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Giving In
Chapter 15: Confusion
Harry waited all morning for Lupin. He must have worn a hole in the rug with all the pacing he did. He waited and waited in the entrance hall. Lupin had yet to show up. Morning turned to lunch and the house elves brought him food. He refused to leave he just had to sit by the door. He was afraid he'd miss Lupin. Which was silly considering Lupin was coming to Riddle Manor to see him. But Harry stilled refused to leave the Hall.
Not once did Voldemort come and check up on him. They had yet to see each other since last night. Voldemort seemed to be avoiding Harry. 'It is I who should be avoiding him! Not the other way around!' Harry angrily thought. 'Voldemort kissed me and yet... it didn't really matter.' Harry sighed as he remembered the sweet kiss and the way Voldemorts lips seemed to be made for his. Then the man had to go and run off, Harry scowled. He was so confused. He sighed as he put his head in his hands. Why is this so confusing? Why did he have to go and run off? 'Did he not enjoy it?' Harry thought sadly. 'Ugh that man is so confusing! He's always flirting and smiling at me but just when he kisses me does he think that he went too far! What's wrong with him?!' Harry was fuming after that thought. How dare Voldemort string him along! 'I actually thought that I could grow to love him and he just has to go and screw it up. What an Asshole.' He's not the man Harry originally thought he was. His Voldemort is kind and generous, yet powerful and mysterious. 'He's changed and I actually thought that... That he and I... could be more than just business partners. I wanted more. NO! If he doesn't want anything to do with me then I'll just carry on like nothing happened. I'll forget about last night! And I'll forget about him!' And with that final thought Harry gathered all his courage and called for a House Elf.
Harry had, had enough of being weak. He wasn't going to wait for Lupin any longer. He had decided to get a house elf to lead him to where Voldemort was hiding. Which turned out to be the library.
Voldemort sat at the couch that they had shared yesterday, he was reading a book and wasn't paying attention so he jumped a little when Harry sat down next to him. He turned toward Harry "oh hello Harry. How are you this morning?" Voldemort asked a little nervously. Harry just sat back a little "it's five in the afternoon and I'm good thank you. How about yourself?" Harry said with a bit of anger in his voice. 'Take a hold of your emotions!' Harry could practically hear Snape telling him. Harry took a deep breath to calm himself. "I'm just great. You say its five... really? Wow how the time flies... I was meaning to come see you but I got a bit preoccupied." Voldemort said as he fiddled with the book in his hand. Harry just shook his head in acknowledgment. He didn't trust his voice at the moment. They sat in silence for a few minutes. Then Harry spoke "I actually came to see if I could use you." Harry stated. "Really? What for?" Asked Voldemort. "I need you to call Lupin for me. I need to speak with him." Harry explained. Voldemort nodded "yes of course." Voldemort pressed his wand to his throat and shouted so loud that Harry thought his ears were bleeding "WORMTAIL!" Voldemort screamed he then turned toward Harry "I can't directly call an inner circle member without another lowly Death Eaters mark. It's the way the system was made. Two people are needed to call a higher Death Eater and I'm the only one that can call them." Voldemort explained and Harry nodded his understanding "Why not make it so only you can call them instead of you having to use someone else?" Harry asked. "I can call everyone with a wave of my hand but calling a single person is more complicated and is easier with a dark mark. All the marks are connected. I could get a mark but then it would burn myself every time I tried calling someone. This way I hurt others instead of myself. I know it's stupid but it works... Well for now. I'm upgrading them." Voldemort explained. Harry nodded.
Wormtail came in acting like a bumbling idiot like always. "You called my Lord?" Wormtail asked as he bowed and kissed Voldemorts robes. He didn't even look at Harry. "Yes. Give me your arm. Now!" Voldemort said as Wormtail immediately gave his arm over to him. Voldemort pressed his wand into the mark 'Remus Lupin' he spoke in parseltongue. He released wormtails arm and vanished him with a wave of his hand. "Lupin shall be here in a few minutes." He then turned to leave but Harry spoke and stopped him "one more thing. I'm going to need to commandeer your office so Lupin and I may talk in private." Voldemort nodded "as you wish. I will escort Lupin up to my office when he arrives." And with that Voldemort walked out of the library and shut the door behind him.
Harry sighed and sank into the couch. That was easier than I thought. 'Sureee... Just admit it! You want him!' A small voice spoke. Harry shook his head. 'No one said it was going to be easy to forget the man. I still like him...' Harry's thought trailed. He took a deep breath and tried to calm himself before Lupin arrived.
Voldemort shut the door and leaned heavily against it. 'Stop pushing him away!' Voldemort told himself. 'He's already acting so different because of what you did last night. If you continue to ignore him you'll lose him forever.' Voldemort shut his eyes. 'Good! That way you can't hurt him because you'll never have him!' He took deep breaths 'but you'll get hurt if you do this...' A small voice spoke. 'Why does love have to be so complicated? Why can't we just be together and figure out all the messy details later? It shouldn't have to be this hard! Its not! It's easy but you first have to try!' Voldemorts mind seemed to be arguing with itself but that small voice in his head saying TRY finally gave him a reason to do something. It gave him a reason to hope. Just like that Voldemorts mind seemed to click 'I am Lord Voldemort! I am fair! I am powerful! And I take care of what's mine! And I want Harry Potter to be mine!' He opened his eyes and with a look of determination he started to pull away from the door but he was too slow. He started to fall backwards. Harry had opened the door.
When Voldemort opened his eyes he was lying on the ground and staring up at Harry who seemed to be standing over him. He laughed as he pulled Harry to the floor. Harry gave a squeak as he fell on top of the man. "You have perfect timing." Voldemort said as he tugged Harry toward him and kissed him. Last nights kiss was short and sweet but this time Voldemort was determined to blow Harry's world upside down. Harry at first tried to fight him but after a few seconds he gave in. He moved his arms to hold Voldemort closer. Their mouths couldn't move fast enough. Voldemorts tongue licked the bottom of Harry's lip and begged him for entrance, which Harry gave. Their tongues seemed to be in a sparring match and both wanted to win. It felt like hours had passed but it had actually only been a few minutes. They would have continued but a soft cough broke them up.
Harry was panting as he lay on Voldemorts chest. Voldemort was barely fazed. They were holding on to one another very closely and both turned to see who had interrupted them. They both looked up to see Lupin staring down at them and it seemed that he wasn't alone, both Severus and Minerva were standing behind him. Each of them had a shocked look on their face. Harry just smiled cheekily he was secretly hoping one of them would faint and by the way McGonagall was swaying it looked as if she was going to.
*** That is it! Hope you enjoyed and that dark mark stuff is all made up! It was horrible and I had a lot of trouble with it! REVIEW! Until next time... BYE! *** -Castlerocks
