Then I saw him standing in the shadows, leaning on the railing and staring at the parking lot below. His shoulders hung and I was sure I saw him swipe away a tear.

"I can't." I told John. "Not tonight."

"I understand. It's to soon." he kissed my cheek and said goodbye with a wink. I know he saw Randy standing at a safe distance. Passing my ex lover was unavoidable and I felt a sickness in my stomach when Randy watched him walk away. I was so sure he was going to lunge at the man who had just kissed me.

When no incident occurred I turned to my door, but Randy's sadness kept me from turning the knob. I went to his side and mirrored his stance, looking out into the distance without initiating a conversation.

"I guess you have changed your mind about talking to me.".

"Randy … I"

"I don't care if you take me back. No. that's not completely true because I want you back so badly it hurts. But I'm not stupid."

"I never said ..."

"Let me finish. I know you could move on .. I know that. It kills me, but I accept it. But as your friend Abbi, i'm begging you not to get involved with Cena."

"It's really none of your buisness, Randy." My words cut him like a knife and had that knife been real I'm sure his heart would have been exposed and blood would have oozed from the gaping hole in his chest.

"The guy's a user, Abbi." he sighed. "He slept with Steph and her mother, just to get ahead and now he wants the little half sister to add to his list of McMahon women."

"That sounds impossible Randy. It sounds like something you made up just so I wouldn't date John."

"Sure." he snorted. "But even I couldn't come up with something that sick. I overheard him bragging or planning …But you're capable of making your own decisions. I just thought you should have all the facts." he kissed my cheek. "I l ove you Abbi. Too much to watch you be unhappy. Be happy … even if it means that you and I …" he walked away, but I knew what he was saying.

That night I laid awake staring at the phone. My past with Randy kept creeping into my thoughts and I found it hard to think about moving on with John. I thought about the kiss I had shared with the face of the wwe. It wasn't bad, but yet I hadn't felt anything. I wondered if I ever would feel anything with any other Randy.

Finally, I stopped trying to convince myself. I got out of bed and ran out of the room. I ran all the way, but I found no answer at my destination and I felt panicked. I turned away from the door slowly and thats when I saw him walking my way. In the hall way wearing nothing but a pair of gym shorts.

He said nothing. He only dropped the six pack of beer he was carrying, causing a couple of the bottles to break. He embraced me and we kissed passionately.

"I can't do it." I whined. "Randy, I'm never going to be happy with anyone but you and I can't keep trying to talk myself out of loving you."

"And I'm going to do anything and everything to make you happy, even if it seems impossilbe."