Today's visiting day and you can literacy feel the tension and anxiety in the air. You can see the sense of hope and fear of disappointment in the initiates faces as Eric explains that some families may not come and the idea of faction before blood.

I decide to hang out and watch as I stand by the chasm. I look over to where Four is standing with a woman dressed in gray. I walk towards them and introduce myself.

"Tris? You look familiar for some reason." she says casually as I feel nervous of her knowing my true identify. I answer her back "I don't make it a habit of associating with the Abnegation. Your son has been doing well here, I'm one of the instructors." she shows a visible sigh of relief.

With curly red hair, stunning blue eyes and a hooked nose, I can tell where Four gets his good looks from. I do know them from Abnegation but I would never say so. Marcus Eaton works with my father as a leader. Evelyn whom I just met is his wife.

My mother tried to contact me a couple years ago after I transferred but I am not sure if I'm ready to make amends yet. I guess I'm still not over the fact that she left me with him and had me believing she was dead.

I go to bed later, enjoying the peace and quiet from the chaos that is initiation. I'm jolted awake hours later by a knock at my door and a tense-looking Four.

"Something's happened, come with me!" he urges as I run to the dorm with him. When we enter, the smell of blood is overpowering as I find an injured Edward with a knife in his eye and a satisfied Peter.

Four helps get Edward to the infirmary and I snarl at Peter. Eric would never do anything about this of course so there isn't much I can do except try to comfort Edward and Four.

Four and I stand outside as Edward is being treated. "That was awfully brave of you, Four, to try to stick up for Edward like that." I compliment and he thanks me for it. The awkwardness between us couldn't be more apparent. The infirmary releases Edward and we help him back to the dorms before I leave for the night.

I'm relieved to have some rest as we all have the day off from training. At breakfast, I notice that Edward and Myra are missing. Four tells me later than they left to be together as Edward didn't think she would make it through initiation.

The next day, we begin stage two which involves the fear simulations. I enjoy watching them but I feel intrusive and wrong for doing so at the same time. Acid, drowning, failure and moths surprisingly make their way into the initiates' fears.

Four is last and he's so much taller than me that I have to stand on my tip toes as I inject him. "Be brave, Tobias. The first time is always the hardest." I whistle right before he closes his eyes and the simulation begins.

He finds himself in a room wish both his parents and a gun pointed at them as a voice urges him to shoot them. He has ten seconds to decide and I am captivated as I watch him shoot himself instead.

His eyes open as he pants awake from what he's just done. I walk him back to the dorms and relax as the day is done.

Lauren, Shauna and Zeke invite me to a bar where we chat and I drink a beer and order another one which I take with me. I stand near the chasm as Four and Uriah and Will move from the tattoo shop.

Tobias comes near me as the others stand around chatting, he greets me with "Hey Six, what are you up to?" and I smile at him as I answer drunkenly "Drinking near the chasm, probably not the best idea." He shakes his head as I take in his gorgeous blue eyes and taunt muscles as I whistle "You look good Four." and he leaves with the others.