Ch.7
Nessie's P.O.V.
Staring at my father through the silence was the perfect example of an awkward moment. His gaze was intent on me, yet unemotional. To the rest of the party my father looked stoic, but within his mind I knew he was dreadfully busy dissecting my thoughts and feelings. Usually I guarded my thoughts, I hid them cautiously and well. But as of this moment, my mind was still too excited from my verbal quarrel with my father to bother with the simple effort of diverting my thoughts. Now I began to worry, because whenever dad learned something new about me through my thoughts he no doubtedly told my mom. If Dad knew about my feelings toward Jacob, which I'm sure he had discovered by now, mom would know as well. No matter what is the subject was, dad always told my mother every little inconsequential thing that occurred within my brain.
"Nessie are you wearing a bra?"
Speak of the devil and she shall appear. My mom's voice rocked me out of my trance.
"Sorry mom, I didn't hear what you said. What did you say?"
"I asked if you are wearing a bra. Are you wearing a real one, not premature training bra but a real bra with wire?" My mom blinked with wide eyes focusing from my bust to my face.
I groaned. This was especially embarrassing conversation to have in front of public. "Mom can we not talk about this here.",I whispered. My mom, opposite me was not whispering. Unfortunately, she was speaking louder than normal. I beseeched her,"Can we talk about this when we go home and were not surrounded by people!". My request came out more loudly than I had expected. Jake, who was asleep in his chair, awoke at once and managed to fall backwards against the ground.
He groaned, but he shed away his clumsiness and was off the ground wide awake in less than a second. I noticed my mom looked at Jake with an accusing look. I assumed with that look that now dad had gotten mom to join him in the "anti-Jacob" cause. I resented her for her horrible stare towards my Jacob. A crime against him is a crime against me.
Jake stood up looking perfect and poised, despite the fact that his momentarily lapse of clumsy disorientation had just occurred a second ago. I'm sure the suit he was wearing added the affect of self-assurance to his appearance and produced the unachievable look of sangfroid he now displayed. I would have to remember to thank Aunt Alice in person. Jake looked like a tall drink of handsomeness in his designer grey suit and skinny loosened tie. Inevitably I wasn't the only one that noticed his attractiveness. All the women at the party kept taking quick glances at Jake. I know I should not be jealous in the slightest means but I couldn't help myself. Quileute mothers were looking at Jake! Can you say cougars? Jake had practically grown up from a baby to man under their watch. How could they look at him like that without feeling sick? That was just sick, they were all sick. A thought occurred to me, my thoughts about these women applied to my life. Jacob had been next to me ever since I was a baby; he had seen me grow up. He would never see me any other way, he was no creep. I sighed.
"Nessie, what happened?" Jake was alert. It looked funny how his muscled tensed under his grey suit. I thought it might be a possibility that it would tear.
"No it's nothing to be concerned about Jake. Take your nap again."
My dad interceded into my conversation with Jake. "Actually the reception is almost over and Jake you need to drive your dad home. He got a lift with Charlie over to the house, but now he needs to catch a ride with someone else. Besides, if you make it back in time you'll be able to show your car off to everyone.". Dad smiled amused at Jake's expression after his last comment. I didn't need to see the excitement on Jake's face to feel it.
"Yes! I've been waiting forever to show it off! No one ever sees my car. It just lies around, covered up in the garage." Jake's huge smile and excitement faded as he saw the disappointed on my face. Quickly, I evaporated my disappointment with a smile. "Are you guys gunna be here when I come back?" He asked hopefully.
Dad answered solemnly, "No."
"It's okay Jake. We will catch up tomorrow and you can tell me about everyone's reaction when they see your car". I feigned a smile to sweeten the deal.
Jake hesitantly spoke, "Okay…well if you say so". Then he grabbed me and pulled me up tight into a giant bear hug and kissed my forehead. "Bye Nessie. See ya tomorrow."
Jake huddles my parents into a group hug. It was a funny scene to watch. Mom and Dad looked uncomfortable. Jake never hugged dad. The only person who ever attempted to bear hug my parents at the same time was Uncle Emmet. Uncle Emmett would want me to take a picture, if only he could this, two vampires and a huge werewolf in a group hug. I accidently laughed aloud and Jake released hold of my parents and ran off to the forest. Before he disappeared into the trees Jake gave me a wink, I became putty. The spot where he had kissed my forehead tingled.
When we got home I got ready for bed. I brushed my teeth took off my makeup and put on regular pajamas. As I passed out of the bathroom I heard my parents having a discussion. They always talked during the night when I went to bed but this night it seemed like they were arguing. Mom and dad didn't raise their voices, but they seemed to be in opposition towards each other's opinions. I listened as I walked into my room and closed the door silently.
I listened. Mom was talking. I couldn't make out much of what they were saying because their voices were too low for me to hear. But I did hear my name, that was enough to keep my attention. I tried to listen even more. I pressed my ear onto my door, as if that would help. I caught another word, "imprinting". That's a weird word. I wondered how the discussion they were having pertained to me and was it so secretive. I don't remember making or leaving any marks or dents lately. If they were talking about imprints I was completely innocent.
I decided to give up on my attempts of eavesdropping. I hadn't been able to make out another would after "imprinting" but I knew my mom had stopped talking and my father had begun. I gave up and started to put my makeup neatly away. The makeup bag Auntie had bought me was black and white, very sophisticated, very Alice. I adored it. Auntie Alice could read my mind better than daddy. As I stuffed my makeup in to the open space of the bag, I found a white piece of paper lining the bottom of the bag. I rummaged to the bottom of the bag and took it out to examine. It was a note from Auntie Alice.
It read:
Dear Renesmee,
You are becoming quite the young lady. Although I can barely see your future past a certain point, it is obvious what you are about to experience. I don't know if you remember exactly all that we taught you in biology and the changes a girl goes through in order to becoming a woman. I hope you do. But if you don't, don't fret. Auntie is always here to help. I sent a movie in the mail to the big house. It should be arriving the day you read this letter. I hope it helps and I hope you loved the dress, makeup, and bra. I trust you wore everything I bought you?
Love always,
Aunt Alice
I gasped. All the dots in my head connected. My mood swings and sudden attraction to Jacob were simply explained by my hormones. I was going through puberty! My training bras and sports bras were not going to cut it anymore. I would have boobs soon! I knew I was maturing and this was proof or at least there would be proof soon. I started to check myself for signs of maturity. I unhooked my bra and looked at the label. It was a size 32B. I checked the rest of my body and noticed my leg hairs were growing longer. I needed to buy a razor next time I went to town. My hips also looked a little wider than normal but I couldn't be too sure. I didn't look taller and I hoped I wouldn't grow taller. I passed my mom and Auntie Alice years ago and recently passed Auntie Rose. I was taller than all my aunts and I didn't want to grow anymore. I was too tall. I would describe my body type as very lean. My quick growth sped up my metabolism so I was very slim. I was also muscular. I wished my body was more feminie. My thighs were thicker than I would like and my abs and arms were softly sculpted. (Keeping up with vampires definitely kept the body in shape.) But maybe it was too much for my thin body. Most people thought I was a dancer because of my general muscle mass from head to toe. I was not a dancer and I did not want people to see muscles when they looked at me.
I pictured myself with hips and breast. I would look perfect just like Aunt Rose. Then Jake would notice me because I would look like a woman. I wondered if my zany ridiculous crush on him would be over by the time I finished puberty. It didn't feel like it would be, however I was under the influence of womanly hormones. I decided to go bed to take my mind off the hype that filled my every thought.
When I awoke, I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth. I hated my breath after eating human food. It retained to stench even the day after. My parents were still sitting in the living room talking quietly when I awoke.
"Nessie, darling, could you please tell me why Alice sent this in the mail to Grandpa's house?" Daddy held up a disc as he questioned me.
I rubbed my eyes, I was still tired. I couldn't fall asleep last night because my mind was too preoccupied. "Uh, I think that's for me. Aunt Alice said I was going through…stages" I didn't want to say the word puberty. It sounded weird in front of my parents.
"Nessie it's okay to say the word." My mom comforted me. Lately it seemed everyone else could read my mind besides my dad.
"Did you guys already watch the DVD?"
"No, we were waiting for you to watch it with or without us. It's your choice." Mom was so sweet. She always tried to please and adhere to my needs.
"I think I want to watch it now…but not with daddy in the room." I looked at him guiltily. I hoped he understood.
"I understand sweetheart. It's a girl thing." He pecked my mom on the cheek and repeated the same to me, and then he rushed out the door. I didn't want him that to go far away but maybe it was better if he couldn't hear my thoughts during the video. "Thanks daddy" I thought. I hoped he was still close enough to hear that.
Mommy led me into Jake's guest room. His room was the only one with a TV and Blu-Ray player. She popped in the DVD and started it in record time. The movie was simply titled "My Changing Body". It was tacky but understandable. It was perfect for keeping my attention and giving me information at the same time.
"Do you have any questions?" My mom asked when the movie ended.
"Is it normal for me to start my development so late?" In the movie it said a girl could begin puberty as early as the age of nine. I was sixteen physically, so was that bad?
"Sweetie you're half vampire and half human and you're actual age is six. Carlisle said it would be perfectly normal for you to start your puberty now. Everything is normal." Grandpa knew! This was embarrassing but grandpa was the only person who could be my physician.
"Momma, am I going to get a menstrual cycle?" I asked shyly.
"We don't know. You might, you might not. Sometimes a girl gets her period last or first, but because you grow at a rapid rate we cannot be sure."
"Mom One more question. Once I've finished puberty will I be an adult?"
"Yes I suppose so." I hoped my puberty didn't last long. I knew it last years for regular human but I wanted it to be over quick so I could become an adult.
"Thanks mom." I thanked her, though most of questions remained unanswered. "Can you tell daddy he can come back now."
"Yeah sweetie, I'll go get him. Jake is with him so you should probably get dressed."
"Okay." I rushed off to my room and used my vampire speed to get dressed quick. It was hard to find a good shirt that fit over my newly formed breasts. I eventually settled for a v-neck that I rarely wore. I hated the v-neck because I thought it revealed too much. But to my misfortune, it was the only thing that fit me so I tugged over my head. I debated whether to put makeup on my face and decided just to put mascara on my eyelashes. I ran outside and just sat on the couch waiting for my family and my Jacob to return.
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