A/N: Thank you for all of your reviews and questions – I really do appreciate them, they are the fuel that keeps this ride going. Sorry for the delay in posting this chapter – I took a little vacation – well that is if you can call having your gallbladder removed and being forced to relax a vacation. Nevertheless I posted two chapters that week, so hopefully it wasn't too too bad.

I won't be revealing Elena's fate for some time, and I made an effort to answer your questions w/o revealing much of anything about what's to come, partly because I just haven't decided what to do with her just yet. Dispensing with Elena is a lot of fun so I want to be creative – though I've outlined the story – that specific detail is still being developed.

Guest G – You're so analytical and I love it! I can answer a couple of your questions w/o giving anything away. 1) Elena is not Lillian's stepmother – but the wicked stepmom will make an appearance – I love closure and karma so don't be dismayed ;) 2) Jaiden is in fact Ray's daughter Ray took her to an independent lab, neither Hyden nor Debra knew about it until after he received the results. Also, until his visit with Debra Ray didn't think that Hyden knew anything about Jaiden.

Guest JB – thank you for the encouragement and reviews always ;) – as far as security, Elena had been surveilled but after her visit to GEH it was dropped. Ana's security was increased with heighted emphasis on Elena, thus the meeting with Sawyer. Elena is all by her lonesome…well not now ;).

Chapter 11 – Love Ta Love Ya Baby

APOV

I love waking up next to Christian, what a beautiful sight to behold – my body stirs at the thought of him lying naked under these covers, I lift them slightly to view his form without disturbing him. Yummie.

I don't know what has come over me, but I cannot get enough of Christian, after all of these years, I get the hype, sex is wonderful or at least it's wonderful with Christian – and completely distracting. I slip under the covers and position myself straddling but not touching his leg, in a moment of boldness I bend down and suck him into my mouth. I suck him gently and in no time at all he starts to grow in my mouth and I have to adjust my plan of action – Christian Grey is no mere morsel. I lick him up and down the stiff crease at the front of his shaft while massaging him in a circular motion at the base of his penis with one hand while lightly massaging his balls with the other. I stroke him higher with my hand and concentrate my lips and tongue on the head of his penis, oooh I like the feel of this, it's not what I expected, he's so smooth and his penis tastes like every other part of him…good – I don't know why I thought he would taste different…there.

I hear Christian's breathing change right around the time I started sucking on his head so I know he's fully awake as he's at full salute and has started to move his hips, I really like this, he's set a sensuous but somewhat timid pace – this is sexy as hell. He begins thrusting slightly causing him to go deeper into my mouth but not too deep just yet, it's like he's teasing me with the sensation of his penis sliding against my tongue and testing how far I'm willing to go all at once. With his encouragement I really go to work stroking him faster, tightening my grip and sucking harder, angling him so he goes deeper while my tongue still concentrates on that crease, and he starts to moan. At some point I'd lowered myself onto his thigh for better traction, allowing me to concentrate on pleasuring him rather than keeping my balance. My body builds in reaction to his moans and thrusts and I'm now soaking wet and grinding on his thigh which he starts to slowly move from side to side rubbing my clit, driving me crazy. I suck him all the way in until I feel him at my throat and swallow…hard.

"Fuck, Ana!" He pants and I keep up the same intensity – and he begins to move that thigh up and down and from side to side stimulating me…turning me on, I suck him hard and he yells out again. We can't see each other because I'm still under the covers and I don't know why but it makes me feel even more bold. I stick my tongue all the way out as if his penis is a tongue depressor, take him all the way to my throat and wag my tongue over his balls – I saw this in some porn I watched on spectacular blow jobs – and I must say I'm impressing myself right about now.

"Oh. Shit. Ana. How are you doing that? FUCK!...Ana…Ana…I'm gonna come in your mouth if you don't stop."

Yes! I suck him and stroke him faster at the base of his penis eventually releasing my hand and taking him to the back of my throat with every few strokes, until I feel him filling my throat – as he screams my name – I'm covered in goosebumps. I swallow, and while it wasn't awful, it wasn't exactly the tasty treat of his pre-cum either. Christian yelling my name through his release made me feel empowered – giving him pleasure was my greatest desire, I am amazed by my ability to make him feel this way. Once I was done sucking him dry, I guess just enough time for him to regroup, Christian snatches the sheet off of us and the next thing I know I'm on my back with Christian's face between my legs licking me like I'm what's for breakfast. I swear I'm checking his mouth for a battery when this is over.

I'm already so turned on by my body's reaction to my going down on him and his stimulating me with his thigh that in no time flat I've exploded on his tongue and before I can blink, Christian is inside me and we're going at it like the dirtiest of missionaries. My legs are hooked in the crease of his elbows and I'm loving every inch of him – we've been going at it for a while and when I feel a building - this time I feel Christian expanding, oh sweet lord this feels incredible. I feel like my entire body is one large blush as he never stops talking dirty to me while relentlessly stroking his magnificent penis in and out of me. Fuuuuck.

"Christian, I'm about to come."

"Aaah, FUCK Ana – your pussy is so good, come with me baby."

I explode screaming like a banshee. I think my heart is going to leap out of my chest, I can hardly contain myself.

"Good morning baby." Christian smirks at me, both of us still panting.

"Good morning."

"Ana, that was incredible – have you ever…"

"You are my first everything Christian." I answer cutting him off.

"Oh thank god. That was incredible baby."

"Really? Well send a thank you note to XVideos dot com."

Christian starts to laugh his ass off at the thought of my watching porn for blow job instruction – it wasn't just one video after all it was a combo of several techniques in several videos, I did extensive research.

"Hey, don't laugh, the internet is a wonderful tool."

"Trust me baby, there's nothing funny about what we just shared, you are amazing to me – that was fucking fantastic, I can't believe…"

Christian's cell ringing

"What the fuck? Who the fuck?...It's my mother."

"Mom what's wrong? It's five thirty in the morning, are you and Dad okay?"

"What?!"

"Grab your robe baby."

In ten seconds flat we're in the media room in front of the TV.

News reporter: …the expansive manse in the bedroom community of Bellevue was built in the late 1960s the fire we're being told has been extinguished, but judging by the aerial view that was shown earlier the house appears to be completely destroyed. According to fire department officials the search of the property will begin once it's deemed safe for firefighters and examiners to do so. According to neighbors the home is owned by Elena Lincoln proprietor of Elena's Salons with locations in Seattle and Georgetown, no word yet on whether Ms. Lincoln or anyone else for that matter was inside. We'll bring you updates as they become available. – Allison Seymour reporting, news channel eight.

CPOV

This is interesting timing to say the least – just before we turned in for the evening Welch confirmed that his contacts within the FBI and Seattle PD had been contacted and that the anonymous packages of video tapes and photographs were delivered. We are unsure if the boys in the videos are underage, but this will truly look like an act of avoidance on Elena's part to police officials – I highly doubt she's in the rubble. I wonder if she had someone on the inside who could have tipped her off. My guess is she's just trying to evade capture, they were also given proof of her offshore accounts and embezzlement, yeah I thought about letting her keep it as an incentive to stay away, but then I thought – fuck her, I owe her nothing – most importantly she's exponentially less dangerous without resources. Elena had every reason to run, and even more reason to try and convince law enforcement that she had met some tragic end so they don't pursue her.

"Yes mom we see it…well she left my office yesterday and that was my last contact with her – she seemed pretty defeated to me, but I doubt Elena would do herself in, my guess is she's in the wind." I explain everything that my plan entailed – and my mother is quite impressed, but still a bit concerned about Ana's and my safety. "Don't worry mom, I won't let anything happen to Ana, and I know you won't let anything happen to me." I hear my mother sigh on the other end, she needs to know that I trust her with my life and that I don't blame her for anything that Elena did to me, she and my dad have carried that unnecessary burden for far too long.

She tells me all about her conversation over lunch with Elliot and how impressed she is that he's committed to building something real and lasting with Kate. So am I actually. She prattles on about both her boys being happy and in love and what a good guy Mia has found in Aaron, this in turn makes me very happy – I know that my mom wants nothing but the best for us, I'm worth billions but until Ana I've never seen her bubble over with excitement before as it relates to my life and accomplishments confirming what I always suspected, she worried that I would be damaged and unable to have a quote unquote normal relationship or family of my own. I know my mom wants me to open up and talk about my relationship with Ana, it's going to take some time because I'm not completely comfortable with doing so…but I'm getting there.

APOV

This whole situation with Elena is so incredibly bizarre – I feel aware, almost painfully so that she's likely a deeper threat now that she's on the lam. After the first wave of news reports about what turned out to be a small explosion that became the inferno that destroyed Elena's home, it was reported she was wanted for questioning based on anonymous tips received by at least two law enforcement agencies working in concert – to answer questions related to her involvement in child sex abuse, human trafficking and the production of child pornography, this woman is seriously disturbed. Apparently they were preparing affidavits for an arrest warrant when the fire occurred.

Knowing what went on in that house I can't help but feel a sense of relief that it no longer stands as a monument to Christian's abuse – I never felt as if they would find Elena's body in the rubble – I know she's out there somewhere and I worry she might want to come after Christian to exact revenge, and he feels if anything she would target those he cares for as the way to hurt him most – I don't bother to argue about extra security when I travel away from Escala, I know it's in my best interest and I would never want to give Christian yet another reason to worry – I would never let her win in that way.

Even though a number of weeks have passed since Hyden has made contact, I have no doubt he's also a threat, it's sometimes a bit weighty for me to wrap my mind around the fact that people want to hurt Christian and I for daring to love each other.

###

My work day ran smoothly as I was very busy – I had a couple of meetings and Kate and I received an invitation to take part in a panel at the Women's Entrepreneur Luncheon next month – we will be part of an esteemed panel that includes influential women in business in the Seattle area, no doubt our connection with Christian and therefore GEH has had an impact on our elevated professional status. I must admit I had a bit of trepidation because I would rather have built these relationships on our laurels rather than through my association with Christian, but he quickly pointed out to me that we have no concrete knowledge that that is the case and even if it is, the opportunity afforded to us to be among the movers and shakers is not one we should discount regardless of the vehicle.

I spent a huge chunk of my day working to find a new PR department head for GEH as the current department head Glenda Britt is leaving GEH after she has her baby which is due in three months, she outlined strong parameters for the selection and will actually take part in panel interviews that we will conduct onsite at GEH. Based on the extensive questionnaire I prepared for the position I was able to select a number of excellent candidates and we're ready to begin the interview process. Finding the right candidates is always a labor of love for me but in this case it means so much to ensure that Christian is surrounded by only the best, which is what he deserves for all of his hard work.

What a Wednesday!

RPOV

"Listen Carla, I know that things are not quite as they should be with Annie, but she did speak to me and I had the chance to apologize, I hope she'll forgive me one day soon, and I'm hopeful that she will."

"Well that's the understatement of the century isn't it Ray? Since when does money and business come before your family Ray?"

"It never has Carla, I promise you…"

"Ray, RJ has a game at six today, are you planning to come? It's been a very long time since you've been to one of his games."

"Yes, I'll be there – I do need to head to Seattle early next week, I need to tie up loose ends with Hyden, this partnership is never going to work, but I will be here for the rest of the week."

"Hmph."

I want to take her in my arms, hold her and renew promises to my beautiful wife, I don't deserve her – I have foolishly ruined everything because I wanted more, more material things for my family, when all they ever wanted or needed was me. My involvement with Hyden Jackson has turned out to be the worst decision of my personal and professional life. I can make this right. I have no choice.

###

"Hello, Anastasia."

"Ray." She says sounding completely dispassionate.

"I'm going to be in Seattle next week and I was wondering if I could take you and Christian to lunch or dinner if that works."

I hear an audible gasp on the other end of the phone.

"I…I'm not sure about Christian's schedule, what day did you have in mind?"

"How about Tuesday? You two should pick a nice place, that's close to where you both work or where you live and let me know."

"Oh. Okay, I will speak with Christian and let you know."

"Great! Text me with the details."

The apprehension in my baby girl's voice bespeaks the level to which I've hurt her – I've ruined everything, but I can fix it. I have to fix this. I know that I've misjudged Grey, he did everything in his power to protect her and in spite of how I behaved he was still seeking my approval – Hyden is not the man for my daughter and he never was.

He won't be a threat to either Annie or Christian again – I'll make sure he knows that he has to abandon this ridiculous notion of my hurting Christian Grey or suffer the consequences, once I handle that I am going to have no other choice than to come clean with Carla about what happened with Debra – I can beg her forgiveness and figure out what to do about Jaiden – she needs to be in a better living situation, she's my daughter and I need to do right by her. While I'm in Seattle I will get my lawyers on it, I want to have a firm plan of action before I talk to Carla.

###

"What the fuck do you want?"

"Hyden, I will be in town next week, Grey has agreed to meet with me – like taking candy from a baby."

"So what the fuck are you saying Ray? I hope you're not wasting my time you piece of shit."

I really have no idea what I ever saw in this overly emotional man child – he's completely unhinged.

"I don't give a fuck what happens to Grey – I want that slut bitch in my bed by the end of next week."

"What are you talking about – that's not what we discussed, besides, did you not say you didn't want Grey's sloppy seconds?"

"Don't you worry about what I have planned for your cunt of a daughter, you just take care of Grey motherfucker!" And with that he hangs up.

This bastard is completely out of control, and I'm worried for my daughter. I know what I have to do.

"Grey."

"Grey, it's Ray Steele…we need to talk."

KPOV

Elliot and I spend practically every night together and to his credit I don't sense a lot of tension from our being intimate but not sexual, even though it hangs in the air big time. Last night after he taught me how to make a simple stir fry dish he read to me from the Times as we cuddled on the sofa. Later in bed he held me and talked to me about our weekend plans – I've never been so happy to just be with someone in my life. With Elliot there's no such thing as an uncomfortable silence, we don't run out of things to say – we just understand when we need silence between us. Elliot shows me such genuine affection and attention I have to wonder how I ever allowed myself to be treated any differently.

We still go out to dinner, but Elliot does most of the cooking during the week – he's amazing actually. Yesterday after work he showed up with groceries and energy efficient lightbulbs to switch out our less eco-friendly ones – he's the most thoughtful guy I've ever known, besides my brother. Ethan, who has never liked any guy I've dated enjoys spending time with Elliot and has invited him to play softball in a city league that plays in the park – this has never happened. Of course my dad seemed pleased but only because of the Grey name, he spoke to him about his business extensively when we went to dinner with my parents a week or so ago but failed to ask one personal question about Elliot himself, doesn't surprise me a bit, it's his loss though, he missed out on getting to know a truly wonderful man. I can fully understand why women were so drawn to him, he's very alluring and smart, not to mention sexy as hell.

"Oh my god El, that salmon was perfect. You could give Ana a run for her money in the kitchen."

"Maybe we'll do a cook off some time and speaking of my brother's lady love, I want to hook up with them and do something soon, I haven't seen him in a while, I miss him."

"Well, of course I see Ana every day, but I miss her too – I can't believe we're living apart, it's so weird – but in a good way…for both of us." This elicits a panty dropping smile from my guy. Shit he's gorgeous.

"So why don't we try for a lunch or dinner this weekend if they don't have anything pressing?"

"That works for me, I'll talk to her tomorrow at work."

###

I step out of the shower and don my terry wrap. As I step into my bedroom to see Elliot sitting on the bed looking contemplative.

"What's up?"

He doesn't say a word to me, he just stands, walks to me, unbuttons and drops my wrap to the floor, not taking his eyes off of mine. He's wearing his customary boxers, or he was until he dropped them along with my wrap.

"Elliot…I."

"I want you Kate – but I want you to know this isn't about wanting pussy, it's about wanting you, I love you." His declaration knocks the wind out of me. I start to tear up.

"I'm afraid."

"Of?"

"You, Elliot…this" I motion between the two of us "no one has ever mattered more to me. I love you too, I've never said that…never felt that before."

"Me either babe."

"Last week when I told you I couldn't meet you for lunch..." My heart begins to race, what on earth is he going to say – is there someone else, did he not think I was worth the wait? Please don't hurt me Elliot.

"I went to the doctor for my physical and had a complete blood work up done, including a VD screening. I have never had sex without a condom, even when told a woman was on the pill, which I know you are – so I wasn't worried about that – but I wanted you to have peace of mind. It only took a few hours for the results and I'm one hundred percent clean, but I have condoms if you feel uncomfortable."

"Elliot…I…" He cuts me off by kissing me and holding me close to him – his body feels so good next to me. "Don't over think it Katie." He deepens the kiss.

Elliot laid me down on the bed never breaking our kiss. Until now he had just followed my lead when it came to our physical contact and I've been affectionate but cautious, and while I feel nervous in this moment – I know that I want Elliot and that I love him.

Before I know it he's trailed kisses down to my core, pausing to suckle my breasts, before setting his tongue and lips to work, it feels like Elliot has been holding everything in for this moment. His mouth feels incredible on me and I fall into a mind blowing orgasm – my thoughts were full of not only what was going on physically, but also the fact that it was Elliot intensified every stroke of his tongue and the suctioning of his lips – this is what it feels like when a man loves you.

"Are you sure Katie?" I can only nod yes, I'm speechless at this point – I'm so full of longing and want I can hardly breathe let alone speak. When I feel him slide through my folds I gasp at the full feeling and his size.

"You okay honey?"

"Yes."

Elliot never takes his eyes off of mine, he's lying on me so that we're face to face and there's no space between us, and in spite of that he doesn't feel heavy at all. He's kissing me and making the slowest most tender, most intimate love to me.

"You feel so good Katie, I love you baby." He whispers while his hips continue with the delicious pace he's set that's not fast – it feels like his dick is singing my g-spot a song – it feels sooo good…so good. His kisses are deep and intimate with his tongue mimicking his penis' movement – it is so erotic, I'm enthralled by this man, suddenly there's a building inside that feels as if it's anticipating his movements, like our bodies are in concert.

"Elliot! Oh my god…I…I…" I'm screaming his name – when I feel him shift so that he's on his holding himself off of me and quickening his pace.

"Look at me Katie…Oh shit I'm coming baby."

"That was incredible."

"Yeah." I breathe. Wow.

Music playing in the background

DPOV

"Deb, I'm so fucked up right now."

"I know right!? Good shit, thank my baby daddy – my check came yesterday and my first stop was Colin." I give Tina a high five.

"Where is the kid tonight?"

"She's a big girl, hell she'll be ten soon – she knows how to make her dinner and put herself to bed, she has to be at school tomorrow. I don't have to baby her anymore, I mean hell if I want to party or go away for the weekend should I miss out just because I have a kid? I didn't even bring my keys, she's mature and plenty responsible."

"I guess not, like you said, it's not like she's a baby. Anyway those two guys we met at the bar were kinda cute, I think they want to party with us."

"Not my type, they look broke – or they just have regular jobs, low six figures at the most."

"Deb you're so picky, it's just drinks – hell we're not trying to marry them, just have some fun, we're out on a Wednesday night, might as well make the best of it. There's only so many millionaires to go around."

"I'm slot mine when in den many rump…" I have no control over my speech, I'm trying to communicate but my mouth and brain aren't cooperating, and Tina is laughing her ass off. This isn't funny.

"What the fuck are you saying Deb!? You're fucked up bitch, I told you, you can't toot H like it's coke! You okay girl?"

Obviously not, and though I can't respond to her and I'm now on the nasty floor of this bathroom stall, she tries to shake me a few times – then runs for help as I feel myself throwing up in my mouth, I try to move and to yell but nothing comes out, I'm shaking and I can't make it stop. I can't see anything, help me please.

###

Police radio blaring.

"The manager called after somebody found her here. I hate these fucking ODs, disgusting."

"Howard, she had an ID in her little clutch, she had no keys and about twenty dollars – Debra Elyse Morgan, I'll do the next of kin notification in a couple of hours. Paramedics said that if the person that left her here had called for an ambulance they could have saved her with a Narcan shot – it looks like whoever she was with left her just laying there, and by the time help arrived she had been dead about a half hour. People going in and out of the bathroom thought she was just drunk and didn't bother to alert management that there was someone lying on the floor in a bathroom stall, what a lovely crowd. Manager doesn't recognize her and said the bartender didn't see who she was with, the place was packed tonight…on a Wednesday, go figure."

"What the fuck happened to her face?"

"She threw up, her face was in the vomit and the stomach acid burned her skin."

"Man that's nasty."

"I seriously hope this won't be an issue with finding out where she lives, this license expired two years ago…great. I fucking hate this part of the job."

Jaiden

Mommy didn't come home last night…again. I need to make my breakfast and make my lunch for school, just like I do every day. I hope she's back by the time I come home from school, I need her to sign the permission slip for me to go with my class to the zoo on Friday.

My homework was hard, I don't like math, but at least I finished it – I can ask Ms. Braxton to help me – she's a nice lady.

After I ate my cereal and packed my lunch I took a shower and got dressed for school. Usually Mommy is back by now but I'm not allowed to call her when she's out with her friends – she calls some of them my aunts and uncles, but I don't think they're really my family anyway. Mommy says it's just us two, we're the two musketeers.

She'll be here when I get home from school, today I get my progress report. I have to remember to wash my uniforms after school.

CPOV

"Hey baby, I missed you today." I say squeezing Ana tight.

"We need to talk about something important."

"You've got me worried Christian."

"I got a call from your dad today."

"So did I, he wants to meet next week for dinner or lunch."

"Well when he contacted me he indicated that he was severing business ties with Hyden Jackson and that he anticipated there would be fallout as a result, he was concerned about your safety, and yes he wants to have a meal with us. He asked me not to tell you and I told him that that was not an option, that I would never keep anything from you, ever."

"Christian I appreciate that, I was leery after his phone call, but I guess my mother telling him to make it right with me or never come home was all the motivation he needed, I'm still very hurt – I don't think we can ever be the same."

"I like your mother already Ana. Give it time Ana." This earns a giggle from her. God I love that sound.

"My brother wants us to get together for a double date this weekend." This earns a squeal.

"Yes! I'd love that – I miss Kate."

"I admit I miss Elliot too. How about the four of us make a day of it?"

"That sounds fantastic – I know we don't talk about their relationship much but I want you to know that I've never seen Kate happier and I know it's all about Elliot. She told me he's teaching her how to cook and they cook together almost every night. She's in love."

"I'm glad to hear it – my brother is a changed man and according to my mom he has never been happier, and I couldn't be happier for the both of them."

"Christian you seem distracted."

"I'm fine baby, this is just shaping up to be a very busy work week." I can't possibly tell her how concerned I am about the things her father said about Hyden Jackson today – words like dangerous and unhinged. I shared the basic information that I needed to with Ana without lying to her but she doesn't need those type of details to stress her out because it is my intention to make sure she is safe at all times.

"Why don't we drive in together the next two days…just as an added precaution."

"I don't have a problem with that. Try not to worry Christian – I have confidence in our security team. I really do and I will follow whatever instructions you want – I don't have any intentions of causing you or the team any problems or added stress."

"I know that baby, but thanks for saying that – I would just feel better if I can see you door to door for a bit until you dad gets to town and handles whatever business he has with that guy. I also feel a bit unnerved about the whole Elena thing – who knows where she is, and more importantly what she's planning."

"Why don't you grab a couple of glasses of wine while I run us a bath."

"Mmmmm – that sounds perfect baby."

We take a long bubble by candle light and music with a delicious Shiraz and turn in early, but we don't sleep for hours.