A/N: Thank you for the comments.
Guest (1) - I guess Batman could have also 'died' or went AWOL. I've not really watched it but I thought Diggle used guns in Arrow and Alex uses guns in Supergirl so I'm not sure why they would create a plot round her not using them. Trying to make her go for the non-lethal route would also be very similar to early Arrow.
Guest(2) - There will be no one from Earth-1 in this. Kara will get help before her thoughts get too dark. No one is fully off the list.
A few days later Lena's concern for Kara had peaked and she decided not to wait any longer. Not caring about the consequences Lena grabbed some food and went straight to Alex's apartment. What she wasn't expecting was to arrive and find the door ajar.
"Kara." She called. "Kara, I brought you some food." She added. Not getting any response she pushed the door open and entered. "Kara." She called again, but found herself met by emptiness.
As she moved into the bedroom she saw the sheets were rumpled and she assumed Kara had slept there, although she had no idea why Kara would have left and left the door open. Concerned that something may have happened Lena opened the drawers in the kitchen looking for any sign of Kara. As she opened one drawer she found a key with a keyring that undoubtedly belonged to Kara. Picking it up she left the apartment, shutting the door behind her.
-00-
"Kara open up or I'm coming in." Lena said banging on the door of Kara's apartment. "I know you are in there." Lena said trying the handle, but as expected the door was locked. Sighing she took out the key that she had found at Alex's apartment and let herself in.
"Does privacy mean nothing to you?" Kara asked looking at the door.
"Kara, you look awful. When was the last time you ate?"
"I'm fine."
"You really suck at lying."
"Don't be so sure."
"Kara, I can't imagine what you are going through, but I want to help. Why won't you let me or if not me James or Sam or J'onn?"
"I don't deserve your sympathy or your pity."
"Good because I'm offering neither. I'm here as your friend."
"Friend?"
"Yes, we are friends."
"No we're not." Kara said shaking her head. "How can we be when I lie to you every time I see you?"
"Kara-" Lena started only for Kara to interrupt.
"I am the person who betrayed you the most. You already hate me but not for the right reason."
"Kara-" Lena tried to interrupt again, but Kara was not to be deterred.
"You very clearly said we weren't friends. And you are so right. I don't deserve you friendship."
"Kar-" Lena tried again, but once again had no effect.
"I'm Supergirl...at least I was."
"I know." Lena said. "You really think I would know Sam was Reign but not know you were Supergirl?"
"Well you said it yourself we're not friends. I betrayed you. Friends don't do that. I am no better than your mother."
"Kara, you are a good person."
"I ruin people's lives. Just like your mother."
"You are nothing like my mother."
"You're right, she's honest about her intentions. I just lie." Kara said. With every statement Lena could see the self hate rise in Kara.
"Kara, you are good person. And because you are a good person you are blaming yourself. I think the reason you just revealed yourself to me is because you want me to hate you and punish you because you think you deserve it. But I'm doing neither.
"Don't use your cheap pop psychology on me. You know nothing about me." Kara said her tone turning angry.
"Ka-" Lena tried again.
"We're not friends. We have never been friends. How can we have been when I never told you the truth? Everyone I care about leaves or dies or have their world ripped to pieces, so if I were you I would run as fast as I can away from me before I ruin your life in the same way I have ruined everyone else's."
"Kar-" Lena tried again concerned with how angry and upset Kara was.
"Just go. Now!" Kara screamed.
Not sure how to help Kara and not wanting to make the situation worse, Lena silently left the apartment.
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Once Lena had gone Kara collapsed on the couch and hugged a cushion thinking about all the lives she had ruined. She had no idea how long she had sat there when she was eventually pulled from her thoughts by an alarm. Picking up her phone she took a deep breath and rang Eliza.
"Kara, how are you?" Eliza answered.
"Much better." Kara said trying to sound happy.
"So are you back at work properly?"
"I'm working." Kara lied.
"Really, I've not seen any of your articles."
"I am just researching at the moment." Kara said.
"You're not doing anything dangerous are you?"
"No. Of course not."
"And how's you leg?"
"Much better."
"That's good. When are you coming to visit?"
"Not until my leg is fully better. Also I can't take time off work at the moment. I mean I took so much time off."
"You know if you want me to visit you only have to ask?"
"I know. But I'm really busy."
"J'onn mentioned he hadn't seen you at the DEO recently."
"It's too hard to go to the DEO." Kara answered honestly.
"I know. But remember we are all there for you."
"I know." Kara said, struggling to keep the tears at bay.
"I love you." Eliza said. Her voice sounding like it was cracking, driving Kara's guilt.
"Love you too." Kara said.
-00-
"Lena." James called for the fifth time
"James! Hi." Lena replied.
"You okay, you look concerned."
"I'm worried about Kara."
"We all are."
"I went to see her today."
"Another unopened door?" James guessed.
"No I got in. I borrowed a key from Alex's apartment, long story. But she is not in a good way. She's given up. She believes she should be punished."
"She and Alex were close and she has been through a lot."
"I know and that's why we shouldn't be sitting back giving her space. We need to act before we lose her forever."
"You have a plan?"
"More of a Hail Mary."
-00-
"What are you doing here?" Cat asked.
"I need your help."
"You're realising running a media empire is harder than you thought?" Cat guessed.
"I never thought that was easy, but that's not why I'm here." Lena said.
"Then what is it?"
"Kara."
"What about her?"
"She's broken and no one knows how to help."
"And you're here because?"
"We both know you have a soft spot for Kara. It's impossible not to." Lena said. "And she still admires you."
"I still don't see what you want me to do. I thought you were her bff. Shouldn't you be helping her?"
"I've tried, she won't listen. She doesn't even open the door any more. She needs someone who knows how to see the light in the dark. From what she said, what James said, what Winn said, that has always been you."
-TBC...
A/N: Thanks, for reading and reviewing.
