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He failed.
Yuuri was right there but just like that, he was gone. Again.
In other words, Victor, by some miraculous miracle, was still alive.
According to doctors, he was unconscious for a week with a mild concussion and right arm wrapped with bandages that hide the cuts. Since this was a case of attempted suicide, he was placed on suicide watch until doctors came up with the best course of action for him. The only people who were able to visit him was the old Russian team(Yurio, Mila, and Georgi) with their old coach Yakov and their hurt expressions were enough to know that this incident wasn't going to just slide, not by a long shot.
Apparently, Yakov was able to make sure no journalists got ahold of a scrap of details about this incident, the only people who knew were close friends and family but only the adults of course. That day Victor found out that his parents were able to hide this from Hana with the excuse that he was just sick and needed some time to get better.
But how can he get better?
He's a broken man. He knew that every since Yuuri died and now he just proved his point to everyone else with this suicide but he lived, he failed. Nowadays at the hospital were spent laying in bed listening to his former rink mates trying to get him to say a decent reason for trying to die other than the repeated word, "Yuuri." Well all of his former rink mates, except for Yurio and he was the one who actually found him after the fall and called an ambulance.
So it was Yurio's fault for making him live!
Sure, Victor vaguely remembers the encounter with a spirit who looks like Yuuri that was all about staying alive but he couldn't blame his love for this. It was his own fault for not making sure that everybody left the rink. His fault for not committing the act alone back home or maybe in the bathroom. Probably any place where no one would find him but there's no use. No one will keep their eyes off him but all he wanted was to be with Yuuri. He was such a failure that he couldn't even-
"Take care of yourself."
Huh?
Victor snapped out of his thoughts, realizing that the only person in the room was Yurio who looked like he didn't get a wink of sleep! But was it Yurio who just told him to take care of himself?
"Did I ask for your opinion?" Victor managed to choke out, not daring to look at Yurio in the eyes. "How dare you tell me what to do."
"You have to fucking take care of yourself, Victor," Yurio repeated with a growl as his fists tightened on his lap. "You're sitting there blaming yourself huh? Thinking that you're a failure just because you're breathing?" The silence Victor seemed to have proven Yurio's point as he continued, "But guess what? You're alive now and you have to live. Did you honestly think that killing yourself was the answer to all your problems? That you'll be happy if you died? Happy knowing that you left so many of us behind just so you can be with Yuuri? Would Yuuri be-"
"Just shut Yurio! And if you are so concerned then yes! Yes, I believed that death was my only way to find happiness again," Victor hissed with anger, glaring at the blonde. "You have no idea what I've been through! It's been hell for months now and you just had to get in my way by keeping me here in this hell hole! I was so close Yurio! SO CLOSE!"
"So close to what huh!?" Yurio demanded, gladly returning the cold glare back at Victor, "Letting your life go down the drain? Abandoning your friends and family? Sure, that sounds so worth killing yourself over."
"You know damn well what I meant!" He held his tears in, they were pointless at this time. "But you all would be better off without me! You all have a better chance to be happy than I ever would and everyone knows that I am nothing without him. I know that I am nothing Nothing but a broken man! It's your fault that I'm still stuck here in this God forsaken place, I wanted to fix everything. I wanted things to get back to normal!"
"Victor, you have to face reality. Yuuri-"
"He's not dead if I'm with him! If I succeeded, he won't be alone anymore," Victor cut him off, "If only I succeeded...I could have been freed and finally happy to be away all the pain! I could have been happy with Yuuri again! Don't you realize that life without him is utter hell and I cannot bear another moment without him! And Yuuri? Ha, Yuuri would be so happy to see that I loved him enough to join him and that he wasn't going to be alone!"
"Damn it Victor you know that's not true!"
"Oh ho, ho! Look at you, trying to tell me that it's not an agony to lose someone so close," Victor mocked as he shook his head, fingers over his hair, "You think you can sit there telling me what's true and what's not? News flash, you still have your husband alive and well with you! You still have your happiness!"
"That has nothing-"
"And what do I have?" Victor pressed on, " Nothing! NO ONE! I HAVE NO ONE!"
"Idiot, you have your-"
"But you just had to be at the stupid rink and see me! You just had to ruin everything and drag me back down to damn stupid fucking Earth!" Victor carried on, not caring if he was the only one in this room to be seeing the common sense he was seeing! "None of you know what it feels to lose someone so close by the cruelest way possible! Regretting those seconds of having your back turned and then having to relive that damn moment night after night!?"
Yurio's eyes widened with horror, having to hear Victor talk like this was making every nerve electrify with so many emotions, "...Victor..."
"Don't you understand?! YUURI LEFT ME! HE BROKE HIS FUCKING PROMISES TO ME! He promised just as many things as I have," He ignored how Yurio flinched, "Having to listen to so many people telling how sorry they feel for me, I don't want their pity! I only want Yuuri to be with me, I want him to stay close to me! I just want to have my husband again, I want my best friend to be in my arms but no...Instead, I have to relive it all over again and again. I can barely function on my own anymore, you know it, my parents know, our team knows it, hell, everyone knows it! That's how I know we'll all be better off if I was out of the picture and back with Yuuri."
"It's not his fault-"
"I KNOW! But I'm so alone here and none of you understand damn it! You think I can just get over it and move on but not after everything I've been through," He shook his head,"I just can't! And I hell, I know I'm repeating things so many times but they're true! I'll repeat them time after time so you can regret saving me! That way you'll see my point that you'll be better off without me! I. DON'T. MATTER. ANYMORE."
Yurio only stared in utter silence.
"I know he is not to blame, it's only me and that damn bastard who killed him! I couldn't save him like I promised I would...He died right in front of Hana and Yusha and they didn't even know what happened. Do you think I can handle the rest of my life alone?! No, I can't! I need him, I can't do this anymore!" Victor didn't notice how Yurio's hand was trembling. "Why are you doing this Yurio?! Why did you care enough to save me? I'm broken. Hell, I thought that I was talking to Yuuri's ghost but he was telling me to stay and live! How could he tell me such a thing when I was doing it for him!? Everyone is telling me that I have to live but I don't want to...Living by myself was killing me, I just wanted to be happy you know?"
More anger seeped out when he looked down,"Don't you think that I deserve to be reunited with the one who showed me life and love after everything? The one who was practically the center who keeps all of us together?! You couldn't leave well enough alone to just die in peace and with a smile! Is that so much to ask from you, is it?! Is it too much to ask for this one selfish wish? Is it too fucking damn much? IS IT!? TELL ME, I FUCKING DARE YOU TO TELL ME SOME HALF ASSED EXCUSE FOR ME TO KEEP LIVING IN THIS WORLD! TELL ME THAT I'M BROKEN AND INCAPABLE TO BE PUT BACK TOGETHER! FUCKING TELL ME-"
SLAP
Victor's darkened eyes widened with shock, his left cheek was numb as he looked up at Yurio who was looking down while holding on to his right hand that struck him. They were in silence for a long agonizing minute, both were trying to process what happened between them while surprised that the doctor didn't even show up yet. Yurio made a side not to call the doctor but now he grabbed a tight grip on Victor's shoulders and whispered, "You're not alone."
"What?" Victor blinked twice with confusion.
Yurio glanced towards him with his eyes glistening with tears threatening to fall, "You're not alone Victor! You're not the only one suffering here. And I'm sorry it got to this point! We thought that if you left you alone to recollect yourself that you'll eventually feel better but we failed to see what you were going through. But it is too much for you to ask for your own death. We won't let you die and you're here because Yuuri F that you're needed, that you're wanted."
"Stop lying."
"I'm not!" Yurio shook his head, "Because I know that none of this is your fault, none of it. I didn't think at least talk to you through these months, I just let you turn out this way. But you are needed Victor; Hana and Yusha both need you right now. They want their daddy to come home. Hana doesn't care how sad you are, she wants you to take them home so she can cheer you up. Are you willing to leave your two beautiful children all alone, especially after you and Yuuri fought so hard to have your first daughter? Are you just going to force her back to the orphanage with Yusha? Is it worth their broken childhoods and a life of being separated because of an orphanage? You and Yuuri were both so excited and happy when each of them came home, hell, I remember how you both promised to protect them and stay with them..."
He took a deep breath because they both knew that Yuuri couldn't keep those promises anymore. "Your kids need you, Victor...Hana is all alone, she wants her daddy back and she can't take care of Yusha by herself! And speaking of which, Yusha is the one who needs you most of all. The little guy doesn't know what' going on now. He doesn't know why his papa isn't around anymore, you can't abandon your kids now. Not when they need you the most..."
"But they don't really need me, they can-"
"We all need you, hell, even I need you! You can't possibly think that we can replace you because WE CAN'T!" Yurio cut him off, knowing that Victor would make the excuse about how Hana and Yusha can just find other parents, "And you need all of us too...You're not alone in this pain, we're all hurting. All of us have regrets and wished that he was with us but we know we can't do anything about it."
Victor looked down in defeat, deep down he knew that he could try so many times but he'll still somehow wake alive again.
"But you're right about one thing, Yuuri was the center of everything to everyone," Yurio sniffled, not caring if his tears fell. "We all need him, and we miss him so much that it hurts but now he's dead. Things might not ever be going to be like they used to anymore. I want to see Yuuri again more than anything in the world, he was like a motherly father to me, the closest parent I could ever ask for but we can't get what we want. We all want him back but now we have to follow through one of Yuuri's last wishes and take care of each other. We only have each other, our children, our friends, your parents, his family, everyone...We're all that's left now, and we can't back down from this promise...I know how you are with remembering promises but you have to remember this one. "
"Promise me...promise me that...you'll look after each other...Okay?"
Tears were rolling down from Victor's eyes, they were just falling as he began to tremble until he was suddenly pulled into a tight embrace by Yurio. "Y-Yuuri..." He sniffled as the small crying slowly rose to loud sobs. "YUURI!"
"Don't lose...don't lose the t-the power of l-love...Can you...promise me that?"
"We promise."
Yurio allowed his tears to fall while he held onto the sobbing mess in his arms as he whispered, "Just let it all out, please..."
"B-But it's all my fault Yurio! Why can't you see that?" Victor sobbed with frustration, holding onto Yurio like if his life depended on it. "That moment, I was too wrapped up with those fans that I didn't see it coming! I couldn't protect him from that one fan. That fan claims that she was trying to save me Yurio! H-How could I miss the signs? She was one of those fans who send all those hate messages, and yet I turned a blind eye! If I had done something sooner, maybe been a bit faster, or even stronger, I could have saved him! Y-Yuuri should still be here if I hadn't been so careless."
"No Victor. None of this was your fault, you couldn't have known, no one could," Yurio shook his head, "That is no fan of yours, that bitch is just a sick psychopath who deserves something more than just staying locked up for life. But you're not to blame, hell, even Yuuri wouldn't blame you and you know it."
"B-But I can't help but know that I'm the one who should have been shot! Not Yuuri! I just wish I was shot instead of him!" No matter how anyone else saw it, Victor couldn't get rid of the thought, it just made sense somehow. "Everything would have been better that way I just know it will."
"No! No, it wouldn't and deep down you know it's true!" Yurio protested, "We already lost one piece of family, we can't lose you too. We couldn't lose you, think about your family, could they handle losing you? Your kids don't deserve to lose you too Victor, they can't lose you then or now."
Now that Victor thought about it if he was the one who was shot, would it be fair for Yuuri to suffer the way he is? Is it worth it? He'd be unable to protect his family if he was gone but it wasn't fair for Yuuri to be taken! "Why couldn't the both of us stay alive?" Victor whispered weakly, "Why only him?"
"I don't know...I don't know why this had to happen to your family of all people but it happened and we can't change that," He tightened the embrace, slowly rocking the distressed man while caressing his hair, "But I know that you and your kids aren't going to be alone. It won't be easy but I'm not leaving you or your family alone and I'll make sure everyone else helps too..." The embrace loosened as Yurio glanced down with guilt to have to say the next words but he knew that this is the only way to help Victor. "But, for now, you need to know that you yourself need professional help...And we'll get you the help you need. We'll support you in any way possible."
"I-I'm broken, aren't I?" Victor sobbed without bothering to protest about the idea. "I-I don't think I can ever be fixed."
"You're not broken," Yurio softly whispered sincerely, "Your heart is just cracked big time. But don't worry, no matter how long it takes, I promise you that we'll do everything beyond our power to fix you. You're not alone, we're all here for you, I'm here for you. You are needed in this world, it's truly going to be okay because you're loved...You are loved, Victor. It's okay, I believe in you. We'll get through this together, no matter how long it takes, we're going to take care of each other like the family we are. You're not alone, you are not alone okay? You're loved, you are loved, you are loved, you are so loved that it hurts."
"Okay...Okay...Okay," Victor whimpered ever so softly in repetition, tears already soaking Yurio's shirt, "Okay...Okay...Okay...Okay...I'll get help...But...But I miss him Yurio...I miss him so much."
"I know...I know," Yurio sighed sadly as he looked up at the ceiling. Yuuri, I know it was you who saved him but please keep watching over him. Help us help him. Protect your family with us Yuuri, please.
No one noticed a transparent figure hiding behind the hospital curtains, only making a small peek at the scene before making a small smile of relief as he began to vanish into thin air with his hands folded together and over his chest. "You didn't need to ask Yurio, I'm already protecting and helping all of you."
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Rapunzel: Oh no! Guys, I nearly got Victor back to life but he just died again! *holding Victor's corpse with his soul flying out*
Yuuri: What?! Just like that!?
Hiccup: This story is really taking a toll out of him
Me: Whoops *shrugs*
Yuuri: Oh my god, *facepalms and turns to audience* Midnight hopes you enjoyed this chapter, make sure to review, follow, and favorite to see what happens next after a few years of therapy.
