Holly moaned into her hand as Jax went down on her, one hand tangled in his hair tightly. She arched her back off the shelves, tugging his hair as she moaned out his name. She had been stuck at work through their lunch date, so Jax came in to be with her. But normal conversation ended up in them sneaking off to the supply closet for a lunchtime quickie. She had been trying so hard to be quiet, but it was a battle she was losing as her stomach started tightening up. She knew Jax could tell that was getting close, because he did something that she wasn't expecting and almost made her scream as she came apart as he pushed a finger into her ass, her legs trembling a little. She had to bite her lip hard enough to draw blood to keep herself quiet. Just as she collapsed from the intensity, Jax stood and held her up, holding onto her as she calmed down. He smirked at her, kissing her before they both got their clothes on and leaving the supply closet, going back to her desk to finish what was left of their lunch.

"Oh, I forgot to tell you. Abel's getting out of the toaster today."

"What? Jax that's amazing! When are you going?"

"Tonight. You coming?"

"Try and stop me. This is so great, babe. You're gonna get to hold your son for the first time."

Sitting in the small room in Jax's lap, Holly and Gemma were waiting with him for Abel to be brought in. She felt Jax's arms around her waist, holding onto her. She looked over as Tara carried Abel in, standing up with Jax. She let out a soft gasp and covered her mouth a bit, tearing up as Tara handed Abel to Jax.

"Jax, he's so big…"

Holly took a couple pics of the two of them on her phone as Jax looked at her, holding Abel.

"I'm holding my son."

She smiled and nodded, a couple tears falling, not hearing Gemma and Tara leave the room. Holly and Jax both sat down, watching Abel.

"I can't believe this. He looks so much like you, babe."

She watched as Jax teared up before looking at her with a happy smile.

"I want you to be Abel's mom."

Holly sat with Gemma in Abel's room, watching Abel sleep.

"What did you say to him?"

"I didn't get to answer. He got called away."

"Well?"

"Well what?"

"What are you gonna tell him?"

"I don't know, Gemma."

"What don't you know? You love Jax."

"Of course I do. But that's not what's holding me back from answering."

"Then what is it? You've been waiting around from since you two were in school."

"That's the point, Gemma. I used to envision a life with him. Us getting married and having kids and growing old together. Watching him become president when Clay steps down. But he was gonna marry Tara, if he'd had his way then. He did marry Wendy and had a baby with her. While I was getting beaten to a pulp, I had to watch the guy I love be with women who were so wrong for him. So I was in a constant state of feeling just as bad inside as I did outside. He's finally with me and he's asking me to mother the child he had with another woman. The child that should've been mine. Maybe it's selfish to think like that, and I love Abel, but I feel like I wanna run away from this. Yes, I love Jax and I finally have him. But it's not right. It's not the way things were supposed to be. We were supposed to have what you and Clay have. What you and JT had. What my parents had. From the very beginning. Not because the relationship he was in was getting stale."

She sat down crying, putting her head in her hands, sniffling.

"Jax loves you. He always has. You should've seen him when you were in the hospital after that dick beat you so bad he put you in a coma. He rarely left your side and when he did, he made sure there was always someone there in case you woke up. When the doctors said that they didn't think you were gonna make it, he borrowed money from the club to pay for whatever surgery or treatment you needed. You've always been on his mind, baby. He hated seeing you with other people that weren't him. He's like me. He doesn't always speak his feelings. He didn't wanna ruin your friendship with him. It might not have been the magical beginning you wanted, but you have him. Tara doesn't hold his heart anymore and neither does Wendy. The fact that he's asking you to be Abel's mom means that you hold more than just his heart. You hold his soul."

Holly sat in the office at TM with Gemma, both of them talking as the guys came back, going out with her, but broke off to go over to Jax, placing her hand in his when he reached out for her. He looked frustrated and tired.

"You ok, babe?"

"Yeah. Long night. I really just wanna have a beer and head to bed."

"Before you do, I have something for you."

She handed him a small bag with a slightly nervous sigh, biting her lip as she watched him open it, confused. She watched him pull out the shirt she bought on her way to the clubhouse. It was a crop top that had small birds printed on it with the words 'Mama Bird' across the chest. She hoped that he would get what she was trying to say, and judging by the smile that was creeping across his face, he got it. He smiled happily and picked her up, twirling her around, laughing excitedly.

"Thank you so much, babe. I was afraid you were gonna say no."

"I love you. I'm honored that you asked me."

He kissed her softly and passionately, holding her face gently. When they pulled away, the ambulance in the garage caught her eye.

"What's with the ambulance?"

"Oh. Half-Sack stole it."

"What? Why?"

"I don't know. But it came in handy tonight."

"What happened?"

"Someone tried to kill Clay. Shot a friend instead. They're both fine, but things are gonna get bloody. Probably."

"Why didn't you take him to a hospital?"

"I guess he's wanted on a few continents."

"Is there anything I can do to help?"

"Keep someone with you for a little while? Just until this shit gets cleared up?"

She let out a dramatic sigh and eye roll that earned her a light smack on her ass, making her squeal a bit.

"I guess I can do that, but it'll be so inconvenient. Especially when you and I are in bed together."

"If you don't knock it off, you'll get punished."

"Oh no. Whatever will you do to me?"

"I'll think of something."

She giggled softly and kissed him.

"Get me a list of what Chibs needs. I'll stop by Tara's and see if she can help out."

"You're an angel."

Holly walked into Tara's house, following her in.

"Sorry to call on you so late, but we appreciate you doing this for us. I know you and I aren't exactly friends."

"It's alright. I would've gone to St. Thomas but they inventory everything."

"It's alright."

Tara handed her her medical bag.

"Look, I'm sorry about the way things went down between me and Jax. I never wanted to be the other woman. I fought it for so long and I tried to get him to see reason. It wasn't fair to you and I'm sorry."

"I know you did. We might not have been friends, but I always admired you, Holly. You fit so well into the world I wanted to be a part of for Jax's sake. But I never fit into it. I'm not that kind of person. I knew when Jax and I got back together that it wasn't gonna last. But I hoped it would. But seeing you two together….I always saw the way he looked at you. I wanted that. I'm just glad he's happy."

Holly nodded, looking at her as she listened.

"I've gotta go. But can I use the bathroom first?"

"Yeah, go ahead."

Walking down the hall, she didn't see or hear anyone come up behind her until she felt something hard hit her over the head, knocking her out. She didn't know how long she'd been out, but when she came to, she realized she had been tied to a chair, her hands bound behind the back of the chair and she was naked except for her bra and underwear. She was gagged as well. She looked around for her phone, looking towards Tara's room when she heard a gunshot, letting out a scream. She struggled to free herself, ignoring the pain in her head. She fell over in the chair, able to get her arms in the right position but she couldn't get her hands free since they were zip tied together. She watched Tara come out of the bedroom and come over to her, cutting her free. Holly pulled the gag out of her mouth and looked up at Tara.

"What the fuck happened? I heard a gunshot."

"I shot Kohn."

"Holy shit."

Both women stayed where they were for a minute, catching their breath. Holly looked at Tara as she sat up.

"Ok, here's what you're gonna do. You're gonna call Jax and tell him to come over. Jax'll help us and he'll know better what to do. While you do that, I'm gonna go throw up."

Laying in bed that night, Holly curled into Jax, staring at the ceiling, in a state of total shock. And had been since watching Jax shoot Kohn. She had seen quite a bit involving the club, things she wouldn't have seen if she were anyone else, and it never phased her. But she had never seen someone get shot before. She'd always been taken somewhere when shootings happened around her or she'd be hiding somewhere. She'd never seen it up close before. And it seemed that Jax had expected her to freak out, but she hadn't. Yet. She hadn't cried or screamed or anything. Tara had screamed bloody murder and broke down in tears. But Holly couldn't anything more than stare at the man laying on the bathroom floor, bleeding out from the head and stomach. And now here she was, staring at the ceiling, the silence very prominent, not saying a word as Jax watched her in concern. He reached over to rub her arm gently, hoping to make her look at him. But it just made her whimper, the dam starting to break as she slowly started crying. Jax pulled her into his arms, repeating that it'd be ok as he ran his fingers through her hair.