Chapter 6- Left Behind

SPOILERS: For pretty much all of Season 5.

Also: The first half is NOT Klaine friendly but the second half IS.


Kurt sighed, putting his head in his hands. He was completely sick of being taken for granted. Blaine just walked all over him every single chance he got. He said 'yes' to Blaine's proposal because he loved him and did indeed want to spend the rest of his life with the boy. He could see Blaine in his long future. He could imagine them in the same retirement home being themselves and having a lovely time there. He could see himself dying with Blaine.

But all of that seemed irrelevant at this point in time.

Kurt was extremely eager for Blaine to graduate and move to New York to attend NYADA, but he had not expected Carmen Tibideaux to advance Blaine into most of the sophomore classes, something which had never happened in the history of the school. It was a completely travesty in Kurt's eyes. He figured that nobody should ever be allowed to take classes at college that are a year above them. People, including Kurt and Rachel, worked hard to gain entrance into the school and both worked hard during their freshman year of college to impress the faculty. Both did. Blaine got in and somehow worked his way straight up to sophomore level without doing any of the freshman year study that all members were required to do. In some classes, Blaine was definitely lagging behind, not having the basic foundation that was taught the previous year to keep up with the advanced course level.

It wasn't just NYADA that was the problem, though. He stopped at nothing to take opportunities to show Kurt up. Kurt had allowed him to perform at the showcase for June Dolloway with him, not wanting to experience things without his boyfriend, no fiance, and then Blaine grabs June's attention and leaves Kurt flailing in the dust. Fair enough, Kurt though, June took a special interest in Blaine, but he wouldn't have caught her attention without Kurt's help and Kurt did not get anything as much as a thank you. He was tired of just being there. In the fight between Santana and Rachel, he was the middle man and he almost felt like the middle man between Blaine and his career and that was not the way a relationship worked and Blaine did not seem to understand that. Blaine was always putting himself first and then making out like it was Kurt's fault.

Like with the cronut obsession thing and the slight weight gain? Was that supposed to have been Kurt's decision? Kurt was busy making himself physically fit, making up for all of the times he ws not regarded as a sexual creature in high school. Finally, he was fit and people looked twice when they saw him. The way people look at Sam, Noah and Mike. Then Blaine blames Kurt for making him feel inferior and insecure? During high school, that was all Blaine did. But Blaine seemed to have forgotten the past and how he had acted back then.

Breaking through Kurt's inner monologue, Blaine burst through the door, all chipper after a 'date' with June Dolloway, that vile woman who Kurt regretted admiring.

"Hey you! You'll never guess what June just told me! She's picked out a new song for me that she thinks is just perfect for me! She's chosen Corner of the Sky from Pippin! Do you know it?"

Kurt almost scoffed. Do you know it? Please. As far as Kurt's concerned, it's his song. The range is perfect, the meaning is perfect and it complements Kurt's voice beautifully. It had been his ringtone since the 2013 Broadway Cast Recording was released. Well, since Kurt pre-ordered it about 3 months prior. And Blaine knew that. Or he wasn't listening, one of the two. Kurt had even sang it for him as a practice for a NYADA assessment. Blaine had complimented him vastly upon his performance. In the moment, it had seemed like the world was applauding. Now, it seemed fake.

"Yes, Blaine, I have heard. If you called me right now, you would hear Matthew James Thomas singing his beautiful version coming out of my phone. You know why? Because it's my ringtone. But you wouldn't know that would you? Because you haven't called me in weeks. I performed that song for one of my NYADA finals. I sung it for you. You liked it. I've been obsessed with it for months and months and you're asking me whether I knew it. Let me guess, my new favourite Broadway ballad escaped your notice? Even though I've played it non stop for a long while now? Is that what you're asking me? If I know one of my favourite songs of all time? Think about your answer, won't you?"

Blaine frowned. "What's going on, Kurt?"

"Oh, like you haven't noticed," Kurt snapped harshly. "You've been all about you ever since you started at NYADA and I'm getting tired of it, Blaine. Even Sam was over here the other night and you weren't even here to see your best friend. You know he's leaving for Milan soon and you couldn't even put in an appearance. Because you were with June. Your new muse I presume. Apparently, she's replaced me as the person you go to with all of your problems. Blaine, we haven't had a serious conversation in weeks. The most we've talked is about our rehearsal for the showcase. And don't even get me started on that trainwreck."

Blaine's eyebrows snapped together furiously. "No please explain your thoughts about the showcase that you invited me to. It's not my fault that June liked me better! If you didn't want me to become successful, you shouldn't have asked me to perform with you. This is your doing and I'm not apologising for wanting a career."

Kurt smirked angrily. Was he serious? "Bitch, please. I wanted us to do something together because you haven't been the same since my attack. Yes Blaine, the bashing. The thing you've avoided talking about, even when it was brought up by me. I don't mind talking about it, Blaine. It helps me deal with it. But you close off whenever I try. I get it, it must've been horrible for you to witness, because I know I would've been going crazy with grief and pain aif that had have been you. And I know it's a sore spot for you because of the Sadie Hawkins at your old high school before Dalton. But it's not all about you and how you're dealing. I was the one that was attacked, Blaine. All because I was helping someone. But you haven't focused on that. You've been so concerned with June that you've ignored everything in my life. And the worst thing, you were even texting during Rachel's opening night which is extremely disrespectful."

Blaine paled at that. He had not realised that Kurt had noticed that. He thought he had been sly. "You've still not mentioned the showcase." He swallowed. Did he even want to hear any more?

"Deflection has always been a strong trait of yours. I was getting to that. I understand that it could be my fault that I'm feeling like this in your eyes, but it's not. I don't regret singing with you. I definitely don't regret June liking you so don't ever say that I'm resentful of your new success because I'm not! I'm so incredibly proud and happy. Don't tell me how I'm feeling. Anyway, the thing that I do resent is you neglecting everything else because you're so consumed with how June is making you feel. You're getting hungry for fame and success that you're ready to leave behind everybody that got you hear. Me, Sam, Rachel, and when was the last time you even spoke to Tina? I email her daily about how she's doing and she has no idea about you and what you're doing." Blaine visibly flinched at the mentions of Sam and Tina.

"I'm just working so hard." What a feeble response, Kurt thought. Have I taught you nothing, Blaine?

"Just like I did last year in my freshman year at NYADA. Which you practically skipped. Fair enough, that was Carmen's decision, but you did nothing but remind me of that for like two weeks straight. It gets boring, Blaine, playing second best to you. You're constantly telling me how talented I am, but then use me as your personal punchbag. It's demeaning and hateful."

"I advanced in NYADA because Carmen thought I was capable, excuse me for showing promise. You didn't even do most of freshman year because you were only accepted during the Winter Showcase. I got in first time as did Rachel."

"That was harsh, even for you Blaine. But have you noticed when the best things happened to me? When we weren't together. When we broke up, I got into NYADA and made something of myself. I impressed Carmen and the rest of the school. I won the Midnight Madness against Rachel. I auditioned for Nick Arnstein in the production of Funny Girl that Rachel was in—."

"And you clearly got that." The sarcasm didn't even need to be explained.

"Yes, I didn't get it, but that and my rejection from NYADA has taught me a lot about rejection. I get knocked back a lot and that drives me on to do better and prove people wrong. You seem to get everything first time and that teaches you that you can get everything you want just by showing up. Including me. Well I can't do this anymore."

"You can't break up with me."

"I've done it once, I can do it again! I love you, Blaine, and I would rather not break up with you. I want to spend my life with you. But I want the old Blaine back. The Warbler. The guy who serenaded me with 'Somewhere Only We Know' simply because I moved back to my old school. That was unbelievably an amazing moment for me. Probably my favourite part of high school, actually. You came to Prom with me even though it made you uncomfortable. You let me duet with you on 'Candles'. You told me that you loved me." Kurt was sobbing at this point, the nostagia overwhelming him. "What happened to that Blaine? The one that put love before anything. The Blaine that I fell for. That Blaine would never have become what you are. I can't even look at you without resenting the fact that you're not him anymore."

"I'm still him, Kurt." Blaine was softly crying.

"No. You're not. You're hateful, selfish and ingorant. I don't recognise him in you. It's like you're a different person."

"You agreed to marry me." Blaine reminded him.

"I haven't forgotten." Kurt played with his engagement ring. "I don't want to lose you, Blaine. I just want to rediscover the magic that you brought to my life. I want the Blaine that cuddles me whenever there is thunder and lightning. The one that dances around the room singing 'Come What May' with me. The Blaine that balances love and career. I'm not happy. But I want to be. What do you want to do?"

"I miss that Blaine. I know that I've changed, at least I suspect that I have in your reactions. Your kisses aren't as passionate as they once were. When we make love, it's still amazing, but there's something missing. Kurt, I know that I've hurt you probably beyond repair, but I'd really like to make this right. In fact…" Blaine trailed off, pulling his phone out. Whoever he was calling went to voicemail.

"Hello June? It's Blaine. You can't manage me anymore. It's causing a rift in my relationship. I can't have that. I appreciate everything you have done for my career, but this isn't working. I need to make things right with Kurt. He comes first. Thank you, bye." Blaine shut the phone.

"Blaine—."

"No, you were right, Kurt. I'm sorry. Time to make things up to you. Starting now."

Never knew I could feel like this
I had never seen the sky before…


Author's Note: Oh Klaine, what happened to you? You used to be OTP material. Now you're not shippable to me anymore. Thanks, writers...not. Oh and remember to review with your thoughts; and leave some prompts, I'm running on empty right now and any prompts would be appreciated!