AGE 20: After a moment with her old roommate Regina realizes she might be bisexual.
Regina stared up at the ceiling in her apartment and sighed. She'd been following the panels of her ceiling fan for the last two hours as she lay awake in her bed, replaying that moment in the library in the her head over and over.
Finally, she couldn't stand it anymore and reached for her phone. It was late but she knew he'd probably still be up. She dialed Robin's number and after two long rings she heard him pick up, his voice coming out tired but still decidedly alert. "Hey, what's up?"
"I kissed Elsa." She confessed without preamble, the tension in her chest lessening.
There was a moment of silence before she heard Robin hum in confusion. "What?"
"I kissed Elsa," she repeated, with a sigh. "It happened a few hours ago after we finished studying together."
"Wow," she heard him breath. "That's...intense. How it'd happen?"
"I don't even really know," she said, turning on her side. Whispering into the darkness, she told him all the details of how in a split second of boldness she'd locked lips with her old roommate in the east corner of the law library.
"How was it?" asked Robin, clearly interested. "The kiss, I mean."
She rolled her eyes. "Well, I'd hardly describe it as epic. It barely lasted ten seconds. I left right after."
"Why'd you leave?!"
"Because it was awkward," she stressed. "I mean... it's not like I'm a lesbian."
"But you are into her," Robin pointed out.
"I… don't know if I would say that," she whispered, practically tasting the dishonesty on her tongue. It was a lie to say she hadn't felt a flutter in her stomach every time she heard Elsa's melodious laugh or that she hadn't felt a spark go through her every time they'd so much as touched hands. And oh god, those blue eyes. Honestly, it was the most she'd been attracted to someone since… no, no she was not going to think of him. Especially not now.
"I don't see why you're making such a big deal out of this," murmured Robin. "Isn't making out with your roommate pretty standard on the college bucket list?"
"It's not like that," she insisted. "It's not like I'm looking to experiment. I just…"
"You like her," he finished, so smugly she could hear his grin through the phone.
Sighing, she ran her hands through her hair. "Robin… I don't know what to do here. I mean, she's my friend and I… I don't want to be one of those girls."
"One of what girls?"
"The type of girl who dates another girl, toys with her emotions and them dumps her when she wants to be straight again," she mumbled. "I don't want to be the second person who does that to her."
When Elsa had first told her she was lesbian, she'd described the story of her first girlfriend who now vehemently denied that they'd even dated. She'd described it as the most humiliating thing that ever happened to her.
Robin let out a hesitant breath before speaking again. "So… I kinda want to say something and there's a fifty percent chance it's gonna piss you off but I still feel like you need to hear it."
"Ugh," groaned Regina. "What?"
He paused for a beat. "I think you're being so hesitant about the Elsa thing because you're still not over Daniel and the fact that he left."
A flash heat fell over her face as she clenched her jaw. "Excuse me?"
"I'm just saying that maybe all these hard lines you're drawing aren't for protecting her, maybe they're for protecting you," he said.
"This… is not about that!" she insisted, sitting up in bed. "I am completely over him. This about the fact that I've only ever liked men but somehow can't keep my mind off this one specific girl."
"So tell her that you like her," drawled Robin. "Just be honest and don't run away this time." He paused before adding, "And for the record you can like both. You know that, right?"
"Yes, Robin I know what being bisexual is, thank you," she sarcastically responded. "I'm just not sure that it's the label for me. I don't like all girls, just this one girl."
"Pretty sure that still counts," he responded. "But what do I know, you're the one kissing lesbians."
That small quip was enough to earn him a small chuckle from her. Taking a deep breath Regina was silent for a moment, thinking of Elsa and what she wanted to do next. "So… talk to her?"
"Talk to her," agreed Robin. "If you're not sure you wanna be her lover at least make sure she can stay a friend."
She scrunched her eyebrows together with a smirk. "Did you just use a spice girls lyric on me?"
"Did you just recognize a spice girls lyric?" he shot back.
"Touche," she chucked. Sighing, she shook her head. "I should probably go to bed."
"Yeah, good luck with that," he said. "Good luck with everything."
"Thanks," she mumbled before hanging up and falling back onto her bed. As her eyes started following the ceiling fan again, she thought of Elsa and her laugh and her smile… and their kiss. It hadn't been epic, it hadn't been long but somehow she knew it might just be the first kiss to change her life.
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