Holly woke up to find Jax watching her as he slowly rubbed her clit, making her let out a soft moan. She'd been able to let herself relax a bit about things and open herself up to Jax over the last few days. Sex was fun again. She wasn't fully healed yet by any means, she still had nightmares. But she didn't flinch when touched anymore. And she could tell Jax noticed the difference. He smiled more around her and held her closer.

"Morning, darlin'."

"Hi….What are you doing?"

"Waking up my old lady. Buttering her up so I can ask her something pretty big."

"What do you wanna….unh….know?"

"I'll ask you when I have your full attention."

She gripped his wrist a bit when he moved his hand faster over her, her increasing wetness making it easy for him. She moved her hand to trail down to return the favor, but he moved her hand away.

"This morning's about you, babe….."

"But…."

He silenced her with a deep kiss before kissing his way down across her chest, biting her nipples gently, making her gasp; down the valley between her breasts, sending a shiver down her spine; down her stomach, making goosebumps erupt all over her skin; across her hips, smirking when she bucked her hips involuntarily; finally reaching his destination, making her moan his name as he replaced his fingers with his tongue. She gripped the sheets as he went down on her, his tongue hitting every centimeter of her walls, feeling a slow and delicious burn as his beard and mustache tickled her thighs. She let out a shaky moan when he teased her hole, her hands going down to his head, her fingers tangling in his hair, gripping as her pushed his tongue into her. She arched her back as she felt the coil in her belly tighten a little more, clenching around his tongue involuntarily.

"Fuck, Jax….."

That earned her a chuckle, the vibrations nearly pushing her over the edge. So when he stopped and pulled away completely, she let out frustrated whimper, looking at him, watching him go over to her underwear, wiggling in anticipation when she realized what he was getting.

"Jax, I just want you. I don't need it."

"Then why do you have it?"

"It's for when you're on a long run and I miss you."

"Well, I'm gonna give you something to miss."

He smirked as he went back over to her, carrying the purple wand, turning it on its lowest setting before lightly placing it on her clit, the vibrations stronger than they sounded, making her grip the bars of the headboard tightly, arching her back and letting out a loud moan. She was quickly brought back to the edge, panting hard between moans, only to feel the vibrator being taken away again, making her let out an almost angry cry.

"Jax! Don't keep stopping! You're driving me crazy…."

"Good…."

"You son of a bitch…."

She heard the vibrations increase and she sighed, closing her eyes. But she couldn't relax for long, the wand pressed against her again, making her scream. She felt Jax put his hand over her mouth, not wanting her to wake up Abel. But his hand could only do so much.

"You gotta be quiet, babe."

She just shook her head. She couldn't if she wanted to. It felt too good and she was so close. She wasn't sure she was gonna last too much longer. She looked up at him and begged him through his hand, not holding back when he nodded at her.

"Cum for me, babe…."

She moaned his name loudly as she came hard, her legs shaking. But he didn't remove the wand. Just the opposite. He turned it to its highest setting and watched as she went cock-eyed as she squirted against his legs, soaking the sheets under her, getting hard at the sight, watching her writhe in pleasure as one last orgasm washed through her, making her squirt more.

"Jax, please….I can't stop...cumming….."

He pulled the wand away and pulled her up for a deep kiss, cupping her face in his hands before laying her back down, hovering over her, his hard on pressed against her belly.

"I want you so bad, babe."

"Take me, Jax…..please?"

She moaned when he pushed into her, wrapping her legs around his waist, making him go as deep as he could go, both of them letting out groans, her nails going down his back, leaving red trails up and down his back. She was still sensitive so it didn't take very many thrusts to push her back over that edge. Over and over and over. To the point where she was crying from the intensity, her nails digging into his back.

"J-Jax….I can't be the o-only one cumming…."

"You're not…."

She watched him pull out and finish on her stomach, chest and face, some of it even hitting the headboard, before he laid down next to her, both of them out of breath and sweaty. Holly looked over at him when her breathing evened out.

"You said you had something you wanted to ask me?"
"Huh? Oh, right. Hold on."

She sat up, using the blanket to wipe herself off. She had been planning to do laundry today anyway. She watched Jax come back with a piece of paper, taking it when he handed it to her, looking at the drawing on it. It was a design for a crow tattoo. She looked up at Jax in shock.

"You want me to get your crow?"

"Only if you want to, darlin'. But you're already my old lady."

She smiled and nodded, getting up and jumping into his arms, kissing him happily.

Holly held onto Jax as she rode with him to the pickup. It took a lot of convincing to get Clay to let her go. She had to promise to keep herself outside when they got the guns and to keep her mouth shut about anything she saw or heard. She was never gonna say anything anyway. She just wanted to tag along and help out anyway she could. Especially since she quit her job with Rosen. She wanted something better for herself. She just had to figure it out. She stayed in the main part of the surplus store, looking around while the guys got the guns, finding a couple things that she wanted to get, waiting for the guys to come out. She looked over when they did, holding up the stuff she found, making Cameron smile.

"I tell you, lad. That's an old lady you keep close to ya. So comfortable with this kinda thing that she goes with ya. I miss having that."

"Yeah. I lucked out with this one."

She blushed and smiled, handing over some cash, letting Jax see what she got. A set of dog tags, a flashlight and a bunch of batteries for it.

"What the hell do you need a flashlight for?"

"For the house in case the power goes out or something."

She blushed harder when the guys laughed at her, putting the bag in her purse, grabbing the gun roll from Jax, marching outside to get it hooked on. When they took off again, she held onto Jax, laying her head on his back, shielding her face from the wind. She was starting to really enjoy it, starting to tease Jax, when she heard someone cry out, looking back to see Tig crash and roll down a hill, getting off when Jax parked his bike, calling for an ambulance as the guys went to see to Tig.

Holly went over to Jax and Clay when Tig got checked in.

"I'm gonna stay and help out here. Help keep Tig from killing Bobby."

"You gonna be ok, darlin'?"

"I'll be fine. If anything happens, I've got the guys. Besides, it'd probably be better for Clay's heart if I let you guys go on without me. I wasn't supposed to be here anyway."

"Ok. But keep your cell on you. I love you."

"Always do. Love you too."

She kissed him softly before placing her hand on Clay's arm.

"Don't worry. Tig'll be ok. I promise."

"Thanks, Holly. For everything you do for us."

"You're family. It's the least I could do. Ride safe. All of you."

She kissed Jax one last time before going over to Happy, letting him wrap his arm around her shoulders, watching the guys ride off. She looked at Bobby with a soft sigh.

"You ok, Bob?"

"Yeah, sweets. Feeling guilty."

"Maybe it really is time to retire the fat boy?"

"That thing is my baby."

"I know. But how many times have you worked on it only to have it break down or backfire like that? I think it's time."

He just walked inside to go check on Tig. She followed with a soft sigh, wrapping an arm around Happy's waist as they walked inside. She went over to Tig, holding his hand as Bobby went to go see how long it would be before Tig would be seen.

"How you doing, Tiggy?"
"I'm doing ok, doll. My leg hurts a bit, but I'm ok. How about you? We haven't talked since you were in the hospital. I heard about the baby. I'm sorry."

"I'm doing a lot better. It still hurts a bit, but I'm doing ok with it. Jax has been a huge help. He was pretty upset about it too. I guess it helps to know I'm not alone."

"You're never alone, doll. You have all of us."

"Thanks, Tig. That means a lot to me."

Holly went outside with the guys to get Tig loaded in the ambulance, talking with Happy when a van pulled up to them, feeling Happy push her behind him as a bunch of guys climbed out to load Tig into it. All she could do was stand there helplessly as Bobby called Clay while Half-Sack trailed after the bounty hunters. She climbed on the back of Happy's bike, holding onto him as they rode off. When they joined up with Clay and them, she got off and went over to Jax, letting him hold onto her.

"You ok, darlin'?"
"I'm fine. I told you would be. I had Happy. Nothing could happen to me with Hap around."

She held his hand for a minute before going over to Opie, watching Clay and Jax argue about what to do. She knew this wasn't gonna end well. And she was right. She stood with the rest as Piney drove off with Jax, Chibs, Half-Sack and Happy to go get Tig, shaking her head. She looked over at Clay, who was none too happy about it.

Holly sat next to Chibs, drinking and laughing as she talked with everyone. It felt really great to let loose like this. It was fun. She looked over at Chibs when he said her name.

"Take a walk with me, lass?"

"Ok."

She kissed Jax softly before walking off with Chibs, stumbling a little. She'd had quite a bit to drink and it was just now hitting her. She had to hold onto Chibs for a bit of support. She'd been talking to him quite a bit over the past few days, and it had been a huge help.

"How are you doing, lass? Are you any closer to telling Jax?"

"We're sleeping together again. And I don't think about the guys during it anymore. Just Jax. But I don't know if I'll ever tell him. It's not even that he'd go after the people responsible anymore. I'm afraid if he found out….He wouldn't want me anymore. That he'd think I was damaged goods. I have been waiting for him for so long….. I don't wanna lose him."

"You won't lose Jackie. He wouldn't leave you because of this. If anything, he'd try to help you through this. You just have to let him in."

"Oh I've let him in, alright."

She giggled, trying to lighten the mood. He chuckled softly, making her smile.

"Truth be told, Chibs….I don't really want anyone else to know. I know it's a huge thing to keep to yourself, but I appreciate that you haven't told anyone. It was killing me to keep it to myself. But I'm glad that I told you. It helped me out so much. Thank you, Chibby."

Holly laid down with Jax, staring at the ceiling as he slept. She couldn't sleep, Chibs' words playing round and round in her head. Could she trust that he'd be right and Jax wouldn't leave her? Could it really be so simple as to tell him and things wouldn't be weird? She didn't know if she was ready to find out.