Holly walked into the clubhouse with the kids. She wanted to get out of the house for a while, feeling cooped up and trapped. She looked over when Jax came over, picking up Tommy and Abel.
"I got something for you, babe."
"What is it?"
"Follow me."
She smiled a bit and nodded as she followed him to the back room, letting Valentina lay down on the bed as Jax put the boys down before grabbing a ton of cash out of a bag, handing it to her.
"Holy shit, Jax."
"From the run. Put it in the safety deposit box."
"That's a lot of money, babe."
"Yeah, it is. The first of a lot more."
She couldn't help but smile at him, kissing him softly for a minute before pulling away.
"How long has it been?"
"How long has what been, darlin'?"
"How long has it been since you and I had some actual alone time? Dump the kids onto Ope and Lyla or your mom and Clay or Neeta for a couple days, head up to the cabin or Vegas and just hole up with no electronics?"
"Way too long."
"How about this weekend? Head up to Vegas, stay in a suite and don't leave the suite for a couple days. Leave club shit behind and have some dirty fun."
"You can go a couple days without the kids? Aren't you breastfeeding both Valentina and Tommy?"
"Yeah. But things have been so crazy lately that we need some time, baby. We'll lose ourselves if we don't make some time."
He looked at her, holding her close.
"We can do a family trip with the kids another weekend. Take them to Disneyland or something. But I want some time alone with you, babe."
"I do too. But we'll see if we can actually make some time to be alone with everything going on."
Holly sat in the living room, drinking alone. Jessica had taken the kids for the night. Jax and her were supposed to have a date night, spend some time alone, but he'd been called away. So she was sitting in the living room, watching some stupid horror movie that she cared nothing about, eating a plateful of a dinner that she'd spent hours making and drinking vodka from the bottle while wearing a lingerie set that she'd bought just for tonight that she knew Jax would've loved. And it was all going to waste. She got up, stumbling over to the door when she heard the doorbell, letting Opie inside, pushing the door a little harder than she meant to and looked back for a second when it slammed shut, going over to Opie.
"You ok, Holly? How long have you been drinking?"
"Uh…..What time is it?"
"9:38."
"4 hours. Jax and I were supposed to have date night but he had club shit to do. Or so he says."
"He wouldn't lie to you."
"I'm not so sure about anything anymore."
She looked at Opie, smiling drunkenly at him.
"How's it being married to a porn star?"
"It was fun at first."
"At least she gave up sicking duck for you."
She watched him smile at her, not knowing why he was smiling.
"You mean sucking dick?"
"I'm taken, Harry. And so are you. Dirty old man."
She hiccuped a bit, offering him the bottle, taking a huge drink when he shook his head, turning on some music, looking at him when a slow song came on. The song that had been playing when Opie took her virginity when they were 14. Your Song by Elton John. She gasped dramatically and looked at Opie.
"Dance with me? Please?"
"Not right now, Holly. I was hoping to talk to you about something."
"Dance with me and we can talk."
"Fine. But it can't go any farther than dancing."
"It won't. I don't cheat. I wouldn't do that to Jax."
She pulled Opie up, the pink lace just barely touching her skin after it settled, her pink heels glittering in the light from the TV as she swayed with Opie, resting her head against his chest.
"What'd you wanna talk about, Ope?"
"Lyla. Did you know she was on birth control?"
"No. But she did get an abortion before the guys went inside."
"How did you know?"
"Because I told her where to go."
"Why would do that, Holly?"
She looked up at Opie with a small drunken and sad smile.
"You know how Donna felt when it came to the club. Lyla's not ready to give up her life anymore than you're ready to give up the club. And it's unfair of you to ask that of her. It's how she's made a life for herself and Piper. It's what she knows. You can't just ask her to give it up."
She rested her head on his chest as she started swaying with him again.
"Besides, she's already given up some of it for you. That has to be enough for you."
"Things were easier with Donna."
"Because you were on the opposite end of it. Why don't you sit down and talk with her about this shit?"
Before Opie could answer, Holly pulled him in for a kiss, obviously not thinking. He tried to push her off of him, but she seemed determined. So he played along for a minute, picking her up and carrying her upstairs to her room, laying her down on the bed. When he went to stand up, she reached over to undo his jeans.
"Holly? What about Jax?"
"Jax and I haven't had sex since my 4th month. So much shit is up in the air with the club that he hasn't paid attention to me. I just want some relief."
"Then get some toys. I can't do that to Jax."
"But you just kissed me…."
"To get you up here. You need to get some sleep, Hol."
She looked at him pleadingly, getting up onto her knees, pushing her hand into his pants, wrapping her hand around him.
"Please, Opie? I need something…."
When they heard the door close from downstairs, he pulled away form him, doing up his jeans before looking at her.
"Problem solved. I'll see you tomorrow. Get some sleep, Holly.
Holly walked into the living room after getting ready, looking back when Jessica came in with the kids, smiling as Abel ran to her, kissing his cheek as she picked him up. She paid Jessica for the night before letting Abel and Tommy go play, placing Valentina in her bouncer, going to the kitchen to make some breakfast for her and Jax. She looked back when Jax came into the kitchen.
"Morning, baby."
"Morning. Opie said you and me needed to talk. Something happen last night?"
She looked at him in confusion. She didn't remember anything from last night after she started drinking.
"Not that I remember. But I was pretty plastered."
"Ope said you tried to sleep with him."
She looked at him, furrowing her brows as she shook her head.
"I wouldn't cheat on you, Jax. I would never hurt you like that."
"I know you wouldn't do it intentionally. But I know that things have been crazy lately. I just wanna make sure you know that I love you."
"I know that, baby. But I bought four bottles of vodka yesterday. By the time Opie had come over, I was two bottles in."
She handed him a cup of coffee.
"Let's go up to the cabin. The guys can live without me for the weekend."
"Are you sure, babe?"
"Yeah. I think we need it. Wouldn't you agree?"
She smiled and nodded, kissing him softly, wrapping her arms around his neck.
Holly laid on the pool table in the clubhouse, resting her head on the pillow from Jax's room while Happy worked on the tattoos Holly and Jax wanted her to get, finally getting his crow. Why she'd decided to do her whole back, she didn't know. But it was finally getting it done. She laid there in silence as Happy worked until she fell asleep. She'd been expecting some pain. She hadn't been expecting it to be so relaxing. By the time Happy was done with the three tattoos she wanted, it was just starting to get dark. She looked at the huge crow and tree covering her back, smiling happily.
"Thanks, Happy. This is perfect. And I love the dove. What do I owe you?"
"You don't owe me anything, little girl. I'm happy for you."
She looked at him with a knowing look.
"Give me an amount for the ink, Hap. I gotta give you something."
"You wanna give me something? Make me a thing of cookies. My ma really liked the last batch you made."
She smiled at him, raising an eyebrow.
"I wonder how she'd feel if she knew I didn't make the dough. How's she doing?"
"She's got her good days and bad days."
She nodded, looking over as Jax and the guys came in, covering up her boobs as Happy put a huge bandage over her tattoos to help protect them before helping her put her shirt on after Jax saw his crow on her. Which made him smile happily as he kissed her.