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Authors Note: Hello Dear Readers! I'm very sorry that I have not updated in months. I absolutely hate it when fanfiction is not updated and yet I am always letting you guys down and for that I am deeply sorry and I will try to be better. This chapter wasn't supposed to be this long but I just got carried away. While I was gone many things have happened one of them being the passing of Alan Rickman, which greatly saddened me. He was an amazing man and an Amazing actor and he will be greatly missed. Another thing that has happened is I've finally admitted to my doctor that I am depressed. This is the main reason why I haven't updated in a very long time. My love of writing just simply went away and I find myself not doing anything and staying indoors all day. I literally refuse to get out of bed and do anything. I spend most of my days literally staring at the wall and it's crippling me. This chapter took me so long because I kept writing in parts. I'd write a few sentences and then stop. I thought I would share this with you because I feel like I owe you an explanation for my absence. I'm sorry I've been gone for so long. I'll try to be better but it's just hard. I really want to finish this story because I am extremely proud of it! We are almost at 100k views! Thank you all for sticking with me! I'll stop writing now and let you guys read! Enjoy! –Castlerocks
Chapter 19: Certain Death
They walked in silence back to the library. Harry's heart was beating faster with every step. He didn't know what he would tell Voldemort when they got back. He silently hoped that they would get lost and it would take them a few hours to find their way back. His hope was dispelled for it seemed that Snape knew exactly where he was going. Harry was impressed with how the man was able to keep track of which hallways they had already passed because all the corridors looked the same to him. They turned left and then right and then left again. Five minutes must have passed before Snape stopped and Harry who was too busy worrying didn't see him and bumped into him. He was just about to fall when the Professor grabbed him by the arm and righted him.
"Thanks." Murmured Harry.
Snape turned to him and put a finger over his mouth indicating for Harry to shut up. Harry's breath caught in his chest as he heard rapid footsteps and loud scraping. They grew louder as Snape continued to walk slowly down the darkened corridor. Both their wands were drawn.
"What is it?" Harry asked in a hushed tone. Snape held up a hand for Harry to fall silent. There was a mighty roar that made both men jump.
They were about to reach another cross air when Lupin and McGonagall came running toward them.
"What th-?" Snape asked before he realized what was behind them and he grabbed Harry roughly by the arm and started to run in the opposite direction. Dragging Harry behind him.
"What's wrong? What is it?" Harry asked as he tried to turn his head to see what they were running away from. Then he heard a low growl.
"Harry just keep running." Lupin yelled as he turned around and shot fire balls down the darken corridor.
"What the hell is that thing?! " Harry yelled as he saw a large purple creature, which had horns that were so big they scraped the ceiling. It had claws that were scarping the walls and looked like it was a distant cousin of the dragon. Harry ran after Snape who was running down different corridors trying to confuse the creature. It was a good thing that the creature was slow or else they would have been dead already.
McGonagall who was right behind Harry turned around quickly and shot the strongest blasting curse that she could muster. She missed it and hit the wall instead. She cursed as she went back to running after everyone else. The creature roared behind her momentarily deafening them.
"It's a jabberwocky and I don't know about you but I don't have a vorpal sword with me! So hurry up and keep running! I'm not going to die because of you!" she yelled at Harry who had slowed down to take a better look at the creature.
"A jabberwocky? As in Alice in Wonderland? How is that possible?" Harry yelled in disbelief.
"Blame the idiot Lupin here." McGonagall yelled as she shot him with a nasty glare.
"My fault? You made me open that room! I didn't want to look because I could sense something evil but you yelled at me to open it! This is your fault!" Lupin yelled.
"Both of you shut up! Before we become the jabberwocky's lunch!" Snape yelled as he shot a slicing charm that only seemed to anger the beast more.
Both Lupin and McGonagall shot him a glare that could have killed but they didn't say anything more.
"What do we do Severus?" Harry asked and there was fear in his voice. "We can't keep running forever."
Snape nodded and was doing some very quick thinking. They ran down a corridor and into the nearest room. As they all caught there breath Snape whispered the plan to them "I cant believe I'm going to suggest this but I want you three to run as fast as you can and once you get far enough I want you to run into one of the rooms. I'm going to draw it down another corridor. Lupin will send a patronus to Voldemort once you are all hidden. Tell him what has happened and send him a mental image of the room you are hiding in and he will know what to do" McGonagall and Lupin nodded. It sounded like a good plan but Harry was not convinced.
"You cant! There must be another way! You'll die if we split up! If something were to happen to you I don't think I could go on." Snape looked at Harry and gave him a small smile.
"If I don't do this then you will die. Who said anything about dying? Trust in my ability's Harry. I'm a lot more than a git of a professor." Snape said trying to lighten the situation. Harry gave him a hug and Snape stiffened at first but hugged him back.
"I don't want to let you go. There must be another way." Harry said into the mans shoulder. He refused to let Snape go.
"You said that Voldemort is truly my soul mate." Harry asked and he felt Snape nod.
"Is there any way for me to send him a message through my mind? I sometimes can feel his emotions and I'm sure he can feel mine. I think it's worth a shot before you go out there and sacrifice yourself."
Snape pulled Harry away from him and looked the boy in the eyes.
"That's brilliant! Why didn't I think of that?" Snape said. Harry beamed.
They were both distracted but were brought back to reality when they heard another ear splitting roar. They could hear the creature getting closer and if they didn't hurry up they would all surely die.
"Please hurry!" McGonagall whispered harshly.
Snape turned back to Harry and grabbed his head forcing the boy to stare into his eyes.
"I need you to concentrate Harry. Close your eyes."
Harry did what the man asked. He was frightened but he felt secure with Snape there with him.
"Now I want you to listen to what I'm saying." Snape said using his voice to soothe Harry.
There was another roar and more scraping as the creature searched for them. It was getting closer. The loud noise made Harry open his eyes. He looked startled at Snape.
"Its okay Harry. I'm here with you. Now close your eyes again. Just listen to my voice everything will be okay." He said trying to get Harry to concentrate.
"Now I want you to take deep breathes and clear your mind. Really concentrate I know you can do it." He waited a second for Harry to be fully calm. "Now picture the room you are in. Picture the people you are with. Really think of it. Can you feel your breath and see the friends you are with?" he waited a few seconds.
"Yes." Harry said in a small voice.
"Good. Now I need you to think about how you feel right now. Let your fear control the thought. Let it build in your chest until you cannot even breathe. Let it consume your thought of the room." Snape said with his hypnotic voice.
Harry could feel his fear as it built in him. It felt like a boulder was on his chest. He could barely breathe. He was not only scared for himself but for the lives of his professors. He let is worry and fears control his body until it spread and infected his whole being. The room began to feel stuffy and over crowded. Like a million people where crushing him.
"I feel it."
"Excellent. Now comes the hard part. I want you to think of Voldemort. Think of your feelings for him. How you feel when he is around. I want you to picture him with you. He's in the room with us and he's protecting you. Can you feel his presence?" Severus asked and he could see by the look on Harry's face that he was in a deep trance. He moved away from Harry and walked over to join the others on the other side of the room.
Harry thought of Voldemort and how the man made him feel warm and welcome. All his doubt seemed to melt away as he pictured the Dark Lord comforting him and holding him. All the confusion vanished as he realized how deeply he cared for the Dark Lord. He had never felt more whole in his whole life. He felt himself sigh and really hold onto the thought that with Voldemort they could do anything. He was so lost in this thought that he did not realize that someone was holding him.
While Harry was in his trance Voldemort who was on the other side of the castle could feel his lover reaching out for him. It was like a tug on his heart. An ache that did not go away and in that moment Voldemort knew that something was wrong. He closed his eyes and he could see himself in a dark room. His whole body was infected with fear and not knowing what he was doing he apparated to Harry's side.
A blinding white light and Voldemort was at Harry's side holding the young man in his arms. Harry abruptly opened his eyes.
"You're here!" was all Harry could say as he launched himself at the man. They embraced and all seemed to be okay. Harry felt himself wanting to be as close as possible to the Dark Lord. He could not believe that he was actually here with him. Voldemort obliged the young man by holding onto him very tightly. Harry pulled the man down and gave him a deep kiss. They were both so caught in the moment that they barely heard the door being torn off and the roar that followed…
*** Sorry I left it at that! This chapter was crazy to write and is defiantly one of my favorites! Please give it some love by leaving a REVIEW! Until next time! *** -Castlerocks
