Hey, guys thanks for the reviews last chapter. Seems there was a bit of confusion about May I'm pretty sure that's my fault I've been gone for ages. She has been restored thanks to Lissa. Also maybe the plot's been slow but do hang in there if you want please and thank you.
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Chapter 9.
DPOV.
I liked to think that I knew people. I was observant, I paid attention. That gave me an eye for reading people or so I was told. A voice in the back of my mind reminded me that right now I couldn't even get a read on Roza, the girl I could usually read like the back of my hand, but I pushed it away. That wasn't the point, not right now.
The point of this train of thought was due to the newly restored moroi woman currently locked away in my room. She'd seemed so happy when I'd given her the ice-cream, so relaxed when I'd left her for my shift, but something told me that was just a façade. My mind flashed back to when Lissa had shoved the stake into her chest. It had knocked her out for a while, but she'd woken up sick and upset and full of guilt and tears. I wrapped her up in my arms, but there was nothing romantic about it. I would have done the same for anyone who had been through what she had. Living like that was no way to live, not for anyone and certainly not for any decent person. It was a fate worse than death and like I'd told Roza when we'd gone on that shopping trip to Missoula, I would want someone to find me and kill me if I was ever turned. Nay had laid her head on my chest as she sobbed.
"I-I... I feel sick." She gasped out having already thrown up before I'd gotten to her.
"It's ok," I said. "You're fine." The next words out of her mouth made me flinch.
"I hate myself I don't deserve to live. She whispered.
"Look at me," I said softly. She lifted her head from my chest, her eyes full of tears and so so much pain. "What you did as a strigoi wasn't you and honestly you only killed one person. I'm not saying that makes it right but you gained control. That's a feat in itself. You are not a horrible person, May. You do deserve to live, to have a second chance."
I didn't know if my talk had done much to help her, but she had eventually fallen asleep. Lissa and I had brought her back to the academy and gotten her blood when she'd woken up. After that she'd asked for ice-cream, and I had gotten it for her wanting to give her something from her old life. I knew she had a long way to go in terms of letting go of her days as a strigoi and coming to terms with her life, both new and old, and I couldn't help but want to help her.
Of course, that arose another problem. Like Lissa had said earlier, May's presence was going to complicate things. It didn't have to, there was only one girl my heart beat for, but this was Rose we were talking about here. She was going to flip out.
Or maybe, maybe she wouldn't even care. Her words from earlier rang in my head and I nearly flinched. "I think my mom was right."
Had she really meant that? Was it really jealousy that was causing her to be so angry? I wanted to believe that it was, wanted to believe that she wasn't really about to give up on us so easily, but the truth was, I didn't know. And that didn't sit well with me. We needed to talk. She needed to hear me out, needed to tell me what was going on, because my mind refused to believe that she really would give up on us like that. I had seen her face when her mom had told us we needed to break up. The pain in her eyes could not be faked, the love could not be so easily overshadowed. Her lips on mine that last time she'd kissed me, so full of frantic urgency, no, none of that could be faked.
My mind remained a tangled mess of confusion for the rest of my shift, but I managed to do my job. I stopped by Alberta's office when it was over, told her about May and how she was going to be needing a room. Alberta simply nodded as if people restored strigoi every day and told me she would set it up. That was one of the things I loved about her, she didn't really ask questions unless it was absolutely necessary or she felt it was endangering the people she was in charge of.
I stayed out of my room for as long as I possibly could, only going back to shower and change. My mind was spinning and my head was pounding from a lack of sleep by the time morning rolled around, but I was determined to get to the gym for training with Rose. I stopped by the cafeteria for some doughnuts on my way there certain that today was going to be nothing like yesterday. We were going to talk today, I was going to get her to let me in enough so we could do that if it was the last thing I did.
So, thoughts, guys? Could this be the turning point for Rose and Dimitri? Let us know what you think!
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