Hiii! Sorry for not posting for forever. I got a severe case of writer's block and found that I just kept not wanting to finish this one.

Well... it's finished now. I hope everyone likes it.


L~

Light-kun was different.

There was no denying it, despite how hard I tried to.

He stood alone and ill-tempered. When I would glance at him so we could share our usual sly smiles, he would look away with… something akin to distaste.

When we got back, Light-kun had gone directly to our room and crashed on the bed. But he was sleeping in the middle of it. I couldn't get close to him.

The next morning, Light-kun had requested that I take the handcuffs off.

My heart was heavy with worry as I unchained us. I spent the rest of the day absently rubbing my wrist where the metal used to chaff.

Light-kun didn't talk to me.

He didn't look at me.

It was like there was a void in the room where my Light used to be.

Something had happened last night.

Maybe when Light-kun had touched the Death Note, Kira had taken over.

Could I have stopped it?

Could I still save him?

I asked Watari to be watchful of Light whenever I wasn't around him. If Kira had taken over then I couldn't let him start killing again just because I cared for him.

That night, I walked up to Light-kun, prepared to face anything. "Light-kun?" My tone was harsh. Too cold.

"What is it, Ryuzaki?" Light-kun asked sounding bored and indifferent. He was laying on his bed, in his new room, with his hands folded behind his head and one leg resting on his other's raised knee. He didn't even look at me when I spoke.

"I was coming to inquire about Kira," I told him, my tone increasing in indifference.

Light-kun sighed. "What? Am I not free? Are you going to chain me up again?"

My eyes narrowed. "No. I'm not."

"Good," Light-kun grumbled. "I was so tired of that damn chain."

"Light-kun," I murmured, "Is something the matter? You don't seem like your usual self..."

"And why might that be?" he asked accusatorially. "I haven't changed at all. I think that after we found the Death Note, your interest in me fell flat and that is it."

I opened my mouth to argue but Light-kun was talking again.

"I think that I was a mystery. Your mystery. I was the dangerous criminal who could mysteriously kill thousands and thousands of people. And now that I'm not that mystery, you don't care."

I paused, wanting to argue but not knowing what to say.

"Does that about sum it up?" Light-kun asked bitterly.

"Light..." I whispered.

"Because I think it does," Light-kun said before he turned around and stormed out of the room.


Light~

I was trapped. Utterly trapped.

The dark room surrounded me, and yet there was a single picture playing before me. It was what I could see with my eyes, I finally deduced.

Though, that meant that I didn't have control of my eyes. I was just a puppet being played by Kira.

That's right, Light Yagami. I have control and you can't do anything.

"What do you want?" I called.

Nothing much. Just to rid the world of all its evil. All of its pain and suffering and heartbreak. To get rid of those who oppose me and forever enter a world where I am capable of dominating over everyone.

"Get rid of those who oppose you?" I asked. "Does that include L?"

Yes, I don't understand why you would even bother to gather feelings for someone so pathetic and weak. You two are enemies and always have been.

"Ryuzaki cares for me!" I protested.

Yes, enough to even tell you his real name, Kira said sarcastically.

"He was doing that to protect himself," I defended.

Sure, but he was mostly doing to to hoard more power over you.

"He does care for me, though. I know he does."

Fine. All the better really because that means that he'll hesitate to kill you.

"What?" I cried.

Silence.

"What?!" I tried again, louder.

Silence.

No one replied.

Kira had left. I was alone and stuck listening to my own mind.


L~

I had to talk to him.

The real Light.

Whoever Light was now was not my Light.

I was determined to get him back.

I walked up to the not-Light-kun and said, "Light-kun..."


Light~

The last time Ryuzaki had talked to me had been torture. I could hear the cruel things that came out of my mouth but I couldn't do anything about it.

And once again, Ryuzaki was trying to talk to me.


L~

Before I could think about it...

Before I could think things through...

I went and pulled Light towards me. I pressed my lips to his.


Light~

He pulled me towards him.

And then he was kissing me.

No, he was kissing Kira.

I could feel the press of his lips against my own like the worst longing I had ever felt.

"L!" I shouted.

And then L and Kira were apart.

But... the black room was fading.

"Light-kun?"


L~

As our lips interlocked, Light was frozen. He didn't move.

Then he shouted "L!" loudly and I started backwards in surprise.

"Light-kun?"

He was looking at his hands in wonder, his head shifting around to look everywhere.

Then his eyes locked onto me and he wrapped me up in a giant hug. "Ryuzaki! You did it!"

"What?" I asked, perplexed but still happy.

"I have control. Kira doesn't. I have control!" Light-kun cried joyously. He held me back and kissed my nose. "Thank you, Ryuzaki!"

"What happened?"


Light~

I wasn't sure what had happened... but I was back.

I felt a twinge at the back of my mind like Kira was stunned and merely standing up.

"I'm not sure, but I don't have much time."

Suddenly, I knew what I had to do. I knew what had to happen.


L~

"Ryuzaki, listen to me," Light said, holding my shoulders. I was stunned. I didn't know what to do or say.

"I don't have much time before Kira is back," Light-kun told me. I nodded. Somehow I knew what he meant.

"I can't control him. I can't win. He won't be surprised again and this won't happen again," Light-kun said. He was staring directly into my eyes, his boring into my mind.

I nodded again, already suspecting where things were going.

"Ryuzaki, I am Kira," Light-kun said, closing his eyes. "I am Kira and Kira is me. And as much as the overwhelming power of the Death Note calls to me, I don't want to take it. I've seen how horrible Kira is. I've had to listen to him torture me in my own mind. I have no desire to become like that."

I swallowed. I knew what was happening. No, I thought, Please no.

"I can't be Kira," Light-kun whispered. "The world can't take that. But I can't be Light Yagami either. I can't be the person that you fell in love with..."

I watched his face pale slightly and his forehead crease in concentration. Then his eyes snapped open and he started again, "Ryuzaki. You know what must be done."

I nodded. Small. Quiet. I didn't know what to say. I wanted to argue him out of this, but this was both the man I had been dying to capture, and the man I had fallen in love with.

But I couldn't think of anything.

We, two geniuses, couldn't think of a way to save Light.

We couldn't think of a way to save him from himself.

I blinked, my eyes feeling wet. I looked at Light. His face was clenched in concentration.

"Light?" I whispered.

"I'm here," he said, showing he still had control over his body.

Gently, I reached my hand over and placed it on the side of his face. Gently I pulled him towards me in what I knew would be a final kiss.


Light~

I leaned into Ryuzaki's touch. Feeling the way his lips felt under mine. I wrapped my arm around him and pulled his body against mine.

"Thank you, Ryuzaki," I whispered.

And then I was falling.

My body wasn't but my mind was falling and crashing into the ground.

I opened my eyes and found myself back in the black room.

Kira shoved Ryuzaki away from him.

"No..." I whispered, my voice cracking.

You think you're such a clever bastard don't you? Kira's voice echoed all around me.

Well, guess what? he continued. I know your brain. I know how it works. And I know what you are planning on doing.

I stood up, my throat feeling constricted from tears.

"No," I whispered, my voice stronger. "I know your mind, too, Kira. But here's where I beat you: I know L's mind. You only know the competitive side of him. You can't know the full L. Not like I do. And you never will."

Ha! What does that matter? Kira sneered.

"Everything." I told him defiantly.


L~

No.

No.

Kira shoved me away.

I felt Light-kun's absence immediately. I wanted to pull him back to me. I wanted hold him. I wanted to kiss him and feel the touch of his hands against me. I wanted to hear his voice. I wanted to hear him talk to me late at night as we lay next to each other.

But Kira only looked at me in disgust. It hurt so much to see that look of revulsion on my Light-kun's face.

But I knew that that wasn't him. That wasn't Light.

Because Light was trapped inside and there was no way out.

Light-kun scoffed, not bothering to say anything and whipped around to walk off. Almost on autopilot, I tried to follow him like we were still attached together with chains but I realized we weren't and Kira wanted me gone.

So I stopped and watched him.


Light~

I didn't have much to look for, to hope for.

I had to hope that Ryuzaki would understand.

I could maybe take over my body one more time before Kira would kill me but it would be difficult regardless.

I hated listening to Kira's conniving plots. His ideas to kill L. Maybe I could stop them subtly. Tell him bad ideas.

But I didn't know what to say.

He would see it as a trap, especially if it came from my own mouth.

All I could do was wait. Wait in the endless inky blackness until Ryuzaki was ready.


L~

I told Watari.

Not everything, but I told him that I might die, what to do if I did die, and how Light-kun was now Kira. He seemed shocked and amazed but it really did make perfect sense.

And I supposed that it was some twisted cruel joke that it was raining.

I stood on the roof, the place I had dreaded while Light-kun and I had been together.

And I looked up at the clouds.

Amongst the constant splash of rain, I swore that I could hear bells ringing in the distance. Those bells.

I looked up at the clouds, waiting, thinking, water pouring off of my face in large thick drops.

I faintly heard the shutting of the door.

I turned and saw Light-kun there.

Watching me.

He said something but I couldn't hear him.

He came over to me.

Everything was moving too quickly and too slowly.

Kira told me to go inside. I merely turned to face the horizon, taking a step closer to the edge.

"Light," I said softly, "Are you ready to let go?"


Light~

Kira sneered.

I glared at him.

"You won't get away with this," I muttered, hoping to distract him.

I looked, through Kira's eyes, at my Ryuzaki. His hair hung limp around his shoulders, dripping with water. His shirt was soaked through, his face looked so long and pale.

I wanted to hold him, warm him up. Do something.

But I needed to focus.

I won't? Kira asked me, his words echoing. I'm surprised you are still so strong and annoying. I would have thought you would have submitted by now.

I glanced at Ryuzaki. This was the moment.

I focused on his face and waited.

He seemed to know what was happening and stepped closer to me.

I waited, my breath held, as he reached out, moving both excruciatingly slowly and faster than light, to grab my hand.

Instantly, I felt the jolt and my pathway.


L~

Light-kun shook his head violently and then looked at me.

I could tell.

Just from his eyes I could tell that he was my Light. I could see how calm and relaxed he was. I could see the way he looked at me. It wasn't hostile and with calculating distaste like when Kira took over.

No, now his gaze was softer. Full of more care and worry.

I never would have expected that it could change his face so much but it did. He looked younger, kinder, more like the Light-kun I had fallen in love with.

He didn't say anything.

He just stared at me.

"Ready?" I asked softly.

He nodded, squeezing my hand.

"Are you sure this is the only way?"

He smiled sadly at me and nodded again.

We turned around to the horizon.

The bells were chiming louder.

We took a step towards the edge.

Light-kun turned to look at me. "I'm sorry," he whispered softly.

I was about to tell him to stop, to not worry about feeling sorry, but I couldn't find the words. My throat was clenched closed. My mind felt like it was breaking.

Instead, I leaned close to him and softly kissed him. Our lips didn't quiet align but I didn't care. It was soft and quick and so so short.

Because it had to be.

I pulled away, my eyes downcast.

I didn't say anything.

And then I felt his fingers leave my grip.

I felt him step backwards and gently slide out of my grip.

And he wasn't beside me.

And I couldn't reach him.

I couldn't stop him.

All I could do was watch.


Light~

I wanted to look into Ryuzaki's eyes one last time. I wanted to hold his hand forever.

I wanted to be beside him.

But I couldn't lose him too. I hated that he had to lose me but this really was the best way.

Sort of the only way.

And so I had pulled my hand out of his grip. And stepped backwards.

I had seen the look of instant panic and despair on his face, and I had wanted to tell him "Don't look."

But I knew him, too. And he would have never listened to me.

And so I was falling.

And Ryuzaki was getting farther and farther away, his arm extened tentatively, as though he were trying to grab me.

But that was okay.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! Kira screamed in my head.

I folded in. I let him take control.

I smiled. I watched from the blackroom how Ryuzaki disappeared. I watched the buildings flying past.

I could imagine how things could have been different. I could imagine a world where I never got the Death Note back. Where I controlled Kira.

But that would never happen.

But that was okay.

Because I knew that we had won.

We had beaten Kira.

And he would never again destroy the world.

I closed my eyes and smiled.

I didn't need to watch.

Because… it was already over.


L~

He was gone.

I knelt by the edge. I could faintly make out his body.

I turned away, feeling sick.

My stomached rolled and I threw up over the side.

I wanted to join him.

I wanted Light back.

I walked inside.

I walked until I found Watari.

"It's done," I whispered.

Watari nodded and turned to head outside and find his body like we had discussed.

I walked blindly through the building.

Light-kun was nowhere.

But I knew where he was.

I just… didn't want to believe it.

I just wanted to bring him back.

I felt empty.

I felt alone.

I wanted to jump off of the side.

I wanted to join him.

I wanted to be beside him always.

I needed to.

But that wasn't what he would want.

I knew that.

Light, my Light, would want me to hold strong. He would want me to use my brain to help someone else.

He would want me to live.

Even though I no longer wanted to.

The bells had seemed so loud before, but now they were silent.

They had left me too.

I was left alone.

And that was it.

That was the end of Light-kun and my story. Because there was no more need to continue.

We were both gone.


Yeah so I went with the sad ending. Sorry for anyone who wanted fluff. Thanks for reading and once again: I am so sorry I'm so late on this!