I'm a Woman
Nessie's P.O.V
Everyone entered a few seconds afterwards. I sat on the couch. I hoped I looked okay. "Morning Jake." I beamed.
He smiled back a huge grin that warmed my heart. I could never resist his perfect white smile. "Morning Nessie"
"Hey I want to hear what happened yesterday after we left. How'd the res react when they saw your corvette."
His eyes got wide. "It was too good to be true. Everyone freaked out. They couldn't believe that was my baby but I reassured them all it was."
"Did you just refer to an inert as your 'baby'?"
"Yes I did." Jake answered proudly.
I laughed and so did my mom. "What ever happened to the rabbit?" My mom asked curiously.
"Oh that's old news Bells. I gave it to Seth years ago." He answered with a devilish smile. "I thought vamps knew everything."
"Well I do." Edward raised his hand as if guilty on trial. Everybody laughed except for me. I hated my dad knowing every thought and everything. I could never lie or do anything mischievous because my dad knew what I was thinking.
My throat burned. "Jake care to have another race? I'm thirsty." I smiled sheepishly.
"Sure of course Nessie."
He let me win again. My deer was huge and his was small. A animal as big as that curved my appetite, but yet my craving wasn't settled. I still thirsted for something. When we got back to the house I smelled the Doritos in his room. I wanted them. I never ate Doritos before but they smelled so good.
"Jake can I have some of your Doritos?"
Everyone looked at me confused. Jake answered me back. "Yeah sure Ness. You can eat anything."
He got the chips for me and I devoured them. They tasted so good. I finished the entire bag in a matter of minutes.
Jake stared at me with wide eyes. "Are you full Nessie?"
I felt blown up but my craving was settled. "Yup I'm good."
I lifted myself off the couch in the living room and felt a cramp in my stomach. I fell down back to the couch.
"Are you okay Nessie?" Jake asked holding my hand.
"Yeah. I think I just ate too much. It hurts to stand."
"Do you wanna lie down and watch TV in my room?"
"Sure that sounds fantastic." I loathed watching TV but if I could cuddle up to Jake it would be worth it.
I walked to his room ignoring the slight pain in my lower abdomen. We watched TV together peacefully. I was wedged in his side listening to his steady heart beating. I drowned out the noise of the TV and listened to the beats of his heart. Lub lub dub lub dub. I could listen to his heart all day. It was my sacred song.
Dad walked in and ruined my perfect moment. I didn't move away from Jake's warm side. My dad scanned me quickly. "Nessie are you…"
Jake pulled away quickly and finished my dad's thought. "Bleeding?" Jake scanned me.
I scanned myself too. I checked my arms and legs and saw no cuts. I sniffed the air. There was definitely a blood scent and it was coming from me. I felt wet. "Mom!"
Mom rushed to my side attentively. "What is it Renesnee?"
"I think…I think it's time." I hoped my mom understood my words. I didn't want to give too much information with Jacob in the room.
Mom saved the day. "Edward, Jacob, do you mind leaving me alone with my daughter."
"No. What happened? I can help." Jacob was frantic as he grabbed me and clutched me into his huge arms.
"Jake I-don't think-you-want to help…-me with this." I said through short breathes. Jake was squeezing me too tight. "Let go plea-se."
"Oh sorry." He released his hold on me. He grabbed my face and directed it so I could look up in his eyes. "I want to help you with anything and everything." Ahhh I was putty in his big hot hands.
"Jacob, take a walk with me. Bella needs to be alone with her daughter. I'll explain later." Jacob nodded. Oh No. Dad is going to tell Jacob I started my menstrual cycle. That's just peachy. My dad led Jacob out of the room. I could see Jacob had his thinking face on before he left. His dark brows were slightly pulled together. He only did that when he was thinking hard.
I rushed to the bathroom with my mom to the rear of me. I pulled down my pants and saw red. Blood. I couldn't believe it. I was expecting to not get a period. I was half vampire for crying out loud that didn't make sense. I looked at my mom's face to see her expression. She looked totally relaxed. Okay that was good the blood wasn't making her uncomfortable.
She looked back at me horrified. My heart skipped a beat. "We don't have pads!" She exclaimed. I sighed in relief. She looked at me seriously. "Nessie this is a problem. I guess we need to go to town and stock up. Your dad and I can't be seen in forks but Jake can." Oh Hell no. "Jake could go get some while your father and I wait here with you."
"Mom no! Jake cannot go get my pads. Do you know how embarrassing that is!"
"Nessie calm down. You're going to give yourself an anxiety attack. Jake said he wanted to help and he'll do anything for you. You've known Jake since the day you were born. Sweetheart, he's seen you grow and change through your entire life. Don't be embarrassed sweetheart."
Ugh! Mom's word didn't help but what other choice did I have. I didn't have any other friends beside the wolves. "Wait, mom, I can have Leah get me some! Do we have her number? Oh wait that's a stupid question." I laughed. "She's my step auntie . Mom isn't that good! I can have my aunt get me some pads. That's perfectly normal I'm sure regular teens do that." I was so happy I was nearly bouncing. The thought of something in my life that was normal overjoyed me. I was the opposite of normal. Everything I did was complicated and wrong. "Please! Please! Please mommy can we call Aunt Leah!"
My mom's face slowly turned into a bright smile. "I think I like that idea. Okay I'm going to go call their house phone and see if they answer." My mom flashed away and I heard the sound of key tones as she dialed.
She came back a few minutes and saw me sitting helplessly on the toilet. "Oh Nessie I'm sorry. Leah and Jake are on their way to the drug store to get you some pads."
"Jake! I thought only Leah was going. I thought that was what we agreed on." I frowned.
"Oh Nessie, I'm sorry Jake insisted on driving Leah into town."
So much for normalcy, I didn't want Leah and my Jake shopping alone together. I especially didn't want them together shopping for my sanitary napkins. Hadn't Jake gotten enough of Leah during their little forest hiatus. She was really pretty. What if she liked Jake? What if Jake liked her?
"Don't worry Nessie Jake's family. He's like a big brother."
"Ugh." I grunted. "That's exactly what I'm afraid of!"
"Nessie, what are you talking about? You're making no sense." Mom looked dumfounded.
"Don't play dumb mother. You know exactly what I talking about!"
"Honey don't raise your voice. Tell me why you are so angry."
I was infuriated. "Mother I like Jake!" Mom started to bite her lip. "But you already knew that didn't you." She stared at me but didn't say a word. "Mom?" I said half worried half crazed with anger.
"Yes I did know that." She looked away shamefully. I felt like the parent for once. I was scolding her instead of her scolding me.
"When did the big mouth break the news?" I asked my mom, withholding the vitriolic venom in my voice.
She looked up into my eyes. I felt myself shrink. "He told me the day Jake left." Ouch. The memory of Jake leaving hurt,It hurt even worse when I found out why he left and who he left for. "You are out of your place for scolding me. I am the adult here and you are the child. Your father and I have every right to know what you are thinking."
"Dad has no right reading my mind without my consent. Normal teenagers don't have to worry about their fathers reading their every thought." I wish I could just show what I thought. That would make everything easier and end the fight. I reached up to touch her face.
"Renesmee Carlie Cullen, you are no normal teenager. You are a vampire hybrid. Nothing in your life is normal." I dropped my hand and the tears fell. I was sobbing. All I ever strived for was normalcy and now it felt like I would never achieve it. It's one pain to have your dreams crushed. But to have your dreams crushed by your mother is a completely different pain.
I was crushed, crying, bleeding and sitting helplessly on a toilet. I was sure my life couldn't get any worse. I grabbed the toilet paper roll and started dabbing my eyes. The tears overwhelmed my vision. I couldn't tell if my mother was in the room anymore. The tears gushed more as I realized that she was not comforting me. For the first time in my life I felt alone. I hoped the damn hormones were responsible for my emotions. I hated crying almost as much as I hated my mom right now.
I heard the frontdoor swing open. Oh no Dad was back. He better not come in the bathroom.
"Honey, Can I come in?" He asked in his voice of honey. It was irrestitable to say no to. Stupid mind reading, he knew all my weaknesses.
"I hate you dad."
"No you don't honey. I can read your mind." I could tell from his voice he was smiling.
"I'm glad you find this amusing Dad because I don't- Ow!" There was a sharp pain in my lowered abdomen. Ugh I really regretted eating all those chips. "Ow ow ow!"
"Nessie what's wrong." I swung my head up. My mom was hovering right beside me.
"My stomach hurts but it's nothing. I just ate too many chips." I tried to convince her it was nothing serious.
Ow ow ow. I bent over so my stomach rested on the top of my thighs. I never had this internal pain before it was not normal. I would have to add it to my list of "Why I Will Never Be NORMAL List".
"Wait Nessie I think you are experiencing menstrual cramps." My dad spoke so fast it took me a second to decipher his message.
"Cramps?" It made sense. In the video they explained this all. It said a girl could get her period anywhere form the age of nine to sixteen. I was sixteen, I was on time. The video also said I would have cravings for food. That explained why I thought chips were the most valuable thing on Earth. The video then explained the cramps. I wasn't having weird digestion problems, I was experiencing a cramp. Wow when the video explained this as "discomfort" they didn't do it justice. These cramps were torture. My exterior may be hard as metal but interior was soft and as delicate as a human's.
"Oh no cramps. Do we have any Midol Edward?" My mom paced quickly in front of me.
"No its okay I'm-Ow." I wasn't fooling anyone.
"That's it I'm coming in." My dad busted in and I was happy that I was bent over my legs. At least my dad couldn't see anything inappropriate.
He looked at me seriously. I knew the pain reflected in his eyes were a mirror of my own. I hated my period. I couldn't understand why Aunt Rose wanted one so much. I wondered if she would change her mind if she knew the pain that came with it.
"I'm calling Jake and telling him to pick up some Midol." Before I could object mom had already dialed the numbers.
Jake picked up on the first ring. This was so mortifying. Jake shouldn't have to pick up pads and Midol for me. On second thought, Jake might finally see me as a grown up lady. After all, I was officially a woman. I guess periods weren't all bad. If it would make Jake stop seeing me as a little sister, I could live through these ridiculous cramps.
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