Ch. 11
Yoongi lay on the bed, on his side, watching Jungkook sleep.
It wasn't the first time he had done so, since he became the vampire's pet.
Late at night, after they were done with their...activities, Yoongi would wait until Jungkook drifted off, then look at him, admiring the way the brunettes unnaturally visible veins glistened blue under his golden skin. He would watch, and he would think.
Yoongi wasn't good enough.
Yoongi knew full well that he wasn't overly good-looking. He was too small, and had boring black hair, boring brown eyes, was too pale, had very little muscle…
He wasn't good enough for the beautiful vampire laying next to him.
And he was terrified Jungkook would realize that soon, too.
That the brunette would tell him one day, that he was sorry, but Yoongi just wasn't enough anymore, that he wanted something better.
Yoongi bit his lip, trying to hold back a tear. He had always stopped himself from crying before, but tonight he felt oddly emotional.
He wanted to wake Jungkook up and kiss him, so that for a while, at least, he could pretend that the vampire loved him.
Man, it was really stupid to fall in love with a vampire.
Unbidden, the tear trickled over Yoongi's cheek and he closed his eyes, sniffing smalley.
He jumped a little as a finger caught the drop of liquid, swiping it from his chin. Yoongi opened his eyes, seeing two glowing blue irises staring at him.
"Yoongi?"
At Jungkook's gentle tone, Yoongi felt his lips tremble, because it wasn't fair.
It wasn't fair for Jungkook to be so caring and beautiful and practically make Yoongi fall in love with him all over again every time they looked at each other.
It wasn't fair that Yoongi could never have him.
Jungkook's eyes widened when he saw Yoongi's tears quickening, and he sat up, pulling the small man with him, until the raven was curled in his lap.
"Yoongi, what's wrong?"
Yoongi looked up, and without his permission, words began to flood out.
"I-I'm not good enough f-for you! How can you even want me when I-i'm so-so...plain, and boring, and you're so…and-and i'm not…"
His tirade of self-loathing was stopped by a large finger pressing against his lips.
Yoongi looked up, and was surprised to see anger in Jungkook's eyes.
"Yoongi, how can you say that kind of stuff? Have you ever seen yourself in the mirror?" the vampire snapped, and Yoongi bit his lip, confused.
"W-what do you mean?"
Jungkook rolled his eyes and laid Yoongi back on the sheets, crawling over him.
"Yoongi, you're beautiful. Your skin is like...moonlight. And it's so soft, and sweet…" Jungkook licked along Yoongi's collar bone. "Your eyes are the perfect shade of chocolate, like the milk chocolate chips Jin put in those cookies." Jungkook traced his hand over Yoongi's cheek, under his eye.
"J-Jungkook…" Yoongi stuttered, blushing.
"Your eyelashes are so thick, and dark, and I want to see them flutter…" Jungkook gently ran a finger over the crease above Yoongi's eye. "Your lips are so pink and pretty, especially when they're wrapped around my cock…" Jungkook slipped a thumb into Yoongi's mouth, and the raven haired man licked it softly.
"You're perfect, Yoongi. Perfect."
Yoongi looked into Jungkook's eyes, his stomach pitching as he saw the firm honesty in the dark blue orbs.
"I'm sorry, Jungkook. I've just been feeling...off." Yoongi said, reaching up and carding a hand through Jungkook's hair.
"It's fine, Yoongi. Everyone has insecurities. Sleep now. If you want, we can talk more in the morning." Jungkook ordered, sliding down to the side and wrapping an arm around Yoongi's stomach, pulling the smaller man close.
"M'kay." Yoongi mumbled, turning and burying his face in Jungkook's chest.
He dreamt of deep blue eyes.
