Author's note: OH wow!! Threats really work!! Kidding. But that was amazing everyone. Soooo many reviews. Thank you so very much.
For those of you that pointed out that Alice's hair was cut in the mental institute, I'm sorry. I honestly didn't know that before. I wanted to stick to the book so closely and now I've gone and messed that up! I can't change it now though, so could you please just pretend for the sake of the story? Thankyou.
So I know this chapter title got you going. I hope you enjoy this bit. I had fun writing it.
Cullenfan, don't you worry. I wouldn't do that to you . Now read on!!
Chapter 20
Sleep With Me
"Okay, I'm tired of waiting. Can't we just say that we're going hunting?" I asked a bit petulantly. It was week since I'd decided to follow Emmett. Edward said that Alice was clueless for now.
"Well, I suppose so then, if you really cannot wait." Edward answered with a sigh.
"Maybe we could say that I'm working on a surprise for Rose and I need Jasper's help… so we have to leave for a little while," suggested Emmett brightly.
"No, no. We can't give her reason to look for your future, Emmett," I reminded him, deflating his idea.
"I have it," announced Edward. "So Emmett and Jasper plan a hunting trip," he said as if reading a narrative, "And invite everyone, but we will all find excuses. Alice, of course, will want to go with Jasper but maybe I can get her to stay if we do something she really wants to do."
"What's that?" we asked
He was hesitant. The idea made him nervous…protective, "She wants to learn to drive." There was a pause. Everyone was deep in thought.
"That might work," Rosalie chimed. She had been quiet all the while. She laughed, "I hope she crashes your car, Edward." He grimaced.
"Okay so we will do this today?" I asked.
And Alice walked in. "Hey," she greeted us. Everyone was suddenly very interested in what they were doing. Edward looked up from his book, Rosalie and Emmett stopped playing scrabble and I was just sitting wearing a worried expression.
"Oh, hi Alice," sang Rosalie.
"Jasper," Emmett began, with a wide grin on his face. "Remember I told you about hunting in Houma?"
"Yes," I replied, struggling to look composed.
"I say, we go there this weekend and do some real hunting…bears, mountain lions, everything. Who's with me?" he asked, doing a good impression of being excited- or maybe he was excited.
"Sounds good," I said, trying to reflect his mood.
"I'm spending some quality time with my car this weekend," she said pointedly, "Emmett damaged the chassis last time he 'flew' over the speed bumps." She finished confidently.
"What about you Alice?" asked Emmett. Everyone in the room hid their nervousness.
"Of Course!..." she exclaimed but then stopped short, staring into space for the briefest of moments. The tension in the room made the air thick.
Alice squealed. "Oh Edward, yay! He's taking me driving!" she proclaimed to the rest of us. But then she was torn. Her excitement warred with her longing- for me. She looked at me with remorseful eyes.
"It's fine Alice," I assured her.
"You sure? He could take me driving another day you know," she suggested, moving toward me.
"No, no," I answered a little too quickly, "I can feel how excited you are about this. You should definitely do that this weekend," I amended, "But I do need to hunt," I was suddenly grateful for this excuse, "I might as well go see this place that Emmett has been going on about." And I added a little wary glance in his direction just to make it look real.
"Yes, yes," she said.
"Okay then, I guess it's just me an you, bro," Emmett smiled proudly. "We will go south first to Gulfport and then swim around the peninsula-it's faster. We can hunt along the coast; the deltas are crawling with animals." He finished.
That was a smart move by Emmett; explaining the swimming. We really did have to swim to get to San Fernando, Mexico. It was the fastest route.
Relief coursed through everyone in the room but not as profoundly as it did in me.
"Want to play chess, Alice?" asked Edward. She had been getting better these past few weeks.
"No, I'm going to sleep," she answered simply. Four pairs of eyes questioned her sanity.
"You are going to sleep?" Rosalie asked slowly.
"Well, I'm going to try, anyway. Close my eyes and dream- how hard can that be?" she shrugged.
"Sleep with me Jasper?" it was more a statement than a question. She already knew I'd do anything for her but-ay- she could kill me with words. I don't think she realized the implications of what she had said because she was completely confused when Emmett snickered in the corner. Edward laughed silently too but I think that was due to my thoughts. I sighed.
"Good luck with that," said Rosalie patronizingly.
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We lay on the bed together. Her eyes were closed. She breathed slowly, trying to calm herself. With every rise and fall of her chest, there grew a need inside me; a need to touch her, to hold her close.
"Can you help me?" she asked and I knew what she meant.
My hand slid across the sheet and enclosed hers. I let a strong draught of lethargy wash over us. I watched her lips turn up at the edges. There was no way we could sleep, of course, but this was the closest thing. She stayed quiet for a long time.
Inside, she was happy, blissfully happy. "What are you dreaming about?" I asked. She smiled wider.
"It's a secret," she giggled.
I sat up and watched her. She opened her eyes-her eyes- they were tawny-brown. So much could I see in those eyes. That colour reminded me of her kindness, her…humanity. Her face was tilted to the side so that her cheek lay in her left palm.
In my very best Romeo impression, I whispered, "See how she leans her cheek upon her hand, O that I were a glove upon that hand, that I might touch that cheek."
She smiled and raised her hand to stroke my face. Unthinkingly, I leaned in toward her; my body hovered weightlessly above hers. My face was but a few inches from hers when the fire suddenly blazed. When our lips met, they fused. She clung to me like there was no tomorrow…and I liked it.
Her chest heaved and her breathing was erratic when we parted. My lips, though, never left her skin. Moving slowly, I explored the skin of her neck and the curve of her shoulders. Inside, we burned. My hands traced down from her sides, stopping at her waist but then something changed. If I had not been blinded by the fiery passion inside me, I might have expected this.
"Jasper," she said breathlessly, her small hands clutching the skin of my back.
"Can't …not…yet," she murmured ever so alluringly. My lips caressed her bare shoulder. But, as I began to find the meaning of her words, I slowed, pulling away to look at her face. Her eyes were closed and she… wanted me…I could feel that. But there was also inhibition.
"What is wrong, Alice?" I asked, straining to wet the flames within. It felt as though she had built a wall around her desire. I could feel her fervor, her want, but why was she trying to block it? Was I misunderstanding her feelings? No, this was lust; the same thing I felt.
"What is wrong? Are you okay?" I repeated.
"I'm not ready yet Jasper," she opened her eyes and there was rue. "I'm sorry," she said and her apology seeped into me. "Not yet," she whispered.
I removed myself from above her and lay down. "Alice, I thought you wanted me to…" She laughed.
"Of course I wanted you, silly Jasper. I always want you, but I want to wait a little longer." I pretended to understand. Had I not been able to feel what she felt, that rebuff would have stung. Though I did not know exactly what we were waiting on, I could respect her wishes. I wanted to calm us both but I couldn't. My insides still smouldered.
Author's note: So I know that you are all disappointed. Yes you wanted action. Don't deny it. So I wanted action too but hopefully you understand Alice's logic. If u don't ( jasper doesn't understand either) It will be explained in coming chapters. No, its not that she doesn't trust him. She trusts him implicitly. Think about it. Tell me you theories.
People, I need help. I am not good at writing these heated scenes. It is especially difficult to write since I don't know how to describe physical gratification in a male perspective…that is…I don't know how to describe it as a girl either but I can imagine for that. Jasper's perspective however, I don't know what would be going through his head during the height of passion. I doubt it would be the same as what a girl thinks. Come on ppl. How do I describe a kiss in his point of view?
If anyone can recommend a fanfic where there are really good kisses and even better if it is from male pov. That's great. Also, for those of you who requested a lemon..hmm. how do I say this. See, I find that graphic descriptions of that sort tend to ruin a character. BUT I am willing to try something mild. If someone can recommend a tastefully described sex scene, I would appreciate that. Please no literary porn. I have young readers too and I can't ignore that.
If I must post something that is rated M, I will post it as a separate story. Please don't get your hopes high for that though cuz I might feel weird writing it.
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