perfectly fine, if the definition of fine was crying, screaming and hurting.

Everyone knew the scale. The scale to show where fine was it went:

Amazing | great | good | ok | bad | very bad | awful | fine

"So shall we go onwards." Flynn grinned pointing towards the Brunel, where most of the shops were. Elsa grinned and nudged him.

"We shall."

The thing Flynn liked most about Elsa was that she didn't go to the bra and underwear section. She went to Holland and Barrett. Flynn was confused wasn't Holland and Barrett full of diet stuff and herbal remedies. Without a question, he followed her in. Elsa had picked out a plastic jar with some diet pill brand on it and some scar cream.

'Cause you are so beautiful.'

"Who are they for?" He asked, pointing to the objects in her looked down to what she held. Her breath hitched while her mind thought of something to say.

"The pills are for my aunt and the scar cream for my cousin. Shes got a nasty burn on her hand that's scarring and my aunts trying to keep her weight and be able to eat whatever the hell she wants." Elsa explained looking into Flynn's eyes and smiling, adding in a roll of the eyes to make it more believable. Thankfully Flynn brought it to Elsa's relief.

So they carried on walking around the shops until Flynn sighed annoyed. He looked at the far corner of topman/topshop to see jack leaning on the counter. He was talking to the girl behind the counter, the girl was blushing and laughing. Jack was flirting with her, and he appeared to be victorious.

'I promise you this I promise you this.'

Elsa looked in the direction that Flynn was looking at. She scoffed. Over the past two weeks they had been working together had been...interesting. They hadn't really talked that much but from what Elsa had heard, she hated.

"What did we do wrong today to deserve this?" Elsa wondered out loud, Flynn looked at her confused yet amused.

"I've done nothing wrong El." Flynn answered while he heard Elsa gasp,

"Oh my lord today I didn't say good morning back to Anna. I thought it but I never said it. And for that I deserve this?" Elsa started to hit her head repeatedly. Flynn laughed and grabbed her head lightly in his hands. Elsa looked at him confused. Why was he laughing she was being deadly serious. He stopped laughing slowly and pointed back to Jack.

'And you are more then capable.'

"Should we say hi?" He asked, Elsa shrugged and fiddled with the hem of her hoodie. Flynn was confused as to why she was wearing a hoodie in the bright sun but he didn't say anything, maybe she was really pale and burned easy or she was uncomfortable with being bare armed.

"Sure, if you want I mean." She smiled, Flynn smiled back. As annoying as Jack could be, Flynn thought he was a great person. You had to just get through he many many many MANY layers that he made piled on himself. Yes he was angry and irritating but he was just like them, looking for a job and trying to make it in the world. But knowing his dad, he could afford a college education. Flynn looked at Elsa, she was seventeen, shouldn't she be in college? 'Me and Rupunzel took college together so did hiccup and Astrid. We graduated, what about El?'

'Just believe in yourself when nobody else is listening.'

They walked over to Jack, Flynn started the conversation, something Elsa was thankful of.

"Hey Jack." He said pulling Jack away from the girl he was flirting with. Jack gave them a dirty look. Elsa's chest tightened.

Oh god he hates you just like everyone else

"Oh hello Flynn. Elsa." He nodded spitefully. Without anything else Elsa decided to turn away and browse the clothes whilst the boys talked. She normally never shopped in shops like this, rarely she would. Only if she was in the mood to treat herself. Which was more frequent since she began to work.

To think, everything was going ok until a trio of people walked into the shop. This is one of the main reasons she never left the flat. She didn't want to bump into them. She blocked them out for her reasons and her reasons only.

'And I may not even know your name.'

"Elsa?" One of them said shocked. Her name was Debra, she was with Julie and Courtney, her old best friends. Elsa mentally slapped herself. Of course they'd come onto this shop, they had used to do it when they were all friends in year 7&8.

"Hello." Elsa quietly responded, her tone was polite and sounded elegant. As if it was practised for hours. Which it was, she used to do it so that she wouldn't sound stupid when meeting new people.

'But I promise you I felt the same.'

"So, how have you been it's been. What, four years now?" Courtney spoke, Elsa flinched slightly at the way she said it. It was disappointment. And god did it terrify her.

Flynn looked over to Elsa about half way through his and Jacks talk to see her talking to three girls. He was confused, he didn't know Elsa had friends. Jack stopped talking and looked at Flynn and followed his gaze. People seemed to be following his gaze a lot lately. They looked at Elsa and made their way over to them, curiously.

"T-that long?" Elsa stuttered her breathing increased rapidly, her mind shut down whilst her chest closed around her. She didn't know what to say really to them.

'As you do right now, you'll make it somehow.'

"Flynn this is a privet conversation we shouldn't butt in." Jack whispered. Flynn shook his head and stood next to Elsa, his grip on Jacks arm never softening. Elsa looked up to them smiling softly, she was grateful they were there.

"We just want an explanation El." Julie pushed in front of Debra and Courtney. She crossed her hands trying to seem calm and content but coming across as intimidating.

"I- I..." Elsa couldn't finish, she couldn't say anything. She was still stunned how they were in front of her. She's pushed them to the back of her mind so much that it seemed like they were once in a dream she'd had years ago. She thought she was over them, but it still hurt to see them. They looked beautiful, puberty hit them great. The once geeky, unpopular trio now looked stunning.

"An explanation for what?" Flynn asked, Courtney looked at Flynn for the first time and looked to jack, then back to Elsa. Debra raised an eyebrow and Julie just kept her position.

'And even if you felt as though you have no friend.'

"For shutting us out. For locking the doors in our faces. Every time we texted it came up with 'number does not exist. Why Elsa? And if we knocked on your door you never answered. We were there for you! And what do we get in return? We get ignored." Debra's face was red, possibly from both being annoyed and angry. Jack and Flynn stared at them, confused. Elsa had done that?

'Except the blade that cuts your skin.'

"I-I'm sorry." Elsa replied her breathing sharpened, she felt like her legs were going to give out below her. Just as if things couldn't get worse, Anna came in with her friend Meredith, a girl with red hair, they'd met around a year ago when Elsa was halfway through her first year as a waitress.

"Anna?" Elsa said looking to her sister. Anna looked at Elsa and her eyes widened,

"Elsa." She stated nodding her head smiling. Elsa's hand kept clenching and un clenching. It was keeping her sain. Black dots started to clot up her vision.

'Your better then this you're worth more.'

"We better go, bye Elsa." The three girls walked away, out the shop leaving Elsa, the boys and the girls there alone.

"Who were they?" Jack asked.

"Just some people I used to know, can we leave it now?" Elsa turned to Jack, her stare cold and hard. Jack raised his hands in defence and rolled his eyes.

"Well sorry." Jack laughed lightly, Elsa hit his arm. He glared at her and grabbed her arm, missing how she winced when his hand came in contact with a bruise. Flynn pulled Jack away from her.

"Guys, I'm going home." He said, Elsa nodded and hugged him, watching him leave hushed let out a breath. Jack turned to Elsa,

"Just you and me huh?" He commented, Elsa was about to respond that Anna and Meredith were here too but when she looked around the pair were nowhere to be seen. She frowned.

'And even if you go my heart will break.'

"I guess, but I'm just going to go home." She said looking up at Jack. He grinned and put a hand on her shoulder. She looked down and shuffled her feet, tugging on her sleeves and bunching them in her hands.

"Okay then El. Have fun." He sang before heading of into a different direction, leaving the shop. Elsa glared at where he left. He called her El, only her friends normally did. Yet Elsa couldn't help but grin when thinking about the blue eyed boy. She laughed lightly before walking out the shop herself and walking home. Today was a good day, apart from the awkward encounter with her old friends. But she wouldn't change what happened for the world

'Just hold on one more day.'