Chapter 42

Two days went by and Hailey decided to give her child a proper hunter's funeral. Ellen made it to Bobby's the same night, when Jo called and cried ten minutes on the phone before she could explain what had happened. Hailey and Dean cleaned and wrapped their baby in clean linen while the others prep the wood stand in Bobby's back yard. Hailey came out holding the small bundle while Dean was holding her waist, helping her walk to the others. She looked up at them all and turned to Dean.

I can't do it... She told him as fresh tears fell and she held the bundle tighter.

Since they came back Hailey spent all her time in the basement where they had cleared a table to place the baby, John, to rest till Hailey was ready to say goodbye. Dean had gone down a few times but never for long and would usually storm out and take the Impala for a ride. Honestly they couldn't wait for the funeral. Seeing Hailey and Dean act like zombies and barely spoke at all was more than hard to watch. Castiel was the one who convinced her it was time to do funeral, John was gone and his body would soon start to change.

I know, I can't either... But we have to, for john. Dean said as he wiped her tears away, letting his own tears fall freely.

Hailey took a breath and walked to the wooden stand. She kissed the top of John's head and Dean gently took him from her, did the same and placed him ever so gently on the platform. Ellen and Jo walked to Hailey and brought her next to Bobby and Sam on the other side as Dean took the can of gas and emptied it around the firewood. He took a match out of his jacket and stared at Hailey who was trying to keep her sobs in. She nodded and he lit the match. Before the match touched the ground the firewood caught up in flames and Hailey couldn't hold it any longer as her legs gave out she cried out. Ellen and Jo held her up and turned her around, her back to the flames. Sam watched his heart breaking for her and his brother. Bobby walked up to Dean, knowing Ellen and Jo were taking care of Hailey and He put a hand on his shoulders as Dean just stood there and watched the fire burning as silent tears ran down his face. He closed his eyes in pain as Hailey chocked out more heartbreaking sobs and Ellen walked up to them.

Bobby, we're going to take Hailey inside... It's just too much for her. She explained softly and Bobby could only nod at her in response.

The girls brought an almost hysterical Hailey back inside and Castiel appeared. He didn't say anything, he had decided to show his respects and silently ask John's forgiveness for his failure. When Dean noticed him he padded Bobby's hand gratefully and walked up to the angel. They hadn't really spoken since that night.

I wanted to pay my respects... I will find Anna and make her pay for this. I should-

And we will, we'll make her pay. But right now... Hailey needs us. Dean said and Castiel looked at him curiously. He had failed them all and Dean should hate him for it and yet, here he was telling him Hailey needed them.

Dean, I failed you all...

You tried Cas, we all did. If it wasn't for you... we'd be burning two bodies tonight. You saved Hailey-

I didn't. Castiel cut him off and Dean seemed surprised.

She was gone... I tried but, I couldn't. Then something very powerful took over and... Castiel trailed off looking up in the sky.

Don't. Don't you dare tell me God saved Hailey and let our son die. I just... I can't. Dean tried to explain he couldn't believe God would bring back Hailey only to have her live through the loss of their child. Castiel looked sadly at Dean.

Whatever, happened. That was you Cas. I owe. You. Dean said before he walked back to Bobby and Sam and watched as the fire.

Castiel said a prayer silently and went back to his search for Anna.

Bobby walked inside, needing a few drinks. Sam stayed with Dean and both watched silently, for hours, as the fire turned everything to ash and all was left was red ember.

C'mon, let's go inside. Sam told his brother and Dean let his Sam pull him away.

Once they were inside Jo and Bobby were sitting in the kitchen, each had a glass of whisky and were looking at their glass, a half emptied bottle on the table. The only sound in the house was Hailey crying upstairs. Sam got two more glasses and pulled out a chair for Dean and poured him the first glass.

Maybe I should be Hailey... try to calm her down a bit...

Believe me, she calmed down. Bobby said and pushed his drink towards him.

She's been screaming for hours... mom's with her. She should fall asleep soon... I can't believe she hasn't passed out yet. Jo said not looking up from her glass. Hearing her best friend cry out in pain like that was torture but she couldn't leave. She had to be there for Hailey. She was thankful her mom seemed to know what to say to Hailey or do. Jo had no clue what to do but the only thing she knew was she wasn't going anywhere.

Dean finally settled down on the chair and drank his glass. As soon as he put down the empty glass Bobby poured him another. But Dean just stared at it. He didn't want to numb the pain. Soon enough Hailey's sobs died down and Jo couldn't help but let out a sigh of relief. After a few minutes Ellen came down and grabbed the bottle and drank directly from the bottle.

No mother should live what Hailey's living... Ellen said taking another swing and Bobby drank to that.

How are you holding up? Ellen asked and Dean just stared at her and she nodded.

Jo, gets your things, you need some rest.

Mom, I'm not going anywhere Hailey-

Is asleep and wont wake up till tomorrow. There's nothing else you can do baby. Ellen explained and Jo stared at Dean.

She's right, you look like shit. Hailey's sleeping you should get some rest too. I'll stay with her. Dean said to Jo and Jo left the table grabbing her bag in the living room.

We'll be back first thing tomorrow. Ellen said to Bobby and hugged him.

Thank you, for everything. Bobby nodded at her.

Hailey's like my own daughter. We'll get her through this. Ellen said.

Jo and Ellen got into the car and Ellen just stared through the windshield.

Mom? Jo asked and Ellen finally broke down and Jo wrapped her in a hug. Once Ellen was able to control her sobs she started the car and both drove to the nearest hotel.

Back at Bobby's, Dean got up from the chair and gave his glass to Bobby. Without a word he climbed the stairs and slowly opened Hailey's door. He walked in the room and sat on the floor next to her bed, leaning against the wall. He stared at her sleeping form, if she woke up she wouldn't be alone. He kept staring at her body while it moved as she took deep breaths till his eyes closed, exhaustion taking over.

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As the sun beam hit Dean's face he woke up. The first thing he noticed was Hailey's bed was empty. He painfully got up, sleeping sitting on the floor was not a comfortable place, he made his way to the bathroom but it was empty. He quickly ran downstairs and found Sam and Bobby talking in the kitchen.

Where's Hailey? He asked them.

She went out to take some fresh air... How did you sleep? Sam asked.

I slept. He answered and started walking to the door.

Dean, son, maybe you should give her some alone time. Might do her some good. Here have some coffee and I'll make you something to eat. Bobby said giving him a cup.

Not hungry. He answered taking a seat.

Don't care. Bobby answered.

Dean watched his brother as he read the paper and Sam's leg started to jump and down nervously. He tried to ignore it but he could feel the vibrations of it and it was getting annoying.

Sam, what is it?

What? Nothing. Sam said and his leg started up again.

SAM! Either you tell me what's up or I'm going to nail that damn leg to the floor. He warned and Sam sighed.

Fine... Cases are starting to pile up. Not to mention lucifer's out...

Yeah, well they can all kiss my ass I ain't leaving Hailey. Not when... Not like this.

I know. But we're down 6 hunters right now... Maybe some of us should take a couple of cases. Sam said not looking at his brother.

Sam's right, we should all get back to work. Hailey said as she entered the kitchen, coming in from the front door and over heard them. Dean glared at his brother.

Hailey, you need to heal first. It's been only three days-

I know how long it has been Dean. And I'm fine not even a scar left.

That's not what I mean and you know it. Dean said trying to keep his voice down and Hailey laughed awfully.

You think I can heal from this? I was ripped opened and had my child pulled-

Hailey! That's enough! Bobby yelled smashing his plate in the sink and making them all jump. Dean got up and stormed out.

You're not the only one who lost a child! Throwing that in his face... Just proved how far from fine you are. Bobby said trying to calm down. Hailey's eyes widened.

Oh god... I didn't... I'm sorry. Hailey said and ran outside where Dean had gone.

Dean! She called and he stopped walking to his car. She ran up to him.

Dean, I didn't... think. I'm sorry I'm... not okay! How am I ever going to be okay? Hailey sobbed the last part out.

I wish I knew... he answered her honestly.

Listen Hailey, if you really want to go hunting then we'll go. Dean said and Hailey was quiet for a moment.

I don't know what I want. I mean yeah, killing some evil sound pretty damn good right now but... I'm not okay... What if something else happens and I lose one of you? I couldn't... I won't survive that. Maybe I should get away... from all of this.

Okay, we'll get away. Hailey whatever you need, I'll do.

I think I might need to get away... alone. For a while. She said and Dean's eyes widened.

AN: Ok so this part of Hailey Singer is closing to an end ( of season), my question to you guys should I do a sequel or just continue on this story. Hope you enjoyed and review me your thoughts. Till then!

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