Director Graham if you haven't already noticed is like a fatherly figure towards Sarah and Chuck. My thought process behind this is he is the closest thing to a parent they both have.

Disclaimer: I don't own Chuck.


Chapter Eighteen:

I'm Falling For You

Sarah was slowly starting to wake up in her favorite place to be, naked on top of her boyfriend. her head on Chuck's chest, their limbs tangled together. "Mmmmm... morning." says Sarah as she snuggles in closer to him.

Hmm no response from Chuck. that's weird thought Sarah as she slowly opens her eyes to find Chuck is not there and she is actually snuggling into a mixture of a pillow and a duvet.

"Chuck?" Sarah calls looking around the room for her boyfriend. She glances at the clock it was only 07:45 am. She had only been asleep for less than two hours.

Sarah slowly got up to check the bathroom suite looking for Chuck. He will probably be taking a shower, Sarah thought. After them working up quite a sweat only two hours previous. Sarah bit her bottom lip thinking back to Chuck ravaging her two hours ago. Though first she had to painfully undergo him teasing and teasing her until she couldn't take no more and had to beg him to take her. Right at that moment in time she would have said or done anything to have had Chuck inside her. It turned out that she had to concede that he missed her more before he would let her fully have her way. And boy did she make him pay for the teasing agony he had put her through.

"Chuck?" she called out as she entered the bathroom suite looking around to find Chuck not in there either.

Ok now Sarah was getting very worried her spy instincts were starting to kick in. 'Where is my boyfriend and why is he gone from my arms and our bed after such an exhausting six days and a particularly exhausting night. He should be asleep in my arms he already told me that sleeping with me gives him the best sleep that he can ever remember and his nightmares are non existent or only brief or normal ones. So where the hell is he?!'

Sarah quickly returned to their bedroom and threw on a night gown and rushed towards the door of their hotel apartment it was locked from the inside. That left only one place he could be. She turned around and sure enough seen the door to their apartment balcony slightly open. Sarah sighed and headed over to the door she opened it and Chuck was there crouched down leaning against the wall with his arms around his knees head buried into his knees. Sarah moved to sit down next to him and rested her head on his shoulder "Hey you. You scared me." She whispered as she nudges into him lovingly

Chuck turned to look at Sarah and Sarah noticed he was teary eyed, a single tear running down his cheek.

Sarah immediately concerned wrapped both of her arms around Chuck "Baby, what's wrong?" she asked her voice was very soft and calming as she runs her hand through his hair extremely delicately.

Chuck tried to talk but stopped short and looked down again.

Sarah removed one one of her arms and used her now free hand to lift Chuck's face level with hers again. "Please talk to me Chuck. Have I done something to upset you? Please talk to me I'm so sorry if I have." She asked starting to get really upset.

Chuck immediately forgot about what he was thinking and moved his arm around Sarah to pull her in close "No! please don't think that Sarah.. You haven't done anything you are amazing. No.. you are perfect."

"Then what's wrong Chuck?" Sarah replied kissing the lone tear making its way down Chuck's cheek.

"I just needed to be alone to think." He replied.

"Oh okay do you want me to leave?" She replied sadly.

"No!.. Please stay." he managed to smile at her ever so briefly.

Sarah smiled and snuggled back into her boyfriend not sure what was wrong with him.

After a long moment of them both snuggling together Chuck spoke.

"It's so beautiful out there isn't it?" Said Chuck looking out taking in the scenery of Los Angeles.

"uh-huh" Replied Sarah nodding her head into Chuck's embrace.

Chuck sighed.

Sarah needed to get to the bottom of what was hurting Chuck. "Chuck... sweetie, please I really care about you and something is eating at you can't you please just tell me so I can help you?"

"Do you ever think about a normal life?" Chuck replied almost immediately.

"A normal life?" Sarah asked confused.

"Yes you know, a normal job, normal relationship, a normal family away from the hurt and the misery of the spy world. Away from taking another person's life. Just you.. And me.. Without all of that misery that comes with being a spy."

"I've never really had a normal life Chuck.." replied Sarah sadly. "You are the closest thing that I have ever had to one... But since I have been with you I have imagined what it would be like to just be with you without the spy world."

"What about you?" she asked.

"I want normalcy Sarah.. I just had a nightmare that consisted of my Sister and Morgan blaming me for their deaths. I seen them get shot. They said that their deaths was my fault and they walked away from me forever." Said Chuck in tears again.

"Oh Chuck..." Sarah said sadly tears forming in her own eyes as she snuggled into him more tighter than ever.

"I was selfish to join the CIA." he said after a minute.

"Dont you ever say that!" Sarah replied more sharply than she would have intended it to be. "You are the most unselfish person I have ever met Chuck Bartowski. You put everybody else before yourself always. And you put everybody else's well being before your own when you chose to become a CIA Agent. To fight for the greater good. And Ellie would be so proud of you if she knew what you really do. And so am I Chuck... I am more proud than I can ever explain. I'm proud to have met you, I'm proud to spend every living moment with you, I'm proud to be your girlfriend, I'm proud that you let me wake up in your arms when I don't deserve..."

Chuck cut Sarah off mid sentence shaking his head "No don't ever say that Sarah. Please dont." He begged her with his hands, "You deserve happiness more than me Sarah."

Sarah shook her head disapprovingly. Chuck stopped her by snuggling into her tighter "Please Sarah let me finish... Sarah for as long as you will allow me I'll try to make you happy every single day. Because that is what you deserve. And I don't plan to leave you ever. I know I'm coming on strong... but Sarah... I'm falling for you." He said honestly speaking right from his heart.

Sarah looked into his eyes looking for any doubt there about what he had said but she couldn't see nothing but honesty in them. She put her hand on his heart and could feel it pounding just as much as hers was. It caused her face to be consumed by an enormous smile. That same smile that only Chuck could ever give to her, that same smile that Chuck loved.

"I'm falling for you too Chuck. And I don't plan to leave you ever." Sarah told him while watching his face for his reaction. Chuck took a moment to process what Sarah had said and then also developed a smile that only Sarah could ever bring out of him. That same smile that made Sarah's knees feel like jelly.

Sarah leaned in to kiss Chuck. It was a kiss that spoke one thousand words. it was a kiss that displayed all of their emotions that they had just built up. Love, sorrow, comfort and warmth, honesty and a new found togetherness. No this kiss was not about a desire for each other. It was about showing their love that was rapidly building in which they had for each other.

Once their loving kiss they shared finished Sarah moved to sit in Chuck's lap facing him. she didn't like the separation that came from sitting next to him she wanted their bodies joined together, permanently. Chuck was only wearing shorts with no shirt and the sun was only just rising. Sarah opened up her night gown and wrapped it around herself and around Chuck while snuggling in to him.

"You're cold Chuck." she said while closing her eyes at the feeling of his embrace.

"I'm okay beautiful." Chuck responded kissing her neck just behind her ear gently.

"No you're not Chuck. Come back to bed?" Sarah asked in a question even though she really was demanding.

Chuck sat in silence.

"Chuck..." Sarah warned, "Don't get upset again sweetie please it breaks my heart to see you like this."

"I won't Sarah I promise you're right about what you said but I just can't deal with the nightmares I'm too weak." he replied.

"No!" Sarah said quickly "You're not too weak Chuck you're too loving and caring that's why you are showing the emotions that other spies don't. It shows that as much as they have tried to change you, you will never change and will always be that Chuck Bartowski who went to Stanford and loved his sister."

Chuck shook his head amazed at how amazing his girlfriend was. "You're amazing Sarah you know that right?" He smiled at her and moved away stray hairs over her face.

"Come to bed?" She asked in a pleading tone.

"In a little while I promise." He replied trying to kiss her lips but Sarah moved away.

"Fine." She replied and got up.

Chuck a little shocked about her actions just then called after her "Sarah?" he called as she entered their apartment. Chuck cursed. 'Why do I always screw things up? The most amazing and beautiful woman caring that much about me and I leave her hanging like that.' Chuck was about to get up to apologize when she appeared again moments later with their blanket "If you wont come to bed with me Chuck Bartowski then so help me god, we're going to sleep out here." She said in a tone that Chuck dare not question. Or maybe it was the way her eyes were looking at him.

Chuck could only grin as Sarah forcefully pulled him down onto the balcony floor and lay on top of him and threw the blanket over them both. Sarah removed her night gown and put it underneath them so they were laying on that and they moved together to get comfortable Chuck wrapping his arms around Sarah and Sarah nestling into his body on top of him. They tucked the blanket under and over them so they were laying on the blanket aswell as having it over them. Sarah had one arm wrapped around Chuck's body and used her free hand to soothingly rub circles on Chuck's chest. All of the tension leaving Chuck every single stroke.

"We're going to be sore when we wake up" Chuck said grinning then kissing the top of Sarah's head.

"Too bad. Should have taken up my offer to come back to bed." Sarah grinned into Chuck's chest and he could feel her lips grinning. "And I'm actually rather comfortable laying on you as I always sleep like this anyway" she grinned once more before gently kissing along his chest.

"What did I do to deserve you" he whispered as they slowly became sleepy again.

"Your heart deserves so much more than me sweetie." Sarah replied.

"That's not true Sarah... And there would never be anybody better than you. You're perfect. You're an angel sent down from heaven and I'm the luckiest man on the planet."

Sarah smiled into his chest once more before sleep finally taking over both of them.