Holly looked at Jax when he told her what he was planning, a little shocked.
"Nomad? I know you're pissed at Clay, but are you sure this is the best idea? The enemies that the club has?"
"I need distance from Clay. He's not gonna let me have anything while we're fighting."
"I know, babe. But nomad? That's huge. You know I will support you no matter what you decide, and I will do whatever I need to do to adapt. But I need to know that you've thought this through."
He looked at her and nodded, lighting up a cigarette and taking a drag from it.
"I'm doing it. I had Happy call Quinn. I'm waiting hear back from him. I'm not expecting you to wait for me or follow me."
"You know I will, though."
"I don't want you to. I want you to take care of our son in your own home in your town."
"My home is wherever you are. This house is just a roof and walls. You've heard the saying 'Home is where the heart is'."
Holly walked into Chibs' room, smiling at him as she helped him get dressed, hugging him just as tightly as he was hugging her, giggling as he picked her up.
"Put me down, leathcheann. You'll pop your stitches."
"Let's get out of here."
She smiled and let Eddie in, grabbing Chibs' bag and followed the two out, shaking her head when they took off running. She went over to Jax, walking out with the guys. She climbed into the back of the van and sat down. She didn't feel like riding bitch on the way back. She talked with Eddie and Chibs as they drove. She looked at Chibs in confusion when he had Eddie make a detour. But when they stopped in front of Cameron's surplus store, she knew what was going to happen, going inside and trying to get Chibs to think about this. Not that he actually listened to her. She gasped when he shot at Edmond, letting Eddie push her behind him, watching as things escalated. But her fear went from 10 to 50 when she saw Jimmy O come out. She stayed quiet, looking down at the floor. She looked back when Jax came in, going over to Chibs to lead him outside.
Holly walked into the office at TM, sitting down next to the desk after shutting the door and looking at Gemma, taking a breath before telling her what Jax told her.
"As his old lady, I'm gonna support him. But you and I both know this isn't the best thing for him."
She watched Gemma pace around a bit, thinking before dropping a bomb.
"I know what to do to keep him from leaving. It's time to tell him."
"Tell him what?"
"About Zobelle."
She looked at Gemma in shock, letting out a humorless laugh.
"You've gotta be fucking kidding me…..Are you shitting me right now?"
"No, I'm not."
"So, if you were gonna end up telling them anyway, why the fuck did you make me go through all of that shit? Or do you really hate me that much?"
"It's not about you. And I never intended to tell them."
"So then you're a fucking psychopath. You're toying with so many lives, Gemma and you don't even care. You're acting as if you're the only one keeping this secret only to turn around and use this tragedy as goddamn bargaining chip. This didn't just happen to you, bitch, it happened to me too. It's my life you're toying with."
"This will keep Jax in Charming, it'll end this feud between Jax and Clay and it'll get them back on track with getting Zobelle out of Charming. It's a win-win."
"I DON'T FUCKING CARE! You're so arbitrary with this shit. I've been torturing myself trying to keep this secret and you're just….You know what? I'm done with it. And I'm done with you. As far as I'm concerned, you're crazy. And I'm not about to let some psycho around my son. I don't want to see you around the house anymore. And don't even think of going to Jax with this. He might be your son, but he's my old man. I have his crow and I hold his heart."
Holly walked into the living room with Abel, laying him down on the floor to change his diaper, letting him crawl around with Emika, keeping an eye on him as she got onto her laptop. She bit her lip as she typed up an email to Stahl, glancing over as Abel crawled over to her, picking her up and holding onto him.
"What do you think, buddy? Should mommy do this? Should she make this deal?"
She couldn't help but laugh a bit when he shook his head, kissing his cheek gently, deleting the email, sitting back with him to watch cartoons, laying him on her stomach, holding him close. They eventually fell asleep together, Emika sleeping in front of the couch. She woke up a couple to the sound of Emika barking at the ringing doorbell. She yawned as she put Abel in his bouncer, getting her to stop barking as she went to open the door, letting Stahl inside. She led her into the living room, letting her sit down.
"What do you want, Stahl?"
"I know what happened to you."
"What are you referring to? Cause a lot has happened to me since the last time you saw me. For instance, I had to bury my best friend. Which, by the way, spun Opie out. Pretty damn bad."
"I know. I didn't mean for that to happen."
"But it happened. And you can't take that back. No one can. Opie has no wife and those kids have no mom. Donna's gonna miss out on their first days of highschool, their first crushes, their first boyfriend and girlfriend. On everything. Because you just had to crush the MC. And there's nothing you can do to make it right, either."
Stahl just nodded, actually looking guilty.
"So what are you talking about when you say you know what happened?"
"Hale told me what happened to you and Gemma. With Weston."
Holly hung her head and let out an angry sigh before looking at Stahl.
"Don't talk about shit you know nothing about."
"He gave me the results of the DNA they pulled off the masks. They're a match to AJ Weston and two of his men."
Holly took the papers from Stahl, covering her mouth as she looked at them before looking up at her.
"You're not shitting me? This is real?"
"Yes it is. It's a 100% match. We'll be picking them up for the rape."
"No. I'm not gonna press charges. Too much time has passed and I never had a rape kit done. But thank you for this."
Holly sat in Unser's office, helping him pack his boxes.
"It's gonna be weird to be in a town where you're not chief. Almost like I'm in a different town."
"I'm gonna kinda miss it. But it'll be nice not to have to cover for your guys anymore."
She laughed softly and nodded, putting some more stuff in a box, checking in on Abel, who was sleeping in his carseat.
"Have you heard from Della?"
"Not since the divorce call."
"I'm so sorry, Wayne. If you ever need help with anything, promise me that you'll call me?"
"I will, sweetheart. It's nice to know I have you in my corner."
"Always, Wayne. You've been there for me through everything, and I never got to thank you for that."
"You don't have to thank me for that. No one should go through shit alone."
She smiled and nodded, getting up to hug him tightly. She looked over when Jax came into the room, tears dripping down his face, thinking he was upset about the vote.
"Are you officially nomad?"
"Why didn't you tell me, Holly?"
"Tell you what?"
"I just left mom's. She told me everything. Is that why you've been so hot and cold the last couple months?'
She sighed sadly, hanging her head, tears pricking her eyes, unable to look at him until he grabbed her hands. She looked at him as he kissed her hands, both of them sniffling. She didn't want to say anything until he did, not knowing what he was gonna do.
"Is that why you tried to kill yourself? Why we lost our baby?"
"I couldn't handle keeping that secret. It hurt so bad and I couldn't tell you why. I'm so sorry, Jax. Please don't hate me…."
"Holly Skye Pavlov. I don't hate you. And if you think I ever could, you should stop smoking."
She couldn't help but giggle a little, meeting his eyes.
"Now I know why you and mom have been at each other's throats lately."
"Don't bring up your mom. Just because she came clean doesn't mean I'm gonna forgive her. She only told you to keep you in the club and from going nomad. She's manipulating you and Clay. The rape actually happened, and while it's nice to not have that weight on me anymore, it doesn't erase the fact that she hurt me, Jackson. She continuously asked me to keep quiet, despite knowing what it was doing to me. She acted like she was the only one going through it. I'm glad that she came clean about it, but that doesn't erase what she put me through. I'm not gonna ask you to pick sides because that's not fair, but I don't wanna be around her anymore. Ever."