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Chapter 27
I look down at the sleeping Yuuki seeing her scrunch her eyes having a dream. I look around to see millions and millions of books scattered around in the library. I picked up the books to put them back in the right shelves. I walked back to Yuuki to see her still sleeping trying to get comfortable on the cold, hard ground.
I looked around to put a blanket over her and grab a pillow, which she snuggle up to with a smile. I couldn't help the smile that was on my face as I rubbed her head. In ways, Yuuki should be the younger sister. I sigh one more time to look at the door seeing Mimi and Karou looking at us smiling.
"Do you mind taking care of her for me?" I asked with a calm expression.
Karou and Mimi only nodded walking pass me to clean around the library. Karou was watching Yuuki while I picked a book of the Kuran family. I have been interested in our family's history. I flip the page to see a picture of the first Kuran... Kaname. I couldn't help the sadness in my eyes as I saw that even in a book, he looked so lonely. I felt eyes on me to look up seeing the sad eyes of Karou and Mimi.
"What is it?" I asked confused closing the book.
"It's nothing," Karou replied looking back down at Yuuki. I titled my head confused to hear him continue, "I just don't understand why you are so interested in learning about your ancestors."
"You read a book about them instead of asking us," Mimi states leaning against the shelves.
"Well... Where you both there when the war started between Vampires and Vampire Hunters?" I asked crossing my arms.
Karou and Mimi looked at each other then look back at me sighing.
"We told you this. We were born way before that," Karou replies.
"When the first pure bloods were born," Mimi finishes.
My eyes widen as I sit down listening to them.
"We were little puff balls at that time. Our parents actually met your ancestors for a very long time," Karou explains recalling his father.
"It was actually your ancestor that made Karou's father the leader of the new clan, Feathers," Mimi explains making my eyes widen.
I hold my hand out looking stun, "Wait! Kaname was the one that help created your clan!"
Mimi and Karou nodded their heads amused by my stun expression. I couldn't help but sigh looking down.
"That must have took forever," I spoke exaggerating.
"It was," Mimi replied moving a book to the shelf.
I looked up at her surprised but then narrowed my eyes looking down closing my eyes.
Forever... huh...
The memory of Kaname's sad eyes in the book, the loneliness he has in his voice, and the memories he must have wished to have forgotten. I open my eyes to look up at the ceiling.
He was hurting for a long time.
I looked at Karou and Mimi to see they were doing their own things. I notice the sadness in their eyes besides the smile that was placed on their faces.
All of them... hurting for so long...
I look down sadly to stand up having the book on the shelf. I turn my heel to walk over to the door looking at Karou and Mimi. They were looking at me with confusion on their faces as I looked at them smiling. I faced forward closing the door behind me to walk down the hallway.
Pure bloods live for a very long time...
I stop walking to look down at my hands having them in a fist.
I know that yet why doesn't my mind not accept... Why just my body...?
I shake my head again walking down the hallway once again. I kept walking when the scent of Kaname hit me. I look ahead of me to see huge doors in front of me.
Those doors...
I looked around to see a place that I never saw before except in the anime and manga. Nobody was here to have my heart relief as I looked at the doors. I walk forward for the scent to become stronger making me know for certain what is beyond these doors. As much as courage as I can, I pushed the doors open to see the coffin all the way in the back. I walked further in the room to have the doors a big slam.
I look at the doors terrified hearing the echos around the room. I sigh with relief to look at the coffin. I walked to the coffin to see have it close. I put my hand on it to feel... my original brother presence in here. I closed my eyes having sadness, anger, loneliness, and regret wash over me. All these feelings... weren't mine. I put my hand back to my side looking down at my hand.
Having all these feelings for so long... So long that now I will understand them... forever... I am... a Pure blood... I live forever...
"You're right... You'll live forever without dying,"
"Because you're the same as Kaname-onii-sama and Yuuki-onee-sama."
I turned around to see two little me's; one from this world and the one from the other world, holding hands, and holding two different books. I narrowed my eyes seeing webs around them.
"I know that.. I understand that-"
"No, you don't understand!" The little me from this world shouted, "If you understood, then why... why are you even now trying to crush 'us' down?"
"You're being so mean... Despite it being you who actually awaken 'us'." The me from the other world said. They both reach their hands out to me crying, "Ahh, hey..."
"Is it a bad thing? It's too painful if I have to be alone for all eternity... It's only normal to want someone to snuggle up together, isn't it...?" The me from this world says crying.
My eyes widen as I walked over to them as they stretched their hands further to me.
"When I think of him, I feel so much love and such sadness... Is it a bad thing that the sane feeling makes me want to latch onto his throat and devour his blood and even his life to taste his feelings in it?" The me from the other world ask as I speed up my walking.
"Our' whole conscience is filled with this need that is so completely, purely vampire... and yet 'we' are nothing other than just-"
"Me," I cut both of them grabbing their hands to pull them out of that web.
They looked at me with wide eyes as I surrounded my arms to them holding them tightly to me.
"You're right," I whisper to them, "I have been ignorant to my own desires. Finally realizing what's happening to me, and trying to accepting it." I released them to put my hands on their shoulder to see their eyes widen, "I'm sorry. From now on, I'm not going to push you both away. You both are me and I need to understand that. So..." I stand up stretching my arms out to them, "Sorry for ignoring you and trying to push you away. I finally understand."
The two hid their eyes then smiled looking at me. They ran to me as I put my arms around them. As I circled my arms around them they vanished completely. In that moment, I felt the pure vampire inside me wakening. I open my eyes to have my eyes red with lust for blood and a tear falling down.
I touch my cheek to feel the sadness wash over me. I touch my throat to feel it become dry as a desert. I looked at the coffin feeling Kaname's scent. I put my hands on my throat when Zero came into mind. My eyes widen as I control my red eyes making them back into my brown eyes again. I shake my head as Kaname's scent came in.
He isn't home... I have to control this hunger...
I put my hands in a fist holding my stomach to knell down breathing heavy.
I need to calm down... I need to calm down...
I looked at my hand to have my eyes red again.
I need to...
My heart started to beat fast as I open my mouth showing fangs.
I... I have to stop... this...
I bit down my own hand harshly ignoring the pain that caused it in the end. I drank my own blood despite that my own blood has a sweet taste, and the scent in the air. I finally got control of myself to stand up looking at the fang marks I made on my hand. There was a bland stain dropping to my hand to see the healing. The wound close up making me sigh and whipping off my own blood from my chin.
I smell something sweet to look around the room hoping that no one smell that as well. I slowly walk over to the door to open it slowly looking around. No one was at the door as I step out closing it silently. I sigh feeling mission accomplish about this.
"What were you doing in there?"
My eyes widen as fear started to enter me. I slowly turn my head looking at the angry Kaname. He looks down at me crossing his arms tapping his foot. I sweat-drop becoming completely speechless on what to say.
"What's wrong? Can't speak?" I step back to hit my back against the wall becoming even more scared as he step closer to me. He walked closer gripping on my wrist to let him see the stain on my my sleeve. He sighs softening his eyes, "What a silly thing to do, biting yourself..."
I looked away embarrassed but he pulled on my arm to make me look at him.
"But at any rate, it seems you're ready to use your fangs...?" Kaname asked.
I look down nodding my head. Kaname pull on my wrist to have his lips gently touch my knuckles. He lowered his eyes at me including lowering my hand.
"A vampire's thirst can only be quenched by the blood of their loved one... Do you remember that?" Kaname asked making my eyes widen.
I narrowed my eyes having guilt hit me, "I do. The reason why my thirst... can't really be quenched exactly all the way."
"I'll find you! I'll find you no matter what!"
"Because, my heart his to link to another..." I look up at Kaname, "One chunck of my heart is still attached to Zero..."
Kaname put his hand on my cheek then wrapped it around my head pulling me to his chest.
"I know... But even with that, Victoria, you are..."
"Yet... despite that..." I cut him off putting my hands to his cheek. "Is it okay I stay by your side...?" I looked up at Kaname to remember all the sadness he went through all those years ago. Being lonely while Yuuki and I don't remember anything, "I want to be... by your side forever."
Kaname didn't say anything making me feel uncertain as I slowly put my hand down.
"...And here I was wondering..." Kaname spoke up making my eyes widen as I felt his hand on my wrist, "...What you were going to say..." He tug on my hand gripping on my wrist to put it back on his cheek. He put his hand over mine, "Victoria, I would never reject you because of something like that. Of course you can stay with me forever."
I looked at him with wide eyes hearing his sweet voice making my heart pound from every second.
"It's okay, Victoria... I don't mind that there's one more person in your heart," Kaname smiles chuckling softly, "A Victoria without a heart full of love and compassion wouldn't be the real you anyway... Even though you feel for him also, you have still said you wanted to stay by my side forever..." He leans in close to me.
No...
"Even though choosing only one would mean you would probably suffer forever..." He leans even closer to me.
I'm awful...
"It's precisely because of this,"
I need to...
"the very proof that you truly love me in your heart, that..." He leans close feeling his breathe on my lip.
Stop!
I looked down moving his hand away from me as I step back away from him, "No... I don't deserve this... I don't deserve it!"
"Vict-"
I cut him off by walking away from him whispering a small sorry. I continue walking to suddenly hear Kaname's steps behind me.
Don't follow me...
I started running to hear his footsteps walking fast as mine.
Stop... Following-
I turned to look at him, "Stop following me!" I shouted looking down.
Kaname stop walking to look up at me, "Victoria... I don't understand. Just a moment ago, you've said you wanted to be next to me... and yet, you're the one pulling away-"
"Because I don't deserve to be by your side!" I shouted at him making his eyes widen. I look down having my hands in a fist, "I'm awful. Asking something like this is just too cruel on you, Kaname," I looked up at him having my heart tighten. "You don't deserve to have anymore sadness," Kaname's eyes widen, "You don't deserve to get hurt anymore, so... so... reject me as your fiancee!"
Kaname's eyes were wider but then narrowed reaching his hands my arms, "Victoria-"
"No!" I struggle against his grip, "I hate myself! Falling in love with another person and asking to allow me to stay by your side! Also hurting you in the process because of it! Reject me Kaname! Let me go!"
I continue to struggle against him to have his hold on me tighten, "I can't do that, Victoria. I can't possibly... let go of you..." I looked up at him but then look down. Kaname grip on my wrist telling me to stop struggling, "If the only option I had was to love you, then I... I would prefer death instead, be it yours by my hand, or... or, could you please kill me then, Victoria...?"
He bump his forehead to mine. I looked at him with wide eyes my eyes narrowed getting upset with him. I put my hands on his shirt looking down.
"Don't you dare..." Kaname look down at me, "I rather DIE than hurt you!" Kaname's eyes widen as I struggle once more, "I won't you let you die a second time, Kaname! I... I don't ever... want you to die-"
My eyes widen as my back was up against the wall and Kaname closed his eyes. He put his hand on my cheek pulling me closer to him. His arm was around my waist and his hand was at my back head. His lips were soft and harsh feeling love and hatred from this kiss. He released my lips to look at me angry tightening his hold on me.
"Kaname..." He pulled me to his chest.
"Don't ever say that again," Kaname spoke harshly, "You are the only one who brings color into the dull grey of ashes that my heart is. If you die, I would go insane and you would have truly hurt me. If it's you... I'll welcome anything."
I tighten my hold on his shirt feeling my heart tighten. I let go of his shirt to put my arms around him listening to his heart beat and feeling his hands caress my hair. This warm feeling tightens my heart that can make me feel like crying. I don't want to cry... I don't need to cry...
"Kaname... is an idiot like always..." I spoke up closing my eyes to his warm beating heart.
"...You're listening to the sound of the blood flowing in my veins, aren't you Victoria?" I nodded my head as he pulls me to him.
He walks backwards to hit the wall sliding down along with me.
"This will be your punishment for going into that room and saying you would rather die," Kaname whispers in my ear, "You are allowed to take only my blood to prey upon..."
My eyes widen as I looked up at him to see him open his jacket a little showing his neck. I put my hands on his cheek to look at his neck.
"Kaname is so unfair... Always, always..." I licked his neck to fell him shiver, "I wonder... if this can last... just a little longer..."
Kaname looked at me confused about to open his mouth but I stop him to sink my fangs in his neck. I saw a memory of Kaname breaking a mirror not showing his reflection, but I know... The loneliness in his eyes, sadness of losing that precious person. This memory was too much for me as I removed my fangs from his neck to lean my head against his shoulder.
"So cruel... so much loneliness... so much sadness..." I looked at my side to glance at the door remembering that coffin to put my arms around him.
My tears were falling to my cheeks as I tighten my hold on him.
"I'm sorry..." I spoke softly.
"Victoria-"
"I'm sorry..." I cut him off, "I'm sorry... I'm sorry I left you alone Kaname!" His eyes widen, "I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I'm sorry..."
"Victoria." He put his arms around me smoothing my hair to calm me down.
This much sadness for him to have and not sharing it with anyone. The loneliness that he had in his heart, but it wasn't because of her. It was also because of me. That was the first time, I apologize so much... that my heart was shattering into pieces.
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I'm so sorry... Kaname...
I hope you guys like this chapter. This was kind of a sad chapter. I hope it didn't effect Victoria's personality. It's seems like she is showing more of her feelings and changing as she became a vampire. If you think so as well, I hope you guys at least like this Victoria.
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