So I'm going to start this chapter off with a huge thank you to everyone who reviewed! You guys are awesome! And your stories on your worst summer holidays were hilarious and I couldn't stop laughing.

So, as promised, I will tell you mine. Now it's not as dramatic as some of yours, but it's still my worst -and most embarrassing- summer holiday I have ever had! And I'm warning you to skip this NOW if you don't want to read an awful sort story on how I embarrassed myself on a plane.

Well I was around seven years old when this happened, so it was quite some time ago, and I was going to America with my older cousin. I was so excited because I had never gone to America.

We got window seats and on the flight, I was seated next to this really cute guy -who was old enough to be my father, so no, I was not crushing on him. Unfortunately, I was -and still am- really shy, and he was sitting on the seat at the end, so I'd have to ask him to move if I wanted to go toilet or something. So it was a few hours into the flight when I realised that I needed to go to the bathroom and because the guy was blocking my 'escape' I'd have to ask him to move. But like I said, I was incredibly shy and I didn't want to talk to a stranger. Even if it was just to ask him to move slightly so I could get to the bathroom. Finally, I couldn't hold it and I turned to the man to ask him to move when...

I heard snoring. He was asleep.

Now I didn't want to wake the poor guy up, so I stayed put and prayed for him to wake the hell up. Ten minutes later, I couldn't take it and I wet my pants. Naturally, the guy woke up once I was done, and my cousin smelt it after five minutes. She thought it was the kid behind us. Getting off the plane was harder because of how wet my pants were. It made it harder to move and, to be honest, I probably looked like a penguin while trying to walk out of the plane without trying to attract attention to my wet jeans.

*cringe* I hate thinking about the other embarrassing things that happened that day.

So now, on with the story! Let's hope Bella has more luck than me.

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Since returning to Camp Half-Blood, my powers returned bit by bit meaning my blood had turned back to ichor- godly blood. Ichor is the golden blood of the gods and can smell heavenly to almost anyone. Edward was so attracted to my scent because the ichor didn't fully leave my blood stream when I made the decision to become a mortal for a while. Something went wrong and it mixed together with my human blood making me smell like a half-blood, only better.

When I woke up I could smell the faint smell of disinfectant and ichor. I could feel a warm light shine onto my closed eyelids and fluttered them open, only to find that everything was white and blurry. Feeling drowsy again, I shut my eyes tight and faced away from the light. It warmed my left cheek. When I felt less drowsy, I opened my eyes again, but this time there was no white light or blurry outlines. It was dark and, through the small window provided in the camp's hospital room, I could see the full moon shine and surrounding stars glisten. How had time past so quickly? I asked myself.

"Bella?" Someone croaked.

My neck felt stiff from no movement for hours, so I groaned in answer. The voice became clearer and sounded closer to me when it said my name again. Again, I groaned.

"Thank God, Bella, I thought I had lost you," the voice sighed in relief and I detected happiness and worry come off of him.

"It's kind of hard to kill a god, don't you think?"I joked. I heard several muffled laughs come from the other side of the door but Edward stayed silent.

"Everyone's been so worried," he told me.

"Them or you?" I challenged.

Edward groaned in frustration before he said anything back. "You were out for two weeks. That's probably longer than it would take one of those mutts to heal, Bella."

"For now, I'm a half-blood. It will take longer for me to heal than it would a god or a werewolf."

"What do you mean?"

I closed my eyes and explained everything to him, and he nodded and made noises during parts of my story to tell me that he was listening. After I had finished, he didn't say anything for a couple of minutes and I was starting to feel sleepy again. I fought the urge to close my eyes so that I could listen to his answer.

"Go to sleep, Bella," he finally said. "I'll be here when you wake up."

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"Do you think she'd like to go shopping when she wakes?" A chirpy voice says to no one in particular.

"Alice," Carlisle warns playfully.

"Ok, Ok. I'll give her time to rest but then..." she leaves the sentence hanging and starts to move around the room.

"Don't Alice," Edward laughs reading his sister's mind. "She'd hate it if you do that."

My lips curled into a small smile and I could practically hear the pout in Alice's voice when she replied that she didn't care and that she was going to take me shopping anyway.

"We know you're awake, Bella," Alice giggles as my heart beat accelerates, like it always does when I get caught doing something. "Your heart gave you away, and the fact that you started to smile when you heard Edward talk," she explained absent-mindedly.

My eyes snapped open and I blushed as I heard Edward growl at his sister. "I did not, you little pixie."

"Yes you did. Don't deny, I saw it with my own eyes."

"I did not." I wasn't entirely true. I did smile but I guess after being apart from Edward for so long, it was just a relief to hear his beautiful laugh again that I did it unintentionally. That's what love does to people. Stupid Aphrodite.

"Did t-" Alice was cut off when Esme told her to give me some rest. She stuck her tongue out at me and I laughed, pulling a face at her before she, Carlisle and Esme left the room. Edward stayed behind, but didn't speak until the door was closed and his family were out of hearing range.

"How would you get your powers back?"

"They'll come back in time. A year, considering that's how long I've stayed human for."

"What will you do till then?"

"I can't go to Olympus since I'm not fully a goddess yet, but I'll probably stay and help out at camp," I sigh sadly.

Edward caught onto my tone and asked me what was wrong.

"Nothing."

"Bella, I know something is wrong. Don't you like it here?"

"I love it here, I just..." I turned away from his strong gaze.

"Bella," he urged.

"Just leave it."

"Bella."

"Edward, I said to leave it," I snapped.

He turned his body away from me. "You don't tell me anything any more. Why won't you let me help you?" he sounded so dejected and tired.

Because you don't understand. Because you never did and never will understand what it's like to be me. You don't understand how I felt when, "you left me."

Edward's back hunched and he rubbed his eyes furiously to wipe away the non-existent tears. "Bella, I did it for your own good."

"Leaving me was for my own good?" Idiot. How could he think that would be good for me? "Charlie died, you know," I tried to say it casually, but my voice broke. "'Bear attack' they said. But when I saw the body I went straight to his neck and what do you know? There's a bite mark, just like mine," I trailed my finger along the bite mark on my wrist.

The room was filled with silence and my heavy hitched breathing. Edward wasn't moving. He wasn't even breathing. "I didn't know. I told Alice not to look into your future." He still didn't look at me when he told me that he was sorry.

That's when I snapped. "About what, Edward? About leaving me, Charlie's death, pretending that I didn't exist or -my personal favourite-, pretending that you ever loved me?!" I spat out, venomously.

His body moved to me in one fluid movement. He looked at me straight in my eyes and I held his gaze, daring him to back down. He didn't. "Bella," his voice was strong and it was angry. "I'm sorry for leaving you. I'm sorry for Charlie's death and for pretending that you didn't exist, but don't you ever, ever, think that I pretended to love you." He took deep, unneeded, breaths and his voice softened, "I've loved you since the day you walked in biology and everyday that I spent away from you to keep my thirst at bay, I hated it. I grew more and more in love with you and never fell out of it.

I left because I love you; to keep you safe from creatures like me, ones that could kill you easily with one click of their fingers. Red Eyed vampires like Victoria that would hunt you down; murder you, avenge her mate.

I love you, Bella, and I always have," his voice trailed off and he was now only inches away from me.

I wanted to forget he never left and kiss away the pain he left me in for all those months. I wanted to forgive him. I wanted to forgive him so badly, but his actions broke my trust for him and his family. It killed Charlie and I could never forgive him for that. I loved him, past tense.

I'm sorry, Edward, I really am, but, "no." I breathed in his scent for one last time and flashed myself into my cabin and cried. I've never forgotten the look of hurt in Edward's beautiful topaz eyes before I left him.

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Well I hoped y'all liked that chapter. Sorry about the lack of updates, but I went camping for a few weeks and there was no internet so no updates. And today I've just gone back to school from summer brake so there might be less updates because of homework, but we'll see. I'm currently working on the next chapter and that should be out, if not this week, next week, so keep an eye out for that.

Also, could you guys check out my other fic and tell me what you think about it. I'm thinking of rewriting it and fixing it up. What do you think?

And once again...


FIC REC:

This week I've read two so far and I just can't get them out of my head! So here you go:

Tropic of Virgo by In. .bathrobe- for all those music lovers out there!

Marley's Mother by Pandora's Box Is Heavy (creative name!)- For those Daddyward fans!

They are both rated M, so if you're not over 18 (like me) skip the lemons (Like what I do).


Question: Greatest memory from school?

Answers in your reviews plz!