Tris' POV
Just as I am finishing breakfast, Zeke comes over and tells me it's important to go to the chasm. Something happened. My stomach twists in knots and I feel it churn as I see Al's body lifted from the chasm.
This is something that happens every year inevitably during initiation. It doesn't make it any easier but something that is almost expected every year.
I go down the hallway to get a drink where I find Four who seems furious. He's angry because of the way Eric called Al brave by his death by suicide and how nothing like that would have ever happened there.
I internally kick myself as I tell him that we will have to let the guilt we feel remind us to do better next time. Making a lesson out of the harshness of the world is an Abnegation trait and he knows it as he questions where I transferred from.
I grab his arm and pull him away from the cameras and warn he must be careful as they are watching him. He must act according to the way they want or there will be consequences.
I find him again later and invite him to go to the fear landscape room with me. He asks why I would want him to see mine and I explain that I have some things to show him. I let him inject himself and me this time.
We enter my first fear on the high, narrow bridge and hold hands. "We have to jump right?" he asks as I nod and breathe heavily as we jump together. Next, we are in the small box and he asks what this fear is. I pant as I made out "Fear of confinement." and he stands crouched down in front of me.
He helps me to catch my breath as the box bursts open and we are with the innocent woman and the gun. He tells me it's not real and I close my eyes as I squeeze the gun and pull the trigger.
We meet in the field as the crows begin to circle around us and I find a gun hidden in the grass and shoot them. I find myself trapped in the glass box surrounded by water with him and break it when the water is filled about halfway.
My last fear is the most terrifying and the one where Four will learn my real name. My father appears and this is where Tobias realizes who I am. "Andrew" he whispers and I nod as my father tries to grab me and hold me down. My father yells out "Beatrice!" and multiple versions of my father appear as Tobias manages to punch and stun each of them.
We awaken together and he asks why they call me six as he realizes that the six fears must be why. I hug him then grab his hand and tell him that I want to show him something else.
I lead him to the secret spot near the chasm where we enjoy the solitude and each other's company. We hold hands and he asks what my aptitude test results were and I answer by telling him Abnegation, Dauntless and Erudite. He admits that his were Abnegation and Dauntless as I suspected. Falling slowly, eyes that know me. And I can't go back
He then asks why I left Abnegation and I struggle to answer as he figures out it was because of my dad. "I'm so sorry, Tris." he whispers and I thank him. Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black. We wouldn't have met if I had stayed. "I never quite felt like I belonged in Abnegation but I don't know if I am quite Dauntless either. Maybe we don't all fit in to one category." I blush.
"Maybe you were cut out for Candor, Tris, because you're a terrible liar!" he teases and I tell him that I am not pretty so I don't know why he would want to be with me. You have suffered enough. And warred with yourself. It's time that you won.
"So what? Maybe you're not pretty but you're smart and brave and selfless…." he trails off as his lips find mine and we kiss. Take this sinking boat and point it home. We've still got time.
I ask him to call me Beatrice when we're alone as I hated the name before and like to hear him say it sometimes in the sweet, loving way he does. Raise your hopeful voice, you have a choice
You've made it now. I ask him to meet me later that night by the train tracks to show him my suspicions about the Erudite.
We jump on the train together where we sit on the floor and he envelops me in his arms. He feels warm, strong and steady. He whispers "You're older than me, Beatrice." I laugh and say "Yes, that two year difference is really tough to overcome." and kiss him again.
His kisses are sweet and passionate that leave me always wanting more. We reach the Erudite headquarters and I tell him about how the lights are always on past curfew, the possible war plans I've found and their relentless critique of the Abnegation. He doesn't say anything at first, listening as though he is hanging on my every word.
"It sounds like they're planning to use us, I wonder how they plan to get us to fight." he notes and I answer with "I don't know." as I lay my head onto his lap.
The next day is the final day of initiation as everyone must go through the fear landscapes. Four is last and looks tense as he will be the last to go. I sit by him and try to make light conversation to help settle his nerves until he is finally called.
I inject him with the serum and wish him good luck. He finishes quickly as he only has four fears, Eric congratulates him and injects him with a tracker in case he goes missing. I spend time alone with him in my apartment until the banquet as we talk about his plans to live and work with me.
