Can't Let Go: Pt 2
Epilogue
ARIZONA'S POV
Two months later…
God, I'm feeling so good right now. My kids are safe and thriving. My wife is incredibly beautiful. I'm feeling like I did before the worst time of our lives happened…and tonight, tonight belongs to Eliza and I. It belongs to the love we have for each other. I'm so desperate to feel her touch, her hands on my skin, and I cannot wait much longer. I don't know what will happen when the moment arrives, but mentally and physically, I'm feeling the best I've ever felt. I'm feeling so good that I need tonight to hurry up and arrive so I can get out of here with my wife.
I love my kids more than anything in this world, but I need a little adult time right now. I need to let go and remind myself of my marriage. Why I married Eliza. Why we fit so perfectly together. Yes, I'm using sex to remind myself of that but I'm sorry…when it's been as long as it has for me, nobody knows what it's like. When I've laid awake at night wondering if I'll ever have her hands on me again…my body ached for her. It throbbed in every way imaginable. I've never longed for anyone's touch like I have been recently and I'm ready. I'm ready to experience Eliza for the first time in what feels like forever. My only problem…she doesn't know about our plans yet. She knows we're headed out to dinner together, but she doesn't know that I've booked us a hotel room…presidential suite, with everything we could possibly need.
Mom has been amazing as always and tonight she is taking the kids for us. She knows I need a night to myself. Since the moment Harper came home from the hospital, I wanted our family together. Since I knew that they couldn't hurt my family anymore, it's the only thing I had on my mind. Some may say that at times, I obsessed. I obsessed about how blessed I was. How lucky I was. How perfect and beautiful my family is. Yes, I obsessed…but it beats sinking into a depression, right? It beats refusing to allow them to come home and be with their moms. I know how much Xavi and Soraya wanted to be with us and I had to allow it to happen. I had to have them here with us…where they belong. The twins, well…they're just happy to have attention on them. Drawing on a wall or whatever. I'm so thankful that they didn't know what was going on around here over the last several months. It was painful enough trying to protect our two eldest from it. It was painful, but we made it through. All of us.
Placing Harper down for her afternoon nap, I press a kiss to her tiny forehead and back away. Sometimes I struggle to leave her but I'm psyching myself up for tonight so I'm trying to leave her room right now, reluctantly. I know she is safe and I know she is perfect in every way, but occasionally, I panic. I panic and then it is left to my wife to reassure me. She's amazing like that, though. She is amazing and everything I will ever need in my life. Had she not been here for me lately, I would've crumbled. I wouldn't be on this earth right now. Honestly, I would've ended it all.
Clearing my mind of the ordeal I faced, I take the stairs slowly, the sound of my kid's laughter settling me. Smiling as Soraya rushes towards me, I pull her up into my arms and kiss the face off her. "Hi, big girl."
"Mommy says you are pretty."
"She does, huh?" I smirk as I glance over at Eliza. "Does mommy know that she is the prettiest?"
"Yup." Soraya nods. "I told her."
"Good girl." I press a kiss to her forehead. Approaching my wife, she has that adorable smile on her face and I can't help the thought I have of dragging her upstairs right now. "Hi, beautiful."
"Hi." Eliza grips the edge of my tee and pulls me in closer. "You got some of those kisses for me?"
"Always…" I take her bottom lip between my teeth as Soraya wriggles out of my arms and climbs down my body. "Tonight is ours…" I whisper against my wife's mouth. "All ours."
"Y-You mean…" Pulling back, she narrows her eyes. "Arizona, if you're lying, I swear!"
"I'm not lying." I smile against her lips, my tone lowered. "Would I do that to you?"
"N-No." She breathes out. "But you mean, really…"
"Really." My arms wrap around her waist and I trap Eliza against the kitchen counter. "I booked us a room. Well, a suite."
"W-Where? H-How?" My wife is becoming a little flustered but that is exactly what I was hoping for. I was hoping she would still find me attractive. "Arizona…"
"Downtown," I reply. "Just you and I. Tonight, okay?"
"Okay." Her eyes close as my hands cup her face. "The kids…"
"Still staying with mom."
"I thought we were collecting them after dinner." She studies my face. "You had this planned?"
"Maybe." I shrug as I pull back. If I don't create a little space between us, I'm going to lift my wife onto the counter and do unimaginable things to her body. Yes, I've touched her since my attack but I've never felt this good about it. I mean, there is no uncertainty inside of me right now. There hasn't been for a few days. I just needed a little time to know that I was ready for this. For us. I just needed to know that I wasn't going to get her hopes up only to let her down when the time came. She doesn't need that. She has been more than patient and right now, I know this is our time. I know that I'm ready to take that step and be intimate with my wife…completely. Fully. Without hesitation. This will be the first time she has touched me since my attack but I'm so ready for it. I'm so ready to enjoy Eliza tonight.
"You're something else." She takes my hand in her own. "And I love you."
"Right back atcha." I throw her a wink as I squeeze Eliza's hand. "KIDS!" I yell. "Who wants a movie and ice cream before grandma arrives?" Smiling as Xavi, Noah, and Joshua come running towards me, Soraya has already chosen her spot on the couch…her legs crossed as she patiently waits. "Okay, guys. Go sit with your sister and I'll be right there."
"Hey, Arizona…" Eliza pulls me in close and crushes her lips into my own. "You make me crazy."
"Mm, I learned from the best…"
Pushing my plate away, dinner was incredible but my eyes haven't left Eliza's since we sat down at the gorgeous restaurant we're in. I knew she would love the reservations I made but right now, I want to remove the amazing dress she is wearing. The one that is hugging her body so perfectly and leaving very little to the imagination. Thank god this place is attached to our hotel. "How was dinner?"
"Mm, amazing." Eliza sips her wine. "So good."
"So, I picked well?"
"Don't you always?" She rolls her eyes playfully. It's one of the reasons I fell in love with you."
"Was that before or after the accusations?" I smirk, lowering my voice. "You know, how I was paying you to sleep with me…"
"Oh, my god!" She facepalms herself. "Y-You remember that?"
"Sometimes." I shrug. "But it just reminds me of how far we've come."
"I was a total bitch to you when we met, wasn't I?" My wife groans.
"No, it just made you hotter." I wink. "All that back and forth. You knew how much I wanted you."
"Well, that's no lie," Eliza smirks. "You remember the first time we met?"
"Every moment I wake." I nod as I take my wine glass in my hands. "Why?"
"So, you remember me coming home with you?" She raises her eyebrow and shifts a little closer. "How I fucked you against the window…"
"Shit." My eyes close as she settles her hand on my thigh. "I-I remember…"
"Hard to forget, huh?"
"Y-You." I take my bottom lip between my teeth. "You are one I could never forget, Eliza. Never."
"It was simply a case of taking matters into my own hands." She squeezes my thigh. "You were all hung up on wanting a relationship, but I knew you would have that. Even if we fucked before we knew each other's surnames, we would have exactly what you wanted. A life together."
"Finish your wine," I state, clearing my throat. "And do it fast."
"Demanding…" Eliza's lips press against my ear. "But what I like to see."
"What's that?"
"The reaction your body still has to my touch." She smiles against my neck and my eyes close. "And your lack of words tells me all I need to know…"
"Oh yeah?" I turn my head, my eyes fixed firmly on my wife's. "And what are they telling you?"
"That your body needs me, Arizona. Just like it has done since the moment we met." Okay, I love how my wife is refusing to let recent events get in the way of our evening together. I won't lie, I thought she would've had some kind of discussion going by now. You know, am I ready and what not?
"Get upstairs…I'll finish everything up here." Grabbing my purse, I pull my credit card from it and motion for the waiter to bring me the bill. Eliza is already disappearing from beside me and I need to be with her. I know I told her to leave, but I need to be with her. Realising I have a ton of cash also, I throw it down on the table and disappear from our table. "Wait up!" I stop the elevator doors from closing.
"Couldn't wait, huh?"
"For you…never." Pushing my wife back against the carriage wall, her back connects with the mirrors around us, gasping as the cool glass meets her skin. "Eliza…"
"I've needed this with you since forever, Arizona.."
"T-Tonight." My tongue trails her neck before I take her earlobe between my teeth. "God, tonight I'm so here with you."
"I-I know." She moans as I suck on the skin of her neck. The elevator doors opening, I pull my wife out into the corridor and make quick work of the zip on her dress. Finding ourselves outside our suite, I frantically search for the key card in my purse, relief washing over me as my fingers connect with it. "Arizona…come on."
Turning to face Eliza as the door bleeps, I push it open and her forehead rests against my own. "I need you, Arizona." She whispers against my mouth. "I need you like I've never needed anyone before."
"You've got me." I smile into our kiss. Pushing her against the nearest wall, her fingers tangle in my hair and my own lower the little black dress hugging her body. Finding her totally naked chest before me, my mouth salivates at the thought of my tongue trailing her skin. "Oh god." My own chest beginning to heave, her dress gathers around her waist and I waste no time in dipping my head and taking one of her perfect nipples between my teeth. "I've missed this…"
"Mm, yes." Her head resting back against the wall, she forces my mouth against her and I suck a little harder. "Shit…" Moaning and writhing as I give her gorgeous breasts the attention they deserve, my free hand tugs her dress lower until it falls to the floor and she kicks it away. Now standing in nothing but her heels and black lace panties, I'm finding it hard to concentrate on one thing alone. I want her like never before, but fuck me…she's a masterpiece. A masterpiece I've missed having against me.
"Wow…" I breathe out as I take a step back and admire her incredible beauty. She's mine. "Y-You…"
"Kiss me, Arizona." Pulling me back in by the back of the neck, her lips crush into my own and her tongue slips into my mouth. Toying with the tip of my own, fresh arousal floods from my center and I know that tonight isn't going to end anytime soon. How can it when we have so much making up to do? How can it when this woman is about to take away all of the pain and all of the worrying I've been experiencing for far too long? Dropping my hand between us, I drag my nails up her inner thigh and she almost loses her balance. "Fuck." Tugging on my bottom lip, she pushes off the wall and guides me through our hotel suite.
Turning her in my arms as we reach the bedroom area, her palms press against a nearby wall and my sex grinds against her ass. "You're making me so wet, Eliza…"
"Mm, I know." She smirks as she glances over her shoulder. "Wouldn't expect anything less."
"Confident, huh?" My hand slips beneath the waistband of her panties and her own arousal coats my fingers. "Mm, just what I wanted." My lips press against the back of her neck as I roll my fingertips over her aching clit.
"F-Fuck." Her knees weaken. "Oh god, that feels amazing."
"You need to come for me?" I whisper.
"S-So much." She groans as her back arches against me. "And if you keep doing that, its gonna happen." Picking my pace up a little, my hand is soaked and it feels so good. Eliza always did give me exactly what I wanted and it's amazing to know that some things never change. That I make her feel this way. I've spent so long since the attack not feeling good enough, but she has never made me question that. She has never given me any reason to suspect that she doesn't find me attractive. "Y-Yes, oh fuck." Squeezing her thighs closed as her orgasm courses through her, I hold her securely against me and watch on in delight as she moans and writhes for me. "Fuck, Arizona…"
"I like to give you what you need…and you definitely needed that."
"I did." She answers, breathlessly. "But I need you naked beneath me." Turning in my arms, she backs me up towards the bed, no hesitation in her eyes. I really don't need either of us to worry right now. Her heels hitting the hardwood, I'm reminded of just how hot my wife is. I mean, she's always hot, but tonight she is looking something special and I know it's all for me. "I need you on the bed, Arizona."
"I love you." Pushed down, a yelp leaves my mouth when my back connects with the soft mattress and I'm feeling good. Really good. Her fingers toying with the hem of my own dress, she glides it gently over my body and slowly slips it over my legs. Throwing it to the floor, she climbs up my body. Her hands as soft as ever, I find myself in nothing but my underwear beneath her and yeah, I'm not sure how much longer I can wait. The anticipation is actually killing me right now but I suspect she knows that. Eliza knows exactly what she's doing and that has never been a secret.
"So fucking beautiful…" Her tongue trailing my stomach, it tightens and I shudder beneath her. "I've missed you so much, Arizona." Her voice breaking, my bra suddenly falls open and her mouth trails further up. "But I'm here…I'm so here and I love you. Everything about you." I appreciate her reassurance. It means more than she could ever know.
"Hey…" I cup her face and her eyes find mine. "I know you're here." I smile. "I can feel it."
"Yeah?" Her eyes glisten against the moonlight shining through. "You do?"
"So much." Pulling her up my body, her lips crush into my own and I know exactly how she's feeling. I'm feeling it too. In love. I'd tell her, but I can't right now. I need to reconnect with her. I need her to know that I trust her. The 'I love you's' can come later. Her hand dropping between our bodies, she cups my sex and the moan that falls from my mouth even surprises me. "Ugh, fuck." Gripping the sheet to the side of me, Eliza suddenly sits back on her knees and glances down my body.
"You look so fucking good, Arizona." Her hands trailing my thighs, she grips the waistband of my panties and tugs on her bottom lip. "And I'm sorry, but these have to go." Suddenly ripping them from my body, I'm overcome with arousal and I don't even know how we got to this point. I never thought I'd have this with my wife again but here she is, literally ripping the lace from my body.
"Jesus Christ." Muttering under my breath, my eyes close and a smile settles on my mouth. "You are so good for me." I breathe out. "So good."
"We're perfect, Arizona." Her eyes focused on my soaked sex, they're dark and filled with complete want. Just how I want her to feel. I need her to feel like I'm all she will ever need. I need her to take us back and erase the past. A single finger gathering my arousal, I watch on in delight as she slips it past her lips and moans. "Perfect." Shifting and straddling my right thigh, her naked body presses against my own and her tongue trails my bottom lip. "You're mine, okay?"
"I'm yours," I repeat her words, barely above a whisper. "Make me yours, Eliza." Her own soaked center grinding against my thigh, her hand ghosts down my stomach and her fingers work me like they always did. "Please…" She knows I need this. She knows I need to hear those words from her.
Slipping two fingers inside of me with ease, my back arches from the bed and my mouth falls open. "Fuck…" Her own moan falling from her lips, my stomach tightens and she pushes in and out of me so perfectly. "God, I've missed you…" Her lips crushing into my own again, my entire body is on fire. Every nerve ending. Every muscle. Yeah, Eliza makes me feel like nobody else ever has. Nobody.
"Oh god." Her free hand gripping my own that is fisted in the covers, Eliza's arousal coats the skin of my thigh and I know that she needs me. I know that she needs more. Working my hand up her thigh, I slip two fingers inside of her and a gasp falls from her perfect lips. "I'm so close…"
"Y-Yeah?" She breathes hard against my ear. "You're so fucking wet for me."
"Shit." Her words pushing me closer to the edge, her own walls tighten around my fingers and my thumb rolls over her clit. "I need you with me."
"A-Always." She whimpers, her sex throbbing. "I-I, oh god…" Rocking above me, her eyes find mine and her body shudders. "I-I…" Cut off when her orgasm crashes through her, my own sends a wave of electricity through my body.
"Y-Yes, fuck…yes." Shaking beneath my wife, neither of us let up and shockwaves course through me. Whimpering and trying to breathe through this intense emotion I'm feeling, Eliza's forehead comes to rest against my own, her eyes never leaving mine.
"Arizona…" Her voice soft and low, she studies my face and I furrow my brow. "I just…"
"What is it?" I ask as my hand trails her naked back. "Eliza?"
"I love you." Her words catching me off guard, I still my hand and try to hold back the smile curling on my mouth. "You have been through so much, and I love you." She says with complete certainty. "I love you and I'm here. I'll always be here. Wherever you are, I will be."
"I wouldn't have made it through this without you, Eliza." I pull her down against me. "You have been incredible through all of this and I need you to know that I couldn't have done it without you."
"I thought I would never have the chance to touch you again…" My wife's voice breaks. "I thought we had lost this between us…"
"No, baby." My fingers run through her hair. "I thought it at one time too, but I couldn't ever lose this with you. It's who we are…"
"You don't even know how good it felt to just be naked with you…"
"I do." I hold my wife close. "Because I felt it too. I felt that connection we lost too long ago and I'm never letting it go again. I'm never letting you go…"
"You're my world." Eliza sits up on her elbows and trails her thumb across my bottom lip. "You're the most beautiful woman in this world…and you're mine."
"Always will be," I whisper, my voice close to breaking. "I told you some eleven years ago how I felt and to this day…I still can't let go."
"Don't ever let go, Arizona."
"With my beautiful family by my side?" I sigh. "I couldn't."
The End.
This fic, both parts, has been the most incredible experience of my life. Laughing and crying with you all...it's just been everything I wanted and needed. This fic is officially done now, though. Keep it in your heart because that's exactly where I wrote it from. Thank you for every review, every favorite and every follow. You guys all mean the world to me and this fic wouldn't have happened without you.
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