I remain still

Power of will

Leaves me here to keep on trying


She had heard it all. Everything Emilia had said about her. Everything Lucifer had said to defend her. And deep within her, her heart had ached. Because Lucifer was fighting for a lost cause and because Emilia was right. She was a monster, and no traumatising loss could justify her actions.

So during the night of the fifth day, Samael had left.

She had left quickly, without making a sound and without looking back. They shouldn't worry about her, she was sure of it, because she didn't deserve it. Not after what she did.

She wandered in Tokyo's streets barefoot, owning weird looks from the few people she met. She wandered, and she wondered.

She knew why she attacked the city and killed those people ; it was because she was angry. Her wrath had been the only thing keeping her going after she thought she had lost Lucifer. It was also what cost her Heaven.

She stopped, and looked up.

For centuries, Lucifer and her had tried to find ways back to Heaven, but each try had ended with a failure, and they eventually gave up. She didn't miss Heaven itself, only the family she left there and that now hated her and her brother.

Lowering her gaze, she started walking again.

Rough relationships were to be expected in a family as big as theirs, but somehow, before their fall, it wasn't that bad. There was jealousy, of course, because she was one of the closest to God and because he was His favourite, but their authority and the respect they inspired were stronger than the envy of their siblings.

Without even realising it, she ended up in front of a high building. Something about it seemed to be calling her. So she got inside and climbed to the top.

No, she didn't miss Heaven. And if Lucifer wouldn't go back then she wouldn't either. But if she was going away, if she had already gone way, what was left ? If she was leaving Lucifer, she had nothing left, she was alone. And she didn't want to. She had already lost him once and didn't want to lose him again. But she wasn't losing him, was she ?

She arrived at the top of the building and the realisation hit her.

This time, he was the one losing her.

She sat heavily on the edge, and a sad and tired smile found its way on her lips.

"I really am a monster…"


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