i was getting ready for me and lizzie's date

i couldn't believe that it was happening she had been me dream girl for pretty much forever

i heard a knock at my door

why was lizzie here so early she was never early

i quickly put on my panda hat and opened the door ...

"lauren ? why are you here ?".

lauren ( laurenzside )my ex girlfriend was there standing right there in front of my eyes her purple ombre hair shining in the sun .

we broke up after she cheated on me with my friend joey ( JOEYGRACEFFA )

"oli i'm so sorry , i made a mistake " she had a pure American accent

did she want me back ?

what about lizzie?

"i just can't do this right now lauren , i have a guest coming round " she looked like she had been crying

"oli please i...i.. i still love you " i just stared at her , she smiled and slowly and started to bite her lip

"lauren , i can't right now "

she started to cry . we sat down on my sofa . she put her head on my shoulder

i looked at her and she looked at me .

she leaned in and then we were kissing

i opened my eyes and saw lizzie at the window. i pulled away

" lauren this was a mistake , we are not back together . now please leave "

a tear roled down her cheek

"ok ." and she left

oh god what have i done ? lizzie now probably hates me !

she must think that i was using her

i have messed up my friendship with lauren and lizzie!

what is wrong with me ?!?!