Holly stood next to Jax and Piney, watching Piney's friends shoot off the guns they were paying for to test them out. She wanted Jax to know that she really was ok with the outlaw life and knowing EXACTLY what Jax got up to. She leaned back against the tree she was standing in front of. She'd made the mistake of letting Jax tell her what to wear that morning, so now she looked like someone out of Dukes of Hazard in shorts, riding boots, a tank top and one of his plaid shirts, her hair done up in a messy bun and a sucker in her mouth. She felt like a cowgirl hooker, though this was her usual attire when she wasn't working. She looked over as the guys were done with the guns, stretching as she pushed off of the tree, standing next to Jax as Russ handed Jax the envelope of cash, watching Jax count it. She could tell, before he even said anything, that Russ was trying to rip them off. After getting caught and paying the rest of the money, as he was leaving, Russ looked at Holly with what was supposed to be a smirk but just came out looking creepy.

"If you ever want a real man, honey, the old fat bastard has a way to get ahold of me."

"I already have a real man and I didn't have to go through the 'old fat bastard' to get him. So just get in your truck and drive off. You'd have better luck fucking your tail pipe."

Russ drove off as Jax and Piney started laughing, flipping them all off. Holly looked at Jax as he pulled her in close to him.

"Down, girl."

"Bite me. That kid needs an attitude adjustment. And good hard kick in the dick."

Sitting at her desk at work, Holly was dealing with a potential client for Rosen when her computer dinged, signalling that she got an email. She didn't usually open emails while on the phone, but it was marked urgent.

"So, just so I tell the right story, you want a divorce because you have evidence that your husband is cheating on you with your sister and he's claiming that you forced him to sign the prenup you had drawn up?"

"That's right."

"Did you go through a lawyer to draw up the prenup?"

"Yes. And I'm trying to find that paperwork so I can show it to the new lawyer."

"Ok. Cause we'll need to know everything so we know how to proceed. Oh my God!"

"What is it?"

"Sorry. I got a really shocking email. Ummmm….. Gather up everything you can and come in for that appointment and we'll be able to tell you what you need to do next, ok?"

"Ok. Thank you for your time, sweetheart."

"No problem. Have a good day, ma'am."

She hung up the phone and clicked through the pictures on her screen. All of them were pictures of Jax sleeping with different women. Most of them were either Holly or Tara, but there was one picture of a known crow eater positioned in doggy style. She put them on a USB drive and then deleted the email, knowing exactly who sent them. She took a second to calm her breathing before looking at the clock. It was time for her to go to lunch. She grabbed her purse and clocked out, going to her car and heading to the clubhouse, trying to keep herself from panicking too much. But she was starting to tear up pretty bad as she pulled into the lot, getting out after she parked and going inside to find Jax, not knowing he wasn't there until Bobby told her. She couldn't stop the tears anymore, letting Bobby pull her over to the couch and hold onto her, letting her cry until she could talk.

"What's going on, sweets?"

"That agent that rolled into town, Kohn? He knew that Jax and I started sleeping with each other while he was still dating Tara. I couldn't figure out how because at that point the only one who knew was Tig. Kohn told me I needed to be careful."

"Did he threaten you?"

"No. But he showed up at the house the other day to tell me that I needed to get Tara to leave Jax because Jax was a dog and just gonna hurt her. And then today while I was on the phone with with someone, I got an email from him. It didn't have his name on it anywhere, but I know it was from him."

She pulled the USB out of her purse and showed it to Bobby, who called Jax, having to leave a message.

"I know you might not want it, but I'm sending the prospect with you for the rest of the day. He'll stay with you at work and then he'll follow you back here. Ok?"

She nodded, hugging Bobby. She'd always known that Jax kinda liked to spread it around, but also knew how loyal he could be when it mattered. She didn't think that he'd cheated on her, but it wasn't a good feeling to see your boyfriend fucking other girls. The rest of the day went by in a bit of a blur. She couldn't focus much on anything cause she constantly felt like someone was watching. He might not be a patched in member, but she felt better having Half-Sack there. He was nice enough and pretty easy to talk to. She was nearing the end of her shift when her cell went off, making her jump a bit. She looked down to see Jax's number flashing across her screen.

"Hey, babe. What's going on?"

"I just talked to Bobby. You got an email from Kohn? What was in it?"

"I don't wanna talk about it over the phone. But it wasn't anything too bad. Pictures."

"Show me when you get to the clubhouse, ok?"

"Ok. I'll be leaving soon. I'm almost done with work."

"Bobby said he sent Half-Sack with you back to work. Keep him with you, you hear me?"

"You know I will. Are you ok? You sound stressed."

"I am."

"What happened? Is there anything I can do?"

"No. The guns we sold to Nate's crew were used in a robbery and three people got shot. Including a cop."

"Holy shit. Anyone die?"

"The cop."

"Oh God, babe….."

"I know. So we're trying to deal with it. We still have more guns and Clay got arrested."

"Are you sure there's nothing I can do? I don't think Rosen's meeting with anyone right now. I can send him over to Clay. Get him out."

"No. Not yet, anyway. But we're trying to get him clear of this."

"Ok. I'll see you soon. I love you."

"I love you too."

Holly was laying down in Jax's room at the clubhouse, having fallen asleep after talking with Jax about the pictures and what Kohn said when he stopped by the house. Jax assured her that he'd take care of everything and Kohn wouldn't come near her again if he had anything to say about it. She trusted him and had him lay down with her for a while. But it didn't take long for her to fall asleep. It had been a long couple of days and she hadn't got much sleep. Laroy's men had been going in and out of her apartment building and she had decided to move out. The problem was that there wasn't anything in Charming, Lodi or Stockton that was in the price range that she wanted and she didn't want to move in with Jax because it was too soon. She'd been jumping back and forth between his room in the clubhouse and his house. She was just this side of sleep deprived and desperately needed sleep because it was starting to affect her noticeably. She didn't know how long she'd been asleep, but she was woken up to someone shaking her vigorously. She bolted up and it took her a second to realize that there was a mix of officers and ATF agents going through the clubhouse. She was harshly escorted outside by an agent, who did not seem to care that she was only in Jax's t-shirt and her panties, pushing her onto the ground outside, despite her cooperating. She cried out a bit as she scraped her chin on the cement, sucking in a breath as she looked around at everyone who was in the lot before looking at the guys, laying down next to Juice.

"You ok, Hol?"

"My chin hurts but I'm alright. What the hell is going on?"

"We wanted to warn you but we didn't have the time. Sorry about that. There was a warrant for these assholes to search the clubhouse."

She laid there on the ground until the agents and officers left, standing up and going back inside quickly, stopping in her tracks when she saw all the damage that had been done. There was stuff thrown everywhere. She didn't have any shoes on so she had to be careful when she walked through the clubhouse since there was glass everywhere. She walked to the back room and let out a loud gasp when she saw the damage in Jax's room, letting out a louder cry when she stepped on glass. But the damage in here was more substantial than anywhere else. Everything was broken or thrown around. The stuff from her purse had been dumped out onto the floor and was covered in glass dust and shards from the mirror on the big dresser; the food that was on the shelves by the bathroom was thrown around and the shelves were smashed; the clothes in the dresser had been thrown all over the room, the drawers taken out and the whole thing had been knocked over; the pictures that Jax had on the mirror were strewn across the room; the posters and dartboard had been ripped off the walls. But the thing that upset her the most was that the locket that her mom had gotten her before she died had been thrown against the wall and was laying broken on the floor. She fell to her knees, ignoring the glass cutting into the skin of her legs as she picked up the small trinket, tears filling her eyes as she looked at the broken locket in her hands. One side had a picture of her parents and the other side had a picture of a butterfly on a rose petal. There were only two people in the world that knew why those two things meant so much to her and why she always kept the locket with her. Jax and Opie. She heard someone come into the room but couldn't bring herself to look at them.

"Oh, darlin'..."

"I can't believe he broke it….. He purposefully picked it up and threw it and broke it…."

"We'll get it fixed and it'll be like it never happened."

"That's not the point, Jax! Out of everything that was broken in here, this was unnecessarily broken! This was personal!"

He picked her up and brought her out to the main area, getting Chibs to patch her up as he went to start cleaning up in the back room.

Holly sat in Abel's room, sitting next to little boy and reading to him. She looked over at Abel as she finished the book she'd been reading to him, putting the book down on the table next to her.

"As you grow up, you'll see a lot of evil in this world. With what your daddy does and with outside forces. But I don't want you to become one of those evil forces. I want you to be like your daddy. I want you to have a big heart and strong arms that you'll use to comfort people that need it. I want you to be smart enough to know that crying is not a weakness but naive enough to be able to see things in a good light. I don't want you to get wrapped up in how bad the world can be."

She bit back tears as she watched him, shaking her head as she sat back. She kissed Abel's incubation chamber gently before gathering her stuff and leaving. Since shit went down at the clubhouse, she just wanted to drink until she couldn't see straight. Or get away. She decided she was gonna do both. She drove to the liquor store in town, got a couple bottles of whiskey and rum before driving up to the cabin. She was glad there wasn't anyone there. She hadn't told anyone she was going up there and she had plans to ignore her phone until the next day. And that's exactly what she did. She drank and watched TV, curled up on the couch, drinking until she literally passed out, her problems temporarily forgotten. When she woke up the next morning, she had to rush to the bathroom to empty her stomach, her hair already up in a messy bun. When she came out after she finished, she found Jax coming in with the guys and the guns. When he saw her, Jax went over to her and pulled her in for a tight hug.

"Why the fuck didn't you answer your phone?"

"Can you not yell at me right now? Or touch me? I've been drinking all night and I feel like death warmed up."

"Have you eaten at all?"

"I swear to God, Jackson Nathaniel Teller, you mention a single food item I will shoot you with one of those guns."

"I wasn't going to. But you need to eat something. Or at least drink some water."

"You need to stop talking."

The guys chuckled a bit as they listened to the two and watched them both. Holly laid down on the couch again, holding onto her stomach as she curled up, letting out a soft groan. She looked at Jax when he sat down next to her, covering her up with the blanket she'd grabbed herself.

"Why didn't you answer your phone? I was worried about you."

"I needed to forget for a while. I needed to run away from my problems. And I didn't want anyone talking me out of it or trying to keep an eye on me. I wanted to be alone for a while."

He nodded and rubbed her arm gently. She leaned into his touch, closing her eyes.

"Why don't you go to the bedroom? It'll be quieter in there than it'll be out here. We'll be assembling guns all day before going to transport them."

"I'm comfortable and don't wanna move."

"I can carry you back there."

"No. I just want to sleep through my hangover."

"Ok. Will you eat when you wake up?"

She had already fallen back asleep, breathing deeply and evenly as she slept.

Holly sat in Jax's living room, drinking some tea as she watched a movie, curled up on the couch with her feet in Jax's lap. It was nice to be able to have a few quiet moments with Jax, not doing anything important. Abel was doing pretty good in the hospital and Holly was not focusing on anything special. After all was said and done, she due a real vacation. One she hoped to take really soon. Or, at least a therapy session.