Jax pulled up to the park with Chibs and Opie to meet with Pope. He'd called Pope to see if he could get the whereabouts of the two remaining members that hurt Holly, clapping Laroy's hand before shaking Pope's.

"How's Holly?"

"She was asleep when I left. Were you able to find the info I asked for?"

"Yes, I was."

Jax took the paper Pope handed him, looking at the address that was written down before looking at him.

"Thanks, man."

"You're welcome. I hope she pulls through this."

"I do too. To be honest, I don't know how much more she can handle before she breaks completely."

"If either one of you need anything, don't hesitate to call. Let Holly know that too."

He nodded, clapping Pope's shoulder before leaving, putting the paper in his pocket before calling Bobby to ask him to meet him, Chibs and Ope at the address before driving off. The other guys were already there by the time the three of them got there. He climbed off his bike and looked over at Bobby.

"What are we looking at?"

"There's three of them hiding out. They've got kids in there, Jax."

"Let's see if we can get the kids out first."

Jax rushed into Holly's room, watching a bunch of nurses and a couple doctors come in to save Holly, who'd started coding. He felt himself being pulled out of the room by Opie and Happy after one of the nurses told Jax he had to leave the room while they worked on her. When he heard the flatline, his knees buckled and Opie had to hold him up. It felt like his heart had stopped until he heard the machine start beeping again, letting out a strangled cry.

"Come on, brother. She'll pull through and you can be with her then. For right now, why don't you go call Lyla? She's got the kids at Diosa with Nero."

"I can't let her die, Ope. It'll kill me."

"She's not going to. She loves you and those kids way too much, bro. She'll be fine. It's just a bump in the road."

Jax went to the bathroom to empty his stomach, rinsing his mouth out before going out, running into Tara.

"Holly's being put into a medically induced coma. There was some swelling in her brain that wasn't caught because we didn't think to do an MRI on her. I asked to be put on her case so I could keep you updated. She'll be kept under until the swelling goes down. As for the rape, we have her on antibiotics to help prevent STDs and the like. We'll keep her on IV to keep giving her fluids and the nutrients she won't be getting while she's under. But there's something else you should know. She's pregnant. From the gestation, 14 weeks, I'm going to assume that the baby's yours. We'll keep a close eye on both of them. She'll be fine, Jax."

"She's pregnant….."

"It'll be a few more minutes before you can go into her room. They're changing her IV bags and clearing out the equipment. Why don't you go get some coffee and settle in?"

Jax sat in Holly's room, sniffling softly as he rubbed the back of Holly's hand with his thumb, watching her.

"Fuck, Holly. I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt you like this or let you get hurt this way. I know you wouldn't blame me, but I blame myself. If I had known what us being together would lead to I wouldn't have let us be together. I would've saved you from this shit. I'd have rather go from eater to eater for the rest of my life if it meant I didn't have to watch you like this again. I'd kill to have you wake up and look at me. Please come back to me, Holly. I can't survive this shit without you. You make my life worth something. And the kids need you."

"She'll be fine, baby."

He looked back to see his mom and Nero come into the room, getting up to hug his mom, needing the support right then, crying into her shoulder.

"I know I'm not supposed to be around her, but you need to know that you're not alone with this."

"What am I gonna do, mom? It'd kill me if she dies. I love the kids, but I don't know them like she does. And with this baby….."

"She's not gonna die. She loves you and those babies too much to just leave you. No matter what she's been through, with you, with the club, with me….She's not about to just jump ship and leave you high and dry. She loves you too damn much."

"But think of everything that she's been through. If she were to go, it would be understandable."
"Then you might as well kill her yourself. But you have to explain it to those babies."

Jax looked at her and rubbed his hands over his face before looking back at Holly.

"I should've left with her. After we got back from Stockton. I should've taken her and Abel and gone Nomad. None of this would've happened."

"You're right. Something worse would've happened. We have too many enemies for any of you to think going Nomad would be safer. She could've been dead by now."

"No she wouldn't have. I'd been able to save her from this shit. I know it."

"You don't know that, mano. I'm all about positivity, but there's a lot about this shit we don't know. And may never know. But we can't give up hope."

Jax held onto Thomas, getting him down for bed before going over to Abel.

"Daddy?"

"What's up, buddy?"
"When's mommy coming home?"

"Hopefully soon."

"Where did she go? Uncle Opie said she was sick."

"She is, buddy. She can't get better at home so she's in the hospital where she can get better. She's trying very hard to get better so she can come home to us."

"I wanna make her a get well card."

"You can make it tomorrow. It's time for bed, buddy."

"Will you read me a story, daddy?"

"Ok. Go pick out a book."

Jax pulled into the clubhouse, sighing deeply as he turned off his bike. It had been a couple of weeks since they put Holly under and he was trying to keep up hope. But he was failing. On all fronts. If he wasn't dealing with the Irish, which wasn't going well, he was at the clubhouse, trying to focus his mind on how to keep the club afloat, or at the house with the kids. He'd forgotten that Tommy was allergic to cinnamon and that Valentina refused to go to bed without Holly singing her a song she'd deemed her and Val's song. Abel was a little easier, but not by much. Abel had taken after Jax and Holly in the sense that he loved his family and protected them to the best of his ability. But he seemed to be old enough to know that something was really wrong with Holly and it was affecting him too. So there were multiple nights where Abel would sleep in bed with Jax. Jax didn't know how to function right without Holly. It wasn't even just that she meant so much to him or that he felt responsible for her getting raped….again….but that he hadn't realized how much she did for him and the kids and the club. He shook his head in an attempt to clear it as he walked inside the clubhouse, looking over at Bobby.

"You look horrible, brother. When's the last time you slept?"

"It's been a few days. You hear from Gaalen?"

"No. But I heard from Tara. Holly woke up a couple hours ago. She and the baby are doing fine. The swelling in her brain went down."

"Why the hell didn't anyone call me?"

"They were running tests. When Tara called, I said I wanted to give you the news myself. The guys are all there. Let's take a drive, brother."

Holly was in the middle of eating when Jax came in. She smiled at him as he slowly walked over to her, tearing up a bit as he reached her, moving her tray over so he could sit down and pull her in for a hug, kissing him softly and passionately.

"You're awake. I'm so happy to see you awake again. I've been going fucking crazy without you."
"I'm not going anywhere, baby. I promise."

She looked at him when he pulled away, wiping his eyes a bit before cupping his face gently.

"I would never leave you or the kids. You mean too much to me and we still have to get married."

Holly walked into the clubhouse with Jax, smiling when everyone cheered for her, tearing up happily when she saw all her friends and family, hugging and kissing everyone as she walked through the main area. She sat down at the bar as Jax went to put her bags in the back room and bring the kids out. She took a drink of the juice Chucky had gotten her, looking at Opie when he sat down next to her.

"It's good to have you home, Hol. We were worried about you."

"It's good to be home. I missed you all."

"How are you feeling?"

She took another drink and looked at him.

"You'd think I'd want to leave. Take the kids and run. But I'm just so thankful to be alive. I didn't think I was gonna make it."

"We're all glad you did."

"If I know Jax, he cut those guys' hearts out."

"Yes and no."

She took notice of the smirk on Opie's face and couldn't help but smile back.

"What did he do?"

"I almost don't wanna say because it's so perfect."

"Ok, now I need to know."

She giggled softly when he started laughing.

"Opie?"

"He got them put in prison. And had them gang-raped."

She looked at him in shock. Jax had to have been angrier than she thought he would be. Normally he'd just kill someone and be done with it. If she were anyone else, she'd been freaked out and left. But she found herself being beyond flattered. She looked over when she heard Abel calling her, getting off the stool and onto her knees as all three of her kids ran into her arms. She held onto all three of them closely, standing up with them in her arms. She looked at Jax with happy tears dripping down her face.

"I'm home. Right where I belong."